One percenters motorcycle club

I have previously written two posts about gay (sex)adventures in Tokyo about 6 months ago, they are HERE and HERE. I just made another trip last week, this time more focused on general tourist activities, including a side trip to hike near Mount Fuji. But nothing would stop me from exploring the night and sex life of the city. Hope you'd find the additional information useful:
About bars - as a mature Asian muscle bear myself I again ended up going to first to Tokyo Eagle, then off to Eagle Blue to see a gogo dance performance by a group called Bear Train. Both places are in the middle of Shinjuku's gay district Ni-chome. Eagle Blue is more of a basement club than bar, and it was packed full of people that night. It'a a cover charge of ¥1,500, but you get one big drink up to the same price. They do serve drinks in big plastic cups. The atmosphere was great, so if you happen to be in Tokyo during the weekend go check out their Twitter to see if they have any performance.
As it was still early I decided to also go check out Dragon Men, which has a more professional troupe of muscle gogo dancers. This is a legit club and I read the weekend before the US singer Lil Nas X was there having fun after a promotional tour in Japan. I gotta say the performance there was way better than Bear Train's. So unless you, like me, have a thing for bears, Dragon Men is probably more entertaining.
A few people have asked me about "masseurs" and "escorts" in Tokyo. This is not something I usually go for but since Yen is now really cheap against USD, one can get a full service massage for only between ¥15,000 (around USD110) to ¥20,000. I was traveling with 2 other buddies this round and one of them knows more about the scene than me - here is what he did. There is actually a website that lists all the independent "masseurs" through out Japan. You can see their basic information and there are links to their Twitter accounts and websites to find out more. The main website is in Japanese and English, and you can set your browser to auto-translate from Japanese to English when viewing their own webpages.
Most masseurs prefer you contact them by emails first. You can use English and from what my friend has shown me they have no problem replying in English too. You should also contact them at least half a day in advance. Some of them regularly update their availability on Twitter. For some reasons Twitter is still very popular with Japanese and local businesses too. My friend hired one for an afternoon massage; he was so happy afterward that he is still talking about it. But please be mindful that this is a list of "masseurs" even when some are very explicit in what additional services are being offered. Use your own judgement and be respecful when setting up an appointment.
Since I was sharing a room with a travel buddy, we did decide to stay in more expensive hotels this round. The first one is in Ginza, and the second one is a "hot spring" hotel in Shinjuku right next to the gay district Ni-chome. It has a large bath in the basement with one big hot pool of hotspring water that can sit up to 8 people comfortably. There are also two smaller ones in an sealed off "outside" area. If you like the experience Japanese hotspring bathing this place is a very good deal, with the additional bonus that since it's also close to Ni-chome, it's popular with gay tourists and locals alike. All of us have encountered some very discreet cruising.
I don't encourage anyone to cruise in a public place that is not meant to be exclusively gay, but a smile and a friendly nod to the right person can definitely make your trip more interesting. I did exactly that and ended up in another hotel guest's room one evening.
Much as I wanted to visit at least one gay sauna or sex club this trip, I decided not to. Monkey pox is still a concern in Japan, and people are getting infected despite being vaccinated. This is just my personal choice, but you can still read about the 24 Kaikan sauna chain and various sex clubs in my two previous posts.
It's still really cheap to visit Japan now, but its economy is recovering faster than everyone else. It may not be cheap for long.

Hello,
I got my first bike this week and I’ve been practicing by driving it around my neighborhood or subdivisions next to mine that has very little traffic. I got the basic maneuvers under my belt(braking, switching gear in motion, counter steering, etc). I have come across one specific issue though. I can’t seem to get the bike going from a stationary position(aka stop sign). I’ll try to rev match while in the friction zone and one of two things happen… I either stall or I’ll rev too much and the bike will speed up out of control. I can’t seem to understand how to do a stop and go from numerous of videos I’ve found online. The one thing I’ve noticed is I have to waddle it forward for some momentum in order to get the clutch to catch on. I know that’s a huge no no when in busy traffic and I’d like to avoid that. I have no connection with anyone who has a motorcycle, so I’m hoping to find some answers here from some seasoned riders. Thanks in advance!
P.S. I dropped my bike for the first time yesterday and damn it hurts to see the scratches on my bike :’)

