Jcpenney commercial joy comfort and peace

Everything I have eat in my daily life is not GERD-friendly. I have cut out almost everything and have been living off of applesauce and dry cheerios. My stomach has been growling for 2 days, how to I give my body enough nutrients?! My Dr appt isn't unto SEPTEMBER 😪 (going to call Monday to let them know what's going on an dif they could just give me a GI referral for the meantime) this is all new to me and I just want to cry. I ate gummy vitamins and they made my throat burn. I don't know what to do anymore but eat applesauce.
FYI-I slept with a bedwedge for the first time last night and has been the most helpful thing so far. I usually sleep with a very flat pillow so I was worried I wouldn't get comfortable but is actually was so nice and my fiance told me I have never looked so peaceful sleeping before! Lol

No this is not satire/and yes I am seeing a therapist.
I used to get bullied a lot in elementary and middle school. I didn't know how to socialize or make friends until I was in highschool and college, but even then I sucked at it because I had a lot of contempt for peoples hedonistic behaviors and how manipulative people were in college. I also lived on my own for a year, and realized it was a dog eat dog world. It caused my to spiral into insanity, but in that insanity, I learned about my darkness that I have repressed for so long.
When I was bullied in middle and highschool, my parents and teachers would never tell you to fight back, but instead get an authority figure to deal with the situation, but later on I learned this only encourages a state of learned helplessness where you can only get mommy or daddy to help solve your problems. That creates weakness in a child.
But when I was living on my own, I was all I got, it created strength and pride within my. Even though I was insecure at the time, I now see that I was more competent than I gave myself credit for. I had to endure a lot in poverty, I was strong, and persevered despite the circumstances. Most people my age would not be able to pick themsleves up by their feet like I did.
I also noticed that unlike in middle school, where I was scrawny and weak. I started to become more muscular and intimidating since I worked labor jobs. People showed respect, and didn't try to get in my way. But when I went back to college, there was this one time I was having a mental breakdown and people were laughing and mocking me from the other side of the room. I looked at them and threatened to beat their ass and leave them in a pool of blood if they kept laughing. They started whispering amongst themselves, but I could tell they were afraid. When I went back the next day, there was no "bullying problem" everyone who picked on me and thought I was an easy target because of my eccentricities quickly walked away whenever they saw me, and I felt joy. People went quiet, and looked away whenever I walked by, and I finally felt safe and comfortable. I felt like I could breathe for once in my life.
I now realize the only way to deal with assholes in life is to bully them back into submission until they cower in fear and respect you for your size and your ability to hurt them. I wish someone taught me this earlier in my life so I could avoid the hassle of embarrassment later on.

I was raised by a single parent so, luckily, just the one narcissist. Unfortunately, that is enough…
Anyways, I was realizing today after 2 years estranged and at 31yo there isn’t a single memory, of what was supposed to be one of my most meaningful relationships, that I go to for comfort. It is literally the opposite. I try to forget. At most the best memories I have of when I was a kid are me being left alone or her being as close to neutral as possible but no that never really happened.
I have half memories of positivity of when I tried to be a kid before she eventually broke me. But they all become overshadowed by her involvement and her theft and destruction of comfort and joy.
I am beginning to loathe the popularized, “don’t get stuck in your comfort zone!” What fucking comfort zone?! I’ve never been comfortable and actively have discomforting memories that can consume my brain even in a comfortable environment with comfortable people these memories can come back and take what little comfort I have from me.
Once I was old enough to work she went on disability and got into public housing and washed her hands of me and my brother… no more dependents, she’s the dependent now and in fact always was. she got to steal my entire childhood and most of my young adult life before I realized I’d lose everything if I didn’t cut her out like the cancer she is.
Now life has gotten much better over the last two years but wtf. I spent my childhood helping her, being her therapist, and surviving emotional incest. I have so many memories that haunt me. My mind is more user friendly than ever but I’m pissed anyone gets to have kids and treat them so badly… I hate when other people talk about their good parents and they get to be comfortable internally even when not externally. I’m so jealous. I want some comforting memories. Must be nice…

