I unfollowed this sub years ago because I let myself be convinced that my mom was trying her best and I am to blame. After getting a very illuminating autism diagnosis a few months ago (+ ADHD at 14 - 34f), I’m feeling pretty good about not doubting myself anymore, but narc moms gonna narc. Super long rant ahead TW: for childhood and financial abuse and questionable animal care
For context, I’m the middle of three girls, and the only one to move out, and my dx explained the lifetime of shame from my toxic family. Like when I was 10, I remember saying how excited I was to move out and be an adult when I graduated high school, and the following trademark twist-pinch my mom is known for, when she told me I made my dad sad for wanting to ever move out. Like fuck stupid ass 10yo me, right?
I’m working through shaking off the 34 years trauma. My parents haven’t always been well off, but probably have been since my teens. My mom works hard as a breadwinner, and never lets me forget how hard I need to work to have even half what she’s been able to provide for us…or that I’m bad with money.
I’ve done ok for myself, and things were good enough with her that when I needed to move back home last year after a nasty (police involved) breakup and living alone during most of the pandemic, they let me. I offered rent, they promised they just wanted me to be safe and refused. I said only 1 year max, but delayed moving out to find the right place. I moved last month. My younger sister (29) though, left her 2 dogs to go abroad to finish her bachelor’s last August and my autistic ass couldn’t let her old dog die in my parents care. They spend $1k on bed sheets, but think it’s idiotic to pay a vet more than $50.
She’s back at the end of the month, and holy hell if keeping her old dog alive (“Methuselah” as he’s well past life expectancy), while having to ignore big younger dog (“Pepper” too much shedding, poor training, parents keep her exclusively outdoors even in rain and yell at me for bringing her in), hasn’t been the most stressful thing on top of working full time. Methuselah sleeps 20 hrs a day and is pretty healthy, but prone to bladder stones I’ve found out 2000 stressful dollars later.
I wanted to take Pepper with me too when I moved, but Lil Sis saw an ig post I made with Pepper (I tagged her) while I was taking measurements and ratted on me to mom saying Pepper is too stressed out, so I can’t take her for 6 weeks. Why? Pepper’s tail was down in the picture. Who cares I got everything I’d need for an at-home grooming salon to deshed her that same day or that she hasn’t had a bath in 3 months? Apparently I sure as fuck shouldn’t because I “act like I know everything” too much.
I haven’t asked for a dime until yesterday because I’m now financially bruised from spending ~$2500 on the two dogs that aren’t mine over the past 10 months (I added up the “pet” and “vet” charges because my budget was wonky, so that’s an estimate).
Yesterday, I asked my mom for only $1000 to help split the care costs with my folks because of course, Lil Sis is broke and I finally realized how fucked up it is for them to expect me to eat all those costs and delay my life plans for someone else’s dogs.
Mom gave it to me immediately, while arguing that I moved in with my bf so I shouldn’t need to be reimbursed if he’s pulling his weight and I chose to take care of Methuselah because no one asked. She and Lil Sis literally cornered me and Big Sis (blocking hallway path) about dog care two days before Lil Sis left, but she somehow doesn’t remember. How convenient.
I thanked her and left, but she called me a couple hours later to keep up the barrage of insults.
I hung up on her because when I answered, she opened with “how dare you…”
It was the first time and fuck did it feel good. Even if she called me r-word for autistics in text after because I asked to be partially reimbursed. Not to be paid a fee for sitting, not for the cats I want to get, but to be partially reimbursed for keeping Methuselah alive.
I finally told her she needs a better therapist and to read up on financial abuse.
Family should be expected to take care of their siblings pets for free my ass. Fuck that noise. I do want any feedback because I’m struggling with the guilt: I did volunteer to take care of the dog, but am I wrong for asking to split the cost?
Thanks for letting me vent, apologies if this is the wrong place, but I tried to do a throwaway AITA post and am done feeling shame, so if Lil Sis sees this - sup?

ImpossibleKintsugi deleted from /borrow

• Account is deleted or shadowbanned
• Link to the deleted post
• Was a selfpost with score: 3
• Submitted 2015-06-22 20:26 (UTC)
• Was up for for approx 2903.99 days
• Probably deleted within the past 18.53 days
  • Was last seen up around 2023-05-17 07:24 (UTC)
  • Deletion detected at 2023-06-04 20:10 (UTC)

Active loans

• redditloans.com mobile search
• Could not fetch loan data from redditloans.com (error?)

Quick search

• Search for all deleted posts by this author

Title

[REQ] 430 USD - My dad broke my car and is perfectly content with my being stuck here. I need to fix it so I can get work and get out of here. Mt. Gilead, Ohio

Post contents

Sorry for the long post but I've included the breakdown of costs and timelines in hopes of better making my case.
My dad broke my car over a year ago and won't fix it. He's perfectly content, it seems, paying for me to stay here and never leave. I keep asking about it but he basically won't fix it. I get only enough money to feed myself, my cat, and buy soap for the bath.
I need to get my car street legal and reliable. It's going to be a 30 - 40 mile drive to ANY factory so I need to know it won't die on me. After that, I hope to get a job at the Honda plant or at Whirlpool in Marion. I am also hoping to try out American Showa in Delaware. They hire at 17 an hour for floor workers. There's no reason I shouldn't get hired as I have a clean history and don't do drugs. If they'll hire felons, well, I'm at least that good. :)
I need about 430 USD. The breakdown of that amount is as followed and is intended to be enough to get my car street legal again. I've used the cheapest parts on AutoZone for my car.
34.50 - Registration (Annual state thing in ohio)
10.00 - Late registration (Last registered the plates in 2013)
118.00 - Alternator
19.99 - Belt
35.00 - Reconditioned Battery (Local Junkyard reconditions them and they are pretty cheap)
65.99 - Muffler (There is an irreparable hole in it that will get me pulled over)
24.00 - Coolant (This seems the odd one out, but my dad poured motor oil into my radiator. I bought new hoses and can flush it with water. I MAY be able to do this repair myself but even 24 dollars is beyond me to refill it and make sure there's no leaks or errors in my work)
+ 40% this amount for labor on the car. I know a local handyman that I believe will do it for that. If there is extra it'll go towards gas.
I think I can promise repayment of 500 dollars in three months. One month to fix my car, one month to get hired somewhere (The factories are through employment agencies so the process may be slow), and then three weeks for my first check to come in. (Since if you get hired between checks you can end up in an awkward place of not receiving payment for the first three weeks- and the first week will be training- I don't know if that is paid or not.)
I can provide my phone number (for texting) and my relay number (If you want to call, I am hard of hearing and cannot hear on a phone.) Or most other forms of ID.
I have paypal but don't know of any other options.

When we was in high school we had some programs together my friend group and their friend group. After high school only I tried to keep in touch with that friends group, and go local events, as my friends move from the town. Last 2-3 year speak online as they moved other cities too, and they said lost connections as well.
This year only happy holiday messages. Now I just saw them in a local event, they were together. I came home, feeling sad, cause i tried to keep in touch, and make a friendship with everyone.
And this happening recently, I try to keep up friendships after school, university, etc. but people lost interests.

