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Manigant
On the wall in the great hall you see a painting of Manigant. You recall Arasemis’s story about this early alchemist. He was a physician in Almeria, back in the Old World, for an ancient king named Byornrud. The king was despised but Manigant dutifully served him for many years.
After various atrocities were committed by Byornrud against his own people, Manigant attempted to secretly poison him. The plot failed, killing one of Byornrud’s lieutenants instead, and Manigant fell under suspicion. Later, when the king’s beautiful queen died after being treated by Manigant, Byornrud had him put to death despite his insistence that he had not been responsible for her death.
Although Manigant’s life predates the colonial period in Pemonia, the members of the Order of Candlestone remember him as among the earliest recorded alchemists who attempted to overthrow a malicious king.
This is the oldest painting in the room, but you think the artist's antique style is interesting.
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Context: This is an excerpt from the Earthpillar Online: Thorendor Castle interactive. This epic fantasy WIP has full-scale DungeonDraft maps of every room of a 10-floor castle (100+ map images), where alchemical objects, artwork, bookshelves, chests, and doors are clickable like an old school choose-your-own-adventure. You can wander each room to learn more about the Earthpillar world you’ve read about in the novels (or get a taste of the writing if you haven't), without stumbling into spoilers. Art made with Midjourney and my own work in Procreate. More at Earthpillar

2013 Honda Fit Sport MT 93k miles, just replaced the passenger cv axle. Old one had too much play in it. On the drive home, I noticed that there's a humming/vibration at 3000-3100ish rpm when driving regardless of what gear I'm in. Doesn't happen sitting still or coasting in neutral.
Anything I should double check? Or is it just a poorly manufactured replacement part?
I didn't get the car aligned after replacement. I'm changing tie rod ends and sway bar links tomorrow, will get it aligned then.

The power of music is often underestimated. While it may seem like just another form of entertainment, music has the ability to deeply impact and change people's lives. This is exactly what happened to a terrorist who, through listening to Playboi Carti's music, underwent a profound transformation and changed his ways.
At first glance, the idea of a terrorist being influenced by a rapper like Playboi Carti may seem far-fetched. After all, Playboi Carti is known for his energetic trap music that often glorifies materialism and hedonism. However, it was precisely this vibe that drew the attention of the terrorist, who we will call Ahmed.
Ahmed had been a member of a radical extremist group for several years, convinced that violence and destruction were the only ways to achieve his goals. He had participated in several attacks and had even been involved in the planning of a major terrorist plot. However, Ahmed was becoming increasingly disillusioned with the group's leadership and tactics. He began to question whether the violence was truly justified and whether the ends really justified the means.
One day, while searching for new music to listen to, Ahmed stumbled upon Playboi Carti's song "Magnolia." He was immediately drawn to the catchy beat and infectious energy of the track. As he listened to the lyrics, something clicked inside him. He realized that he had been living his life according to a rigid and dogmatic ideology that had no room for creativity, individuality, or joy. He had been so focused on fighting against the world that he had forgotten to enjoy it.
Over the next few weeks, Ahmed listened to more and more of Playboi Carti's music. He found that the rapper's songs spoke to him in a way that nothing else had before. He began to see the world in a different light and to question his own beliefs and actions. He realized that he didn't want to be a part of a group that brought only pain and suffering to the world.
With Playboi Carti's music as his inspiration, Ahmed decided to leave the terrorist group and start a new life. It wasn't easy, and he faced many challenges and obstacles along the way. But he knew that he had to follow his own path and make a positive difference in the world.
Today, Ahmed is a completely different person than he was before. He no longer subscribes to a rigid ideology or sees violence as the answer to his problems. Instead, he focuses on living life to the fullest and spreading positivity and kindness wherever he goes. Playboi Carti's music may have been the catalyst for his transformation, but it was Ahmed's own inner strength and courage that ultimately led him to change his ways.
In conclusion, the story of Ahmed's transformation shows us the transformative power of music. Even something as seemingly insignificant as a catchy trap beat can have a profound impact on a person's life. Playboi Carti's music gave Ahmed the inspiration and motivation he needed to break free from his old ways and start a new, more positive chapter in his life. It's a powerful reminder that we should never underestimate the power of art to change the world.