This subreddit has been an amazing resource for my solo trip prep over the last few months so now it's my turn to give back. I did not have a set budget in mind since I save diligently for my trips. I am fairly well-traveled, a late 30s, solo traveler. This was my first time in Japan and my goals were a mixture of eating, exploring history, enjoying some theme parks, and enjoying experiences that only Japan could offer.
Total USD Spend: 17 days (2 travel days) came out to about $4200 USD total: * Flight: $1050 * Accommodations: $1400 * Food and Snacks: $1000 * Transportation (IC card, buses, trains): $250 * Theme Park & Novelty Experiences: $400 * Misc (souvenirs, shopping): $200 I typically budget out about $5K USD for my trips and Japan was definitely on the higher side of the budget, but again, I splurged on some fantastic restaurants, premiere entry at Universal Studios Osaka, along with numerous day trips. As others have mentioned here, I also averaged between 25K-30K steps a day. I’m in decent shape but walking 10-15 miles everyday definitely took its toll and my body shut down for a day.
Day 0: Landed in Osaka in the late afternoon and ended up wandering Dotonbori for a few hours since my hotel was located a block away. Ended up eating some very mediocre ramen at a stand in Dotonbori which was pretty disappointing, but the carbs were enough to knock me out. Day 1: Woke up early to walk around Dontobori at 5am and then headed out to few unique temples, including Namba Yasaka Jinja. Hopped onto the subway to enter Ueno Sky Tower, and overall, it was meh, I didn’t stay long just taking a few pictures and walked around Ueno for a few hours before heading to the Pokemon Cafe in Shinsaibashi. As others have noted, the food was very mediocre, but it was a fun experience nonetheless. Spent the rest of the evening getting drinks in Dotonbori before calling it a night.
Day 2: A full day at Universal Studios Japan to experience Super Nintendo World. I splurged on the express passes that gave me full access to a bunch of rides. SNW is pretty fucking awesome and I had a blast riding the Yoshi and Mario Kart rides, all the while taking taking in the atmosphere. The premiere pass also gave me access to a few additional rides including Harry Potter, Doraemon VR, and Jurassic Park. Had a late dinner at Kyushu Ramen getting their famous chashu ramen and it did not disappoint.
Day 3: Spent most of the day exploring Kuromon Ichiba Market, the local malls, and Dotonbori trying some street food. Went back to my hotel room and just relaxed for the rest of the day since jet lag was still bothering me. Watched some sumo matches on random Japanese tv before calling it a night.
Day 4: Took a day trip to Himeji to see the Himeji Castle. What a fantastic piece of history! I spent hours just taking in the sites and the nearby garden also highly recommended. Afterward, I had my first taste of Kobe beef in the form of a beef bowl at Kushiyaki Kobe Beef. Fantastic little hole-in-the-wall place with some really nice people working the counter. Took the train from Himeji directly to Nara where I was planning to stay the night. Day 5: Spent the entire day playing with the thousands of deer and checking out some local temples, including Todai-ji. I didn't do anything in Nara that hadn't been mentioned enough times here, but as others have said, a day trip or one day is more than enough time in the area. Took a late train to Kyoto. Day 6: Woke up in the early morning to beat the crowds to enjoy Fushimi Inari. Hiked the entire loop (about 2-3 hours) with only a fraction of the crowds, enjoyed some macha soft serve at the peak of the hill, and took my time going back down right rwhen the army of tourists and tour groups arrived. Grabbed an overly expensive Kobe beef stick from one of the food stalls by the temple gates and then spent an hour at a cute coffee shop called Rickshaw Cafe just people watching before grabbing an early dinner at Ramen Sen-no-Kaze. The food was solid, but it took 90 minutes to get a table. Not worth it and in hindsight I would have left.
Day 7: Woke up early again to check out the highly overrated Arashimyama bamboo forest. It was pretty underwhelming, but I did get a few nice photos before the crowds arrived. Strolled through the park and really enjoyed walking along the Katsura River seeing the catfish waiting to be fed and seeing the fishing boats tied up. A very tranquil place. After the nice long stroll, I walked back-and-forth the Togetsukyo Bridge and Kimono Forest (meh). The highlight of the morning was really Tenryu-Ji and the amazing zen garden. After a few hours taking in the peacefulness and silence, took the city bus to Kinkaku-ji, and the crowds were in full swing. Still totally worth seeing in person although it didn’t last very long. Day 8: A full day experiencing the Philosopher’s Path on a gorgeous sunny day. Too sunny since I got some pretty bad sunburns! I visited too many amazing temples, including Kiyomizo-dera, along with old Gion, although I thought the area was bit overhyped. I preferred the smaller, more peaceful temples away from the mass of tourists. Some of my favorites during my day exploring old Kyoto included Eikan-do, a more secluded temple up in the hills, Nanzen-Ji, with its beautiful aqueduct, and just walking the streets aimlessly for a few hours. Went to Nishiki Market and ate some amazing oysters at Daiyasu. If you love oysters, this is the spot to try it! Spent too much money on oysters and decided to go cheap and ate at Kura Sushi. The food was mediocre by Japanese standards, but blows away the quality and cost of the Kura Sushi restaurants in my hometown of Los Angeles.
Day 9: Took an early morning train to Kanazawa. Enjoyed my first ekiben while taking in the sights from the comfort of the Thunderbird Limited Express. Spent the rest of the day visiting the 21st Century Museum of Contemporary Art (meh) and Kenrou-ken, probably the most beautiful garden in the Kanda province. Wrapped up the day by visiting the D.T Suzuki Museum and wow, the tranquil pool area was amazing. Do yourself a favor and stand on the corner and just stare at the water. You’ll feel like the entire world is moving along on a plane and you’re the one that is frozen in place. It was pretty trippy. Ate well at Mori More Sushi Omicho and stopped by the Pokemon Center to pick up the exclusive Pikachu Kimono figure only available in the Kanazawa store.
Day 10: Torrential rain the entire day but I powered throughit with my trusty umbrella. Enjoyed breakfast and snacks at the Omicho Market, enjoying a tuna-don at one of the stalls, fresh uni, and more oysters. Not cheap but fresh! Walked around the Higashi Chaya District, doing a bit of window shopping and ate some gold leaf macha soft serve at Kaikaro, spending more time people watching. Walked around the Kanazawa Castle Park in all its empty glory as well as the Oyama Shrine. The castle was pretty underwhelming esp. after seeing Himeji so I probably would have skipped it in hindsight. Wrapped up the day visiting the Naga-machi District, probably my favorite part of Kanazawa. Had more sushi at Sushi Rekireki Omicho, an enjoyable omakase.
Day 11: Took the Shinkansen to Tokyo eating the most expensive ekiban I could find, and spent the rest of the entire day in Asakusa in Tokyo. Walked around Senso-ji, had a few beers in Hoppy Street, and finally tried Ichiran. Called it an early day since I would be doing DisneySea in the early morning.
Day 12: Took the express bus from Tokyo Skytree to DisneySea. Thanks to the early forecast of rain, the park was barely 50% full? The longest wait for most rides was under 20 minutes so I was lucky enough to ride everything at least once. My meals consisted of a bunch of unique Dsney parki food: gyoza hot dogs, alien mochi, Mike watermelon bread, etc. Stayed until the fireworks and went straight back to the hotel and crashed. That was a 40K step day!
Day 13: Visited Akihabara, spending way too much money on crane games, browsing retro games, and looking at figures. Headed to Shibuya to eat breakfast for lunch at A Happy Pancake (meh). Went to the Nintendo Store in the PARCO mall, only to be disappointed to find out that all of the Nintendo World store t-shirts were sold out. Actually everything semi-interesting was sold out. Went up to Shibuya Sky to watch the sunset, spending a few hours just watching the day slowly turn into night. Did the Scramble a few times and then headed to Shinjuku where I’d be located for the last few days.
Day 14: Another torrential rainstorm sadly ruined my plans of visiting Shinjuku Gyoen, Meiji Jingo, and Harajuku. Maybe next time. I was hoping to buy Tokyo Giants tickets but they were all sold out so I ended up going to the Tokyo National Museum. I won’t lie, I was pretty bored, and in hindsight I wish I went to the neighboring National Museum of Nature and Science instead. After strolling Ueno Park in the rain, I was craving tonkatsu and googled Tonkatsu Yamabe. Good decision as it was the best tonkatsu I had in Tokyo. Went to a nearby Taito Game Station wasting more money on crane games before heading back to Shinjuku. The area is insane and in hindsight, I would probably pick somewhere like Shibuya or Ueno, somewhere slightly more chill. Day 15: One of my favorite days in Tokyo! Teamlabs Planets lives up to the hype but ONLY if you can get first admission at 9am. It was glorious to be among the first people in the exhibits as I could take in experience the way it was intended. There were only a few people in each room giving each space such a great, peaceful, and chill vibe. Headed to Ginza to the Michelin-rated Sushi Toyama, where I had a chance to finally experience bluefin toro (worth it!). Probably the most expensive lunch ever but it was quite the experience. A sunny and beautiful day, I bought a bunch of souvenirs and clothes (a 12-story Uniqlo with its own coffee shop, Muji Ginza, Ginza Six), checked out my favorite Toy Story in Japan, Hakuhinkan Toy Park, intricate stationary stores like Itoya, and went to a very popular Ginza Starbucks to people watch. Spent the evening in Shinjuku exploring Golden Gai getting swarmed by Nigerian dudes. Wanted to try a hole-in-wall ramen spot in the area but the line was stupid long so I ended up just going to Kyushu Ramen and was satisfied enough. A good day.
Day 16: With the break in clouds the day before, I decided to call an audible and set up a last minute day trip to Mount Fuji. Took an express bus from Shinjuku to Fushiyoshida and got dropped off in front of Chureito Pagoda. It was cloudy for most of the day, but for the last several hours I saw Mount Fuji in all its glory. It was a gray day but no complaints — it was nice to cross another bucket list item from the list.
Wow, this was much longer than I anticipated. Well if you got this far, feel free to ask any questions! In the meantime, I'll be planning my next trip to Japan soon!