OK, so this takes some explaining, but hopefully it’s worth your time. Spoilers, obvs.
In 2021, Leos Carax released his debut English language movie, written by Ron and Russell Mael of Art-Pop legends Sparks and starring Adam Driver, Marion Cotillard and Simon Helberg. It received great acclaim, winning several awards, but also left many cold. It’s such an odd film, but there’s a fantastic explanation as to why it’s such a difficult movie.
There are two stories running in parallel. One is that of the comedian, the opera singer and their gifted child. The other is the story of how the filmmakers wrote this movie. It’s an allegory for its own creative process.
The character Annette is the movie Annette, and her three parents are different elements of the screenwriters’ creativity. Henry McHenry, played by Adam Driver, is Sparks’ humour and pop sensibility. The accompanist, played by Simon Helberg, is their musical talent. Ann Defrasnoux, played by Marion Cotillard, is their genius.
These characters’ fates determine what kind of movie this will be, and it doesn’t end well for any of them.
I’ve made a video that lays out the evidence for this - https://youtu.be/36ExvkMIipU. Part 2 is coming soon.
For those that don’t know, Sparks have made funny and catchy pop music for almost 50 years, influencing artists as wide ranging as Bjork, Beck, Sex Pistols, Erasure and Red Hot Chilli Peppers, making great music to this day yet somehow have remained obscure.
Leos Carax said this about this about his collaboration with Sparks: “We had 80 songs and only kept 42. There were many versions of every song, depending on where the story was going.”
So during the 8 years of development, pieces were added, removed and altered, and this concept is embedded into the movie itself. If you look at the quotations, additional music and archival movie footage used throughout, something interesting connects it: there’s an uncanny number of references to creative works that were changed into something different, moving it beyond from the artist’s initial vision. Just like ‘Annette’.
*‘The Crowd’ by King Vidor This movie from 1928 is used during a montage of Ann’s performances. Its original release was delayed because the movie studio was displeased at the lack of a happy ending. At their insistence, seven alternative happy endings were filmed.
‘Till the clouds roll by’ While Henry is babysitting, the TV shows a musical number from this 1946 Judy Garland movie. The song, ’D’ye love me’, was filmed by a different director (her husband Vincente Minnelli) but then cut from the final movie.
‘Oceans’ Footage is used from this French nature documentary which was distributed by Disney Pictures. The final cut had 20 minutes of violent footage removed to make it palatable to a young audience.
‘Rogue one’ We see this playing at a cinema while Henry rides past on his motorcycle. The Star Wars spin-off had extensive reshoots with new scenes, including a new soundtrack and ending.
‘Snow White and the Seven Dwarfs’ There are several visual parallels between ‘Annette‘ and the first feature-length Disney movie. It was originally conceived as a comedy piece, with a continuous run of jokes from the dwarfs. In later drafts, scenes were removed in order to focus more on Snow White and the Evil Queen, and less on the comic relief.
‘The Night of the Hunter’ The shot of Ann’s body falling to the depths of the ocean calls back to this 1955 American Thriller. The screenplay was by James Agee, based on his own book, but director Charles Laughton rewrote most of the script without credit. This was partly because the story features an evil preacher, highly controversial at the time, so the changes were made so that he would appear unordained.
‘Bluebeards Castle’ This opera was completed in 1911, but not taken seriously because of its single act structure. It was modified in 1912 and a new ending added in 1917.
‘National Brotherhood Week’ by Tom Lehrer This is the song that goes “and the Catholics hate the Muslims, and the Muslims hate the Catholics”. The musical satirist would often update the jokes in his songs at live performances.
‘Symphony No. 2’ by Gustav Mahler This was composed reusing elements of the composer‘s first symphony,
‘Otello’ by Verdi This was written between 1879 and 1887. Many drafts exist between the libretto first being written and its completion, with notes and letter published showing the evolution of the work as the music demanded changes to the text and vice versa.
‘Carmen’ by Bizet This was altered several times during the rehearsal for the first performance. As such, the vocal score from March 1875 shows significant changes from the version of the score sold to the publishers, which is in turn different to the orchestral score. Nobody knows which version was originally performed.
‘Madam Butterfly’ by Puccini First completed in 1904, this was withdrawn after a disastrous premiere. In total Puccini wrote five versions of this opera.
‘Norma’ by Bellini When composing this opera, Bellini wanted it to be performed by star soprano Giuditta Pasta. To entice her, he offered to retouch or even change the character completely to suit her.
‘Symphony No. 4’ by Brahms The debut performance was a scaled-down preview played on two pianos to a small audience of friends. Despite going on to be a classic, it was panned by the audience, with critic Eduard Hanslick describing it as “being given a beating by two incredibly intelligent people”.
‘La traviata’ by Verdi This opera was envisioned in a contemporary setting, but the authorities insisted it be set in the past.
‘Mother Courage and her Children’ by Bertold Bretch This 1941 play includes the quotation “War is like love, it always finds a way”, which likely serves as inspiration for ‘True love always finds a way’. For it’s second production in 1949, Brecht revised the play to make Mother Courage less sympathetic, because despite rave reviews, he felt that critics misunderstood the piece.*
These works aren’t necessarily being evoked because of their stories or themes, but because of how they were changed. Leos Carax and Sparks are showing us that the movie we’re watching is inextricably tied to the method used in creating it. In other words, it’s not just an incidental bit of trivia that ‘Annette’ had several drafts, it’s core to the understanding of the movie.
With the release of the Unlimited Edition of the soundtrack album, Sparks gave some insight into a previous draft, and it helps us to better understand the final movie. It includes a handful of demos and unused songs which show a very different trajectory for Henry McHenry. Instead of destroying his career by offending his audience, he’s instead met with indifference because falling in love and having a child has taken away his edge as a performer. We therefore know that Henry’s comedy routines were rewritten, and this fact can be used to explain a lot.
The title of Henry’s show is The Ape of God. This is a term for Satan that originated from the Middle Ages, meaning that he impersonates (or apes) godly things to make people do evil. Encyclopaedia Britannica describes it as “an evil who attempts to imitate God through spurious, malicious creations that he interpolates for the divine creations”. The word “interpolate” means “to insert something (of a different nature) into something else”, which is what the screenwriters are doing by reworking these scenes. The Henry McHenry that we see isn’t the character as originally envisioned - he’s a rewrite, and this explains the uncomfortable anti-comedy of his routines.
One of Sparks’ defining characteristics is humour, with a distinctive style of wit that’s been a constant presence in their music throughout the decades. Their songs feature colourful characters and clever pop-culture references, but with ‘Annette’ they go in the opposite direction, filling it with sadness at every turn. If you look back through Sparks’ catalogue of songs, finding something without an element of joy or humour is rare. They’re a “fun” band, but that element of fun is mostly missing in ‘Annette’ - this is fundamentally different to the Sparks we’ve seen before.
This was explained by Leos Carax when asked how the movie was reshaped from Sparks’ original screenplay.
“The only changes I made were with the writing. It was only a storyline without characters. The brothers live in this Sparks bubble, which is pop fantasy. There was a lot of irony. Irony in a cinema is a danger, I think. It has a tendency to make everything less crucial, less real. It’s a bit too easy for cinema, especially today. I had to make that irony into something else. We had to really create Henry as a character.”
Here’s the theory: Ron and Russell wrote a comedy that was true to Sparks, then employed Leos Carax to impose restrictions on the rewriting process. These were the changes necessary for the band to achieve their dream of making a true art house tragedy.
I still have lots more to share on this, but in the meantime I’d love your thoughts.

Visiting soon, can any one recommend a club where I can get some girls out cookies? And just clubs in general which have that 🔥🔥

Hi there, I am currently in my summer going into my junior year. I feel like I am so behind, just because my entire freshman year I did not do anything to help my application at all. In my sophomore year, I started getting jobs to hopefully help my social skills/resume by selecting jobs that show I can interact with all types of people, (1 at an elderly care home and 1 working as a paraeducator K-12 during the summer and an ITS desk job during the school year). I pretty much have 10 shadowing and 0 volunteering hours though, but am planning to start within the coming weeks and continue on during my junior school year.
One of my goals this year is to get another tutoring job during my school year (the program at my school is super lenient and allows you to choose hours) and somehow showcase my piano skills onto my resume (I've started at the age of 4, but stopped at around 18), maybe by volunteering or something to show dental schools I am also physically gifted with my hands.
My GPA trend starting from freshman year has been 3.23 to 3.48 now. My sGPA is only a 3.1, but Just got organic chemistry out of the way (ended with a B- in I and B in II) so hopefully my GPA trends up from here.
I am in some clubs, but not any that I am super involved in or can get a position on e-board for. The clubs at my university don't really seem to spark my interest, as they're rather cliquey and would much rather spend my time working at one of my jobs or volunteering. Would it be a red flag to not have any clubs on my application?
My aim was to at least apply right after I graduate in 2025, but I'm not too sure if Im able to fulfill my hours AND be able to study DAT by then. I'm fairly confident in my abilities to double down my next two years, but just not sure so if anyone has some encouraging words I'd be glad to hear it!
With all of this in mind, I plan to take a gap year as I want my application to be as strong as possible when I apply. I'm just a bit confused on how it works and need some explanation on what my timeline should look like when taking this gap year. To my understanding, if I graduate May 2025, send in my application June 2026, does this mean I don't start schooling until August 2027?
Any help is greatly appreciated. Thanks guys.