"Getting in touch with my late father's boyfriend
Apologies in advance that this is a very very long post, and my writing may be difficult to understand as English is not my first language. Somebody said that I speak weird last time I posted, so I've written this in advance and I think it sounds a bit novelly. I made it worse by being conscious of it haha
A little while ago I posted about my father's passing, and the reveal at his funeral that he'd not only been seeing a male escort of around my age, but that he'd been seeing him for 20 years and left him money in his will. Fuck tons of it. Kind of evidence that, though their relationship had started off as transactional, it certainly hadn't stayed that way.
Please read the original post on my profile
There's a lot more context, and I explained everything that I knew at the time in my comments section to various different questions.
Honestly the comments under that post were totally overwhelming. I felt like I was switching constantly between defending my father, and then defending the man he'd been seeing, and then defending myself to those who believed my hang ups surrounding this situation were anything to do with my opinions of sex work or the LGBT community.
I'd like to clarify from here that both of those groups have my full support. I don't care about the inheritance issues that my family have clung to in this time. Some things I worded poorly, and I think it came off like I was trying to reduce their relationship, or them, even, to just homosexuality and sex work. I apologise, I was processing a lot.
All I cared about was what this relationship meant about my father. Whether the age gap within it meant that he had victimized this man in any way, and needing some time to process the fact that my father had been - quite literally - living a double life that I'd known nothing about.
All I learned from making that post was that people on the internet are venomous, from all angles. I found that the most helpful opinions were those from other sex workers, who both commented and messaged me personally. I'm sure that much of this backlash is thanks to the stigma surrounding terms like prostitute, but it's worth mentioning that I'd never intended to reduce this man to sex work, and my mention of details like his sexuality, this side of his work life, and the money, were mostly to provide context for how he must be coping, and how this has generated such a scandal in my very conservative family.
I sincerely apologise for any damage I may have caused.
On to now
I'll be calling my father's boyfriend David, this isn't his true name.
About five days passed between my post and deciding to finally get in contact with David. I didn't expect him to answer my call, because my extended family have been harassing him since the funeral, so I'd imagine that any call from an unknown number is black listed in his mind. If he hadn't picked up, I would've sent him a very cautious text message and all but prayed that he see it.
I was almost in tears dialling his number, and I'm sure he could've heard the breaks in my voice. I told him who I was, and basically begged him not to hang up. He listened to me fumble my words asking him if he wanted to go for a coffee with me, sort of clumsily explaining that I just wanted to understand who he was to my father. I really was not expecting him to be as warm to me as he was, but he agreed to see me, and he didn't sound at all angry with me.
We met at a very quiet coffee place a couple days later. It was his choice, something about knowing the owners, so they may have known exactly what our situation was and who I was.
The version of him who attended my father's funeral was very different from the version of him who I met for coffee. He dressed a lot more casually, his hair was a little messy, and he honestly looked like he'd been spiralling just as much as I had. He was polite and well mannered, just not as glamorous as I imagine he'd usually be. I say glamorous, I was criticized for that last time too. Maybe I mean put together? He was still attractive, but clearly a man in crisis.
I had so many questions, but also this intense fear that asking them would be prying. The easiest and most sensible thing to start with was just How was he coping?
And the answer was evident. David told me things that I already knew. He asked the same thing, and it seemed like we were on pretty much the same page.
I wanted to know if him and my father had real feelings for eachother, what he could tell me about him and this side of his life that I hadn't already known, why he'd kept this from me, why my mother and my sister knew. Though I have to admit that the way I went about asking these questions wasn't as tactful as I'd have liked.
David stopped me part way through my confused word vomit and told me he'd just explain everything about who he was to my father, from the top. I'll relay that back to you, minus any details that I feel may be identifying
David comes from a very poor area of our country, and had been made homeless at 16. He'd exchanged sexual favour with adult men for a place to stay, and couch surfed at times. He covered this quite briefly, maybe because it showed on my face how horrified that I was. He said that he'd worked through these things since he was a teenager, and that my father was actually a part of what helped him do that, but it was horrifying to hear
He said that from this background, he'd built up a lot of walls around himself, and that he'd gotten in to sex work at 18 as a result of all of these - what essentially are - assaults. Because his job wasn't paying him enough to live, and he thought something along the lines of "well, it's not that different"
He's only a year older than me, and I can't help but compare my situation at the time, which was very comfortable and safe, to the things that David had to cope with at such a young age.
He'd been mostly escorting when my father found him. Apparently my father had been using escorts for a while, mostly men, but never anybody that young. He hired him once as an escort, and then asked him if he'd take money just to be taken on a date. David agreed, and tells me that there was genuine chemistry beyond sexual preferences. From there, my father became his "sugar daddy."
He says that it was a chance that my father took on him, not expecting anything to come from it. Something about wealthy men seeking a sugar baby, though the wealthiest men will just see escorts and "sugar" the ones that they have the most chemistry with, all because they're short of time. This was true of my father, as he was a very busy man.
Eventually he told my father the reason that he'd started escorting, being poverty and his past experiences, and that's when my father began to invest the most in his relationship
My father used to travel a lot for work, and sometimes just for leisure. David gave examples of those times, and almost every single trip that I can remember my father mentioning over the last twenty years, whether abroad or domestic, every single one, my father had had David brought with him or to him throughout. He had David brought with him everywhere despite both of them having busy schedules in the end. They'd have fancy dinners or attend events together. My father wasn't trying to hide David from anybody but us, he showed him off whenever it was safe to do so. He'd shown him the world.
They had cover stories for countries that were more homophobic than ours, or for important people who may have been able to get news back to our family.
He said that, after the first year or so, they weren't really certain what direction they were going in. If they were just a business relationship anymore. He says these sorts of arrangements tend to expire after a certain amount of time, but that his and my father's just sort of never did. Even watching my father's health decline, David stayed by him.
My father had given him outs of their relationship if ever he'd wanted to take them, gifted him enough cash to keep him going for months, invested in his career as a performer, and helped him make contacts in a range of industries. David is multi talented, can play many instruments, speak many languages, and is intelligent enough that he could've done a range of other things. He told me he'd also seen other clients in this time, who my father knew about and was ok with, and my father had seen other escorts, but that they always came back to eachother. He could have left, he didn't want to.
He said that my mother discovered their relationship when he was 27, so 9 years after it had began. My parents had been married for 19 years, and my father had been seeing escorts before he found David, so I can't imagine how it must have felt for my mother to discover that, for a probable majority of her marriage, my father had been unfaithful. She found out through my father's banking. He never used their shared account, though some paperwork was mixed up. She asked him about some of the payments within it, som cash withdrawals, and she learned more from there.
My mother and David had met, in a similar context to how I had now met him. He said my mother had yelled at both, him, and my father, but that he didn't hold it against her, and eventually they were able to become something close to friends. They'd been in contact more often since the funeral.
My mother is a very fiery woman, with a strong sense of justice. She was angry with my father for, essentially, lying to her for all of that time, but was able to understand why he did it as a gay man in a very taboo relationship. She was even angrier about their age difference. Relationships in our circles can be very political, and it was safer for my father to put on a front of a loving, straight marriage, than to come out. David was well aware, and understanding of this. My mother was not forgiving about the other escorts either. It seems that her understanding was something built up over years of sort of getting to know David, rather than something that she initially saw no issues with.
I believe she still loved my father in some capacity until the day that he died, and I think that may be why she agreed to keep his secret. It's the kind of information that can really destroy somebody's life, and they particularly didn't want me to know because of the closeness in age between me and David. Only my sister was trusted with this information because she was something of a confidant for my mother by this time. She's a very doting person, though she's older than David, so I imagine her feelings at the time were even stronger than mine. She's helped me a lot with processing those feelings
I made a point to mention that I hadn't expected David to be as accommodating for me as he had been. He hadn't even needed to answer my call. He showed me some of the recent history on his phone. Many calls, text messages, and even death threats had been coming from people who knew my father. Some of those numbers were numbers that I had saved. Family members who I've heard say disgusting things about David since the funeral.
Ultimately I believe David became a life partner for my father, whether taboo or no. I was grateful that he allowed me to get to know him at least in the context of my late father, and I'd like to make some kind of friendship with him. He has invited me to see the apartment that my father had been paying for, and I'm going to. Id like to see this man accepted into my family, but I know now that that isn't going to happen for some. I will be introducing him more officially to my wife and children, though.
In David's own words, my father was the only thing tying him to this country, so I imagine he's going to take his career elsewhere. Hopefully somewhere that is safer for people like him
I will keep in touch, and I'm going to try and make him feel as welcome as possible before he leaves. He is always welcome with us should he ever come back. I don't care if it gets me denounced by half of my family, I am not the coward that my father was accused of being.
Thank you for reading this far"

