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2015.02.23 20:01 boilmesomehotrum NCIS: Los Angeles

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2012.03.05 05:47 lilalevine NCIS: Los Angeles

NCIS Los Angeles is a crime drama airing on CBS from September 2009. It's about the high-stakes world division that is charged with apprehending dangerous and elusive criminals that pose a threat to the nation's security. It is currently on summer hiatus for 14th upcoming season.
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2011.06.15 06:03 vonpigtails Photography of Los Angeles

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2023.03.26 13:30 rrmdp 📢 Braintrust is hiring a Sr Experience/Product Designer (Los Angeles, CA) - Freelance [Hybrid]!

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2023.03.26 13:30 Fegelein_99 [Question] How do I level up my Tinker's Construct shuriken fast?

Hello all, thanks for taking your time to read this.
I recently decided to get going with a good weapon, and realized the best sword would probably be the Epeolatry. Wanting a ranged weapon, I went for a shuriken.
I found a very, very long comment from u/cronnuscraft. In it they detailed how to make probably one of the best shurikens possible. To do this however I had to re-add PlusTiC, since it was removed after the incident with the author.
With that out of the way, I am left wondering how I can level it any faster. I'm at the stage where I'm leveling to add more and more sharpness, but now I need 64000 XP to level up from Heroic.
So far, I've found out that iron golems give roughly 100xp per kill, whereas other mobs only give 20-40 XP. Withers won't take damage past half health (I have the enderium knife blade, this shouldn't be an issue, check the comment above for more information) and the Ender Dragon doesn't give any XP.
Am I stuck with killing another 640 iron golems to level up? and then another 1280?
Please help!
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2023.03.26 13:29 Weekly-Set-610 I can’t eat for some reason.

My situation is so specific I can’t give a huge amount of context, but I don’t know where else to turn than to the internet?
I have a huge issue with anxiety. To the point of panic attacks. Recently I have made a huge life change because I’ve been making awful, horrible, self destructive decisions.
Im very depressed and I know that but I have zero healthcare, and so therapy is not an option. Despite being below the poverty line and having a child (6) I do not get any benefits from work, the government, or any other place. I dont even quality for sliding scale programs but all I can say is I make less than $20 more than the limit for any assistance..
Now for the past 7 years my(f27) partner (m27) have really had a rift. He wanted a kid, I wanted to be child free. Despite protection AND the pill, I got pregnant. I freaked out because I would lose my job that I LOVED. It was the happiest time of my life. The guy I liked for so so so long (almost a year) and I had been together for 11 months. I knew it was a bad idea. My job was the one that made the majority of our finances and I didn’t want to be pregnant or have a child.
Well “love” (read: emotional manipulation) won and I kept the pregnancy. Yeah I’m stupid I know. Our relationship was actually good, we had fun together and the issues we ran into we worked together and fixed them or at least started the process because of my crippling anxiety and his inclination towards anger it was a process but we were a team.
That ended when he used the ultimatum to either keep him and the baby or my job (and life I mean I brought a human into a world like this and I’m doing everything I can to not feel guilt for knowing they will face hardships because my partner would leave me if I didn’t) it was entirely a stupid mistake. He is a good dad but a horrible provider. I’m now depressed and ofc hormones ppd, ppa, I developed diabetes and other chronic health conditions and became, well I wanted to get away from the world but I have a small human that needs me. Stopped wearing my seatbelt or looking before crossing the street.
Partner turned to drugs and we split. He gets clean, we work through it. My health (mental and physical) stresses him out and then he eventually relapses. Couldn’t hold a job, so I worked 2 jobs 4 weeks after having a child. This may give away something personal but after I gave birth, he disappeared after holding our child for nearly 4 hours. Then comes into the room, has not spoken to me at all looks down at arc child, and says, “are you sure the child is mine? “. I should’ve left. But my health and financial situation made it hard. I would end up having to go back because I can’t raise a child and work two jobs. I had one friend and my mom who also has health issues that would watch my little one but has nerve issues. My dad was too far to help. Childcare is expensive Well now the past few months since the last relapse and I live with my mom and we are “trying” but he’s cost me over $5000 and he works but he’s making so little and having to pay for legal costs for possession and a few other things and might go to prison for a few months/years because he enjoys his job despite the pay.
This will be odd but he wanted to apologize and celebrate my birthday. I figured it couldn’t hurt. He couldn’t pay for any of the gifts or food. There’s another $200 but he ordered me two gifts that were collectively $70-90 with shipping maybe..
Since then I can’t eat or sleep unless I’m drunk or take way. More than the recommended dose of sleeping medication. I haven’t cried a lot but today my aunt passed away and I went from crying for hours to deciding I want to leave him and move and get my old job back. I got so happy I danced around work listening to music and finally talking to my friends again.
Idk why I got so excited but I did. Unfortunately something held me up tonight so I went to get food and gas because even though I can’t eat, I keep making meals or buying food and I just stare at it until I just give up trying to eat. While I was there, I met someone here I am just getting out of a horrible relationship. But I allowed him to get my number. Technically, my partner and I are separated but today I did decide to leave them. I just haven’t been able to tell them we haven’t lived together in months. And this other guy and I start texting turns out we have a lot in common. I don’t want another relationship but I’m also moving in a few months. The advice I need to ask about is do I wait and not tell that I am leaving my partner, which would make it easier on me and probably safer or do I end it and maybe pursue seven things like a friendship with flirtation with someone that actually seems to care about the things that I like because he likes them too.? I don’t think it’ll be a forever we’re gonna get married thing just I want to be happy. I wanna have fun and not want to stop existing. I want to get excited when my phone rings instead of dreading what has happened now. I know pretending is wrong, but it would make it easier on my mental health even though I would feel like I’m cheating even though I don’t plan on doing anything like that, just casual flirtation, and possibly being like Internet friends or we don’t see each other, but we talk and play games and watch videos, but virtually using voice chat. I was also able to eat, but only a small amount of fries. I think this decision to leave is a good one. It’s the right one, but do I leave secretly it’s not like I’m gonna hide from him. It’s just that someone else is also on a similar situation. We don’t know each other very well but I know she needs to get out to her more than me, if I go and get everything ready and then come back and get her and our kids we could have a very happy life. I am almost 100% certain that this is the right choice. I just don’t know whether I should be open to my partner or ex partner or if I should tell him and risk it, possibly getting out because my child’s father is very close friends with her partner. I started trying to reach out more with her because I found out how dangerous her situation is. It is benefiting me may be more I don’t know I’m not sure what to do. Tell or wait ?
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2023.03.26 13:29 HollyFreakingJ Dealing with heart break as a hsp

I’m a 21F HSP and I’ve been single for 2 years, after being broken up with after a long term relationship and being in a bad place for a while I dated a bit and there were 4 guys in those 2 years I really liked and even started to fall in love with. All of them ended things with me, I got ghosted and rejected and it really crushed me, I notice I take very long to get over ppl and I have a hard time dealing with the emotions bc they are so strong and overwhelming and it affects my mental health and personal life. I don’t know how to cope or deal with these emotions, any advice?
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2023.03.26 13:29 albi_cz Juki DDL 8700/8000A?