First of all, thank you for Civitai! I am glad to have this resource, and I truly appreciate your effort.
But one thing has been annoying very much for long time now, and that is how the reviews load. It is not a problem, when a model only has a handful of reviews. But for popular models with hundreds of reviews each week for months, when you scroll down the page it is very difficult to orientate yourself among the reviews.
For one, text only reviews seem to load first, and there is always a clutter of many months old text only reviews at the bottom. This becomes problematic when you need to scroll below them to load the next reviews, and you don't see which reviews appear where, so that when you scroll up again to continue looking at the reviews where you left off, you often scroll past your last point and have to go through a lot of reviews again until you find where you were.
This problem become even larger, because the reviews aren't loaded in rows but in columns, and the columns are of unequal lengths. Often there is one column with image reviews that reaches down very far, and one or two other columns that are filled with text only reviews. When the new reviews load, they seem to get loaded into the shorther columns first, so that new reviews appear far up the page, between other reviews that you have already seen, making it even more difficult to understand where you were.
This become even more disorientating, as the images become blurry again when you scroll away from them and then back to them, so that you have to wait for the images to become unblurred again before you can continue.
There are other sites (e.g. Instagram) that manage loading new images better, even on very long pages. For one, the columns there are of equal length (max diff is 1 image, not tens of images as on Civitai). Second, loading there happens in rows, not columns (of unequal length). Third, loading happens below the current screen, not above. Finally, there isn't a bunch of old posts loading first that you have to scroll past if you want to load new images then return to these new images.
I'd be extremely grateful if you could change this loading behavior, because I frequently want to come back and see if new examples have been posted for my favourite models, and I don't want to spend hours scrolling through the reviews as I presently do (no exaggeration!).
Thank you for considering my suggestion!

Hey guys! I just came across my grandfathers old cassettes, and i’ve been having a blast listening to them in my car. I really want a cassette with Dancing in the Moonlight by Kings Harvest on it, but I can’t seem to find one anywhere. Anyone know of a relatively common cassette with the song on it?

So my girlfriend has a 20 yo son. He is a sweet innocent boy, but totally clueless sometimes. Today he knocked on the bedroom door while.we were having sex. We super quickly put clothes on and then he came in and talked about random stuff completely unaware of what he just interrupted. When we watch a movie he can walk in 8 times and just start talking and each time gf will pause and let him talk and then he wanders off again. I feel like he is old enough to be more self aware and I feel like she should be laying down boundaries more and tell him to wait or give us time alone. Pls give me some advice. Do I expect too much? How do I approach this?

Any recommendations for local co-op games that are fun and suitable for a 7-year-old available on GeForce Now?

I feel my old self coming back. A lot calmer, more chill. More relaxed and accepting of the way things are.
On 1 coffee a day now from a 1000mg habit which took me 3 months to slowly taper down. Been hard but I couldn't do cold turkey.
Tomorrow I'm going to try my first day without coffee in who knows how long. I miss my old sense and I feel like I can see him, he's within grasp but not yet here.
Plus, sleep been the best lately.

I was just watching a documentary about the PRC (People's Republic of China). They were saying that Confucius taught that honesty is one of the highest human virtues. As part of the Communist Party's new plan to establish legitimacy, they are drawing on these ancient Chinese traditions. They showed a young girl drawing the Chinese character for "honesty". Obviously there is real irony in this.
But don't get me wrong, this is not a uniquely Chinese phenomenon. How about the perception that the United States is the "land of the free", when in truth it is the nation with the highest incarceration rate. Or the "American Dream", where what you set your mind to you can achieve with hard work, when in reality you are more likely to move out of poverty in Old World Europe.
But it's not only a political thing. How about religion? People believe all sorts of ridiculous ideas, and not only that, but are willing to kill, and die, to defend them.
It happens on a much more personal level, too. Recently a client of mine insisted that I was only interested in money, despite the fact that this is not the case - I truly love my job, and I have sacrificed a higher salary in order to do something I enjoy. She was angry with me because she was not holding up on her end of the bargain, and I called her on it and asked for the payment I was due. She told me horrible, nasty things! I argued with her for a bit, but in the end decided not to fight it and just let her take her business elsewhere. I'm not sure what world she lives in, but it's clear that what she thought and said about me was not rooted in reality. She never apologized, but in the end I received my payment and she continues doing business with me. So I guess deep down she knew she was wrong even though she didn't have the humility to admit it.
It happens all the times in relationships. We treat every little thing as a "red flag" rather than recognizing that people are human and are doing the best that they can. We "cancel" people before giving them a chance, and 9 times out of 10 not because they deserve it, but rather because we are afraid of opening up about our own wounds and dysfunctions. It is a shield, but since people are not interested in truth, they go on throwing the blame outward.
This is quite simply how our society works. The whole thing is built on lies. Perhaps it's because those lies benefit those at the top, which is quite clearly the case in China, and even in the USA. But also because we as individuals are too afraid to face the truth. The truth is scary. The truth is painful. Because we are vulnerable, we are mortal, and we are all quite powerless. These are not exactly fun things to try and digest.
But at the end of the day the journey is about you. It's up to you to open your eyes to the truth, not anyone else. That's not your job. Maybe by opening yourself up you can inspire others. But it's always about you first. The only benefit in realizing that the society is based on lies is that it allows you to know where you're coming from and also to see things with clear eyes. That way you can begin to function free from the chains of conditioning.
Is it scary? Yes. But as far as I know, we only get one shot at this thing called life. IMO, it's much better to live an honest life rooted in truth, rather than a half-hearted one rooted in lies. There is real satisfaction in this way. Perhaps that was Confucius was alluding to.