Trigger Warning: Stillbirth, miscarriage, IVF
I'll start with the old cliche - long time lurker, first time poster. So thank you to anyone who reads and/or comments, and hopefully my current story may help in some way. I have just added anything that may be relevant.
I'm a 37 year old Australian female, with a history of endometriosis and cysts that ran up and down my the outside of my fallopian tubes. Unfortunately, those cysts started twisting, turning blue and bursting, which caused horrific and debilitating pain. I was in my early 20's when this first started occurring. This led me on a six year journey (unfortunately I encountered a lot of dismissive doctors - 'It's just period pain'), before an incredible gynaecologist organised a laparoscopy for me immediately, and she discovered extensive endometriosis and the cysts. She lanced and burnt her way through like an epic warrior, inserted a Mirena, and my quality of life improved instantly with no complications.
Fast forward to me at 32 and TTC with my partner. Fortunately, it only took us 3 months to see those glorious double lines on a pregnancy test. I had a blissful (and quite ignorant) pregnancy, welcoming our daughter at 39 weeks with an uncomplicated, spontaneous vaginal labour. My daughter was quite light at 2.6kg, but long at 51cm. I remember the midwife inquiring as to whether I smoked whilst looking at the placenta. I used too, but hadn't in 8 years. She shrugged and being that I had just laboured and we had a healthy, albeit light, baby in our arms, we didn't think anything else of it. My daughter thrived and is now a four year old ball of gorgeousness that we are so grateful for.
When Number 1 was about 16 months, we conceived our second child - very quickly might I add! One weekend of fun and the deal was done. Lucky us! Once again, a very unremarkable, straightforward pregnancy. Until it wasn't. At 35.5 weeks, I went to the the hairdresser, returned home and realised I hadn't felt her kick for a while - she was another little girl. Number 2 was much more of a kicker and squirmer than Number 1, so I knew something wasn't right. Later that night at the hospital, those horrendous, life-altering words were said, 'There is no heartbeat'. I delivered her vaginally, a far more physically gruelling and emotional labour than my first. Unfortunately, we have never had any definitive answers as to why there was a partial placenta abruption - her autopsy revealed that she was utterly perfect anyway. She was the same weight and height as her sister at 35.5 weeks. It was discovered that I have a prothrombin mutation that makes my blood a little more prone to clotting. However, we've been told that this condition can either affect pregnancies or not (hence Number 1 doing so well). The strongest theory is that perhaps a clot did disrupt the umbilical cord/placenta, but no one can say for sure with the lack of evidence.
Those of you who are sadly in the baby loss club (but don't want to be of course) will know what that grief journey looks like after the rug has been pulled out from under you and your life splinters into this new world thay you have to suddenly adapt too. I won't get too bogged down here except for this - I see you. I see your baby. I see your loss and I am so sorry you have to live the rest of your life with that complexity of emotions and longing for your little one. You are an incredible human being and I send you all the virtual love 💜
Nearly six months after our loss, we began trying again. After 5 months and no positive, we turned to IVF. I was aware of my age and I didn't want to wait after we had previously been so lucky with two quick conceptions. The fertility doctor had me do a HyCoSy scan to check my tubes, before we began an IVF cycle. Low and behold, that scan was therapeutic as we become pregnant naturally on my next cycle! We were ecstatic that we didn't even have to begin IVF but also incredibly trepidatious of being pregnant again in general. As part of my stillbirth interventions for pregnancy, I immediately started injecting Clexane (a blood thinner) to avoid any potential clotting issues.
At 8 weeks, I began violently miscarrying at work. Due to the Clexane, there was a huge amount of blood and a lot of very large clots. Over the course of 2½ weeks, I was in and out of hospital every couple of days with extremely heavy bleeding. At the end of that period, I finally passed my baby and had a D&C. Salt to the wound is an understatement. The anger, grief, devastation, guilt, etc., of having to endure another loss after we had already been so awfully robbed, was just horrendous. Our fertility doctor let us know the 1 in 4 figures for miscarriage and that it was likely a chromosomal issue. Great.
Two months later, I had another laparoscopy to remove a small amount of endometriosis. Two months after that, I was injecting hormone stimulants for my first round for an IVF egg retrieval. We got 7 eggs, 4 fertilised, and 2 blastocysts but they could not be biopsied for chromosomal issues unfortunately. Our doctor believes that the low egg count could be endometriosis related, as my egg reserves are average for my age. Frustratingly, our egg transfer was delayed due to the Christmas break, then we had Covid for a second time and it was delayed even further. Finally, we had the transfer - one blastocyst did not survive the thawing process, the other failed to implant.
After reading even more, eating even better than I did before, starting reformer pilates three times a week and taking all the vitamins/supplements (for him too), I recently had another egg retrieval: 6 eggs, 1 fertilised, 1 blastocyst that could not be biopsied. What. The. Actual. Fuck. Here we are, the healthiest we have ever been, no caffeine, no booze and we get such a poor fertilisation rate? It has perplexed the fertility doctor and lab techs. We have talked about interventions for next time (adding calcium to the culture medium), if this little eggo doesn't a) survive the thawing process, b) doesn't implant, c) implants but miscarries, or d) implants but ends up stillborn - I sincerely hope not for those latter two.
So this is where I am currently at - prepping for my second egg transfer that should hopefully happen next week or early the week after. I guess I have written this essay (apologies about that!), to seek any input really - does anything in my story resonate with yours? Tales of hope? The reality of hope being stomped on? Have you been down the IVF path and it didn't work? It's only been two and half years since Number 2 was taken from us and we started this whole journey, but I'm exhausted and feeling a but indifferent about it all. It honestly feels like we have so much more bad outweigh the good, that how on earth could this little eggo even make it?
Thank you for reading and hearing me out. Love to you all ❤️
(I have posted on Baby Loss and IVF subreddits)