Hi all, After the longest research i was almost decided to buy myself a Juki DDL 8700 (standard version) for sewing general apparel, mainly denim. But then i discovered the DDL 8000A (A-SMS in my case) whis looks super modern and promises to be the best thing ever. It is almost twice as expensive, which is kind of a lot, but not too much. I will happily get it, as long as it makes a reasonable difference to my sewing speed and quality. Will it? Thread trimming and auto tacking is nice, but hardly a necessity for me. Signaling the end of bottom thread is cool. But id like to know if the machine will make nicer seams than the 8700 too? Also I wasnt able to find much info on it, but one website claims is also has a "bartacking" function. Is it something I could use for attaching belt loops and such? Also is a computerised machine at a bigger risk of a defect if the digital part gets broken? Thanks for any advice
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2023.03.26 13:29 ThirdOfTheStorms84 Do you actively collect different versions of the same record?

Just wondering if people on here actively collect different versions of the same record? Be it different colours of the same pressing or one of each different pressing.
I personally tend to be a ‘whatever edition I can get hold of’ type collector as long as I like the record. But if a record came out with bonus tracks etc… and I owned the first press I imagine I would keep both (my collection is about 50, I have a while before that’s an issue!)
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2023.03.26 13:29 Bluescape05 (GM4A) Gotta Catch Em’ All!!

Imagine this; far beyond the comfort of your warm, cozy home, awaits a massive world just waiting to be explored. Lively little towns packed with all kinds of different people, vast seas that stretch on for miles and miles, ancient caves filled with the stories and secrets of the past—this world really is massive! The best part? There’s a place for just about everyone here, no matter how daring or odd. All you have to do is look.
While you travel across the land, searching far and wide, you’re sure to find a place that resonates with you. From the beautiful tropical islands of the Alolaregion, to the massive bustling cities of Unova, or even Orre’s vast, barren deserts teeming with crime and chaos—there truly is a place for all different walks of life in this strange world. Not only that, but you’ll be sure to find plenty of people like you along the way. Tenacious trainers battling their way to the top to make a name for themselves, starry-eyed explorers hungry for a thrilling adventure, and of course, the most important thing: a plethora of rare and extraordinary creatures found all throughout the regions just waiting to be discovered. Seeing all of these new creatures, big and small, is only one tiny part of your mission though. Catching them will be your real test, and to train them will be your cause. But of course, like any other adventure, your journey won’t come without its fair share of hardships. What’s an adventure without a few bumps in the road after all? Whether it’s skilled trainers and gym leaders rivaling you, fierce evil teams running amok, or even these powerful creatures you wish to catch, your opponents will come in all different shapes and sizes. But it’s up to you to teach your new friends the power that’s inside them if you want to succeed. Being able to move forward no matter what obstacle life throws at you, that’s what it’s all about! So, in a world you must defend, will you be the one who gives up in the face of danger, or will you rise up and be the very best, like no one ever was? If you think you’re really up for this challenge, then I choose you!
Hello there everyone! I hope you all are having a good day or night, wherever you are in the world. You can call me Blue. If you could guess by that little snippet up there and all those awful little jokes, I’m looking for someone to play out a long-term adventure story with. Not just any story though—one for a very particular fandom. A certain monster-catching series, if you catch my drift.
As I’m playing the role of a Game Master, I’ve created a bunch of scenarios and characters for you to interact with along the course of the story, ranging from friends and rivals to villains and even love-interests if that’s something you’re interested in. But don’t think that just because there’s a whole new cast of colorful characters to meet that you won’t bump into your favorites along the way! The brilliant Professor Oak? Of course! The renowned Sinnoh Champion Cynthia? You bet! The fierce and fiery Gym-Leader Flannery? Definitely! I’m sure some of your favorites will make a cameo somewhere in the story.
Though, if you have any ideas of your own you’d like to share or add to the story, I’d love to hear them out! I have a few ideas of my own to share, but I’d rather do that in private. I’m a big fan of OOC chat, so please don’t be shy. Even outside of RP, I’d love to get the chance to chat with you casually. About the story, the characters, even just normal conversations. I’m all ears!
If you’re interested, please don’t be shy and send me a chat. Feel free to tell me what caught your eye and if you have any ideas too. I’m looking forward to hearing from you. Take care! <3
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2023.03.26 13:29 AbhiFT [REQUEST][STEAM] Gift card of $36 or £29.90 for MS Flight Simulator 2020 [FOURTH ATTEMPT]