We all know about Asriels name being serial murderer. As well, Asriel is the god of death. But I wanted to look at the whole family and see what else could be there and found some things that could make implications or additions to the story and see what y’all thought Asriel: I already put that above but I found something else. Asriels as Hebrew name means “god is my help” from psalms 121. From reading the verse the only implication I can make is the fact that Flowey looks to chara as a god as he speaks about them like Christian’s speak on Jesus ( not so much god from my experience they tend to speak on/to Jesus like a wise remorseful friend and god like a wise strict yet sympathetic father) and as the player we are god we “save” Asriel. Toriel: Now Toriels name is short for tutorial, which is funny because that’s tutorial murderer as she holds your hand through the whole thing and is the first boss. So if she kills she’s a tutorial murderer figuratively and literally. But as you can see the E is missing that’s because Toriel is anagram for loiter. So loiter murderer; what could that mean. I think it could looked at like bystander murderer. Loitering’s definition is to “stand or wait around idly or without apparent purpose.”. This could be an implication of how toriel rather than traveling with the kids through the underground she “loitered” in the ruins “without purpose”knowing they’d get “murdered” by Asgore. But also another anagram for dreemurr is to demurrer, which means an objection, a loitering objection to a murderer. Asgore: Immediately I found his name is an anagram for Aegros; A Latin name meaning patient. It’s cognates have some interesting comments aswell. Ancient Greek ἄγω ("to lead"), Old English acan (English ache). A pretty clear implication of how he waited for humans to fall, suffering from loss, anxious of his future, with only his responsibilities as king to keep him going So Asgore Dreemurr, Aegros murderer, patient murderer, Murderer trying to lead in ache. I found another possibility completely by accident just looking at the name. Asgore Dreemurr, A “sage or murderer”; I’ll be using this definition of sage “a mature or venerable person of sound judgment”. I liked this one as it pops the moral question on us. Asgore lost his children to humans, his wife left him during a time of crazy stress and grief; he has every right to desire revenge. Yet none of of those, based on the way it’s framed, are the reasons he killed those kids He did it to give his people hope, maybe there was a better decision, maybe his grief and anger influenced his actions, but he thought he needed to be strong and steadfast to lead monster kind to the surface. And ultimately, he was correct without his actions we wouldn’t have been able to break the barrier; but if he didn’t want to kill us he could have just asked us to break it, but in his mind war would be right around the corner so more power couldn’t hurt. So Asgore a “sage or murderer”? Chara: This one was the trickiest one and it makes sense. Chara was adopted and they were never referenced to have Dreemurr in their name. But I had some findings I’ll list all of them quickly then give thoughts.Chara Dreemur, character murderer, Anagram Achar = to think, To think murderer?, Chara name meaning (all languages and cognates) darling, beloved, dear, loved one joy, gladness, shine “Star”?, grace, glory. “Hope of humans and monsters”?! Lie, joke, chara chara = frivolous and talkative(personality?!). Valentine, expectation, love, yearning, desire, demand, option, longing, care, hungriness, bait, fodder(genocide?)Beautiful, pretty, or the lovely one(looks?!) ( all translations emphasize feminine connotations, usage, and meanings) Chara, RAHAC, Refugee and Humanitarian Arrival Clinic(possible orgin), Chara bible “Chara is used to describe ones who rejoice, who are glad, and who have received joy!”. “HP. ATK. DEF. GOLD. EXP. LV.” Hope, option?( fodder, demand, desire, yearning), care?(bait), glory?, experience, love. !? So the joy, happy ones translations and meanings are obviously meant to emphasize the hope and joy that chara brought them. But it could be a double meaning to it. Character Murder, Loved one murderer, character murderer, fodder murderer, beloved murderer, Love murder, joy murderer. All of these make sense for chara in many ways. But one doesn’t stick out more than the others; Charas plan killed the hope monsters had and costed the life of their brother. Nothing really sticks out for genocide. Other than Love, fodder, and character. As chara kills frisk, the person you play as, at the end. Or, character murderer could be in reference to their suicide. So there’s not many implications other than charas place in the story. To save words I’ll type of summary of thoughts that could be taken from the translations: Chara was happy to be with the dreemurrs. Chara was biologically female (so a non-binary female, or a feminine non-binary person whatever you’re comfortable with). They may possibly refugee. The monsters loved chara, personality for you writers: Chara was carefree, Lied a lot ( maybe about there past), was graceful, Told a lot of jokes, loving, social, caring,Maybe like a assertive mother type personality; Toriel but farless protective, the type that would let you stay out all day would have dinner done when you get home and when the big kids in the neighborhood beat you up while she’s patching your wounds would tell you to man up, don’t let them bully you “big kids don’t cry”. But that’s just from what I gathered from reading the descriptions on usage and connotations. I would say you could possibly use this to imply the narrator theory the ,personality lines up with this, as the narrator is caring and joking, they assist you in your journey and transfer Asgores memories of stay determined when dying; and much more they line up pretty well if you just imagine chara babysitting an ignorant kid going through the underground. Maybe just imagine a ENTJ 8 mother, I imagine the mother type vibe that comes from this is how they probably babied Asriel. Theirs actually a comic online called “Adventures with Narrator Chara” that follows Chara through the underground with a mute frisk I think could be a good look at that so I’ll leave it at that. So yeah nothing really concrete or compelling as usual with Chara but I’d love to see if y’all see something. I don’t know, the anagram for Chara, means “To Think” or “distance” I’m not sure what to make of that. Chara in Irish literally means “O friend”. Well I’ll get y’all’s thoughts on it good day