Someone commented the importance of being fragile - and we get conflicting messages from medical community such as CBT and self help books and trauma community. First of all - narcissists hate vulnerability - because this exposed their fragile ego, fragile self worth and fake persona that they try to hide away from others. So obviously - we need to be vulnerable in order to be healthy. Self-help books and CBT will instructs us on the other hand to be "Strong" and "Courageous" and that we face our fears and expose to society and life. This way CBT is instructing us to fuse our persona with our emotions - which is extremely dangerous: our emotions and feelings are fleeting - so we cannot base our self worth on something that can change on a whim. Also, feelings and emotions are sometimes misleading - we might feel scared - and due to inability to process this emotion we might interpret it as us being weak - while in reality this emotion might be anger. This is recipe for becoming hysterical and to fake pretend to be "strong" in order to assert our "power" - highly ineffective. There is always someone else who is more hysterical and when we make others around us people afraid - we will never make functional contact with anyone.
Some self-help books about "people pleasing" themes will instruct us to believe that being vulnerable means being people-pleaser and that we must be aggressive in order not to be taken advantage of. This "advice" will lead us to develop attachment issues, problems with trusting other people. We will start to build walls and isolate ourselves from others - highly ineffective.
There is a quote from Italian movie "L'arcano incantatore (1996)":
Weakness is fundamental in enabling the mind not to oppose signals from 'outside'.
So that is the paradox - if we are trying to be confident and strong by covering up any sign of being weak - we will become weak. Yet if we do not mind being "weak" - we won't make progress, since we won't have incentive to make progress. If we do not issue with something, we won't know what needs to be fixed. With trauma and exposure to toxic people - there is nothing wrong with us. There is nothing to fix inside us. Yet - we do have anxiety issues and panic and toxic shame and trauma triggers and fawning issues - so there is something that needs correction and a "fix". These after-effects stem from the abuse: evil people have chosen us as their target to attack. Evil people do this because they are evil, it is not because there is something wrong with us inside. When evil people are evil - we will develop reactions to abuse, similar to the body reacting to the virus. The fever, skin rash, immobility, pain, immunity issues - these are all effects of virus on our body - it is not that our body is abnormal and sick by itself - it means it is attacked by a virus. CBT will instruct us that we are sick as we are - that we have "cognitive distortions" and that our brain is hallucinating the "virus", that abuse does not exist. This way CBT will instruct us to develop toxic shame, deep core belief that we distrust ourselves, distrust our reactions, distrust our natural ways how we react to external stimuli - and CBT will instruct us to gaslight our reality and that we depend on other people to explain us what is reality. When in fact - we need immunity: deep core belief that we can trust our eyes and feelings and senses - what is happening that it is not hallucination, and that we can know that we can rely on our self worth and our brain and thinking patterns - even though when they are in survival mode due to abuse and exposure to narcissistic abuse, which CBT claim is non-existent for the socially anxious.
Even in Rejection Sensitivity - CBT will claim that our rejection can be imagination and real one - but in reality - we can clearly differentiate triggers and flashbacks with reality. When we have perceived threat of being rejected - it will feel differently than when someone is abusive and intrusive, unfair and when they make false accusations against us and when they are critical to us as a way to put us down and destroy our reputation. When we do not have self worth - we will soak up CBT explanations and we won't oppose to their definitions. Then we will become insecure in ourselves - and this is toxic shame.
When we have toxic shame - we will develop External referencing locus of control and this will end up as codependency and trauma bonding, more anxiety and more panic, since our explanation of reality will depend on other people - who will be toxic and dangerous - since only those types of people will parasite on someone who fawns to people.
The paradox of being vulnerable is placing us on two sides: to be passive and doing nothing hence being "weak", or that we oppose being "weak" by learning how to resist toxic people which is only possible by being monsters as they are. We will encounter stoic information about being silent and that we do not waste our energy to toxic people. Or another take is to be assertive and to express our opinion without rage - none of those work in real life. That's because toxic people are not problem with our persona or feelings or beliefs. Evil people abuse others because they are evil and have agenda or they simply feel good when they torture others.
So instead of being vulnerable or being strong - I would rather work on awareness - so that we know what is going on. Similar to learning about a virus - so that we know what is the best way to avoid catching a disease as preventive measure or learning how to make our body immune so that it can destroy virus without destroying our body in the process of extermination.
I would focus on a belief that we must be silent in order not to spend energy on narcissistic bait - where toxic people will insult others in order to elicit emotional reaction which they harness later when we react in drama to their drama. The real problem is our toxic shame which is already inside us. This means - when we are in contact with someone toxic - our panic reactions will come out, we won't be able to talk even if we want to. We will be in survival mode and amygdala hijacking - so we will temporary lose memory and ability to come up with wit and thoughtful response. Instead - we will be triggered into Freeze and Fawn. Socially anxious will always go into silence - because if we would have chosen Fight response - we would talk and express our emotions - even in dysfunctional way- and this way we would eventually learn to express ourselves all the time - and with time social anxiety would be replaced with some other disorders such as Borderline where we would be stuck in drama. But the social anxiety would be gone. Social anxiety itself is being silent and not expressing ourselves. That is what gives birth to free reign of inner critic inside us - which will activate rumination and intrusive thoughts and worry before the event, during the event and after the event. If there was no problems, our inner critic will dismiss such event as fluke and focus on the next potential catastrophe or it will replay past incidents.
So I would focus on talking and expressing ourselves. This is one barrier that we need to look at. Due to past trauma and exposure to emotional abuse - we learned to be silent and to fix other people and to be focused on their drama. When we try to fix others - we won't be able to criticize them back and give honest facts - since most abusive people will react in anger when the truth is presented to them.
When we shut up, when we are silent, even with good intentions such as not rocking the boat and not engaging in narcissistic bait - we are unwittingly creating no boundaries ambient. And that is what will attract toxic people over and over again. We might cut contact, relocate - only to find new pests that we attract like moth to a flame. This happens because we do not have boundaries. With self help and CBT we get wrong definitions of boundaries. We are being told that having boundaries means explaining and interpreting and having a presentation to someone who is toxic, pathological liar and delusional and someone who cannot process the reality nor truth. So of course this CBT advice will not work in real life. Boundaries are everything that will come to life when we speak up. Our words will create boundaries. Words don't have to be perfect. They don't even have to address the problem. With social anxiety we are simply silent all the time. We do not express our thoughts, we don't speak up our truth, our objections - due to programming and punishments before. When we do not speak up -we also never express our dislikes. Dislikes were also punished in dysfunctional ambient when we were growing up - so we were punished when we would say something we do not like, we were mocked and bullied because we rejected something over and over again. When we do not voice out our dislikes - there are no boundaries, and we automatically become pushover and toxic people will sniff it out and exploit us. When we do speak up - they will have perfect reasons why we are wrong - and we will shut up and never mention it again. When we learn about narcissistic abuse -we learn that narcissistic predatory personalities will always accuse their target of some false allegations and false accusations. Their accusations will be based on their hunch, intuition, imagination, delusion which appear real in their heads, something that is not measurable, it is not quantifiable, it cannot be evaluated, proven or disproven in scientific way - and they will feel entitled to be the ones who explain what is wrong. And since we were programmed in childhood to obey and fix other people's real or imagined problems - instead of speaking up and seeking the truth - we will automatically try to fix problems which they create out of nothing. We will be healthy and follow ethics and moral standards - that we fix our mistakes - and toxic people will always find mistakes and something wrong that we did. Then we will end up in hamster wheel of chasing their approval and validation - which satisfies their narcissistic supply needs. The only way out is speaking.
When we naturally speak out, when we are honest and authentic, when we no longer cover up "bad" parts of ourselves (our errors, mistakes, flaws and imperfections) - when we voice it out - we won't attract toxic people in our private lives, in our private space - since narcissists seek those who carry toxic shame inside them. Carrying toxic shame means feeling contaminated whenever there is some kind of anger or error occurring.
We heal toxic shame by embracing our "bad" parts that we believe are wrong and stupid and anything but perfect. We will notice that when we are silent - we imagine the perfect ideal way to talk and how life ought to be - so when we start to voice out our opinion, when we start to express ourselves - we will notice that we have a lot of errors, again and again, some we will repeat and never learn to correct them because we don't know how. This takes self worth to take care of bad parts of ourselves which need care and compassion from ourselves, patience and parenting - instead of invalidation and suppressing and ignoring. This part of sticking up for our clumsy and embarrassing parts of our Self is the true definition of being vulnerable. When we accept our imperfections and clumsiness and errors - we won't get triggered into survival mode anymore - and this means we will have more energy and focus on actually being better - and that is the paradox:
Carl Rogers: “The curious paradox is that when I accept myself, just as I am, then I can change.”
Real liberation comes not from glossing over or repressing painful states of feeling, but only from experiencing them to the full. Carl Jung
Carl Jung Psychology and Philosophy 🧠, TWITTER: The most terrifying thing is to accept oneself completely.