This is my fourth try still asking for a GiftCard amounting to the same sale price of the game. I know copy paste is not appreciated here for re-attempts, but last time I really worked hard on the poem for three days (I Know the poem sucks) and people seemed displeased with it. Further I really don't have anymore to say. I have seen some old posts where this game was asked by people but was never gifted once, but some other games here are gifted again and again. I really don't know why this game doesn't get any love, but I would really appreciate you for gifting this to me. And I will one day pay you in some way or another.
What is MS Flight Simulator 2020 about?
Game (40th AE is the base game): MS Flight Simulator 40th Base Edition
Microsoft has a long history with Flight Simulators. Their first Flight simulator was released in 1982. While the previous games were fun, the new MS Flight Simulator does something incredible which no other game has ever done: It simulates the topography of the entire Earth as accurate as possible to real world through satellite data of Bing/Google maps along with Cloud Computing to generate better visuals and real data for air traffic and weather. Moreover, it also takes real wind and real-world time into consideration.
The game also has an active community-driven add-ons that only makes the game even more realistic and grander. If any game has the biggest world map of all, this is it. This game has the world map almost as big as the Earth itself. You can visit many of the world-famous attractions like Eiffel Tower, The Taj Mahal and even football stadiums! But you can also explore some famous landscapes as well, and if you fly low enough, you can experience some wildlife too. The game features Geese, Seagulls, Grizzly Bears, Black Bears, Elephants, Giraffes, Flamingos. You can experience the beautiful endless sea, but make sure you have enough fuel; You surely don't want to end up like Chuck Noland, and to make matters worse, you won't have your trustee, Wilson!
Microsoft Flight Simulator features 25 handcrafted airports, 4 classic commercial airports, 14 heliports and 15 glider airports. There are over 37,000 total airports in the game along with 37 airplanes, gliders, and helicopters with unique flight models, the likes of A320 Neo, Boeing 747, Cessna, DA62, and the cutest CTLS and A5, with detailed interiors of the cockpit. Isn't that the ultimate definition of simulation?
Why I want it:
I love exploring the world, something I am not financially able to do in real world. Every Time I watch something on TV, it's 90% of the time travel channels. The first time I tried Flight Simulator on my friend's PC, I fell in love with it. What I love about MSFS is the grand scale of the game. While in games like ETS 2 even a 4,000 KM journey can be completed in 3-4 hours, with MSFS, it would take real world time. For example, it takes ~1h 15m non-stop flight from Paris to London (Average), so it would also take almost the same amount of time in the game too (that is real world 1h 15m). Even staying in the cloudy sky is so much fun with sunlight shining, thunder and rain. I love playing simulation, tycoon games as they are the pinnacle of freedom in gaming world with no bounds. I remember when I played Flight simulator 2000 back in 2003 and wondered, what a shitty game. Seriously, at that time I thought who would play this game with 65% of the screen occupied by the cockpit? And here I am today.
What I love about the FS 2020 game:
  1. There is nothing unlocked in the world. I don't have to pay extra or do specific tasks to unlock some part of the world. I can visit any place any time!
  2. The scale is grand. This has the biggest map of any game.
  3. So many different airplanes to choose from and they all act and feel different.
  4. This game is very relaxing. I can just unwind and soak the beauty of the world from the comfort of my chair.
  5. I love this game cause it takes up whopping over 150GB of Disk space.
  6. I love pushing and flicking buttons. Especially the flick switches. They are so yumm to touch. And the clicky sound it makes is better than any orgasm. Basically, I am flicking and pushing buttons while flying around in a tube.
  7. I can crash the plane without having to worry about anything.
  8. Landing! Landing in this game is like going to final exam without studying anything. If you nail it, that feeling is amazing!
  9. I can fly along with the birds!
  10. I can land the plane anywhere I want. Even in a grassfields or your ex's backyard.
  11. I am tired of playing the repeat levels of Fall Guys.
  12. The full detailed cockpit is amazing!
  13. Realistic ATC commands with interactions. If I am angry, I can choose to ignore the ATC.
  14. I need to find more things I like after playing the game.
I am in touch with the MSFS community on Discord and YouTube videos, with always waiting for max737Ifly video to show up as his videos are so good and realistic (even my mom loves watching it). I just cannot get enough from this game.
I can play this game even when I am listening to Podcasts and it makes such an immersive experience. The tiny details the game provides, like waiting instructions from ATC before you move a muscle, dialing the knobs, flipping tiny switches in the cockpit only adds to the experience which I enjoy a lot. This game is enjoyed by both, casual gamers and professional pilots as well. The game sends me to another world and is like a therapy for me. And playing MS Flight Simulator makes me feel like a bird. The game brings me a joy I cannot express through words.
Here are some content from the game:
  1. Some beautiful scenes (this is just a trailer)
  2. Beautiful clouds
  3. FS vs Real life
  4. Montage
  5. Hudson River
Here is me playing FS on my friend's PC:
  1. Potash Ponds
  2. Simpson Desert
  3. The deep hole near Antarctica
why I can't get it:
I cannot afford it to be honest. I have taken some surveys to earn a bit here and there to collect for the game but it's such a long process and the reward is generally not worth it. My bad luck is that due to a technical mistake, the game was selling with 80% discount but due to time zone difference, I couldn't grab on the once in a lifetime opportunity. I also tried other giveaways for steam gift cards, but I never win them, and they are so rare to come by. I am really struggling with money and hence I am here.
Because I cannot afford the game, I tried to look into alternatives:
  1. Xplanes really is the only contender, but it lacks the real-time aspect of weather, wind, terrain MS Flight Simulator provides. Moreover, it's more about planes and their simulation than exploration.
  2. DCS World, which is a full-on military combat simulation game. Even though that game is extremely hard to play with a keyboard, I still managed to play some couple of hours in it. However, it's really not something I am interested in as It's not a game where you can explore the world and the Jet planes are very speedy and hard to control. Compared to that, Flight Simulator is more of an arcade style game and controlling it is fun and easy even with keyboard and mouse.
An explanation of why GamePass and MS Rewards ain't the way:
MS Rewards: In India, we can only get an Amazon gift voucher for Rs. 250 for 4,000 points. So only 162 points are allotted per day to farm. Given that, I get mere Rs. 250 in 25 days. So a total of something around 64,000 points required for a total of Rs 4000. This is what the game costs now post sale. So it would take me around more than a year to accumulate so many points. By then I might just lose interest in the game.
Game Pass: I don't have a card that can work with game pass. And in the long run it will cost me far more than what the game would have cost me. I also won 2 month free game pass key on reddit which I wasn't able to redeem due to card issue. It's a game that I plan to play for a really long time.
Also, I am saving to get a 500GB SSD just for this game along with some add-ons. I won't be asking here if I could have afforded all of these. I cannot get both of them. And SSD costs more than the game.
why you should gift it to me:
I will be playing this game everyday and you won't feel your money is wasted. This gift will bring such a big smile to my face that even Joker would feel ashamed. I know many people hoard games and don't play them, or they play for a few times and stop. I can guarantee you that once I get this game, I will be playing it every single day! This game is the reason I am for the first time requesting for a game here. And I promise I will do justice to the game and gifter. I am not requesting for any deluxe version or anything, just the base game will suffice for me. I can say it from my heart that the day I get this game, will be the day I will be flying in the air of joy! As this community works on the principle of making others happy with no selflessness! But I can never be happy unless I own this game. This game is the only game missing from my library of happiness.
If that's not enough, let me tell you something: you will feel on top of the world if you gift this game to me, even more than me. Don't ask me how. Be the first person to gift someone MS Flight Simulator on this sub and feel proud. If you don't feel on top the world, I will make sure to pick you up free of cost from your home in one of your choice of plane and will personally drop you on the top of Mt. Everest. I will also let you touch some buttons in the cockpit or let you control the yoke. But only you have to figure out how to get down from the Mt., as I will be flying all that time exploring the world. But if you don't like cold places, I can show you a secret place (This Secret place is a part of a DLC and there is a way to unlock this place)!
To anyone who gifts this game to me, I will forever remember you and engrave your name on my grave thanking you that I died in peace. And when I meet God, I will personally tell him that if it weren't for you, I would have gone to hell.
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Price of base 40th Anniversary edition in India: Rs. 3,999. However, I will still ask for the discounted price of 2,999 which is $35. The rest I will try to manage from somewhere or use the MS Reward for 4 months.
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2023.03.26 13:29 FoxMoldr Can you give me some ideas for a second play through?