Dear Fans of Lelias Melaven: I no longer have the energy to keep up to any utau community (there is none). I don't associate with anyone or even have talks with people who know anything remotely about the program UTAU. I always wanted somebody to use Lelias Melaven with some skill and possibly cover tracks and songs that I haven't. I really would have liked it If anyone in the utau community reached out to me. I never receive compliments for the work I've done. I get a lot of people who simply do not understand Japanese that just outright dislike my music due to it not being English. Many utau people refuse to use anything that isn't VCV or more. I am so tired of having to convert and change peoples ust files just to cover music. I am getting tired of fighting for copyright strikes on every song I've covered. Lelias Melaven was made in 2011 and that was about 12 years ago. I have grown since then and have had my account deleted due to a crime committed against my old account and my family. I've been in a 4 day coma about 3 years ago due to a heart attack. I've been hit by a car and that isn't even what disabled me in the first place. I just can't keep chasing this dream where Lelias Melaven is known as a "good" utauloid. I was so happy when I released the final CV voicebank for her I spent hundreds of hours mulling and thinking about the proper placement of my oto.ini file which is the most crucial part of tuning an utau. Spending so much time making this "instrument" was worth it but I don't foresee anyone ever actually practically using Lelias. I wanted so badly for so long for people to create music covers with her. I had only good intentions making her, and I don't see her character as a "racist" depiction of anyone in real life. I find her and my drawings to be beautiful. I always listen to my music every couple weeks but aside from that I am absolutely positive nobody will ever care enough to pick up the .rar file and properly install or use her in the future. If you're reading this and shaking your head the whole time I ask: why won't you make anything with her?. In general the Utau community is more bothered making their own creations and about 99% of all utau are utter shit (yes I'll say it). Whenever I used to mix these tracks together I would have to edit and custom almost all the ust files. So often I had to convert the vcv ust into cv and it still sounded just as good as vcv aside from a few errors sometimes. I know I heard many people comment saying she has a "Accent" or is just simply not sounding native Japanese. These are problems that will never be fixed because I'm simply too exhausted to keep doing this content. I've had to rebuild this entire account and only managed to release about half as much content as my old youtube account. I had to use backups and also remix songs I've already covered just to release the content I already have. I have begged people, tried offering money, I've even had moments where I would find a bunch of good ust files and just craft a few videos here and there. I would really like it if somebody could just take me out of my depression a bit by simply using Lelias properly to cover other tracks and songs. She is entirely free to download and you can find it in "about". I'm done with the terrible community utau has shown me. The ego's, drama and bullying I've experienced from other users has been crippling to the point where I don't have any drive to even install utau again. It would be an honor if somebody would show me some kindness and just do a song or two... anything or any kind of help would be amazing but It seems hopeless to ask people for this. If you are a content creator I'd love it if you used the software to make her sing or say whatever you'd like. I really miss the old days when there was constantly new Vocaloid songs and producers would release ust files or even allow people to record karaoke versions over their instrumentals. I will not yield to anyone telling me to delete any of my content, ill see you in court. For everyone else who doesn't have issues with my content I would like it if you would listen to my music from time to time or even subscribe... over 4 years I've managed to get 40 subscribers. It seems almost every person who uses utau regularly has their own utauloid and often they are just terrible (even worse than mine). Not tuned properly or just plain not recorded well or even has a properly tuned oto file. So many times I have tried to listen to other peoples music to compare but its just hot garbage, all of it. It all sounds terrible but another thing that bugs me about utau is that everyone is obsessed with creating Teto Kasane stuff. (im not hating on her but I just know there are way better utauloids out there). It was cool being the underdog and having a few people say I did well but the majority of what I've experienced with other people is that they simply just don't like it. Not understanding Japanese and me living in Canada doesn't really help my situation. To be honest I am bored of being ignored from my passion and Its no fun having no friends at all. Was I really such a bad guy?, I didn't even bother trying to talk to anyone else about utau except a few people off the internet. Yes I have a Lelias Melaven Tattoo and that is one of my favorites and she will always be available for download for free from Mediafire. All I ever wanted was to listen to other people use this creation of mine but in over 10 years NOBODY has ever used her and kept the songs online for more than a year. It bothers me and keeps me awake some nights in depression when I think about what a waste of my life and time it was to create Lelias. I live a stressful life and I'm tired of being ignored by everyone. What was so bad about Lelias in the first place?. It would really make my day if just anyone good could use her in a respectful way and keep the songs that are made online. I shouldn't be the only person who makes content, It costs money to convince somebody to make art or music these days and that's a resource I don't have any of to spare. I am a poor man, I am Disabled and I also am just exhausted in trying to tell people about her. I'm really sad lately, and I don't think anyone out there even wants to listen or help me.
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https://www.youtube.com/@kalvinlewis