This is one of those weird AF movies I remember from my days of having IFC in the early-mid 00s. The only thing I remember with 100% clarity is a narrator that said “The man with the finger on his head was lonely” and there might have been some kind of hole in the flooground maybe, unless I’m mixing that up with another movie. We watched a lot of strange movies back then and would like to find this one again.

Imagine if instead of some undead virus it was an alien mutation. Like some tiny yellow blob creature that upon entring your body, worms it's way up to your brain, severes the connection, and becomes the new brain. They essentially assimilate and mutate the host body.
Special Infected are nothing new for the genre, but you could get a little wild with them since their alien assimilators invading from whatever other planets they previously assimilated. It doesn't have to just be humans or humanoids. You could have walking plants, reptilian beasts, mechanioids, or anything else with some sort of brain occasionally show up now and again as the beings that invaded and broight forth the yellow blobs in the first place.
The sci-fi elements and assorted alien technology from the randomly assimilated could also be used to the players advantage. Better hydroponics with the Tulip Men technology, or using Chameliod Scout cells to create cloaking technology to help you hide amongst the hordes.

the movie also looked like the time setting was during medieval times, since the person who slaughtered both the mother & the child was dressed in armor & had a sword. he was ordered by his king(?) to slaughter the 2, he made a sign that he didn’t want to do it at first, but ended up following the “king’s” wishes.

My dream is to become an escort warrior that rides on a cool horse and transports goods. But I’ve got a limp leg and I’m unable to learn decent martial arts. I’ve lived as a porter working odd jobs for the entirety of my life. Until I died because of the mountain bandits that I met during an escort mission.
But…
‘I became the fourth young master, Lee Jungryong?!’
When I died and woke up, I was ... Read Reincarnated Escort Warrior - Chapter 48 - MangaPuma. Read more at https://mangapuma.com/reincarnated-escort-warriochapter-48

Friend is searching for a song.
"It was this old man flash backing to his college party days and he ends up taking 2 girls to bed with him. Then his wife sprays him with the garden hose at the end and he wakes up to the reality of the neighbor girl washing her car."
"Singer was a nerd type and grandfather was like a jock type"

This is my 2-month check in, a reflection for myself and maybe validating for others going through the same. I can't be sure how much of this is weed related versus just my personal experience/depression, but here it is:

• The first two weeks were the absolute hardest. The boredom, the cravings, the bouts of strong emotions/mental breakdowns were all difficult to deal with. -- From reading posts on this subreddit, I know that this is pretty common and is essentially our brains processing/regulating all the painful emotions that we had been smoking away.
• After that, I had some periods where I either felt normal, really happy, or highly anxious - this honestly depended a lot on how my work day was and if I had anything fun, distracting plans going on during the weekend or not
• Sometime in the beginning month 2, my brain started to get overactive. I viewed this the same way as my mental breakdowns in week 2. It felt like my brain was using all the brain power that I had muted away. One night I slept at 1am because I was thinking so much and then woke up at 4am and started my day from there because I couldn't go back to sleep. A part of me wondered if this was me feeling manic (my dad is bipolar) and not weed withdrawal related - I'm not sure, but it was a weird time period. It felt like I was thinking 10,000 thoughts per minute and my conversations with people were so jumpy and all over the place.
• Now at 2.5 months, I feel depression creeping back in but honestly I think it's moreso because I've been burnt out at work and haven't had energy to do things that make me happy. So even though I'm not smoking now, I still watch tv and movies like a couch potato. -- I'm trying to change that though. I downloaded an app last night to start creating more of a morning ritual for myself and to train myself to wake up earlier, I really think that doing that in combination with no weed will help. We'll see! Hopefully my next check-in will have a more positive tone : )

Warm welcome to You. stranger! I hope you're having a good day and that you're at peace with your mind :)
I like to mix both long and deep discussions about certain topics with rather casual, daily talk. I'm looking here for someone unique and inspiring. A positive, open minded person that I could gain something from and vice versa. To push each other forward, to overcome obstacles and simply go with the flow and enjoy our time together. Lately, I've been wasting too much time doing silly and unproductive things and I know I can do better than that.
I'm up for a talk in Polish, English and basic Russian.
Few facts about me
I'm a rather calm person while being at home, but when I feel good and everything goes well, I've got plenty of positive energy that I'm willing to share with other people, hopefully making their day better
I hold the view that the most important thing in life is a progress of the soul and trying to be the best version of yourself, constant spiritual growth and realizing that we're all one consciousness experiencing each other subjectively and thus, separation is an illusion
I love nature; going for a walk in a forest or by the lake as well as visiting parks while listening to my favourite music / podcasts gives a lot of good vibes
Powerful cycling on my mountain bike, feeling the speed and momentum of that adrenaline rush is what I truly adore
I'm free from any prejudices and stay away from politics / all kind of things that are made to manipulate and agitate the masses to create inner conflicts
I'm not a huge fan of memes
I made a decision to almost completely cut myself off from daily news as I found it unproductive, time consuming and often giving me negative emotions
I used to be listening mainly metal music, but recently I opened up for new genres, mainly electronics; psybient ( Suduaya <3) / psytrance / downtempo / drum'n'bass (DJ Turno <3) / synthwave, phonk, trance and more
I like to watch football, especially my national league
I'm very interested into games and I'd be willing to play some online ones with you on PC / Switch
I like to make some photos and videos of my daily life and would like to share it with you
I try to eat healthy
I'm interested into alternative medicine and natural supplements / herbs
I stay away from NS FW content
I want to come back to being fit - start exercising again and just feel better physically
I don't have any pet myself, but I like to watch different pet videos from all around the world
I'm a person that is willing to listen, support and give honest opinions on different matters
I'm very interested into space, ancient civilizations and the origins of mankind, trying to raise my consciousness each day and be at peace with my mind
Lately I got inspired with the philosophy of stoicism and take some principals of Buddhism as well. Overall looking for Eastern traditions and ancient wisdom
I'm an absolute lover of the Sun and whenever it shines during dark and cold Eastern European winters I go outside, sometimes even spread my arms toward it and let it shine on my face
I'm extremely interested into topics of consciousness, artificial intelligence, alien civilisations, panpsychism and theories about the meaning of life, beginning of existence, future of humanity etc.
Recently I got into watching National Geographic documentaries on Disney +
Lately I got myself a VR headset to explore this technology
I like to watch IRL streams from all around the world
Soon I'm moving out from my parents to a newly build apartment
What impressions do you have on me after reading that small bio? Do you think we could get to know each other better? Hit me up with a DM or via chat and let's find out, shall we? :)