Stats -
4.0 uw/4.6w
Class rank - 12/549
SAT - 1600 ACT - 36
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AP course load -
16 AP classes 5 honors and 4 On level + 2 dual credit classes
Ecs -
Non profit organization 10, 11, 12 /co-founder, president/director of outreach and educational committee - over 300 tutors/mentors for AP/IB classes, raised over 50k for education and teacher resources in low income areas, built schools around the world (partnership with Pencils of Promise) and created a Mathematics group that provided advanced mathematics education to underprivileged students and schools around the US and in 20 other countries through in person and remote workshops, summer camps, after school activities and clubs.
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STEM Outreach club 10,11,12 - raised over 5k towards STEM education for underprivileged students in my region, hosted comps for middle school students and held both in person and remote educational workshops.
SuMaC 10-11 summer - Math Summer program at Stanford
ASSIP Internship (9-10) - Science Internship w Mentor over the summer at George Mason Uni
Research internship w local university prof - chem/physical Chemistry - 9,10,11,12 (published as 3rd/5th author in a prestigious chemistry research journal)
Mayors Youth Council 11,12 - VP of my cities Youth Council (got rec letter too from supervisor)
Toastmasters Club - 10,11,12 - Public speaking club, Vice President and co-founder
Student Advisory Council - 10,12 - Advisory committee member to the superintendent of my school district
Mu Alpha Theta club founder and president at my school- 10,11,12
Applied to Clark L Scholars/RSI (pretty much impossible) 11-12 summer - hoping can get in so preferably give two predictions one w and one without this program - since Ik they both are VERY prestigious
Honors and awards -USAMO qualifier
USAPHO gold medalist
Science UIL state 2nd place
National Merit Finalist
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Double - Physics and Chemistry
+ 200 Volunteer hours
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indian living in US, no hooks
Schools -
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All ivies
Stanford,
MIT
UC Berkeley
UCSD
UT Austin - am auto admit but still applying as safety
NYU
Georgia Tech
Caltech

Trigger Warning: Stillbirth, miscarriage, IVF
I'll start with the old cliche - long time lurker, first time poster. So thank you to anyone who reads and/or comments, and hopefully my current story may help in some way. I have just added anything that may be relevant.
I'm a 37 year old Australian female, with a history of endometriosis and cysts that ran up and down my the outside of my fallopian tubes. Unfortunately, those cysts started twisting, turning blue and bursting, which caused horrific and debilitating pain. I was in my early 20's when this first started occurring. This led me on a six year journey (unfortunately I encountered a lot of dismissive doctors - 'It's just period pain'), before an incredible gynaecologist organised a laparoscopy for me immediately, and she discovered extensive endometriosis and the cysts. She lanced and burnt her way through like an epic warrior, inserted a Mirena, and my quality of life improved instantly with no complications.
Fast forward to me at 32 and TTC with my partner. Fortunately, it only took us 3 months to see those glorious double lines on a pregnancy test. I had a blissful (and quite ignorant) pregnancy, welcoming our daughter at 39 weeks with an uncomplicated, spontaneous vaginal labour. My daughter was quite light at 2.6kg, but long at 51cm. I remember the midwife inquiring as to whether I smoked whilst looking at the placenta. I used too, but hadn't in 8 years. She shrugged and being that I had just laboured and we had a healthy, albeit light, baby in our arms, we didn't think anything else of it. My daughter thrived and is now a four year old ball of gorgeousness that we are so grateful for.
When Number 1 was about 16 months, we conceived our second child - very quickly might I add! One weekend of fun and the deal was done. Lucky us! Once again, a very unremarkable, straightforward pregnancy. Until it wasn't. At 35.5 weeks, I went to the the hairdresser, returned home and realised I hadn't felt her kick for a while - she was another little girl. Number 2 was much more of a kicker and squirmer than Number 1, so I knew something wasn't right. Later that night at the hospital, those horrendous, life-altering words were said, 'There is no heartbeat'. I delivered her vaginally, a far more physically gruelling and emotional labour than my first. Unfortunately, we have never had any definitive answers as to why there was a partial placenta abruption - her autopsy revealed that she was utterly perfect anyway. She was the same weight and height as her sister at 35.5 weeks. It was discovered that I have a prothrombin mutation that makes my blood a little more prone to clotting. However, we've been told that this condition can either affect pregnancies or not (hence Number 1 doing so well). The strongest theory is that perhaps a clot did disrupt the umbilical cord/placenta, but no one can say for sure with the lack of evidence.
Those of you who are sadly in the baby loss club (but don't want to be of course) will know what that grief journey looks like after the rug has been pulled out from under you and your life splinters into this new world thay you have to suddenly adapt too. I won't get too bogged down here except for this - I see you. I see your baby. I see your loss and I am so sorry you have to live the rest of your life with that complexity of emotions and longing for your little one. You are an incredible human being and I send you all the virtual love 💜
Nearly six months after our loss, we began trying again. After 5 months and no positive, we turned to IVF. I was aware of my age and I didn't want to wait after we had previously been so lucky with two quick conceptions. The fertility doctor had me do a HyCoSy scan to check my tubes, before we began an IVF cycle. Low and behold, that scan was therapeutic as we become pregnant naturally on my next cycle! We were ecstatic that we didn't even have to begin IVF but also incredibly trepidatious of being pregnant again in general. As part of my stillbirth interventions for pregnancy, I immediately started injecting Clexane (a blood thinner) to avoid any potential clotting issues.
At 8 weeks, I began violently miscarrying at work. Due to the Clexane, there was a huge amount of blood and a lot of very large clots. Over the course of 2½ weeks, I was in and out of hospital every couple of days with extremely heavy bleeding. At the end of that period, I finally passed my baby and had a D&C. Salt to the wound is an understatement. The anger, grief, devastation, guilt, etc., of having to endure another loss after we had already been so awfully robbed, was just horrendous. Our fertility doctor let us know the 1 in 4 figures for miscarriage and that it was likely a chromosomal issue. Great.
Two months later, I had another laparoscopy to remove a small amount of endometriosis. Two months after that, I was injecting hormone stimulants for my first round for an IVF egg retrieval. We got 7 eggs, 4 fertilised, and 2 blastocysts but they could not be biopsied for chromosomal issues unfortunately. Our doctor believes that the low egg count could be endometriosis related, as my egg reserves are average for my age. Frustratingly, our egg transfer was delayed due to the Christmas break, then we had Covid for a second time and it was delayed even further. Finally, we had the transfer - one blastocyst did not survive the thawing process, the other failed to implant.
After reading even more, eating even better than I did before, starting reformer pilates three times a week and taking all the vitamins/supplements (for him too), I recently had another egg retrieval: 6 eggs, 1 fertilised, 1 blastocyst that could not be biopsied. What. The. Actual. Fuck. Here we are, the healthiest we have ever been, no caffeine, no booze and we get such a poor fertilisation rate? It has perplexed the fertility doctor and lab techs. We have talked about interventions for next time (adding calcium to the culture medium), if this little eggo doesn't a) survive the thawing process, b) doesn't implant, c) implants but miscarries, or d) implants but ends up stillborn - I sincerely hope not for those latter two.
So this is where I am currently at - prepping for my second egg transfer that should hopefully happen next week or early the week after. I guess I have written this essay (apologies about that!), to seek any input really - does anything in my story resonate with yours? Tales of hope? The reality of hope being stomped on? Have you been down the IVF path and it didn't work? It's only been two and half years since Number 2 was taken from us and we started this whole journey, but I'm exhausted and feeling a but indifferent about it all. It honestly feels like we have so much more bad outweigh the good, that how on earth could this little eggo even make it?
Thank you for reading and hearing me out. Love to you all ❤️
(I have posted on both Baby Loss and IVF subreddits)