I beat the game with an STR build - Rusty Anchor into Great Stars. Jump attacking and staggering my way through. It was fun. And I intentionally left a lot of side content unexplored the a second playthrough. I didn't do Volcano Manor, the Depths, Haligtree, the belphries. Consecrated Snowfield, underground Leyndell etc. I killed a ton of dungeon bosses but hardly any field bosses. I wanted to save all of that for a second time so I had new and fresh things to discover.
Problem is I just can't get excited about a build. But maybe I'm not looking deep enough. I tried an INT sorcery build and a pure FTH build but magic is honestly not for me.
One thing I'd really like is to play with a setup that doesn't rely on jump attacks and staggering bosses over and over. I've thought about Reduvia with a shield but that seems like it would be more frustrating than fun. Ideally I'd like to run a build that allows me to fight bosses and really learn their movesets and conquer them rather than looking for openings to stop them from attacking. Love the Great Stars run I did but there were quite a few bosses I just pounded into the dirt on my first try and it felt kind of unsatisfying because I didn't really learn how to fight them first.
I looked up builds on fextralife but so much of that stuff feels clinical to read. So I'm hoping that some of you guys might be able to lend me some inspiration. Sorry for the long post.
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2023.03.26 13:29 ronpa_adict First time foster help!

So recently I became a Foster parent to an adult cat, He's very skittish And shy i've had him for about a month now, He's better as he doesn't hiss as often and is o k with being touched as long as he doesn't feel cornered. He's not a very aggressive cat super timid. He may hiss if he feels cornered but he has never attacked or tried to attack anyone
the problem :
So usually he would spend all his days under my bed and only come out past 9 PM once the sun had long gone down, he would roam around, meow and what not which was fine although I thought it was dangerous as, my bed is a A little shaky and not super sturdy and every time I lay in bed they go to sleep. I know he'll be under there by morning, so i'm always so worried about anything collapsing or hurting him. So yesterday I bought under bed blockers and blocked off the other side of my bed, Thus today he had spent the entirety of the day hiding in the living room Behind the couch or on the window sill. And won't really come out and because he hasn't come out. He hasn't eaten all day or has gone to the restroom at all. And i'm a little worried about him Even though it's only been a day.
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2023.03.26 13:28 emotional_orange1 24 [M] india, going through a rough phase, need some good friendships [friendship]

Well life's been at a tough phase and low point because of the recent breakup i went through. Mental health isn't really that good, and pretty much i don't have too many friends IRL to talk to, so looking forward to find few friendships with whom i could talk whenever i feel too lonely( i would prefer a long term friendship). So my hobbies are exercising, reading, travelling now and then, i binge watch series ( most of them would be thriller,sitcoms) and i love watching documentaries in free time. It doesn't matter if interests arent same but pretty much i need some good friends, so if anyone's interested feel free to reach out. And maybe a short intro about yourself as a first message would be good.Would love to meet fellow indian friends
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2023.03.26 13:28 N25Shinkei [English>Japanese]

I want to cry, but no one will wipe away the tears. You don't exist for others. As if in a blooming field among flowers Worth only one, withered
The wind will blow, knock you off your feet Will you rise with broken legs? Or will you fall on your knees, discarding hope, Helplessly writhing in pain?
Your voice is gone, not heard at all, And all around you hear strangers. They nail you in a little box Squeezing the lungs so that you can not breathe.
In quiet resignation, cornered You want to leave to rest. The hand is trembling in turmoil, But the desire is so great
A sea of ​​tears and only seagulls. The sky is getting uglier and angrier. There are cold crystals in your eyes. In the hands of emptiness and a fallen cake.
The day is pink and you are blue. The clock is ticking at a furious pace (tick-tock). Today, yesterday, 10 years ago. Everything turned into a fun carousel.
Useless loads, efforts. The bridge was broken a long time ago. Lonely tree cut down with an ax, All the flowers fell off him.
Your hand reaches for the stars. They all fade away, haunted by her. But I want to see you with a smile on your face. I can help you find your voice.
Let's just find it together. Let me lift you up Feel a ray of warmth on your cheek without tears. Feel happiness, drown out the noise around
The sea of ​​tears is gone and we are with you. The sky was never evil again. In your eyes my face and shine, I hold your hand tightly.
The day is good, and we are together. Time flies calmly and measuredly Today, tomorrow, forever with you. You don't want it to end anymore.
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2023.03.26 13:28 lolpolice88 Moe mai ra e te Toa. Kane Te Tai honourably fought to defend Ukraine from the fascist, Neo-Conservative Christian Putinist regime & the cynical manipulations of debt-finance driven USA. These murderous ideologies must be overthrown and cooperation & tech made to heal & bring peace. Donate to No Duff

Donate to his veterans support charity No Duff if you can, it will go to his daughtewhanau, to return his body and continue his enduring kaupapa, which will help other whanau in this conflict and others.

No Duff Charitable Trust Givealittle page:

https://givealittle.co.nz/org/noduff


Kane Te Tai remembered as man of honour committed to aiding Ukraine

https://www.rnz.co.nz/news/national/486507/kane-te-tai-remembered-as-man-of-honour-committed-to-aiding-ukraine
Whānau and friends of slain soldier Kane Te Tai say he will return home as a warrior in life and death, and be remembered as a man who always fought for what was right.
RNZ understands the body of the slain New Zealand soldier has officially been identified as Te Tai and is now being transferred to Kyiv.
He is understood to have been killed while clearing a trench in the Vulhedar area of Ukraine.
Sources have told RNZ he had moved deeper into the trench, away from his team, when he was killed by Russian soldiers.
His team were forced to leave his body there, before Ukrainian marines went in and recovered him overnight.
Veteran support and advocacy group No Duff is now working to ensure a New Zealander can be available to escort his body through the country to the Polish border, before travelling with him for his final journey home.
Comrades and friends have said they believed it was important a Kiwi was always with him, but the process would not be simple.
Te Tai co-founded No Duff with Aaron Wood, who told Midday Report his mother had asked them to manage the journey home.
"We're pulling all the pieces together. A number of volunteers and interested people from New Zealand, all the way through to Ukraine and in between, are coming together to make this happen."
It was highly likely they would be able to bring him home, Wood said, but there were numerous jurisdiction challenges ahead.
Deeply respected during time in Ukraine
Te Tai joined the Defence Force after leaving high school and went on multiple deployments while serving in the 2/1 Royal Battalion.
He left the Army in 2010 and travelled to Ukraine in April last year, operating under the call sign 'Turtle'.
Te Tai was a prominent character in the warzone and was widely followed on social media.
His colleagues described him as well-known and deeply respected for his professionalism, skill, leadership and relentless sense of humour.
They said he never underestimated the importance of his job, or the lives he held in his hands.
His death marks the third New Zealander to be killed in the combat - after the deaths of his best friend Dominic Abelen and humanitarian Andrew Bagshaw.
Te Tai had become the unofficial expert for New Zealanders in Ukraine, often acting as the point of contact for Kiwis wanting to travel to the warzone. He would ensure people knew what they were signing up for, a way to get into the country and a unit to go to.
He admitted in an interview with RNZ his initial motivations for going there were selfish, but that changed quickly on arrival.
The soldier became an infamous figure in the war, often featuring on Russian propaganda sites - seen by RNZ - particularly the Wagner group, who put a NZ$11 million price tag on his head.
In a conversation with friends he joked about ratting himself out for the money, illustrating his sense of humour.
Te Tai always said to his friends he was not afraid to die, but he also was not afraid to live.
During nearly a full year in Ukraine, he garnered respect from people in all walks of life. He volunteered with Ukrainian families, taught civilians how to fight and eventually found a spot at the frontline as one of the team's leaders.
Te Tai said he was fiercely protective of his team and did anything to make sure they were safe.
During one mission in August 2022, his best friend, Abelen, was killed in trench warfare. In an interview after the mission, Te Tai said the team were unable to get his body back and it ended up in Russian hands, but that did not stop him from trying.
He told RNZ they only stopped because Abelen would not have wanted them killed in the process.
Just last week Te Tai posted on social media, revealing that while clearing a Russian position he had found a "long lost friend" who had wanted to visit New Zealand.
Te Tai had thought his friend was dead and was amazed to find him alive, describing it as a "Hollywood moment".
He said at first he did not recognise the man, who had been shot four times and was skinny.
"He'd been starved by Russians for two months and drinking anti-freeze because the Russians wanted a laugh."
The man did not want to be left with the Ukrainians, but Te Tai had to keep fighting. He promised he would return and walk him personally to hospital.
That was exactly what he did, he said.
'The people grow on you'
In that August interview with RNZ, Te Tai said he had fallen in love with the country and its people, and was deeply respectful of their resolve.
"I was sort of getting a bit bored of being at home... and coming into this conflict was just one of those things that selfishly I thought I could be close to the war without getting too entangled.
"But then that sort of changes... I've met so many people, I've been everywhere in this country and the place grows on you, the people grow on you, and their strength, and that's why I'm still here."
Te Tai said he was prepared to leave everything in Ukraine, but in the weeks before his death he had made moves to return home.
His mother said he always kept her up to date, ending the calls with "I love you Mum", but more recently it was like "I'll see you soon".
In a Facebook message to another friend he said he loved Ukraine, but it was time to start living a real life - "gotta put the toys away and start to build while I can", he said.
"That's enough war for me, I love this place, it's like a playground where I can do anything I want.
"But that's the problem isn't it? So before the game gets me or before I decide that life here is too easy, maybe it's time to start living my real life.
"This place is pure escapism, we are all trying to run from something, mine is from having a real life, but the time is near."
Passionate about the cause
Te Tai is being remembered by his friends and comrades as a man of honour who was passionate about his cause, always doing everything he could to protect people.
Longtime friend Aaron Wood described Te Tai as a beautiful man, who he loved to bits.
"He just wanted people to live their best lives and he wanted to help as many people as he could.
"That sounds like a cliché, but with him it's a truism. That's his whole life... Just serving people, that's what he did, that's what his message was."
That was what he died doing, Wood said.
His mum, Ngaire Te Tai, said there was never any talking him out of it.
"He never did anything by halves, my son. We tried to stop him, but he had his mind made up, that's just Kane.
"When you were around him, you just felt safe."
A gift she said she knew he spread much further than just Ukraine.
Ngaire Te Tai's final comment about her eldest boy was: "Don't let my son's death be in vain."
He leaves behind a 12-year-old daughter.
“Don’t get me wrong, I don’t find anything glorious about killing young mobilised Russian boys who are crying in their trenches”
https://www.stuff.co.nz/world/europe/300777917/the-shelling-is-so-close-it-makes-you-puke-says-kiwi-fighting-in-ukraine