Very frustrating situation we’re in. We have 2 cats, one who we’ve had for a few years, male cat just perfect in every way. We used to have a female cat but she passed in a freak unfortunate accident 😢
Around November we got a kitten (1 yr old this July) to keep our other cat company and just because we like cats. He initially started having issues peeing on a beanbag/blankets and it has progressed to couch pillows, bedroom comforter 😢, area rugs, on our shoes. We are pretty firm about washing things and using odoban, pet enzyme cleaner in the spots as they happen but I’m sure we’re not perfect. He also has been pooping outside the litter box often enough to mention, almost always super soft. We generally have Sheba wet food and Iam’s dry food, have talked about changing this but the vet is recommending staying while we test certain avenues to help.
We tried a calming collar, tempted to get more feliway refills if our old system is compatible with newer cartridges, thoughts?
We have 3 litter boxes, 1 was moved out into the very open during this issue. He seems to use it often enough that I don’t think he’s outright terrified of it.
The vet prescribed an anti inflammatory and an anti anxiety given with a syringe daily, actual amount for anti anxiety makes him froth a lot and just not a great time. Definitely want to ask about maybe some pills we could easily crush in wet food, this is not tenable and he clearly hates to receive the medication and it’s just feeling abusive. We give him treats after I just don’t know.
He gets along with our other male cat, play fighting that doesn’t seem to go too far, grooming each other occasionally. He is relatively skiddish of people visiting if it’s more than 1-2 besides us. He is very sweet and wants to play/cuddle with us all the time. Flops on his back paws up wanting scratches, to peeing on the couch 5 minutes later.
We have also been doing some home remodeling, we are in a basement with the cats with the upstairs being renovated. I feel it’s worth mentioning and I’m sure the sound isn’t helping. I don’t think there’s any way around that situation for the time being.
I’m sorry for this huge ramble and if anyone has any questions on things I can detail more clearly I’d appreciate it. I appreciate any and all advice especially regarding what we can be talking to the vet about, we have a followup appt Monday.

Everything in my inventory is up for trade. The most valuable items are listed here, the rest you can find in My Inventory

Feel free to Add Me or even better send a Trade Offer. Open for any suggestions: upgrades, downgrades / knives, gloves, skins / stickers, patterns, floats.

All Buyouts are listed in cash value.

KNIVES

★ Butterfly Knife Freehand FN #1, B/O: $2500

★ Butterfly Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $822

★ Butterfly Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $616

⎯

★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW #1, B/O: $1300

★ Bayonet Autotronic FN, B/O: $1050

★ Bayonet Tiger Tooth MW, B/O: $629

★ Bayonet Bright Water FT, B/O: $326

★ Bayonet Safari Mesh BS, B/O: $233

⎯

★ Karambit Lore FT, B/O: $1110

★ Karambit Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $840

★ Karambit Freehand MW, B/O: $784

★ Karambit Bright Water MW, B/O: $759

⎯

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1801

★ M9 Bayonet Fade FN, B/O: $1801

★ M9 Bayonet Damascus Steel FN, B/O: $751

⎯

★ Nomad Knife Fade FN, B/O: $1156

★ Nomad Knife Slaughter MW, B/O: $544

★ Nomad Knife Blue Steel WW, B/O: $318

⎯

★ Flip Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $646

★ Flip Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $574

★ Flip Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) MW, B/O: $552

★ Flip Knife Case Hardened FT, B/O: $257

★ Flip Knife Freehand FT, B/O: $255

★ StatTrak™ Flip Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $287

⎯

★ Huntsman Knife Lore FN, B/O: $461

★ Huntsman Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $436

★ Huntsman Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $353

★ Huntsman Knife Autotronic FT, B/O: $212

★ Huntsman Knife Bright Water FT, B/O: $129

★ Huntsman Knife Forest DDPAT MW, B/O: $129

★ Huntsman Knife Forest DDPAT BS, B/O: $123

★ StatTrak™ Huntsman Knife Rust Coat BS, B/O: $127

⎯

★ Bowie Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $375

★ Bowie Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $363

★ Bowie Knife Tiger Tooth FN, B/O: $269

★ Bowie Knife Crimson Web WW, B/O: $192

★ Bowie Knife Bright Water FN, B/O: $159

★ Bowie Knife Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $126

⎯

★ Stiletto Knife Slaughter FN, B/O: $616

★ Stiletto Knife Crimson Web FT, B/O: $412

★ StatTrak™ Stiletto Knife Night Stripe FT, B/O: $227

⎯

★ Falchion Knife Lore FT, B/O: $214

★ Falchion Knife Autotronic FT, B/O: $192

★ Falchion Knife Scorched WW, B/O: $105

⎯

★ Survival Knife Crimson Web BS, B/O: $216

★ Survival Knife Case Hardened FT, B/O: $198

★ Survival Knife Scorched FT, B/O: $111

⎯

★ Shadow Daggers Fade FN, B/O: $368

★ Shadow Daggers Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $228

★ Shadow Daggers, B/O: $201

★ Shadow Daggers Damascus Steel FT, B/O: $108

★ Shadow Daggers Ultraviolet FT, B/O: $105

★ Shadow Daggers Black Laminate FT, B/O: $99

★ Shadow Daggers Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $85

⎯

★ Gut Knife Doppler (Sapphire) MW #1, B/O: $1700

★ Gut Knife Gamma Doppler (Phase 1) FN, B/O: $223

★ Gut Knife Marble Fade FN, B/O: $203

★ Gut Knife Doppler (Phase 2) FN, B/O: $191

★ Gut Knife Case Hardened BS, B/O: $127

⎯

★ Navaja Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $199

★ Navaja Knife Doppler (Phase 4) FN, B/O: $199

★ Navaja Knife, B/O: $138

★ Navaja Knife Damascus Steel FN, B/O: $111

⎯

★ Classic Knife Urban Masked FT, B/O: $146

★ StatTrak™ Classic Knife Stained BS, B/O: $168

⎯

★ Ursus Knife Doppler (Phase 3) FN, B/O: $476

★ Ursus Knife, B/O: $375

⎯

★ Skeleton Knife, B/O: $1137

★ Talon Knife, B/O: $608

★ Paracord Knife, B/O: $305

★ Survival Knife Forest DDPAT FT, B/O: $97

GLOVES

★ Moto Gloves Transport MW, B/O: $204

★ Moto Gloves Polygon BS, B/O: $142

★ Moto Gloves Blood Pressure BS, B/O: $84

★ Moto Gloves Blood Pressure BS, B/O: $84

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $63

★ Moto Gloves 3rd Commando Company BS, B/O: $63

⎯

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Kimono WW, B/O: $1215

★ Specialist Gloves Tiger Strike FT, B/O: $672

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander FT, B/O: $305

★ Specialist Gloves Lt. Commander BS, B/O: $140

★ Specialist Gloves Crimson Web BS, B/O: $137

★ Specialist Gloves Buckshot FT, B/O: $75

⎯

★ Driver Gloves Crimson Weave FT, B/O: $359

★ Driver Gloves Imperial Plaid BS, B/O: $229

★ Driver Gloves Overtake BS, B/O: $77

★ Driver Gloves Racing Green FT, B/O: $48

⎯

★ Sport Gloves Omega FT, B/O: $739

★ Sport Gloves Amphibious BS #2, B/O: $733

★ Sport Gloves Arid BS, B/O: $292

⎯

★ Hand Wraps Giraffe MW, B/O: $212

★ Hand Wraps Leather FT, B/O: $160

★ Hand Wraps Desert Shamagh MW, B/O: $101

⎯

★ Broken Fang Gloves Yellow-banded MW, B/O: $185

★ Broken Fang Gloves Needle Point FT, B/O: $67

★ Broken Fang Gloves Needle Point WW, B/O: $59

⎯

★ Hydra Gloves Case Hardened BS, B/O: $65

★ Hydra Gloves Emerald FT, B/O: $65

★ Hydra Gloves Emerald BS, B/O: $62

WEAPONS

AK-47 Case Hardened BS, B/O: $130

AK-47 Bloodsport MW, B/O: $79

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Fuel Injector BS, B/O: $76

AK-47 Bloodsport FT, B/O: $70

AK-47 Neon Rider MW, B/O: $60

StatTrak™ AK-47 Aquamarine Revenge FT, B/O: $72

⎯

AWP Fade FN, B/O: $1039

AWP Asiimov FT, B/O: $139

AWP Asiimov FT, B/O: $139

AWP Wildfire MW, B/O: $95

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $93

AWP BOOM MW, B/O: $93

AWP Duality FN, B/O: $81

AWP Asiimov BS, B/O: $79

AWP Asiimov BS, B/O: $79

AWP Chromatic Aberration FN, B/O: $60

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $68

StatTrak™ AWP Hyper Beast FT, B/O: $68

StatTrak™ AWP Electric Hive FT, B/O: $55

⎯

Desert Eagle Blaze FN, B/O: $623

Desert Eagle Emerald Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $241

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Cobalt Disruption FN, B/O: $81