We lost our beautiful boy Jónsi just over two weeks ago. He was a young dog (only 2.5 years old) and it was very unexpected. I am really struggling with a lot of things - feeling robbed of our life together, all the reminders in our house, the loss of our routines, the weight of having to decide that euthanasia was our least worst choice and make those arrangements...
But one of the things I'm having such a hard time with is that I'm 28 weeks pregnant with our first baby and now suddenly my family isn't the shape I'd thought it was going to be. He's never going to meet our little girl, she's never going to know the dog she was meant to grow up with. We're never going to stress about him barking while she naps, or her throwing food off her high chair too a dog on a restricted diet. I'm not going to spend the first few weeks of my maternity leave (my work requires me to be on leave a few weeks before birth) tucked up on the couch with him snuggled in beside me while I finish crocheting the baby blanket I'm making for her while we wait for her to arrive.
I am so sad all the time. I cry a lot. I can't focus on the things we need to do to get ready for baby. I was so excited for this next phase of life and now everything feels so grey. I was already worried about post-partum mental health and now I feel like I'll be starting from such a place of deficit.
We have another dog, she's nearly 6. She's a great comfort and still having a dog here is helping me immensely. She's missing him though, and we can't imagine being a single dog household for long. But everything I'm reading says not to consider bringing home a new dog (particularly not a puppy) before baby is born, or when you have a newborn, or a toddler. To wait until your child is 3-5. Our dog will be at least 9 by then! There's a breeder with a really lovely sounding slightly older pup looking for a home at the moment, and part of me wants to bring her home right now, and part of me knows that's a crazy idea. And I get upset because people on the parenting subreddits also say that all your feelings about your dogs change when you bring your baby home and that the dogs won't get the attention they need and I don't want that to be how it is.
I don't want to rush into things and we'd only bring home a dog that's the right fit for us, but I'm so sad about feeling like we won't be able to get another dog in the foreseeable future. And then I'm so angry with the world because we tried so hard to time things so that we would have young, but settled adult dogs by the time our first baby came along. And that's just gone now, and it's so unfair. And I don't want to be looking for a new dog that's the right fit for what will probably be a chaotic home with a small child, I want our sweet snuggly boy to be here.
He was meant to be here. Our next big challenge was meant to be working out how we all lived new baby life together. Now instead we're trying to work out how we do life without him.