The shelling is so close it makes you puke, says Kiwi fighting in Ukraine

A Kiwi soldier fighting under Ukraine’s military intelligence says he’s prepared to die.
Kane Te Tai, code name Turtle, is fighting in a secretive reconnaissance unit on Ukraine’s front line in the eastern Donetsk region.
After deaths, injuries and resignations, Te Tai now leads the Foreign Reconnaissance Team after only joining in July.
A December article in The New Yorker magazine revealed the existence of the unit and featured Turtle.
It’s the same unit that 28-year-old Kiwi Dominic Abelen was fighting in when he was killed in August, and the two were like brothers.
Te Tai’s unit has set up a PayPal to fundraise for vehicles it needs to move around its area of operation, near the town of Pavlivka.
As Te Tai was interviewed, he had to be careful his phone wasn’t too bright, so as to not give his unit away to any Russian drones flying overhead.
“We live on the line, we just occupy whatever place we can find at the time. If it gets too hot we just find somewhere else,” he told Stuff.
His unit’s job is primarily reconnaissance, a small mobile force that could reach into Russian land or no-man’s land between the trenches, and destroy a tank or hold a position, before the Ukrainian army moved in.
“Find it, locate it, observe it, report it, attack it.”
Good 4x4 vehicles are a necessity.
Donetsk is known for farming and coal production, and Te Tai described the land as similar to the Canterbury plains.
Soldiers try and use the tree lines separating the fields for cover, and trench systems are built through them.
During the winter, the roads and fields are muddy, pocked by craters from Russian artillery barrages.
The Foreign Reconnaissance Team can get the necessities of war – food, bombs, clothing, bullets - just fine.
Reliable working vehicles and parts, and enough for an emergency stockpile, are harder to come by.
The Foreign Reconnaissance Team is reliant on vehicles driven into Ukraine from throughout Europe by volunteers and paying for them with donated money.
“You can use that vehicle until it is blown up or you crash it, unfortunately both those things happen all the time,” Te Tai said.
“The last three vehicles we’ve had, in the last month, they’ve been hit with artillery. Holes in the front, s... just smashed through.”
Unlike the famous International Legion Battalion, which tens of thousands of foreigners have joined since the start of the war, the Foreign Reconnaissance Team is for some of the highly-trained foreign few.
Te Tai served a tour in Afghanistan for the New Zealand Defence Force and thinks of himself as having spent his whole life training to fight.
His team is given autonomy, building trust with local Ukrainian commanders to find out what they want and then formulating missions.
Te Tai was able to talk about one operation the Foreign Reconnaissance Team conducted during a December battle in Pavlivka, first described in the New Yorker article.
Te Tai and a small team of a half-dozen were set to cross a bridge at night and enter a tree line which ran into the centre of the town.
The mission was to see how close they could get to the Russian positions before they were fired on.
“The moment that we got onto the bridge, everything just opened up, rockets, missiles everything. We ran across this bridge and were just trying to scramble to the safest nearest spot.”
Te Tai’s team managed to get into the tree line and into a trench – all in the dark – but the Russians began to shell progressively towards them down the tree line.
“I remember just looking at everyone in the pit and we all had this look on our faces like, ‘well, the party had to end some time’. We had this feeling of acceptance.”
But, just as the next shell was set to kill the team, it flew off somewhere else and the Russians then began to bomb regressively back along the tree line.
“By divine intervention we missed getting smashed... We all knew we were supposed to die that night.”
Before joining Foreign Reconnaissance, Te Tai was working for a church training Ukrainians in basic military skills.
He was open with people back in New Zealand about what he was experiencing, including old army colleagues.
Te Tai described an environment where Kiwis in Ukraine often stayed in touch and worked together, including Dominic Abelen who contacted Te Tai before making the trip.
When Abelen said that he was set to join the International Legion Battalion, Te Tai told Abelen he was hearing bad stories.
“You go there as a foreigner, you get given a weapon, some ammunition, and sit inside a trench and you fight or die, that’s how it’s portrayed.
“People would tell us: 'Thank you for training my son, he didn’t make it back, but I felt he was better off than he was before’,” he said.
Abelen, now with the nickname Tolkien, made his way into the Ukrainian army, but managed to get taken into Ukrainian military intelligence.
Talking to Abelen about what he was doing, Te Tai had had enough of training soldiers and the 37-year-old felt like he was running out of time to fight.
“I told him [Abelen], ‘I’ll jump in with you too’.
“And he [Abelen] was like ‘thank God, cool man’,” said Te Tai.
He ended the volunteer work and a recruiter told Te Tai to get to Lviv where he entered a secretive military intelligence training camp.
Recruits weren’t allowed to use their phones and were closely evaluated for a two-week period.
“Pretty much from the second they take you into the camp, they don’t tell you what’s going on.
“They operate it like a psychological test, to see if you can be just told what to do and not know any other parameters,” he said.
Access to weapons was heavily restricted and there was heavy scrutiny as Ukrainian officials went through candidates’ records and social media, trying to weed out spies and the weak.
“When you talk to someone, it’s always a cover story, you’re never talking to who you think you’re talking to,” Te Tai said.
Then, one morning in July, officials gave Te Tai a contract and drove him to the Foreign Reconnaissance Team in Donetsk.
“As soon as we pulled up... Dom had no shirt on... he said, ‘let’s do some work’.”
“I was like ‘my man!’.”
Abelen had put in a good word for him with Ukrainian intelligence, Te Tai said.
He gave Te Tai the code name of Turtle, after he had originally named himself Talon. Talon was too cool, Abelen said.
Te Tai described new troops arriving for the unit as a big event, a celebration of strengthening the group after the fighting took its toll.
“There’s a high attrition rate either by death, injury, or guys wanting to leave.”
The Foreign Reconnaissance Team currently operates out of a house, planning their missions on a whiteboard.
“We’re normally strapped for time. If we’re not out working we are resting, or we are giving instructions.”
Te Tai said there aren’t ranks in the unit, so while he is the team’s leader, he sits on the same step as the other foreigners in the unit.
He eats Ukrainian food: soups like borscht, and two-minute noodles and toast.
At night Te Tai watches Netflix and YouTube fail compilations to decompress. Sometimes, he hears the Russians shelling, keeping him awake.
When you’re fired on by artillery, you can hear the lifespan of the shell, he said.
He described how shells left the Russian gun with a distant duh-boom, screeching through the air, before exploding somewhere on the Ukrainian side of the line.
Some shells landed far away, but some hit so close to soldiers that the concussion made them puke and made them feel sick for the next day, he said.
“That shit happens like every week.”
About six weeks after Te Tai joined the unit, Abelen was killed during a mission.
“It pissed me off more than anything, it just consolidated for me that I’m not leaving any time soon.”
Te Tai said Abelen didn’t have a death wish, but he was a soldier and fighting was what he had trained for his whole life.
“I could have told him, ‘you are going to die today’ and he would have been like ‘it’s a good day to die’, that’s just who he was.”
Killing didn’t weigh on Te Tai’s mind, he said. He described it as part of the job, and said his views hadn’t changed since Abelen’s death.
“Don’t get me wrong, I don’t find anything glorious about killing young mobilised Russian boys who are crying in their trenches,” he said.
“I’m willing to die, for sure, but I don’t want to die.”
Te Tai has no plans to leave and wants to attend a victory day parade in Kyiv.
“I know we’re going to win, I know that for sure,” he said.
“I’m staying here until I can’t take it any more, or I am dead.”
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2023.03.26 13:27 emotional_orange1 24 [M] india, going through a rough phase, need some good friendships

Well life's been at a tough phase and low point because of the recent breakup i went through. Mental health isn't really that good, and pretty much i don't have too many friends IRL to talk to, so looking forward to find few friendships with whom i could talk whenever i feel too lonely( i would prefer a long term friendship). So my hobbies are exercising, reading, travelling now and then, i binge watch series ( most of them would be thriller,sitcoms) and i love watching documentaries in free time. It doesn't matter if interests arent same but pretty much i need some good friends, so if anyone's interested feel free to reach out. And maybe a short intro about yourself as a first message would be good.
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2023.03.26 13:27 acciowaves Drumming fever dreams