Throughout our relationship, his short temper has been a constant issue, often resulting in hurtful outbursts. One incident that stands out is when I asked him to console his mother after she helped us move from Texas to Colorado. He responded by calling me a derogatory name, which left me feeling deeply hurt.
On top of that, my husband has an irrational fear of damaging his expensive car, a $50,000 investment, to the point where he keeps it stored in a car tent with a dead battery. Despite his promises to fix it and use it, he never follows through. This means that we rely on my $10,000 car for our daily errands and weekend trips. It's frustrating because I feel like I'm shouldering the burden while he avoids using his own car. He has a government-issued car for work.
even though we moved into our house a year ago, my husband still refuses to help me organize the garage so that I can park my car inside. He's also overly possessive of his belongings in the garage, including his motorcycle, which he won't allow me to touch for fear of scratches.
Recently, during a moment of struggle when I couldn't unlock the front door, I asked my husband why he didn't help me. His response was, "Well, fuck you too." It was a devastating blow, and when I later tried to talk to him, he shut me out and went to bed. This has led me to sleep in our spare bedroom tonight, which has typically been my role after fights.
We've been attending therapy to address his anger issues and our communication problems, but despite our efforts, I haven't seen much change. I'm 35 years old, financially independent with no debt, and have a good job that could support me if I were to leave.
While it's true that my husband has been there for me during tough times, such as helping me break my lease 10 years ago and contributing to some of my bills, our recent struggles have overshadowed those moments of support. We've gone on trips together, and he's even bought me mountain bikes, but unfortunately, many of those experiences have been marred by fights and conflicts.
The truth is, I don't believe either of us is capable of treating each other with the respect we both deserve. Despite the occasional positive aspects of our relationship, the recurring patterns of anger, disrespect, and communication breakdown have taken a significant toll on our overall happiness and well-being.
I've recognized the importance of respect, understanding, and open communication in a healthy partnership, and it seems that those elements are lacking in our relationship. Despite our attempts at therapy, meaningful change has been limited, leaving me uncertain about our future together.
Have any of you faced similar challenges in your relationships?

"The goal will be to fight for the Scudetto and the Champions League, the owners will work to strengthen the team, as they are aware of the importance of managing a club like Milan."
"The team must be aware that they are the engine of everything: every player has the responsibility to wear this shirt and the thought must always be to always give their best on the pitch. The club will certainly put them in the best conditions to do so".
"Ibra's figure, his personality, has been important in recent years, but I don't know what he will do in the future. His farewell moved everyone, even the heart of a tough guy like him melted in front of the great, well-deserved affection, that the Rossoneri people have shown him".
"To compete on multiple competitions, it's important to have a broader, more quality squad, and I believe the club will act accordingly, because there is a basis for doing well in more competitions."
“Data is important, but the human and technical aspect also matters. News is welcome, especially if they can help you make fewer mistakes and gather more information"
"I met Cardinale when he arrived at Casa Milan, when we toured the museum I immediately understood the importance and responsibility he would have for the history of Milan and for the millions of Rossoneri fans".
"I have experienced many properties and I believe that we must always have respect for the ideas and strategies that the management wants to bring. The important thing is the common good of Milan: each property can have strategies and models, but if we work in harmony we will achieve our goals "
"I believe that Pioli has always had a peaceful conversation with the management, he has always had the freedom to express his ideas, even with Maldini and Massara. This relationship will strengthen as Pioli knows the team's needs better than anyone".
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One of my best guy friends (24M) and I (22F) have been friends for awhile. We met almost 2 years ago, and when he first met me, he had a crush on me because he thought I was really pretty. He is bi, but when I first met him I thought he was gay, and when my friend told him that he took it as rejection. I don’t think he took it super personally though. For a long time we had a great friendship, but the past 6 months, he had been extra flirty with me. Whenever we would go out drinking, he was always super protective around me and would hold my hand/hold me along the waist as if I was his girl. He always would tell me how pretty I was, and would come off as flirtatious. I started developing feelings for him, and my friends thought he liked me too because of how he acted and how he would talk about me behind my back.
Anyway, I told him how I felt and he seemed pretty happy. This was over our college Thanksgiving break, so we had just texted and things seemed normal. When the school year resumed, he started acting super weird and distant. We went to a party and he was acting a bit rude to me, which was unlike him. Another week and a half to two weeks later, he rejects me because he won’t date unless he sees the girl as someone he’s going to marry, and that girl would have to live with his parents. He also said he wasn’t looking for a relationship. I respected his wishes, and distanced myself from him.
College winter break comes along, and he seems to have distanced himself too. He sends me weird tiktoks of what his type in women are (with physical traits that are nothing like mine) and I just ignore him to not give him a reaction. When the school year resumes, he invites me on a triple date (where I am only there as his friend) and immediately after tells me how much he wants a relationship. I was hurt, but I didn’t show it but did my best to support him. From then on, most of our conversations (we were neighbors so I saw him all the time) revolved around him trying to find a girlfriend, telling me there’s only 2 women he would reject and I was one of those girls, and that he would never date a brown girl (i’m indian). I get he has a right to pursue other relationships but sometimes it felt like he went out of his way to make me feel like i was not good enough for him.
Anyway, we went out together with one of his friends for his birthday (24M). I had a suspicion my friend thought his friend was cute, but I wasn’t entirely sure. His friend was flirting with me the whole time, asking to buy me drinks, and ignoring my friend. He also told my friend right in front of me what his intentions were with me, and I was not interested and disgusted. When we left the club that night, my friend was mad at his friend NOT for harassing me after I rejected him but because he thought it would be “gross” for him to have to work with someone who he knew slept with his female friend. I was appalled by this.
I don’t understand how my once loving and sweet friend literally is acting like this