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I was just watching a documentary about the PRC (People's Republic of China). They were saying that Confucius taught that honesty is one of the highest human virtues. As part of the Communist Party's new plan to establish legitimacy, they are drawing on these ancient Chinese traditions. They showed a young girl drawing the Chinese character for "honesty". Obviously there is real irony in this.
But don't get me wrong, this is not a uniquely Chinese phenomenon. How about the perception that the United States is the "land of the free", when in truth it is the nation with the highest incarceration rate. Or the "American Dream", where what you set your mind to you can achieve with hard work, when in reality you are more likely to move out of poverty in Old World Europe.
But it's not only a political thing. How about religion? People believe all sorts of ridiculous ideas, and not only that, but are willing to kill, and die, to defend them.
It happens on a much more personal level, too. Recently a client of mine insisted that I was only interested in money, despite the fact that this is not the case - I truly love my job, and I have sacrificed a higher salary in order to do something I enjoy. She was angry with me because she was not holding up on her end of the bargain, and I called her on it and asked for the payment I was due. She told me horrible, nasty things! I argued with her for a bit, but in the end decided not to fight it and just let her take her business elsewhere. I'm not sure what world she lives in, but it's clear that what she thought and said about me was not rooted in reality. She never apologized, but in the end I received my payment and she continues doing business with me. So I guess deep down she knew she was wrong even though she didn't have the humility to admit it.
It happens all the times in relationships. We treat every little thing as a "red flag" rather than recognizing that people are human and are doing the best that they can. We "cancel" people before giving them a chance, and 9 times out of 10 not because they deserve it, but rather because we are afraid of opening up about our own wounds and dysfunctions. It is a shield, but since people are not interested in truth, they go on throwing the blame outward.
This is quite simply how our society works. The whole thing is built on lies. Perhaps it's because those lies benefit those at the top, which is quite clearly the case in China, and even in the USA. But also because we as individuals are too afraid to face the truth. The truth is scary. The truth is painful. Because we are vulnerable, we are mortal, and we are all quite powerless. These are not exactly fun things to try and digest.
But at the end of the day the journey is about you. It's up to you to open your eyes to the truth, not anyone else. That's not your job. Maybe by opening yourself up you can inspire others. But it's always about you first. The only benefit in realizing that the society is based on lies is that it allows you to know where you're coming from and also to see things with clear eyes. That way you can begin to function free from the chains of conditioning.
Is it scary? Yes. But as far as I know, we only get one shot at this thing called life. IMO, it's much better to live an honest life rooted in truth, rather than a half-hearted one rooted in lies. There is real satisfaction in this way. Perhaps that was Confucius was alluding to.

Or both? I usually always rock back and forth when sitting down and even when talking to someone while I am sitting down on my couch (I live in supported accommodation so people come up and help me with stuff) I will rock back and forth and some people even say it makes them feel dizzy because of how fast I do it. It is literally like a "crazy" person portrayal in old (and even new) movies, maybe this is a real phenomenon that rocking back and forth is a symptom of schizophrenia and/or hightened states of anxiety, but I do it even when I am not feeling too anxious, I do it automatically now, and when I am not doing it (like now, because I am typing) I will still tap one of my feet or rotate between feet. Is this weird? Does anyone else do this?
EDIT: I am also ADHD (diagnosed at 7 yrs old) and am on 35mg of Methylphenidate (ritalin) 2x a DAY.

I was just watching a documentary about the PRC (People's Republic of China). They were saying that Confucius taught that honesty is one of the highest human virtues. As part of the Communist Party's new plan to establish legitimacy, they are drawing on these ancient Chinese traditions. They showed a young girl drawing the Chinese character for "honesty". Obviously there is real irony in this.
But don't get me wrong, this is not a uniquely Chinese phenomenon. How about the perception that the United States is the "land of the free", when in truth it is the nation with the highest incarceration rate. Or the "American Dream", where what you set your mind to you can achieve with hard work, when in reality you are more likely to move out of poverty in Old World Europe.
But it's not only a political thing. How about religion? People believe all sorts of ridiculous ideas, and not only that, but are willing to kill, and die, to defend them.
It happens on a much more personal level, too. Recently a client of mine insisted that I was only interested in money, despite the fact that this is not the case - I truly love my job, and I have sacrificed a higher salary in order to do something I enjoy. She was angry with me because she was not holding up on her end of the bargain, and I called her on it and asked for the payment I was due. She told me horrible, nasty things! I argued with her for a bit, but in the end decided not to fight it and just let her take her business elsewhere. I'm not sure what world she lives in, but it's clear that what she thought and said about me was not rooted in reality. She never apologized, but in the end I received my payment and she continues doing business with me. So I guess deep down she knew she was wrong even though she didn't have the humility to admit it.
It happens all the times in relationships. We treat every little thing as a "red flag" rather than recognizing that people are human and are doing the best that they can. We "cancel" people before giving them a chance, and 9 times out of 10 not because they deserve it, but rather because we are afraid of opening up about our own wounds and dysfunctions. It is a shield, but since people are not interested in truth, they go on throwing the blame outward.
This is quite simply how our society works. The whole thing is built on lies. Perhaps it's because those lies benefit those at the top, which is quite clearly the case in China, and even in the USA. But also because we as individuals are too afraid to face the truth. The truth is scary. The truth is painful. Because we are vulnerable, we are mortal, and we are all quite powerless. These are not exactly fun things to try and digest.
But at the end of the day the journey is about you. It's up to you to open your eyes to the truth, not anyone else. That's not your job. Maybe by opening yourself up you can inspire others. But it's always about you first. The only benefit in realizing that the society is based on lies is that it allows you to know where you're coming from and also to see things with clear eyes. That way you can begin to function free from the chains of conditioning.
Is it scary? Yes. But as far as I know, we only get one shot at this thing called life. IMO, it's much better to live an honest life rooted in truth, rather than a half-hearted one rooted in lies. There is real satisfaction in this way. Perhaps that was Confucius was alluding to.