Desert Eagle Printstream FT, B/O: $54

⎯

M4A1-S Blue Phosphor FN, B/O: $434

StatTrak™ M4A1-S Bright Water MW, B/O: $55

⎯

M4A4 Poseidon FN, B/O: $1465

M4A4 Asiimov BS, B/O: $55

M4A4 Hellfire MW, B/O: $50

⎯

USP-S Kill Confirmed MW, B/O: $72

USP-S Printstream FT, B/O: $69

StatTrak™ USP-S Kill Confirmed FT, B/O: $139

⎯

AUG Flame Jörmungandr FN, B/O: $234

P90 Run and Hide FT, B/O: $147

Five-SeveN Candy Apple FN, B/O: $61

Trade Offer Link - Steam Profile Link - My Inventory

Knives - Bowie Knife, Butterfly Knife, Falchion Knife, Flip Knife, Gut Knife, Huntsman Knife, M9 Bayonet, Bayonet, Karambit, Shadow Daggers, Stiletto Knife, Ursus Knife, Navaja Knife, Talon Knife, Classic Knife, Paracord Knife, Survival Knife, Nomad Knife, Skeleton Knife, Patterns - Gamma Doppler, Doppler (Phase 1, Phase 2, Phase 3, Phase 4, Black Pearl, Sapphire, Ruby, Emerald), Crimson Web, Lore, Fade, Ultraviolet, Night, Marble Fade (Fire & Ice, Fake FI), Case Hardened (Blue Gem), Autotronic, Slaughter, Black Laminate, Tiger Tooth, Boreal Forest, Scorched, Blue Steel, Vanilla, Damascus Steel, Forest DDPAT, Urban Masked, Freehand, Stained, Bright Water, Safari Mesh, Rust Coat, Gloves - Bloodhound Gloves (Charred, Snakebite, Guerrilla, Bronzed), Driver Gloves (Snow Leopard, King Snake, Crimson Weave, Imperial Plaid, Black Tie, Lunar Weave, Diamondback, Rezan the Red, Overtake, Queen Jaguar, Convoy, Racing Green), Hand Wraps (Cobalt Skulls, CAUTION!, Overprint, Slaughter, Leather, Giraffe, Badlands, Spruce DDPAT, Arboreal, Constrictor, Desert Shamagh, Duct Tape), Moto Gloves (Spearmint, POW!, Cool Mint, Smoke Out, Finish Line, Polygon, Blood Pressure, Turtle, Boom!, Eclipse, 3rd Commando Company, Transport), Specialist Gloves (Crimson Kimono, Tiger Strike, Emerald Web, Field Agent, Marble Fade, Fade, Foundation, Lt. Commander, Crimson Web, Mogul, Forest DDPAT, Buckshot), Sport Gloves (Pandora's Box, Superconductor, Hedge Maze, Vice, Amphibious, Slingshot, Omega, Arid, Big Game, Nocts, Scarlet Shamagh, Bronze Morph), Hydra Gloves (Case Hardened, Emerald, Rattler, Mangrove), Broken Fang Gloves (Jade, Yellow-banded, Unhinged, Needle Point), Pistols - P2000 (Wicked Sick, Ocean Foam, Fire Element, Amber Fade, Corticera, Chainmail, Imperial Dragon, Obsidian, Scorpion, Handgun, Acid Etched), USP-S (Printstream, Kill Confirmed, Whiteout, Road Rash, Owergrowth, The Traitor, Neo-Noir, Dark Water, Orion, Blueprint, Stainless, Caiman, Serum, Monster Mashup, Royal Blue, Ancient Visions, Cortex, Orange Anolis, Ticket To Hell, Black Lotus, Cyrex, Check Engine, Guardian, Purple DDPAT, Torque, Blood Tiger, Flashback, Business Class, Pathfinder, Para Green), Lead Conduit, Glock-18 (Umbral Rabbit, Fade, Candy Apple, Bullet Queen, Synth Leaf, Neo-Noir, Nuclear Garden, Dragon Tatto, Reactor, Pink DDPAT, Twilight Galaxy, Sand Dune, Groundwater, Blue Fissure, Snack Attack, Water Elemental, Brass, Wasteland Rebel, Vogue, Franklin, Royal Legion, Gamma Doppler, Weasel, Steel Disruption, Ironwork, Grinder, High Beam, Moonrise, Oxide Blaze, Bunsen Burner, Clear Polymer, Bunsen Burner, Night), P250 (Re.built, Nuclear Threat, Modern Hunter, Splash, Whiteout, Vino Primo, Mehndi, Asiimov, Visions, Undertow, Cartel, See Ya Later, Gunsmoke, Splash, Digital Architect, Muertos, Red Rock, Bengal Tiger, Crimson Kimono, Wingshot, Metallic DDPAT, Hive, Dark Filigree, Mint Kimono), Five-Seven (Neon Kimono, Berries And Cherries, Fall Hazard, Crimson Blossom, Hyper Beast, Nitro, Fairy Tale, Case Hardened, Copper Galaxy, Angry Mob, Monkey Business, Fowl Play, Anodized Gunmetal, Hot Shot, Retrobution, Boost Protocol), CZ75-Auto (Chalice, Crimson Web, Emerald Quartz, The Fuschia is Now, Nitro, Xiangliu, Yellow Jacket, Victoria, Poison Dart, Syndicate, Eco, Hexane, Pole, Tigris), Tec-9 (Rebel, Terrace, Nuclear Threat, Hades, Rust Leaf, Decimator, Blast From, Orange Murano, Toxic, Fuel Injector, Remote Control, Bamboo Forest, Isaac, Avalanche, Brother, Re-Entry, Blue Titanium, Bamboozle), R8 Revolver (Banana Cannon, Fade, Blaze, Crimson Web, Liama Cannon, Crazy 8, Reboot, Canal Spray, Night, Amber Fade), Desert Eagle (Blaze, Hand Cannon, Fennec Fox, Sunset Storm, Emerald Jörmungandr, Pilot, Hypnotic, Golden Koi, Printstream, Cobalt Disruption, Code Red, Ocean Drive, Midnight Storm, Kumicho Dragon, Crimson Web, Heirloom, Night Heist, Mecha Industries, Night, Conspiracy, Trigger Discipline, Naga, Directive, Light Rail), Dual Berettas (Flora Carnivora, Duelist, Cobra Strike, Black Limba, Emerald, Hemoglobin, Twin Turbo, Marina, Melondrama, Pyre, Retribution, Briar, Dezastre, Royal Consorts, Urban Shock, Dualing Dragons, Panther, Balance), Rifles - Galil (Aqua Terrace, Winter Forest, Chatterbox, Sugar Rush, Pheonix Blacklight, CAUTION!, Orange DDPAT, Cerberus, Dusk Ruins, Eco, Chromatic Aberration, Stone Cold, Tuxedo, Sandstorm, Shattered, Urban Rubble, Rocket Pop, Kami, Crimson Tsunami, Connexion), SCAR-20 (Fragments, Brass, Cyrex, Palm, Splash Jam, Cardiac, Emerald, Crimson Web, Magna Carta, Stone Mosaico, Bloodsport, Enforcer), AWP (Duality, Gungnir, Dragon Lore, Prince, Medusa, Desert Hydra, Fade, Lightning Strike, Oni Taiji, Silk Tiger, Graphite, Chromatic Aberration, Asiimov, Snake Camo, Boom, Containment Breach, Wildfire, Redline, Electric Hive, Hyper Beast, Neo-Noir, Man-o'-war, Pink DDPAT, Corticera, Sun in Leo, Elite Build, Fever Dream, Atheris, Mortis, PAW, Exoskeleton, Worm God, POP AWP, Phobos, Acheron, Pit