Salam brothers !
I wanted to talk about something that has been on my mind lately, and it revolves around Muslims who choose to migrate to the West in pursuit of career opportunities and a better life. Now, before we dive into this, let's establish one thing: as Muslims, we believe that living for Allah (SWT) means adhering to the rules, regulations, and the way of life practiced by our beloved Prophet Muhammad (pbuh).
It's important to remember that being a believer doesn't mean living a life of ease, comfort, or, even worse, luxury. Our faith calls us to constantly strive for self-improvement and to bring about positive change in the world. We are meant to plan and work towards making our society a better place, not just for ourselves but for everyone around us.
Now, let's address the topic of Muslims migrating to the West. If someone chooses to leave their home country because they believe they can grow more and overcome the hindrances they face in their own country, it's essential that they have a clear goal in mind. Migrating to a better country shouldn't be solely about personal growth and material success. It should be about using the opportunities presented to them to make a difference, to contribute positively to their new society, and to eradicate the obstacles they faced back home.
As believers, we should always be humble and mindful of our actions. We should strive to please Allah (SWT) in every moment, not just in prayer or during specific religious occasions. Our focus should not be on planning a life of luxury or indulging in worldly pleasures. Instead, we should constantly strive to utilize our time, resources, and skills to benefit others and uphold the values of Islam.
Living in the West can present unique challenges and temptations. It's easy to get caught up in the materialistic culture and lose sight of our true purpose. However, it is our responsibility as believers to remain steadfast, to hold onto every small good deed, and to avoid falling into wrongdoings. By keeping our faith high and our intentions pure, we can navigate this new environment while staying true to our beliefs.
So, to all my fellow Muslims who have migrated to the West or are considering it, let's remember our purpose. Let's strive to be the best versions of ourselves, not just for personal gain, but to uplift our communities and make a positive impact on society. Let's use the opportunities we have been given to promote justice, compassion, and understanding.
May Allah (SWT) guide us all on this journey and grant us success in both this life and the Hereafter.
Salam and peace to all!

I have 3 boys, all 2 years and 1 month old. My little boy Fig has been weak and getting weaker since monday. His vet appointment is tomorrow, but today he is unable to walk and seems unable to move on his left side. He's laying on his left side, using his right arm and leg to grip things near him. He won't eat and drinks very little from a saucer I got for him, but only when I place it near his mouth. I'm trying to comfort him the best that I can but I do not think he will make it.
What can I do to help him pass peacefully? I don't know if he should be in his cage with his brothers or if I should be cuddling him. Should I be there or does he want to be alone?
Afterward, I am worried about his brothers. Will Fig's two brothers be lonely without him? Should I try to get them a new friend? I'm worried about them getting depressed and stressed. Please help.

Day 3 Suprisingly most of the tributes awoke rather early as game maker laurier announcement sounded in seconds. He stated that a feast would be held at the cronocupia with a twist that mutts would be chasing them there. Clemot and Midge were near by the cornucopia they took the short walk toward the cornocpuia but as they then held there weapons waiting for the new weapons to arise a loud boom occured. Cllemot swore as he threw him self down as 2 cannons sounded. Midge quickly got up and thew a knife near by Clemot. As the tension in Goldtstein square grew to a quiet holt with people yelling for clemot to dodge. As he did just that Midge got his knife stuck on the cornocpuia wall. Clemot grinned then slit midge’s arm and achiles tendent. He then said in a rather menacing voice “Im very close to victory betrayal doesnt sound good now does it.” Midge sighed as he then lost consciousness his cannon sounded. Clemot then remained near by the cornocpuia watching the feast continue from morning to the afternoon. 3 more tributes had been slain by Coloumbia from 6. As the feast came to an end the cornocupia table slumped back down into the ground. The next 8 hours were rather uneventful besides the tribute count dwindling down to 4. But before Clemot had went to bed a sponsor gift was sent down Clemot then quickly opened it being in much joy seeing a battery explosive and a pocket knife scattered by small bits of food with a note saying. “My Job has been very kind to me latley remember what you came here for mr boom boom “ from L Clemot grinned thanking Linet and the capital as he then set up the near by explosive by a near by castle wall. Then drifting back to sleep as horn of plenty played featuring the fallen tributes. Both from 2 midge 4 both tributes from 7 and Marco from 14. Leaving the last 4 tributes Clemot from 5 Columbia from 6 Juliso from 9 and Olivia from 14. Day 4 Game maker Laurier announced to the tributes that 5 minutes or there trakers would denoate. Clemot was already at the cornocpuia so he had remained hidden. As many owls and eels chassed the tributes up only Olivia from 14 didnt make it back in time having the owls catch with her pecking her until her cannon then sounded. Once all 3 tributes were at the cornocupuia game maker Laurier then announed the wonder plan. He then added many historical mutts from many past games would be used as a temple escape in many later starting in this years games. After his announcement a plethora of animal and air mutts screamed in many tributes panicked. Juliso foot had been infected and mangaed to fell pray to Columbia as she then chased falling the into the first historical mutt the poisonous snakes from Lucy Grays ames victor of the 10 hunger games. But before Columbia could even act Clemot then quickly pressed the button sounding a ginormous boom to occur as Columbia was thrown back as the final cannon sounded. As much of the mutts retreated game maker Whimsiwick announced that Clemot Cornelious of district 5 was crowned the victor of the 104th hunger games. He then curtsed as the hovercraft brought him out of the arena back to the accommodation towers. Aftermath He then was given a heroes hug by his mentor Gravito and lInet even there stylist Ashely King. Ashley was over joyed knowing that her of being head stylist she was the stylist of a victor. After a brief health check by many of the doctors within Goldtein hosptial declared that Clemot was in great health as he then was preped for his victors interview. He then was adorned in a stylist suit with many geyser like patterns and holographic but not harmful bombs. Camelia was adorned in stylish Gray and white dress. After the usual victors questuions she then asked what he would to with his later life. Clemot replied with what ever really made him happy. Camelia smiled and nodded congratulating him again with his victory. Afterword he was dismissed from the stage as Head game makers Laurier and Whimswick were brought to the stage. As they were brought in Camelia imedtialy asked about the “Wonder plan.” Game maker Laurier imedtialy blushed telling her to wait for now. After a short awww from the citizens watching the interview Camelia shrugged then started pressing both boys about the next years games. As usual they had only gave a few hints but not many. At the end of the interview Camelia took both boys hands and bowed doing her usual outro. After clemots victory he returned home to district 5 finishing his studies. After a few years of hard work he graduated then after graduating he then moved to the captial permanently with his boyfriend and sister. He then later married his boyfriend 2 years after moving to the capital adopting two capital newborns naming them Areulio and Scarlet. It is also known that Clemot had studied to becoming a exlpsoive frosencic detective. Solving many murder cases with many famous and cheif peace keepers such as a few of his close captial friend cheif peace keepers Barronta and Balrona. Clemot was known to be a rather tough mentor but he had always hinted that if they lived through the games they would thank him. He mentored the district 5 tributes till he was replaced later within following years. Clemot died at the age of 78 due to a heart attack. Editors note I am very happy to state that this one of my finished tales. I hope you guys enjoyed it a few things i would to say before I go. I am going to rewrite file 103 and file 102 before i reach file 180. But before now I will say that more hunger games content are on there ways, Question of the day which tribute would you save from the hunger games for me it would be Junipero from the 85th games he deserved much better. And now I am on my way to prep for are first quinquenal quell so I will see you all in a few days to a week so I can get the creative juices flowing. Hope you all have a great day and as we always say Panem today Panem tomorrow Panem forever.