Article:
Cardiff have pushed back the start of their pre-season training as uncertainty still reigns over the future of director of rugby David Young.
The Arms Park side were meant to start their pre-season training on June 5, but that has been pushed back a couple of weeks until things are further sorted out.
It's understood that pre-season training will now begin on June 19 for Cardiff. That's the same date as the Scarlets, who were due to start two weeks later having had a longer season with a Challenge Cup semi-final.
The big fear heading into the new season for Cardiff is the sheer uncertainty in terms of personnel and coaching staff.
The Arms Park side saw 16 players leave at the end of this season, as tightened budgets saw them unable to offer competitive contracts to players. With 11 players in the 50-man Wales World Cup training squad after Rhys Carre was dropped by Warren Gatland, Cardiff face starting the pre-season with roughly 20 players in camp.
With squad numbers dwindling, the idea of training against other regions throughout next season has been floated, while a formal regional loan system has also been considered. Neither idea seem likely to help Cardiff in the short-term.
The club are desperately short in some positions, like fly-half and centre, with reinforcements tricky to make with money being tight. One fly-half option, South African Tinus de Beer, was blocked by the Welsh Rugby Union in favour of home-grown options - despite Cardiff being in the Champions Cup next season without an experienced 10 following the departures of Jarrod Evans and Rhys Priestland.
Sam Davies was briefly an option before his move to Grenoble, while Rhys Patchell seems set to join the Dragons. Gareth Anscombe had appeared set for a move to either Japan or France, but recently hinted at a desire to stay in Wales.
A return to Cardiff would make sense, but finances could be a stumbling block after they were unable to keep hold of Evans. Any announcements on signings are unlikely to be made before the situation with Young is resolved.
Cardiff's director of rugby was suspended ahead of the final league game of the season after the club received a number of complaints from employees. Nothing has been said publicly about the nature of the allegations, with no update expected on the situation in the immediate future.
As such, it's unclear who will be taking charge of Cardiff when they do return to training, with Richard Hodges, the man who stepped in for the final game of the season, having left his post as defence coach to join Zebre's coaching ticket.

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For the 4th time in as many months, I was texting my husband all day - getting no replies.
Today though, our toddler son was pretty sick, and I was exhausted, frustrated, and REALLY in need of some help - hoping desperately that he could come home early if possible. In between HOURS of changing and bathing our kid and doing many bedding changes & load after load of laundry - I barely eaked out a dozen desperate texts about my desperate situation- and yet he never replied to any of them
I thought "geeze, if he's not even answering these messages, he really has to be buried in issues at work or today he's working in someplace like a bank vault where he's not allowed to have his phone".
As the hours passed without any reply - I began to worry that HE was okay.
When he finally DID text me at 830pm just to say he was on his way home- I was pretty aggravated that it was the first id heard from him...
And then at 9pm when he finally called me while I was in the middle of wrangling the upset baby (which id JUST explained to him via text)... the first words out of his mouth were - "you could have AT LEAST answered my text".
You can only imagine MY anger since not only had I replied to him immediately HE had not answered a single one of MY messages all damn day! The nerve!
It was during this call that we realized that he wasn't actually getting ANY of my texts. So instead of being pissed at HIM.... Now I'm looking at YOU, T-Mobile.
Wanna know why?
Because thisis the FOURTH DAMN TIME T-Mobile has shut off my ability to send texts.
They give no warning - and absolutely ZERO notice - they just shut off your text messaging ability and yet on my phone- it would appear as if they are sending and being recieved perfectly fine.
This is UNACCEPTABLE. Its downright DANGEROUS - People text 911 and in many other desperate and dangerous situations to get help. Many deaf people rely ENTIRELY on texting because they can't MAKE regular phone calls.
SEVERAL times during these "shut downs", I have lost opportunities to make money - I've upset and angered friends - and I've lost the trust of people I was buying or selling things from - resulting in those deals falling apart all because SUDDENLY I've dropped off the face of the earth and didn't answer thier messages for days on end... All while I WAS answering them back and they were ignoring me.... because they WEREN'T GETTING MY TEXTS.
It isn't until I've physically stood beside the person and we compared phone screens - that I was able to PROVE I had been answering them.
This has caused COUNTLESS problems with the club I run, the classes I teach, my kids and thier friends- and my own friends and family.
It's cost me money, caused me HOURS and sometimes DAYS of anger and frustration - all because T-Mobile has decided that I SEND TOO MANY TEXTS or that I text my friends in ways they don't like.
I DEMANDED answers the first time this happened.
I was told they "don't know the number of texts you can send before they shut down your messages". I was told they couldn't find out and no one really knew. I was told that once a customer get accused of "spamming" by thier magical algorithms; they just shut you off and don't say a damn word.
I was told that including a link in my text messages (like when i sent a link to my fellow club members about a discounted Lego set!)
OR when I announced to a few dozen friends that my classes were starting back up - that it must have been "too many texts" and triggered the "rate limit" and that they couldn't take the block off for 72 hours.
On tonight's complaint call - with a woman from India who proceeded to read a script - over and over telling me HOW MUCH SHE CARES that i couldn't text my husband about my sick baby - and HOW IMPORTANT IT IS that my messages go through when i text my club members.... I told her to STOP with the script and the "empathy" and just get me an answer on EXACTLY how many texts I can send before they shut down my phone.
I sent just 42 text messages to individuals yesterday - all people that i know personally - and in doing so - I manually changed up EVERY SINGLE TEXT so that the content of the messages were personalized, contained each person's name and did NOT include the same wording over and over. It took two and a half hours for something i could have sent in two minutes.
I only sent links to an event on my Google calendar to those club members who hadn't yet RSVP'd.
The only other texts I sent all day were to my own family members .... And I sent ONE group text to the 46 people in my club - broken down into three groups, so three of the same message went out within a minute. I have no idea if ANY of those texts went through.
I was told that TMobile had ONCE AGAIN flagged me as sending spam and had shut off my ability to text for 72+ hours.
For the FOURTH DAMN TIME, I was told that it could take upwards of 24-72 hours to reinstate my text messaging..I was also, LAUGHABLY, told to contact my club members, friends- and family - and asked to have them all download a special third party app to message me. Like "whatsap" or something.
When I asked the INCREDIBLY annoying tech support woman how i was supposed to send ANY MESSAGE to all of those people- after all - isn't that EXACTLY what they had banned me from texting for doing?! Plus, without the ability to send texts- am I supposed to call my hundreds of phone contacts and explain the situation over and over and over to each one, asking them to please install a special messages app JUST TO TALK TO ME?
Finally tonight, the tech told me "unlimited messaging is limited to 300 messages per day, and any more than that will shut down your service by triggering a spam block." Even if you text the same person over and over with different messages- if you're talking to them THAT MUCH, T-Mobile calls it SPAM AND DISABLES YOUR TEXT MESSAGING SERVICE.
So you've heard it here folks - we pay for "unlimited data and text messaging" and T-Mobile's explanation of "unlimited" is;