I hope this is the right place and right way to ask for this! I've lurked but actually posting is totally new to me.
I'm a 21 year old autistic woman from Finland and I have major trouble leaving the house on my own. My biggest issue is anxiety, I'm so afraid of having a breakdown that I dont even want to try. For the record I've experienced panic attacks, anxiety attacks, sensory overloads and severe stomach issues while out there, so my fears aren't exactly unfounded. I've tried my best to power through the fears and work through that anxiety with my therapist, support people, and my mom's help. However although there are days I'm successful, it's not a progression as much as a rare good day. I've come to the conclusion that I'm not going to have the freedom I want unless I embrace my need for further assistance and tools.
Which leads me to the topic of this sub! I'm wondering if a service dog could help me, or if they'd be more troublesome.

1. What kind of tasks could one be trained for? Could a service dog recognize when I should drop everything and head to the bathroom before I myself know? Would one sit with me while I suffer with that and/or a panic attack?
2. If I already struggle going out even with the company of my mother (who makes me the least nervous,) could a dog really help? On one hand a dog would be more often available than her, so I wouldn't have to only go out on weekends (more chances to go out on a good day!), but on the other hand the dog cant drive. (Bus systems are amazing in my city, but I get nervous without a solid escape plan.)
3. I have a pet cat. Any experiences with that combo?

Thank you! I'm mostly looking for personal thoughts, but I'm all for official resources as well.

I’m non-binary and use they/them pronouns in my personal life, but in work I am constantly faced with being referred to a woman, lady, girl, etc constantly. I wish I could come home and be comfortable but as me and my partner still live with his parents (we are planning on a big move) I am constantly referred to a woman here as well. His parents are old so I’m not even going to bother having that conversation with them, and because of this my partner has to use she/her in regards to me at home with them. The only time people use they/them with me is when I’m out with my friends or if me and my partner are out together by ourselves. I also use they/them online and when I am networking in irl art communities and industries. I know this is a very common situation for a lot of people, but it’s so exhausting. I’ve been feeling especially gender-dysphoric lately and i think it may just be a build up of all of this on my shoulders. Does anyone have any tips on how I can cope with this or even have any self-affirmations I can use?

i’ve seen lots of posts across reddit art subs that essentially say that while being self-taught is okay, art school is invaluable for it’s real-time critique, its focus on a student’s specific struggles, and for the fact that it teaches you how to think about art instead of only learning the technical aspects. i desperately wanted to go to art school right out of high school, but i couldn’t afford college even though i worked full-time, and my parents wouldn’t help me go to school unless i studied something “that will make money.” well cut to 12 years later and i’ve failed out of school, am unemployed, and am having a mental health crisis after years of stuffing down my inclination toward art to try other “more responsible” things. in addition to that, i’m in IMMENSE student loan debt from the university i failed out of.
i’ve always wanted to be an artist more than anything. however, it’s going to be exceptionally hard for me to get into art school financially and probably academically (failing former grades) and socially (i’m old). i feel heartbroken, like i’ve missed out on an integral part of being a fine artist who can keep up in the art world.
what advice would you guys give someone like me? do i try and do the impossible and pursue school anyway? or do i cut my losses and resign myself to being a sloppily self-taught hobbyist? i’m so lost at this point.