Captains! Update B11.7 will be released on the night of June 11th to 12th.
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Game Availability
We have made contact with new providers to increase the client's availability to all corners of the world. We hope that there will no longer be any "Update failed" errors. However, if you had errors updating - you again will have to download the archive with the new launcher.
Globalisation
Times displayed in the game, including attack windows for PBs, will be displayed either in the server's time zone or local time zone, depending on the choice located in the settings. We also expanded the choice of currencies for purchasing coins, and expanded the amount of countries for payment processing.
Bounty Board
We were greatly inspired by events organised by the community which revolved around hunting for rewards. And we have decided to add an experimental "Bounty board", which can be opened through the tavern.
The Bounty board is a place where you can place a bounty on a specific player, or on an entire guild. For now this is a test in which coins are the only currency: the client sets the price, and the bounty hunter receives coins minus the comission fee. Sinking allies will not be counted.
Other Changes

• Tenders are coming back to the game;
• Rewards will be increased for sinking players with black marks. We have also made changes to better protect the new players;
• Updated rewards in chests: duplicate ships will be able to be dropped if all are collected; random bow figureheads and designs will now be dropped, and not be predetermined; added random designs, ship paint schemes, sail cloths;
• updated existing item positions (for example, removed powder) and added new ones;
• Small changes and improvements to ship models and textures.

Fixes

• Fixed many minor bugs to make the gameplay process more comfortable, including: interface, localisation, graphical, upgrades, boarding and the gameplay process.
• Important fix: After (empire) port reset, protection would not apply and declared wars would not disappear;
• If you have two or more identical ships, they will have different auto-replenishment lists;
• The skill "Donor" would not work on players;
• Fixed PB statistics calculation errors and duplication in the list;
• Peace flags were not able to be picked even with the peace treaty, when there were active marks;
• The restriction on exiting ports near a lighthouse was active during the battle window at 24-hour ports;
• Bots would crash into towers;
• In all villages and settlements the goods on sale were identical;
• Ships passing behind with transparent sails made the ships in front invisible;
• Players in the blacklist will no longer be able to send friend requests.

6 months of the roadmap! Further plans At the beginning of the year 2022 we started working in accordance with the published roadmap: (pastebin link will be made soon) We are happy to announce that our work is going almost hand in hand with the announced plans and timeframes, and also, we added new developers to our team. In the near future we will release an updated roadmap to clarify the timeframes for adding new content and the project's development. Good luck at the sea and have a good time!

Meditation is one of, if not the most important tool in any spiritualist has at their disposal. Meditation is a great way to ground yourself, it's an amazing tool to relieve stress and anxiety but most importantly it connects us to the universe. Through meditation, or prayer as some people call it, we can learn to listen to the universe and hear what it's saying to us.
Actions based on love and universal direction never go wrong, so learning to meditate, is learning how to be at peace with yourself, your surroundings, and your personal universe.
In recent years there have been recent scientific studies on meditation and its effects On people. I encourage doubters to do their own research into it because what you find could change your perspective on meditation entirely.
I know a lot of you reading this are probably moaning and rolling your eyes at me just for the thoughts of meditation. And I can understand that, I used to do the same thing. Meditation can be difficult to begin but the outcome is worth the effort you put into it. I’ve heard all of the excuses, “I’m too busy”, “my brain’s too fast”, “I don’t have time”, “ My mind is too scary” blah blah blah. I used to say the same things and I used to believe the same way that I wasn’t able to meditate because my brain doesn’t stop and it doesn’t rest and it’s impossible for it to, but I’m here to say that it is possible and you can do it.
So let’s begin, to start there is no wrong way to meditate. You can sit on the floor, sit on a chair, lay in bed, you can keep your eyes open or close them, whatever makes you comfortable. Do you have a hard time sitting still? Then maybe it would be easier if you considered yoga or Tai chi, both of which have been compared to meditation in motion. So go find your little niche, get comfortable and most importantly believe that you can.
To beginners just starting out, I always give the same advice. If you follow my 7 simple steps for 30 days then you will be able to meditate and improve your life in small ways. If you continue meditating after the 30 days and continue trying to better yourself and grow, the limits of what meditation can do for you are endless.
Step 1: Buy a journal or notebook. Always be journaling, and dedicate one journal specifically to meditating. This way you always have a record to look back on to see how things have changed.
Step 2: your first journal entry. To start write about yourself, your goals, your likes, what you wish to improve about yourself and what your goals for meditation are, or what your expectations are. At the end of this I always recommend that you write a loving note to your future self.
Step 3: Time and location. Try to roughly choose the same time every day to meditate, this will train your brain into making it more of a habit and be easier to achieve your trance state. Also choose a location where you feel safe and comfortable, and also where you can be uninterrupted during the process.
Step 4: length of time. For the first few days set a timer for 10 minutes and try to last the full 10. If not that’s OK aim to do a minute longer than you did the day before. Once 10 minutes is easy try 15, then try 20, 30, and so forth until you no longer need a timer and you just meditate.
Step 5: get comfortable. Get into whatever position you feel is most comfortable try to make sure your spine is straight, or as straight as possible, and just relax. Allow that tension that’s in your body too drain into the floor. Feel the stress dissolve from your mind down your shoulders down through your spine, through your legs and out into the floor. Back into the earth.
Step 6: begin. Once you’re comfortable and decided on music or no music, silence any and all interruptions and get ready. Start by simply counting slowly backwards from 100. You will lose count and that is fine, either shift focus to your breathing or start over back at 100. Random thoughts will also appear, and this is also fine, it will happen. Don’t dwell on them, just release them and focus back on your counting or breathing. Over time you won’t need to count or focus on your breathing to stay empty minded or calm and when you achieve that, that is considered a trance state.
Step 7: journal. After your meditation write down any and all experiences you might have had during it, and what you think it could mean. Write down how long you meditated for write down if you feel happy or calm or whatever comes into your mind that you feel like you should write down after your meditation and write it down. I swear by journaling for every occasion so write, and keep on writing.
And then you just repeat the process every day and you keep going every day. But after hearing the seven steps I’m sure you’re wondering why is this so important, well I’m gonna tell you. Simply put meditation is sleeping for the brain. You see, when you go to sleep every night your brain doesn’t stop working. It still pumps your blood it still makes you breathe. It creates your dreams. It doesn’t stop working, so meditation gives the brain the much needed rest it needs. You see, the universe only speaks to you in the quiet and stillness within, so without meditation, without ever giving your brain a rest, and you'll never know what the universe truly wants with you.
On a side note: as with everything spiritual / holistic, if you don’t go into this with an open mind it won’t help you much. If you go into meditation thinking that it’s stupid or that it will never work, then stupid it will remain and work, it never will.
I strongly encourage anyone with further questions to reach out and ask or look it up yourself. I will also be going deeper into meditation and different techniques in the future. So until next time my friends,