• no more than 300 total texts.
• no photos or links can be sent to groups or multiple individuals
• you must personally and individually text everyone you know, even if you need to send the exact same message to multiple people like "Thanksgiving dinner is at 3pm at Grandma's this year"- that's enough to trigger them SHUTTING YOU DOWN.

And - even if you FOLLOW all of those things (like i did yesterday)- they might STILL flag your account, shut off your texts, and NEVER TELL YOU- So you'll never know until you find out from someone in person - that no one is actually getting any of your messages!
I had Verizon and then Sprint for over 14 years. Some days, id send out over a thousand texts, about the Christmas charity that i run - letting people know we were starting up our collection for the year. NEVER EVER- Not even once - did they EVER restrict my texts.
I've only had TMobile since they bought out Sprint (after SWEARING id never ever go back to them, when they destroyed the Sidekick phones & lost ALL of my company's contacts and data back in 2010!)- and it's been nothing but PURE HELL and CONSTANT ISSUES ever since.
I hate you, TMobile. More than I've ever hated any company in existence.

Hi, I've (21) been dating my gf (23) for about 3 months and things have been going decently well. A few weeks ago we went to a club together to celebrate my 21st, and both of us got quite drunk. She eventually sobered up a bit and we took the train back to her apartment, but after getting off the train I don't remember much. I remember not knowing how to text my roommate that I was at hers and not knowing how to buy an ATM ticket, it definitely is the drunkest I've been since beginning uni.
I woke up the next morning kinda confused because I wasn't able to recall how I gotten to hers, and she told me we had sex. This was my first time, but not hers, and obviously our first time ever having sex. I told her I had no memory of that, and she made a joke about how she had assaulted me. She started apologizing and asking if I was alright, and I said I was.
I felt pretty weird when I got home that morning, so I texted her that I was not comfortable with the situation, and she apologized profusely, and said how sorry she was for the jokes and for having sex at all.
I told her I needed some space (which I emotionally do, but also just need due to family medical problems) and she said that was fine. She said she was uncomfortable with the night, and we texted a bit more to figure out what happened. She said she was also quite drunk, and remembers me asking her if she wanted to have sex. She said no, and then about 30 minutes later I asked again. I try to never ask again for anything more than once as I think it can put people under some pressure, so I think this was because I was blacked out and didn't remember asking the first time, which I know doesn't excuse it, but I assume this was the case as its quite out of character. She said she said yes the second time, and we had sex, otherwise she doesn't remember much after that. She said she was upset with herself that she said yes, as she didn't want to have sex then, but she also said that she could have just said no.
We texted for another hour or so discussing and apologizing to each other. We decided to break up, but for the last 3 weeks I've just been a complete emotional wreck, and have isolated myself in my room after I getting back from uni, so much so that my mom has tried to get me to sign up for a therapist as she can tell I'm sad. I feel somewhat violated about the sex, and also feel really confused about her comments the morning after, but also just can't help but to feel awful about my actions aswell, as I think asking to have sex a 2nd time is bad, and this situation obviously affected her quite strongly. Overall I'm just confused and upset by the lack of info I have, and how only one other person has that info. Am I processing this correctly? Am I missing anything? Am I beating myself up too much or too little?

Paolo Scaroni gave an interview to Corriere:
“Where do I start from? From the fact that all of us, have always had an excellent relationship with Paolo Maldini, who is a gentleman. He is a person attached to Milan. However, we follow a bit innovative model, at least for Italy, for club management. We work in team.”
“It is an organizational model that is very dear to our shareholder [Cardinale] who, let us remember, is a sports specialist who boasts success in his activities. When he suggests something to us we pay great attention, because we think it brings innovations.”
“In this organization we had the impression that Paolo was felt uncomfortable, and when one is uncomfortable it is better to part ways.”
“I'll give you an example that concerns myself. I was very dedicated to the new stadium matter, so much that there were those who called me "Stadioni" and not Scaroni. True, but I did it mostly in the Elliott years.”
“When RedBird arrived, which has experts who have built stadiums all over the world, it came natural for me to join the team and lose that autonomous role. It's a bit like what should have happened for the technical area.”
“RedBird and we all want Milan to continue this growth. I don't forget that I started being president in a dramatic moment.”
“You recall that I always said that we had two mountains to climb, bankruptcy and sporting results. Now we're not at the top but we've come a long way indeed I would say that in Italy we are among those who have done the most.”
“We want to continue to scale, always keeping in mind that more revenues lead to more investments for the sports area and more sporting successes lead to more revenues: a virtuous circle to be set in motion.”
“In the meantime, let me remind you that in four years we have invested more than the others. Some will always say it’s not good enough but our shareholders have allowed us to build a strong team and we will continue along this path together.”
“I think we will have to make some sales and conclude some important signings: we are ambitious.”
“Who will take care of the market? It will be in the hands of a team that integrates different skills, with CEO Giorgio Furlani who also has the sports area to coordinate with, together with professionals such as Geoffrey Moncada and coach Pioli: we expect him to have his say in these choices. In addition to the international experts of RedBird.”
"RedBird believes in analyzing the characteristics of players in a scientific way, of course, something that has been done in the Premier League for years: they have managed to adapt models born for other sports to football. We must combine individual skills, personal intuition in discovering talents and knowing how to insert them into our environment with these quantitative feedbacks. We want to bring together the best of our past with the best of the future that RedBird brings us. I hold on to the past, but why should we give up skills and innovations? Then the results will talk, it counts to win the games, I never liked losing and much less Gerry Cardinale.”
“Did Maldini’s figure have a weight in negotiations? This is very true and I am very grateful to him. I have to say that today, and it is not to sound ungrateful, we need it less. Milan having come out of the management of Yonghong Li was struggling to attract talent. I think that Milan, which won the Scudetto and reached the semifinals of the Champions League, is more attractive.”
“Ibrahimovic? I have the impression that he wants to take a sabbatical period. Then he remains a friend, a person to whom we owe a lot, because in the most difficult moments he allowed us to make a breakthrough. If ideas come to him we will be the first to listen to them.”
“The players showing solidarity to Maldini? It seems natural to me. On the other hand, they are professionals that are used to change, they will understand that this is done with the idea of doing better. We will explain it to them. Then they will rightfully remain linked to Maldini.”
“If Maldini wanted to sack Pioli? I don’t want to express myself on the idea of Pioli’s sacking. But Pioli is absolutely central to this project.”
"I'll make a summary. We liked the area of the La Maura racecourse very much, and the mayor liked it, but it is very difficult to practice. On the abatement of the Meazza is pending the constraint that could be triggered in 2025: without certainty, this project is asleep, nor does the mayor allow two stadiums close to each other. The area of Sesto has the problem of reclamation, at the moment we are developing hypotheses on the area of San Donato to keep it ready in case San Siro fades. "
https://www.corriere.it/sport/calcio/serie-a/23_giugno_08/paolo-scaroni-maldini-intervista-70a0e16a-057b-11ee-874a-78fbf24a95c4.shtml