Viper, Capillary, Safari Mesh), AK-47 (Head Shot, Wild Lotus, Gold Arabesque, X-Ray, Fire Serpent, Hydroponic, Panthera Onca, Case Hardened, Vulcan, Jet Set, Fuel Injector, Bloodsport, Nightwish, First Class, Neon Rider, Asiimov, Red Laminate, Aquamarine Revenge, The Empress, Wasteland Rebel, Jaguar, Black Laminate, Leet Museo, Neon Revolution, Redline, Frontside Misty, Predator, Legion of Anubis, Point Disarray, Orbit Mk01, Blue Laminate, Green Laminate, Emerald Pinstripe, Cartel, Phantom Disruptor, Jungle Spray, Safety Net, Rat Rod, Baroque Purple, Slate, Elite Build, Uncharted, Safari Mesh), FAMAS (Sundown, Prime Conspiracy, Afterimage, Commemoration, Dark Water, Spitfire, Pulse, Eye of Athena, Meltdown, Rapid Eye Move, Roll Cage, Styx, Mecha Industrie, Djinn, ZX Spectron, Valence, Neural Net, Night Borre, Hexne), M4A4 (Temukau, Howl, Poseidon, Asiimov, Daybreak, Hellfire, Zirka, Red DDPAT, Radiation Hazard, Modern Hunter, The Emperor, The Coalition, Bullet Rain, Cyber Security, X-Ray, Dark Blossom, Buzz Kill, In Living Color, Neo-Noir, Desolate Space, 龍王 (Dragon King), Royal Paladin, The Battlestar, Global Offensive, Tooth Fairy, Desert-Strike, Griffin, Evil Daimyo, Spider Lily, Converter), M4A1-S (Emphorosaur-S, Welcome to the Jungle, Imminent Danger, Knight, Hot Rod, Icarus Fell, Blue Phosphor, Printstream, Master Piece, Dark Water, Golden Coil, Bright Water, Player Two, Atomic Alloy, Guardian, Chantico's Fire, Hyper Beast, Mecha Industries, Cyrex, Control Panel, Moss Quartz, Nightmare, Decimator, Leaded Glass, Basilisk, Blood Tiger, Briefing, Night Terror, Nitro, VariCamo, Flashback), SG 553 (Cyberforce, Hazard Pay, Bulldozer, Integrale, Dragon Tech, Ultraviolet, Colony IV, Hypnotic, Cyrex, Candy Apple, Barricade, Pulse), SSG 08 (Death Strike, Sea Calico, Blood in the Water, Orange Filigree, Dragonfire, Big Iron, Bloodshot, Detour, Turbo Peek, Red Stone), AUG (Akihabara Accept, Flame Jörmungandr, Hot Rod, Midnight Lily, Sand Storm, Carved Jade, Wings, Anodized Navy, Death by Puppy, Torque, Bengal Tiger, Chameleon, Fleet Flock, Random Access, Momentum, Syd Mead, Stymphalian, Arctic Wolf, Aristocrat, Navy Murano), G3SG1 (Chronos, Violet Murano, Flux, Demeter, Orange Kimono, The Executioner, Green Apple, Arctic Polar Camo, Contractor), SMGs - P90 (Neoqueen, Astral Jörmungandr, Run and Hide, Emerald Dragon, Cold Blooded, Death by Kitty, Baroque Red, Vent Rush, Blind Spot, Asiimov, Trigon, Sunset Lily, Death Grip, Leather, Nostalgia, Fallout Warning, Tiger Pit, Schermatic, Virus, Shapewood, Glacier Mesh, Shallow Grave, Chopper, Desert Warfare), MAC-10 (Sakkaku, Hot Snakes, Copper Borre, Red Filigree, Gold Brick, Graven, Case Hardened, Stalker, Amber Fade, Neon Rider, Tatter, Curse, Propaganda, Nuclear Garden, Disco Tech, Toybox, Heat, Indigo), UMP-45 (Wild Child, Fade, Blaze, Day Lily, Minotaur's Labyrinth, Crime Scene, Caramel, Bone Pile, Momentum, Primal Saber), MP7 (Teal Blossom, Fade, Nemesis, Whiteout, Asterion, Bloosport, Abyssal Apparition, Full Stop, Special Delivery, Neon Ply, Asterion, Ocean Foam, Powercore, Scorched, Impire), PP-Bizon (Modern Hunter, Rust Coat, Forest Leaves, Antique, High Roller, Blue Streak, Seabird, Judgement of Anubis, Bamboo Print, Embargo, Chemical Green, Coblat Halftone, Fuel Rod, Photic Zone, Irradiated Alert, Carbon Fiber), MP9 (Featherweight, Wild Lily, Pandora's Box, Stained Glass, Bulldozer, Dark Age, Hot Rod, Hypnotic, Hydra, Rose Iron, Music Box, Setting Sun, Food Chain, Airlock, Mount Fuji, Starlight Protector, Ruby Poison Dart, Deadly Poison), MP5-SD (Liquidation, Oxide Oasis, Phosphor, Nitro, Agent, Autumn Twilly), Shotguns, Machineguns - Sawed-Off (Kiss♥Love, First Class, Orange DDPAT, Rust Coat, The Kraken, Devourer, Mosaico, Wasteland Princess, Bamboo Shadow, Copper, Serenity, Limelight, Apocalypto), XM1014 (Frost Borre, Ancient Lore, Red Leather, Elegant Vines, Banana Leaf, Jungle, Urban Perforated, Grassland, Blaze Orange, Heaven Guard, VariCamo Blue, Entombed, XOXO, Seasons, Tranquility, Bone Machine, Incinegator, Teclu Burner, Black Tie, Zombie Offensive, Watchdog), Nova (Baroque Orange, Hyper Beast, Green Apple, Antique, Modern Hunter, Walnut, Forest Leaves, Graphite, Blaze Orange, Rising Skull, Tempest, Bloomstick, Interlock, Quick Sand, Moon in Libra, Clean Polymer, Red Quartz, Toy Soldier), MAG-7 (Insomnia, Cinqueda, Counter Terrace, Prism Terrace, Memento, Chainmail, Hazard, Justice, Bulldozer, Silver, Core Breach, Firestarter, Praetorian, Heat, Hard Water, Monster Call, BI83 Spectrum, SWAG-7), M249 (Humidor, Shipping Forecast, Blizzard Marbleized, Downtown, Jungle DDPAT, Nebula Crusader, Impact Drill, Emerald Poison Dart), Negev (Mjölnir, Anodized Navy, Palm, Power Loader, Bratatat, CaliCamo, Phoenix Stencil, Infrastructure, Boroque Sand), Wear - Factory New (FN), Minimal Wear (MW), Field-Tested (FT), Well-Worn (WW), Battle-Scarred (BS), Stickers Holo/Foil/Gold - Katowice 2014, Krakow 2017, Howling Dawn, Katowice 2015, Crown, London 2018, Cologne 2014, Boston 2018, Atlanta 2017, Cluj-Napoca 2015, DreamHack 2014, King on the Field, Harp of War, Winged Difuser, Cologne 2016, Cologne 2015, MLG Columbus 2016, Katowice 2019, Berlin 2019, RMR 2020, Stockholm 2021, Antwerp 2022, Swag Foil, Flammable foil, Others - Souvenirs, Agents, Pins, Passes, Gifts, Music Kits, Cases, Keys, Capsules, Packages, Patches

Some items on the list may no longer be available or are still locked, visit My Inventory for more details.