 Live through Love Best wishes Floki 

Meditation is one of, if not the most important tool in any spiritualist has at their disposal. Meditation is a great way to ground yourself, it's an amazing tool to relieve stress and anxiety but most importantly it connects us to the universe. Through meditation, or prayer as some people call it, we can learn to listen to the universe and hear what it's saying to us.
Actions based on love and universal direction never go wrong, so learning to meditate, is learning how to be at peace with yourself, your surroundings, and your personal universe.
In recent years there have been recent scientific studies on meditation and its effects On people. I encourage doubters to do their own research into it because what you find could change your perspective on meditation entirely.
I know a lot of you reading this are probably moaning and rolling your eyes at me just for the thoughts of meditation. And I can understand that, I used to do the same thing. Meditation can be difficult to begin but the outcome is worth the effort you put into it. I’ve heard all of the excuses, “I’m too busy”, “my brain’s too fast”, “I don’t have time”, “ My mind is too scary” blah blah blah. I used to say the same things and I used to believe the same way that I wasn’t able to meditate because my brain doesn’t stop and it doesn’t rest and it’s impossible for it to, but I’m here to say that it is possible and you can do it.
So let’s begin, to start there is no wrong way to meditate. You can sit on the floor, sit on a chair, lay in bed, you can keep your eyes open or close them, whatever makes you comfortable. Do you have a hard time sitting still? Then maybe it would be easier if you considered yoga or Tai chi, both of which have been compared to meditation in motion. So go find your little niche, get comfortable and most importantly believe that you can.
To beginners just starting out, I always give the same advice. If you follow my 7 simple steps for 30 days then you will be able to meditate and improve your life in small ways. If you continue meditating after the 30 days and continue trying to better yourself and grow, the limits of what meditation can do for you are endless.
Step 1: Buy a journal or notebook. Always be journaling, and dedicate one journal specifically to meditating. This way you always have a record to look back on to see how things have changed.
Step 2: your first journal entry. To start write about yourself, your goals, your likes, what you wish to improve about yourself and what your goals for meditation are, or what your expectations are. At the end of this I always recommend that you write a loving note to your future self.
Step 3: Time and location. Try to roughly choose the same time every day to meditate, this will train your brain into making it more of a habit and be easier to achieve your trance state. Also choose a location where you feel safe and comfortable, and also where you can be uninterrupted during the process.
Step 4: length of time. For the first few days set a timer for 10 minutes and try to last the full 10. If not that’s OK aim to do a minute longer than you did the day before. Once 10 minutes is easy try 15, then try 20, 30, and so forth until you no longer need a timer and you just meditate.
Step 5: get comfortable. Get into whatever position you feel is most comfortable try to make sure your spine is straight, or as straight as possible, and just relax. Allow that tension that’s in your body too drain into the floor. Feel the stress dissolve from your mind down your shoulders down through your spine, through your legs and out into the floor. Back into the earth.
Step 6: begin. Once you’re comfortable and decided on music or no music, silence any and all interruptions and get ready. Start by simply counting slowly backwards from 100. You will lose count and that is fine, either shift focus to your breathing or start over back at 100. Random thoughts will also appear, and this is also fine, it will happen. Don’t dwell on them, just release them and focus back on your counting or breathing. Over time you won’t need to count or focus on your breathing to stay empty minded or calm and when you achieve that, that is considered a trance state.
Step 7: journal. After your meditation write down any and all experiences you might have had during it, and what you think it could mean. Write down how long you meditated for write down if you feel happy or calm or whatever comes into your mind that you feel like you should write down after your meditation and write it down. I swear by journaling for every occasion so write, and keep on writing.
And then you just repeat the process every day and you keep going every day. But after hearing the seven steps I’m sure you’re wondering why is this so important, well I’m gonna tell you. Simply put meditation is sleeping for the brain. You see, when you go to sleep every night your brain doesn’t stop working. It still pumps your blood it still makes you breathe. It creates your dreams. It doesn’t stop working, so meditation gives the brain the much needed rest it needs. You see, the universe only speaks to you in the quiet and stillness within, so without meditation, without ever giving your brain a rest, and you'll never know what the universe truly wants with you.
On a side note: as with everything spiritual / holistic, if you don’t go into this with an open mind it won’t help you much. If you go into meditation thinking that it’s stupid or that it will never work, then stupid it will remain and work, it never will.
I strongly encourage anyone with further questions to reach out and ask or look it up yourself. I will also be going deeper into meditation and different techniques in the future. So until next time my friends,

 Live through Love Best wishes Floki 

Meditation is one of, if not the most important tool in any spiritualist has at their disposal. Meditation is a great way to ground yourself, it's an amazing tool to relieve stress and anxiety but most importantly it connects us to the universe. Through meditation, or prayer as some people call it, we can learn to listen to the universe and hear what it's saying to us.
Actions based on love and universal direction never go wrong, so learning to meditate, is learning how to be at peace with yourself, your surroundings, and your personal universe.
In recent years there have been recent scientific studies on meditation and its effects On people. I encourage doubters to do their own research into it because what you find could change your perspective on meditation entirely.
I know a lot of you reading this are probably moaning and rolling your eyes at me just for the thoughts of meditation. And I can understand that, I used to do the same thing. Meditation can be difficult to begin but the outcome is worth the effort you put into it. I’ve heard all of the excuses, “I’m too busy”, “my brain’s too fast”, “I don’t have time”, “ My mind is too scary” blah blah blah. I used to say the same things and I used to believe the same way that I wasn’t able to meditate because my brain doesn’t stop and it doesn’t rest and it’s impossible for it to, but I’m here to say that it is possible and you can do it.
So let’s begin, to start there is no wrong way to meditate. You can sit on the floor, sit on a chair, lay in bed, you can keep your eyes open or close them, whatever makes you comfortable. Do you have a hard time sitting still? Then maybe it would be easier if you considered yoga or Tai chi, both of which have been compared to meditation in motion. So go find your little niche, get comfortable and most importantly believe that you can.
To beginners just starting out, I always give the same advice. If you follow my 7 simple steps for 30 days then you will be able to meditate and improve your life in small ways. If you continue meditating after the 30 days and continue trying to better yourself and grow, the limits of what meditation can do for you are endless.
Step 1: Buy a journal or notebook. Always be journaling, and dedicate one journal specifically to meditating. This way you always have a record to look back on to see how things have changed.
Step 2: your first journal entry. To start write about yourself, your goals, your likes, what you wish to improve about yourself and what your goals for meditation are, or what your expectations are. At the end of this I always recommend that you write a loving note to your future self.
Step 3: Time and location. Try to roughly choose the same time every day to meditate, this will train your brain into making it more of a habit and be easier to achieve your trance state. Also choose a location where you feel safe and comfortable, and also where you can be uninterrupted during the process.
Step 4: length of time. For the first few days set a timer for 10 minutes and try to last the full 10. If not that’s OK aim to do a minute longer than you did the day before. Once 10 minutes is easy try 15, then try 20, 30, and so forth until you no longer need a timer and you just meditate.
Step 5: get comfortable. Get into whatever position you feel is most comfortable try to make sure your spine is straight, or as straight as possible, and just relax. Allow that tension that’s in your body too drain into the floor. Feel the stress dissolve from your mind down your shoulders down through your spine, through your legs and out into the floor. Back into the earth.
Step 6: begin. Once you’re comfortable and decided on music or no music, silence any and all interruptions and get ready. Start by simply counting slowly backwards from 100. You will lose count and that is fine, either shift focus to your breathing or start over back at 100. Random thoughts will also appear, and this is also fine, it will happen. Don’t dwell on them, just release them and focus back on your counting or breathing. Over time you won’t need to count or focus on your breathing to stay empty minded or calm and when you achieve that, that is considered a trance state.
Step 7: journal. After your meditation write down any and all experiences you might have had during it, and what you think it could mean. Write down how long you meditated for write down if you feel happy or calm or whatever comes into your mind that you feel like you should write down after your meditation and write it down. I swear by journaling for every occasion so write, and keep on writing.
And then you just repeat the process every day and you keep going every day. But after hearing the seven steps I’m sure you’re wondering why is this so important, well I’m gonna tell you. Simply put meditation is sleeping for the brain. You see, when you go to sleep every night your brain doesn’t stop working. It still pumps your blood it still makes you breathe. It creates your dreams. It doesn’t stop working, so meditation gives the brain the much needed rest it needs. You see, the universe only speaks to you in the quiet and stillness within, so without meditation, without ever giving your brain a rest, and you'll never know what the universe truly wants with you.
On a side note: as with everything spiritual / holistic, if you don’t go into this with an open mind it won’t help you much. If you go into meditation thinking that it’s stupid or that it will never work, then stupid it will remain and work, it never will.
I strongly encourage anyone with further questions to reach out and ask or look it up yourself. I will also be going deeper into meditation and different techniques in the future. So until next time my friends,