Hi all,
Quick story time. I (34M) just entered music school to fulfill a lifelong dream of mine. This means that I’ve been for the past 6 months or so playing drums about 5 to 6 hours a day.
Any ways I’ve always had a very light sleep, and my dreams are always very easily influenced by my daily activities. So since I just play drums most of the day I’ve been having this crazy sort of fever dreams (I don’t actually have a fever, I’m using the term for a lack of better words, to describe crazy, repetitive, rapidly changing, vague and not productive dreams) about drumming at night, which are messing up with my sleep.
Whatever songs, exercises or drills I’ve been practicing are, well, drilled into my head and I keep repeating them over and over again, counting jazz forms in my head, improvising solos, practicing rudiments, trying to make sense of polyrhythms, etc.
Firstly, it makes it really difficult to fall asleep initially, but then also all of that stays in my head during the whole night, like sleeping with a banging hammer, half asleep, half awake, my brain constantly working. It sometimes wakes me up completely, or sometimes it just feels like I had a really long night and that I didn’t get any rest at all.
All in all it’s becoming rather problematic. Has anyone else had this same experience? Will it go away eventually? Am I just too big of a wimp? Lol.
Let me know what you think and if you’ve had similar experiences. Cheers!
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2023.03.26 13:26 Alpileanice ACTIFLOW Prostate Parasite Found In 83% Of Men.

ACTIFLOW Prostate Parasite Found In 83% Of Men.
Are you dealing with weak urine flow, discomfort while urinating or the frequent urge to urinate?
If you answered yes to any of those things then you may be the victim of a newly discovered “prostate parasite” that scientists at Harvard University now agree is the proven real root cause of an enlarged prostate, low testosterone levels, and tanking libido in men over 40.
A parasite that is rapidly multiplying and causing major damage to your reproductive organs.
“Once this parasite enters the bloodstream, it causes your prostate to swell up immediately and we couldn’t find a single medication or herbal supplement to counteract the effects. Most men have it and don’t even realize it”, explained the research team.
Scientists and doctors from all over the world have been working tirelessly trying to figure out a way to flush out this parasite but with little success.
Until now…
World-renowned top urologist Dr. David Hoffman, an expert in men’s health, has discovered an easy and all-natural method to flush out this prostate parasite completely.
“I urge any man dealing with prostate issues and low testosterone levels to start doing this 5-second “switch” every night before bed.” Dr. Hoffman explained.
He even put together a short tutorial video showing you his exact step-by-step process of this bedtime switch and how you can start doing it tonight in your own bedroom.
I don't know how long he’ll be able to keep this video up so please, if you’re a man over the age of 40 I highly recommend you to watch this short video and learn how to protect yourself.
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2023.03.26 13:26 ThrowRA_sunkship12 My (22M) GF (23F) is very unappreciative and it’s killing my self esteem.

I have been “dating” this girl for almost four years. The relationship transitioned into long-distance after 2 years due to work reasons.
From the get go I knew she was the one for me personality wise, we had very similar personalities and really bonded over small things. This was the kind of girl that I would stay up till 3am doing homework, so I could have my weekends free for her. We went on quite a few dates and really had a good time, I would bring her coffee, dinner, flowers, etc and tried to make her feel appreciated. The first signs of negativity were when she told me to ease up on this as it was making her sister who she lived with jealous, because she had never experienced a boyfriend like this. So I eased up.
We were in college at the time, so money wasn’t the easiest to come by. She started liking going out less and less due to studies, so we transitioned into me making her dinner and watching movies. She got really upset about this, because I was only cooking dinner for her and not her brother and sister as well. I started cooking for them as well. Every time I asked her to go on dates on the weekend, whether putt putt or whatever, she would get upset that I didn’t want to include her family or that I was pulling her away from school. This went on for the remainder of the time we spent together, where I planned dates, brought her coffee, made her fun baskets for halloween and easter, and regardless of all of this she would still find ways to be upset at me. If I went golfing alone and didn’t invite her brother she would be mad. If I brought her coffee or dinner and not everyone else she would be mad. This is my first relationship and I didn’t know what to expect.
Long distance was rough.
She called me twice a day when she was going to work and leaving work. She wasn’t the best at responding to texts and often would get back to me within a few hours at a time. If I called her late at night to chat about my day or say goodnight oftentimes she was on the couch watching a show with her mom, so she would make it a 1 minute conversation and hang up.
When she visited me I wanted her to feel like her time was valued, so I really made an effort. I took her to all of my favorite restaurants, let her pick restaurants, took her to NFL, MLB, MLS sporting events. Took her to the zoo, our local amusement park 2 times, kayaking, fireworks shows, shopping at the malls, to our world famous grocery store whenever she wanted. I basically wanted to make sure that if she was visiting she was getting her moneys worth. I was very much a “yes man”, where if she wanted breakfast, coffee, to go to the grocery, etc I would do it. If she needed something from the store, I would go get it, if she wanted to do something we did it. However, this was pretty much expected from me I guess, the only thing I wanted was once to hear wow I had a great day thank you so much. Instead usually it was pointing out some mistake I made earlier in the day that I forgot about or something I did that upset her, that I didn’t intend to do. There was always something for me to improve on in her eyes.
When I would visit her and her family, I didn’t really expect a lot. I used about 10 days of PTO visiting a year and the majority of the time we spent with her family. If I brought up that I’d really like to go on a date with her, she would make me feel bad and ask why I didn’t just spend time with her family. I eased up on this as well and just decided it was better to let it be. Oftentimes visiting consisted of household chores followed by relaxing inside then going to dinner. I helped them with landscaping for hours in the Texas heat, moving furniture, putting together furniture, getting groceries, etc. They would all go golf, but my girlfriend liked to ride with the girls in a 3 person group while the boys went in another 3 person group.
During this time when we spent it with her family I felt like things always went alright, I wouldn’t say they went the best as I have trouble with my social battery, but let me tell you my girlfriend didn’t let it go unnoticed. I would always be made to feel like crap for any mistake I made around her family or if I just wanted to take a minute alone to recharge and didn’t want to be surrounded by her family constantly. It was ironic I guess though because her brother would take a break in the day or when she would visit she would take naps or time away, and I didn’t criticize her. To get to the point of all of this, I feel like no matter what I do I am always wrong and have never felt more unappreciated and unloved by someone. It’s taken me four years to realize this, but I don’t care about the lack of effort on her end as I’m not here to change her I just want her to appreciate the things I do. She always claims how much she loves me and says I don’t do enough to make her feel loved via words, but I think I’m in such an emotional whirlwind constantly or not knowing what’s right and wrong that I feel emotionally closed off.
How do I discuss this without losing the relationship?
TLDR: During 4 years of dating I take my girlfriend on countless dates and introduce her to numerous experiences, but she always finds a way to find a flaw in me or one of my actions. It’s become a vicious cycle where I’ve became more and more emotionally distant. I just wanted her to appreciate me more. How do I bring this up without losing the relationship?
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2023.03.26 13:26 emotional_orange1 24 [M] india, going through a rough phase, need some good friendships