Throwaway Account because I am active on my main with my close circle & apologise for the formatting as I am on my phone (and also bc I copied n pasted after trying to post this to a vent sub but it needed a karma limit) $45 just got taken out of my bank account which at normal point in my life would have been okay but today seems like the last straw. Recently, I have moved house for study approx 13hrs from my hometown but only 6 from where i used to live as I became homeless at 15 when my alcoholic father kicked me out. I never really enjoyed school and managed to score a full time job with some really supportive adult co workers so I was mostly fine and just couch surfed with school friends and other highschool drop outs sending half of my money back to my dad so he could still eat until I decided I wanted to do more.I started studying at my local University at 17 and worked to support myself and slowly stopped supporting my father. I am now 20 and studying my honours year at a different uni- I have been offered a full time paid internship +mentorship with the potential for a job afterwards at a company for my dream career, but it required me to move closer to my campus instead of being online and at home. I did not want to miss out on this opportunity so I packed up my life at the start of this year to complete the required studies to start in Nov. The plan was to survive on my savings and government student benefits until then, which was all going perfect until a few weeks ago when I heard news my fathers cancer had gotten worse and my car broke down on the drive to see him. I knew he was diagnosed a while ago but it was never serious so I never made contact. He is pretty close to dying and I was scared I would lose him without ever having given us a chance at a healed relationship and I hoped he would be proud of the life I was starting to build for myself. Instead all he did was make me feel guilty about the cost of his medicine and ask me for money. I explained to him I couldn't give him any as I was on a tight budget because my aforementioned savings had been blown on a new car because my first one broke. Things got heated and I left. In my time away from home I have created a really close support network to the point where we all live together to save money with the rising rental costs (an idea i pitched that really hasn't made much difference to their lifestyles but is the only reason I eat enough these days). We all study and this semester some of us are graduating and others of us are just starting new things like my internship. To celebrate they have organised a week of partying before we all get back into our studies, an old tradition from when some of us were still just baby undergrads. I am a huge extrovert and there is nothing more in the world I love than spending time with this people, but as I have always been supporting myself and admittedly most of them have fairly wealthy parents I have had to create an introvert persona as an excuse to spend time with them doing low cost activities (board games nights, cooking them dinner, movies etc.). Their parents give them allowances so their nights out often consist of things like theme parks, dinners, clubbing and concerts that I will generally tag along to once every 12mnths if i can afford to save for it. I adjusted my budget this fortnight to spare myself $20 to go to dinner with them one of the nights. I am on the train home from the beach and $45 just came out from a gym membership I forgot to pause in all the mixed emotions from seeing my father. I had my rent and $37 dollars left. $20 of that was for the celebration dinner and the rest was supposed to be groceries for me and my cat. Now I can't even afford my rent let alone celebrate milestones with people i consider important. I have never been late for an expense before and my friends know I have less than them but they don't know the true extent of the generational poverty I am escaping. I managed to scrounge up some spare change and buy food for my cat and I have rice, butter, broth, eggs, coffee and milk so we will be fine. I am not asking for assistance. I have no one to blame but my frazzled state, I am just disappointed that I will have to make an excuse to miss dinner and also somehow borrow the few dollars I am now short on rent. I wish I could talk to them about it I know they wouldn't judge me but they would never understand. It just feels like I will never be able to heal or escape from the consequences of my childhood and the extremely dark times of my early through to teenage years. I have therapy this week that I luckily prepaid but until then it's cuddling my cat and comfort shows lol. thanks for reading guys i just needed to let it out instead of heading into a negative self spiral over a small mistake.

Kwame Owino yesterday made this point and I agree with him. Everywhere you look there are empty houses and new ones are being built, showing that there are enough houses. There was this flat near where we lived that was like 18 out of the 24 without tenants. Even where we currently live there are hundreds of houses just sitting empty. I think if people were paid better they would move out of slums. It is low income that is keeping these people there. These houses are not being built for the people earning below 20k because they will never afford them. They won't even afford to pay the ten percent deposit required to start occupying a house. I think if the government wants to really change people's lives they should legislate and enforce a higher minimum wage or give these houses free to the very poor (but that is another challenge altogether)

At 35 he decides to leave to the US to earn hundreds of millions, play 8 months a year and live next to his best friend Agüero, instead of joining his parent club (the one he bitterly cried for 2 years ago) for a "last dance". He knows very well he is no longer differential as he was at his prime 2010-2012, that's why he chose PSG rather than "trying his luck" at great clubs in competitive leagues such us Man City or Inter. However, in a team with Neymar and the best of the world, Mbappé, he still failed to make a difference at the biggest stages (6 goals in his first season and eliminated from UCL and coupe de France without a single goal scored). At the world cup, Di María was the best just like in the Copa America but he gets all credit. The history books will say the opposite but these are facts