 Live through Love Best wishes Floki 

I just got done with a year long relationship, it was my first, and I met him in college. I missed so many warning signs. He showed me so much love in the beginning and took it away so quick sometimes. It made me constantly wonder what I did wrong, what I wasn't doing to be better.
I would confess my traumas and struggles to him, and he would comfort me, but in only a few more days it would seem as if they forgot what I talked about to him.
I would ask to meet with him, and he would cancel so many times, I just thought that everyone has their own lives, but it always hurt. I tried to talk to him, but at any point where I may disagree with their opinion, they would withhold all signs of affection for the day.
We did so many things together, I introduced him to my hobbies, he introduced me to theirs, and now I struggle to find the same joy in what I used to do.
I tried to communicate with him, I tried to tell him how I felt. Kind of in the sense of what you learn in elementary school. I'd say, "Ex, when you did this, it really hurt my feelings," I wanted to make him know I didn't hate him, or that I didn't think lesser of him, but every time I tried to do that, he just told me he thought I hated him, or that I thought he was an idiot, or so on and so forth.
I supported him in wanting to transition female to male. I told him I would be there for him, but he constantly told me that I was lying. It was like nothing I could do or say could get to his heart.
I told him my greatest fear was being cheated on. We were talking about our fears. I wasn't constantly jealous, he told me he loved me, and I believed him, but I learned he cheated on me 3 times.
Then, after I had broken up with him, I stupidly met him again, and he told me he still loved me. I made a mistake and got back together with him. For a time, I was so happy, I forget that he cheated on me, and I just wanted to move on. Then, he stopped responding to my texts and calls, and didn't want to see me. I asked him about it, and it turns out that he had someone else he was attracted to. I broke up with him.
I won't try to say I was perfect either, this was my first relationship, I made mistakes, I took some things too far, but I always apologized and communicated. Not that terrible, toxic 'communication' where you hurt the other in a bid to make yourself feel better.
It just hurts, he cheated on me two weeks after my birthday, he went back home with me, and we went to a delayed birthday dinner with my family after he cheated on me. I learned that he cheated on me in the blanket I gave him. In fact, he cheated on me when he dressed like a girl, despite always telling me that he never believed it when I told him that I viewed him as a guy.
I don't have any desire to get with him again, since breaking up I've done a lot of research into toxic relationships, and I've realized that is what we had. At this point, I just want to forget him, but I keep making the mistake of texting him, and when I look at all the stuff, I wanted to do with him I get sad. Same with if I look at something online that I thought he'd enjoy. It's just disheartening.
Honestly, I just hope that this relationship won't influence how I view any in the future.
So, for the main point, how do I move past this. I want to so badly, but I just don't know what to do.

I recommend this book because it comes from the perspective of a Christian pastor, trying to reach out to Mormons. Anybody that is a post Mormon Christian is going to really enjoy it because it helps define the fundamental differences between Christianity and Mormonism
Anybody that’s completely postmormon atheist and either historically/intellectually inclined or curious is still going to find it interesting because quite often Mormons believe (often unconsciously) that they are not really “known” by the community at large. This book is fascinating, in pointing out the Christian awareness of Mormonism. It even talks about the victim complex and the efforts of Mormonism to look more Christian throughout the last few years.
Basically- This is an insight into how the Christian world sees Mormon doctrine and how much they really do know about it.
Some quotes:
“Since writing this book five years ago, some things have changed in Mormonism while others have stayed the same. The changes have been mostly cosmetic. The Mormon church is working on numerous fronts in an effort to be accepted as Christian. They have changed their logo to make Jesus Christ more prominent in their church name. They have started offering free Bibles rather than the Book of Mormon in some of their ads. President Gordon B. Hinckley has downplayed and has, at times, even appeared to deny classic Mormon teachings. Mormon authors, like Stephen E. Robinson, have written books that use Christian terminology and thus sound more Christian, but always with the disclaimer that they are not speaking for the church, but only for themselves.”
“Therefore I feel that it is becoming more and more important for the Christian witness to be familiar with LDS official resources. I still recommend obtaining their basic manual, Gospel Principles, even though, over the years, they have weakened many of its strongest statements.”
“I feel I need to sound a word of caution here. Since an increasing number of Mormons are citing some of the confusing and misleading statements made by some of their popular authors, it is easy to conclude that they themselves are being deliberately deceptive. At times, such a conclusion is warranted. But many times the Mormons themselves are in a state of confusion. They too are struggling to understand some of these words and concepts. But one thing always comes through loud and clear. All Mormons think they have to become perfect and work themselves back into Heavenly Father’s presence. Mormonism hasn’t given them the peace and joy of knowing Jesus was perfect for them. They still have to be told about the Savior who has done everything for them.”
“By concentrating on the gospel’s positive message, we hope also to convey the message that we are trying to help Mormons rather than attack them. I say “hope” because many Mormons feel persecuted even before we talk to them. Many will have difficulty believing that we are concerned about them.”
“Since Mormon doctrine changes, I have found it more effective to quote such sources than historical LDS writings, with which many Mormons are not familiar. Some readers might be surprised at the lack of quotations from the Book of Mormon, Doctrine and Covenants, and the Pearl of Great Price. Although Mormons regard these as scripture, many seldom read them. Most are more familiar with the various church manuals, their hymnbook, and the monthly Ensign magazine. Those are the sources that will help you identify with the average Mormon.”
“In reality, however, large numbers of Mormons are hurting: people who are victims; people who are not intentionally deceptive but sincerely deceived; who are not arrogantly self-righteous but incredibly unhappy; who need not only our compassion, but most importantly our Savior.”
“In spite of all such evidence, there appears to be a movement within Mormonism that downplays the attaining of godhood. Although all we can do is speculate about the reason for this, it appears they are doing it because this teaching reveals just how different Mormonism is from Christianity. That causes them problems because they consider themselves Christians and are aggressively contending that they are Christians.”
“Because of this emphasis on the family, Mormons can easily give the impression that family is more important than God. And for many Mormons, family has taken the place of God.”
Etc etc