Send a Trade Offer for fastest response. I consider all offers.

Add me for discuss if there is a serious offer that needs to be discussed.

Depression tests are coming up aces. Cognitive tests are coming up aces.
I've been thinking about all the resources and outreach available for depression/anxiety/addiction that I'm aware of. All the direct and indirect suggestions, crude or refined, monetized or free, that people have created to help people such as me and maybe you. It all worked, but kind of like how you score bowling, getting exponential bonuses for streaks of success. But that wasn't enough. Something still didn't feel right. I absolutely needed me to make sense to me on my terms. It took me more than 20 years and well over 10,000 hours of research in physical, earth, and life sciences, reckless self-diagnosing, painfully pragmatic and morally nebulous meditation to get me to this moment in time right here.
The whole experience was fucking horrible and it would be highly irresponsible of me to recommend to anyone. I'd have to say it's pure chance of my environment that I've always had an anti-violence moral bedrock so that kept me out of trouble. I was also incredibly fortunate enough to have sought out and made promises to not clock myself out early.
I'm cautiously optimistic as I maintain mindfulness but I sure as fuck am extremely excited to be realizing a possible Gretzky-esque type of birthing into a maybe perfect environment at a maybe perfect time. There are a few dormant talents and passions like graphic design, writing, and moviemaking that I can't wait to have fun with again and put to good use.
I was a stand-up comedian once and I'm still amazed by the concept that now I can actually do it without running lights, dreading the anxiety of networking, and despising crowds for imaginary reasons.
If you'd like to help with anything please dm me. (Collabs, advice, production, encouragement)
If you'd like help with anything please dm me. (Collabs, advice, empathy, finally replacing that shitty couch)
Rising tides raise all ships bruh

They haven't told me the salary yet but I am confident it will be less than what I am making at the moment as I am currently hourly/overtime. This new position will be salary and I am confident that they will not offer more than a 15% increase of my hourly rate. Is it appropriate to negotiate? I work a lot of overtime and I am sure I will be expected to work overtime all the time with this new position. What should I do? Can I negotiate? To be fair, I wasn't promoted directly. The position above me opened up and I went through a long recruitment process.

Noida, a prominent city in the National Capital Region (NCR) of India, has witnessed significant growth in recent years. Known for its robust infrastructure, excellent connectivity, and favorable business environment, Noida has become a hub for commercial real estate development. The city has seen a remarkable impact of technology on its commercial property sector, transforming the way businesses operate and attracting investors from all over. In this article, we will explore the various ways technology has influenced commercial property in Noida such as sky bhutani price.
One of the primary impacts of technology on commercial property in Noida is the development of smart infrastructure and improved connectivity. With the advent of the Internet of Things (IoT), buildings are equipped with advanced systems that enable automation, energy efficiency, and better management. For instance, projects in sector 140a noida are designed with smart features that allow tenants to control lighting, temperature, and security systems through their smartphones. Such developments attract businesses looking for modern and sustainable office spaces.
Virtual Reality (VR) and Augmented Reality (AR) technologies have revolutionized the way commercial properties are marketed and showcased. With VR and AR, potential buyers or tenants can experience a property virtually, even before its physical construction. This technology has proved beneficial for upcoming projects in Noida. Interested parties can take virtual tours, visualize floor plans, and explore different design options, leading to informed decision-making.
Cyber Courtyard price has facilitated the rise of coworking spaces and flexible work environments in Noida's commercial property sector. Startups, freelancers, and small businesses are increasingly opting for shared office spaces that provide amenities like high-speed internet, shared meeting rooms, and a collaborative atmosphere. Cyber Courtyard is one such coworking space in Noida that offers flexible pricing options, enabling businesses to scale up or down as per their requirements. The integration of technology in these spaces enhances productivity and fosters innovation.
The impact of technology on commercial property in Noida is not limited to office spaces. Bhutani 62 Avenue has witnessed a significant shift in the retail sector due to the rise of e-commerce. Traditional brick-and-mortar stores are adapting to the digital age by incorporating online platforms and omnichannel strategies. This transformation has led to the development of modern retail spaces with advanced technology integration. Project like Spectrum Noida cater to the evolving needs of retailers by providing digital infrastructure, smart shelves, and seamless customer experiences.
Technology has played a vital role in promoting sustainability and energy efficiency in Noida's commercial property sector. Buildings are now designed with eco-friendly features such as solar panels, rainwater harvesting systems, and energy-efficient lighting. These advancements not only reduce the carbon footprint but also lower operational costs for businesses. Project like Alphathum Sector 90 is the prime example of sustainable developments that prioritize environmental conservation through technology integration.
The impact of technology on commercial property in Noida has been profound and transformative as hypermart 150 noida. From smart infrastructure and connectivity to virtual reality and augmented reality, technology has revolutionized the way businesses operate and thrive in the city. With the rise of coworking spaces, flexible work environments, and the transformation of the retail sector, Noida is embracing the digital age and attracting both domestic and international investors. Moreover, the emphasis on sustainability and energy efficiency demonstrates the city's commitment to environmental conservation. As Noida continues to evolve as a technology-driven commercial hub, it is expected that more innovative projects will shape the future of commercial property in the region.
Bhutani Etherea project in Noida, I recommend contacting local real estate developers, checking with reliable property listing websites, or reaching out to real estate agents who specialize in Noida's market.

So, this started out as one of those dreams where you are kind of half awake in your bed, but also still sort of dreaming, and experiencing things that aren't really there. In my dream, I suddenly felt someone get into my bed behind me. The person wrapped her arms around me and held my hand. At first, I didn't question this. It just felt normal and natural, and I was happy. Then I remembered that I live alone.
I started mumbling "who are you?" and kept getting non-answers like "That's not important." or "don't worry about it." After going in circles for a while, I eventually recognized her voice, as that of my ex. I jolted up (but didn't wake up from my dream) and told her to get the hell out of my house, asked her how and why she even got in here. She started to leave without a word of protest, but then I had this brief moment of lucidity, where I felt like I was in control.
I grabbed her wrist as she was leaving, and said "Actually, sit down for a minute. I have some things I want to say." I sat her on the edge of the bed, and just bit her head off, screaming my lungs out about everything that went wrong between us, all my regrets and resentment. I was inches from her face. She was crying. Somewhere in this exchange, I even hit her. I've never struck someone out of anger in my entire waking life.
You might think this kind of dreamed opportunity would be cathartic or therapeutic, but I've woken up and gone about my day just feeling horrible. Even if only a dream, I'm horrified that I had the capacity for that level of sheer anger, hatred, and aggression. Also disturbing to me, is the fact that if even for a moment, and even if unaware, I could feel happy and loved in her arms again. It concerns me that I might fall into the same pitfalls I did before once again.
Just curious if anyone has any thoughts about this dream or kind of dream, or if they have any advice for dealing with things you might have seen yourself do in dreams that you disliked.
TLDR: I had a dream where my ex tried to get into bed with me, and I screamed bloody murder and hit her.

Ordered the Hero Tower from YourWOBB and had an email saying it had shipped 31/ 05. 4 days later and the two UPS tracking numbers I’ve got (it’s shipped as two parcels) are still saying “no tracking data”. Tracking for all the orders I’ve had from China has always been a bit hit and miss, but I’ve usually had some kind of update by now. Not had any of my previous orders shipped by UPS before, is this normal for them? Do I just have to be patient and hope my orders turn up!? 🤣