Well life's been at a tough phase and low point because of the recent breakup i went through. Mental health isn't really that good, and pretty much i don't have too many friends IRL to talk to, so looking forward to find few friendships with whom i could talk whenever i feel too lonely( i would prefer a long term friendship). So my hobbies are exercising, reading, travelling now and then, i binge watch series ( most of them would be thriller,sitcoms) and i love watching documentaries in free time. It doesn't matter if interests arent same but pretty much i need some good friends, so if anyone's interested feel free to reach out. And maybe a short intro about yourself as a first message would be good.
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2023.03.26 13:26 whytf_ What's a business/store most people don't know about here?

I've lived in Rochester a long time, but there's always new businesses popping up. What's a favorite of yours or one that opened recently that we should check out? Here's mine: if you're a fan of boba but don't like to go downtown, Tea Time just opened a new store on North Broadway. Much more convenient parking and same great product. Cute decor there too.
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2023.03.26 13:26 liammiller13 Is Diablo 3 good?

Just been playing the 4 open beta and wow I’m obsessed, it’s so addictive and I can’t stop playing it. Love these style of games since I’ve been younger but when I got number 2 I couldn’t get into it all! So just a question to say is 3 worth getting? As 3 months is a long time to wait 😅
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2023.03.26 13:26 Own_Singer_5201 How to find a profile you super liked

I thought I'd share since they make it such a pain to find them again. I didn't realise how stupid of a feature the super like was before I used it, I didn't send a message with it and the profile was gone forever. So I did to following to find the person again to send a message.
I had to make a separate profile with some junk in the area where they are. I used a picture of the rock, maybe he'll get some likes 🤣 I then used ping me to get past the SMS verification. Finally I reduced my preferences to match the person to get them to appear. Then in desktop if you like them they will appear in your liked section, you can click on them to get their actual profile URL.
Once you have the URL log back into your normal account and hit the URL. You can then send a message or whatever.
I hope this helps some people find their long lost super like.
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2023.03.26 13:26 chickenlover118 Bitchy coworkers— I feel so awful and I don’t know what to do

Sorry guys, this is really long.
I’ve been feeling really happy lately because I feel like I’ve finally found some friends and I seem to be getting on well with everyone from work. About a month ago a coworker invited a few of us round and we had a really good time. There was some bitching going on but I didn’t really get too involved.
Unbeknownst to me, one of my coworkers (who I get on well with, let’s call her D) fell out with a few of the people that were at the gathering a month ago. I like D. She’s very upfront and can be quite loud, and apparently she was overheard talking about how some of the coworkers at the get-together were constantly bitching about people at work, and went into detail about what they were shan’t ( I’m guessing she felt they were being unfair.)
They told me about this yesterday during a night out with 5 of us from work for my coworker’s birthday. This was the second time I’d been out with everyone, including that night when all of us were together. I had no idea there was a falling out and apparently they don’t like D!!!!! At first I was upset with D because it felt like she was stirring things and being twofaced. They said she was not to be trusted.
However, as the night went on, I realised D was right. The bitching did not stop. Some of it was warranted, some of it was just so petty and it felt like they were taking people’s actions in bad faith. A lot of the people they were bitching about are people I like and I don’t think they deserve to be spoken about in that way. They said not to trust certain people at work, including someone I’m quite good friends with at work, and said that this friend and D and another coworker were cliquey and not to be trusted. But I get on really well with them and I don’t really see why they would say that?
At one point, they were bitching about another coworker who has gone through a lot and said something really mean about them while laughing . I said ‘oh but (coworker) is a sweet heart and quietly said ‘that’s mean’ but I hate hate hate that I didn’t stand up for her and the others more. They also said this co worker was bad at her job, and I didn’t really say anything, but I should have.
Another time they were saying another coworker’s home was a mess and there was cat poo all over the floor. Sounds to me like they were depressed and it’s not nice that they were spreading that info around. They also bitched about a coworker who reached out to talk about her miscarriage (the person bitching said she knew she’d asked her because she’d also had a miscarriage, and she felt like she was being used only speaking to her when she needed to trauma dump.)
It was all just so mean-spirited and nasty. And I just feel awful because, although I didn’t really say anything specific or substantive about anyone, i was just laughing along and nodding and saying ‘oh no way!’ Or ‘omg that’s bad’ and kind of reaffirming what they were saying without really saying much. Because I hate confrontation and am a people pleaser to a fault. When they spoke bad about the coworker who went through a lot I didn’t join in, same as when they were speaking about my good friends being cliquey. But the rest of the time, I was a coward and just went along with it . I was getting progressively more drunk as the night went along and I’m worried I said something mean about something and forgot about i? I seem to remember most of the night so I hope I’d remember if I did.
I also chose to go out with two of the bitchier people for more drinks. I should have gone home and this isn’t an excuse but sometimes when I’m drinking I just can’t stop. I’m also bad at saying no to people. And I don’t get out much so I just wanted to keep going? I was hoping we could just talk about something else and dance a bit
Idk I feel awful about it now. I should have gone home. I don’t know what to do now. I kinda wanna speak to my close work friends about it but D can be very loud and I don’t want to start office drama and get a reputation as a stirrer? But at the same time, I don’t want it to come out that I was participating and didn’t mention anything to them? One of the close work friends, who was also invited, didn’t come because she was Ill. She asked how it went and I said ‘it was ok but would have been better if you were there.’ I was tempted to say there was too much gossiping but idk if it would get back to the other coworkers and then there’d be a load of drama in the office.
They want me to come out with them again but I think should just find an excuse not to go because I realise now they are just mean about people and I don’t want to be involved in that. It’s not a nice way to be. I also think they probably have a reputation for being mean (esp as they kept saying not to trust people) so I don’t want to be associated with them. But like, if I distance myself from them I feel like they’re going to start bitching about me too? And I confided some stuff to them (because I’m stupid) and I’m worried they will use this against me. And also they will likely say I’m two faced because I took part in the gossip. I’m not sure what to do and I feel early fad
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