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What is KonMari? KonMari is a method of decluttering and organizing created by Japanese organizing consultant Marie Kondo. The KonMari method involves going through all of your possessions and keeping only those that "spark joy." This means that you should only keep items that you truly love and that make you happy. The method also involves organizing your belongings by category, such as clothing, books, and sentimental items, rather than by room. By following the KonMari method, you can simplify your life, reduce clutter, and create a more organized and peaceful home. Learn more: https://honesthoneyreviews.blogspot.com/ 2023/05/the-art-of-decluttering-happy-home.html

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I left my parents' house at the age of 25 under the guise of getting a new job in a different state because it was a toxic and abusive environment. Before that, I was living with my family and unemployed for about 1.5 years due to bad luck and the pandemic. It caused a lot of fights as even when I tried getting part time jobs while looking for full-time work, my family said those type of gigs weren't "respectable enough" and made me quit them. I hadn't learned to stand up for myself up till that point and eventually, things came to a head and I realized I needed to leave or else I'd lose my mind. So when I finally got a job, I moved as far away as I could. Mind you, this was the first time I left my house and lived on my own. When my family found out the truth of why I left, there was a straight month of calls every day and constant arguments, gaslighting, emotional manipulation, etc. I stayed strong and in the meantime, I put myself through therapy because I wanted to break the cycle and take care of my mental health.
Living on my own was freeing in ways I couldn't possibly describe, and yet it didn't come without its struggles. For the first two years, every house I lived in was of poor quality and had horrible roommates. I'm talking about cockroaches, rats, alcoholics, drug addicts, slobs, etc. This was because I wasn't getting paid a lot and took whatever housing I could at that time. My family would've given me money if I had asked, but I didn't want any financial aid from them. I didn't want them to hold anything over me. While I finally got a promotion and was able to afford cleaner housing near the end, my last roommate / landlord was an alcoholic slob who'd stay up till 5 AM in the morning drinking and smoking.
I moved around five times before I finally moved back in with my family. The reason I did so was for multiple reasons:

1. After therapy, I learned that I needed to let all my anger and resentment go. I visited their house during the holidays a year back to confront them and saw how old and tired they looked after all the fighting. It made me realize that all this arguing was like twisting a knife in both of our guys, and since they didn't have the emotional maturity to apologize or even admit what they did wrong, I had to be the one to make peace with it myself and let go. I'm still working on this.
2. I hit a pothole two days before New Year 2023 and it cost me a few thousand dollars to repair my car. Since I had to max out my credit card to do so, I figured I could save up money living with my parents for a few months and then pay it all off. I'm planning on moving back out at the end of this year if not early next year.
3. The last house I lived in was the cleanest one and definitely a great place in that regards... but it was in a city where crime was on the rise and my landlord was.... a slob. I wanted out of that place. I figured I could recalibrate and figure out where I wanted to go while staying with my parents.

For the record, my parents have mellowed down now that I'm financially independent, have set strong boundaries, and am no longer afraid to defend myself. I don't plan on staying with them for any longer than I have to. I'll save up as much money as I can by the end of this year and one way or the other, I'm out.
Now as far as my life goals are concerned, I want to become a screenwriter and director. I love storytelling and it's what I've wanted to do since I was a little kid. But I've been too afraid to pursue or even admit it up until the last year because I never had supportive environment. My parents tried to push me into learning programming because they thought it was a safe career. I had to fight to change majors when I was in school, and even now despite the fact that I have a job, they still once-in-a-while send me job notices for IT gigs or government positions. I recently got a new job and was offered the highest salary I've ever had, and they told me even that wasn't enough and I should reconsider my field.
With this new job I have, I don't hate it but I don't love it. I definitely could work in this field for the rest of my life. I could climb the ladder, make really good money, and save up to buy a house, go on vacation every year, all of it. While apartment hopping and living with all those trash roommates in horrible houses, I wrote down a description of what I want my dream house to be as a way of looking forward to the future instead of being dismayed by the past. On top of that, the other thing I want in life is to be a better father and parent than mine were, and the best possible partner to my future girlfriend / wife (i.e., to be nothing like the family I had growing up). I could gain all of that if I stay on the safe path I'm on. I never want to put myself in a financially unstable position again. I want to save up so much money that if needed, I could live off that for a year if I'm forced to.
But on the other hand, I love storytelling. Stories helped me through so much of the crap I've been through and inspired me. I want to tell my own and move and inspire people as well. I found free resources through Reddit and I'm taking classes on screenwriting currently, and after that I'll be taking cinematography classes. But after everything I've been through, I'm scared of going off the beaten path. I've struggled so hard to gain some semblance of normalcy and to throw it all away for the hope of maybe succeeding in a field that's already oversaturated... I feel like I don't have the drive to take big swings like I used to when I was younger. It's not that I'm unaware it takes hard work, dedication, and luck to succeed, it's jus that... I feel scared of moving to California (where the cost of living is already crazy high and from what I've seen on the news, crime and homelessness is up) and risking the sure thing I have. And on top of all that, I also feel like a failure when it comes to where I'm at in life. I have no contacts in the industry and I'm just starting to learn the basics. Part of me feels like I'm too old and it's too late for me to take my shot in this field.
The reason I got a new job is because my old one got off-shored. All my friends know exactly what they want in their careers and are on their way to achieving it. Many of them are also in healthy long-term relationships, which is something I've never had. Sure, I got a new job and I plan on learning as much in it as I can so that even if I end up losing it, I'll be a sought after commodity in the job market due to my skills and experiences. But part of me is also tired of the regular 9 to 5 rat race. I'm tired of working my ass off for tomorrow and not being able to enjoy today.
So my question is this... should I give up on my goals as an aspiring filmmaker? Should I focus on saving up money and just pursue my day-job and a comfortable life?