TRIGGERS . . . . . . . . . . . . . Its my mom. I don't know what is her illness but she shows no emotions. Its so painful. I shoe emotions but she is just blank and I feel so lonely and hurt. I am in foreign country. I am 33. She is 65 I think.
I provoked her yesterday to make her sad because when I told her how sad I am amd so, she was blank. Then I provoked her and said things to hurt,I asked are you hurt? She said yes a little. Then i continued asking and after 10min she said she is a little bit more hurt. Then I started to say more hurtful things and then asked again same thing, but then I told her what she caused in my life, and how I hate her and so on she started to cry for brief 15srconds and it started like she was faking it. I haven't heard her cry fir years. She is ok with everything and nothing hurys her, she is Ice Queen. Anyway I was convinced she was mocking me because it sounds like that such a weird cry. Its like her emotions when she says anything about them, they are vague, they are general, short, diminished in words, she never shows emotions and I hurt badly.
My whole life is shit because of her. Trust me. She made bad choises, she didn't protect me when I was 5, she didn't teach me about emotions, she didn't allow me to study art, when I got suicidal she took me to emergency (I was 21). They gave false diagnosis, were horrible and gave me pills that made me stand up in the middke of class because of anxiety .
She was always protective of me but in a kind way, so I never questioned her decisions. She was attached to me because she Divorced my father andy brother didn't like her. I was attached to her because her son sexualy disturbed me when I was 5, and he was sadistic, and continued to insult me through years. She was too emotionally distant to do anything. I got bullied in school and after she transferred to another, I was with grandma after school, and I really liked that, in school I had friends, I was happy, We did art, I loved grandma. I was happy for 1 and half. Then she changed my school again because it was too difficult to travel with me everyday to grandma, and it wasn't that far. What i resent is how lost she was, how she never went to therapy or read a book, or looked into herself, how she didn't care of children because she was emotionally totally distant and non equipped. Then I got bullied, lost, it was shit, my life was shit and destroyed by her decisions and It got worse and worse. It took me years to understand what is going on. I was convinced she was right, I thought she knows best, I just need to endure and try harder. Thats hiw she said. But it never did. I went into abusive relationships, started to dissociate, was depressed, anxious, miserable, forced myself to study a lot. I suffered so much for a long time and she always really loves me but is sick i think. She cant stop meddling a d giving advices. I am and was so angry at her. I realised that late in life and in kung fu classes I was kicking boxing bag so much imagining it was her. I attacked her 2x later in last 2 years. I got diagnosed autistic last year with complex PTSD. I had anxiety and major depression disorded and possibly borderline personality disorder before. I moved to another country 4 years ago. I can't tell you how difficult it was. I was in another abusive relationship and I was in women shelter 2x, I was homeless. Everything I did, I was failure and People treated me like I am monster. Dissociation helped me to survive but its hard. I am lonely I have no family in foreign country. 53 days ago my fiancé broke up until we heal because we self hirt by hitting our head. He couldn't stand it and and wants to go to therapy and me to. Its not healthy to be together when we are so si k because we hurt each other. We had beautiful moments. He made me believe in my career dream. He made me fight fir disability rights. He showed me that I am valuable he gave love with all his heart. He was first man who was kind, loving and accepting in bed. He just loves ne. We had a lot of probles aside and started to sort of abuse each other, he has adhd and was wanting for 5 months to get medication. Then 5 more for appropriate one. And its seems it has negative affect. It changes him. I am also on medication that makes me irritable but nothing else helped so this is obly thing that gets me out of bed and keeps me alive. I have noone to call when I am sad. My mom can't show emotions. I miss him like part of me is gone. I started therapy for nervous system called Safe and sound protocol recently as introduction before starting EDMR. I am waiting for CPT for a year because system has less doctors and a lot of ill people. Meanwhile I found CPT myself and need to wait for it month ago. All therapy costs aaa lot. EDMR costs too. I have scoliosis, and 3 protruded discs, I have shoulder syndrome. I take gabapentin for pain. I went to physio therapy but it is not helping me because i cant make myself do exercises. I met person who dies massages and more inusivw approach. I am taking a lot of moves to heal but uncertain if it will help. I do all alone dezpite being chronically tired. I want to do music and animation it heals but because of depression, executive dysfunction i can't find time to do duoties and have time for art. I am at the end of rope. I am waiting for therapies surving. I have no hope that it will help. I feel so hopeless abd too f up. I found council to help now but its difficult I have noone close to me. I am eother angry to forget how I miss him. Or I go yoga to relax but then I cry. Its ok then but I call mom and she can't help. I feel guilty to block her. I Don't know if he will heal and when, and same for me. Its making me depressed and anxious. I am tired of surviving. I am tired.

You know, I've been thinking a lot about suicide lately, I am slowly getting out of my suicidal state. So now ,I read a post on a 14 year old, he took a bottle of pills just two hours ago. I'm unsure if he is alive. It scares me a lot. What goes so wrong in life that we want to end it so short? I've been suicidal for over 2 years. This has been a really big problem all over the world. I really want to change all that. The kid had posted saying he took the pills, It just made a sudden change in my heart that I really don't want to kill myself anymore. I want to get my life back on track, I want to help the suicidal, I want to do so many things to make them so happy. I don't want them to leave, I want them to stay and rethink what they are doing. People repeat the phrases "Life is precious, so just hold on" "Life is worth living so cherish it." etc. The thing is that the phrases are repeated so often, that it seems as if they are just "Words" being said because they have to. I cant speak for all suicidal people, but that's not what they want to hear. They need words with meaning to them. They need someone there for them, someone that will hear their Needs. My mom was suicidal once. She was pregnant at the time back in 97. She looked up and had said "Lord, I want to kill myself, but I have a kid with me. What do I do?" She wanted to kill herself,she was so tired,she was stressed, Living that Burning hell. She kept saying "I don't want to do this to myself. I can't end another person's life because of what I've gone through." My mom found her reason to live. Her daughters. We can't live without a reason, right? Then we would be invisible to this world. Everyone was born for a reason, but suicide prevents you to find your purpose in your life. Those thoughts going through your head, it's foggy, it's like a dark cloud of weight that won't leave you alone. It's very stressful, I understand. Picture this, You have a cloud that follows you around, when too many bad things get into the cloud it turns Pitch black. Now to have your cloud Fully white again, you have to take piece by piece of the black covering its bright light. It takes a while to remove it all completely. Now once the cloud is white you feel relieved that it's over with, now you can rest easy. The cloud is like your brain, So many negative things got in there that you were unable to see what was really there before. Everyone has a talent, everyone has a goal. Do not let that negative energy take away what you can really do in this world. I know you are probably thinking "I don't have the energy for it." or "I just can't." Believe me you won't get all that energy in 1 second. It takes time and effort to pull yourself out from that hell. Uncontrolled suicidal thoughts, low self esteem, self harming. Now about self harming, What good will it do to you? It wont ease the pain you feel, it will only make it worse for you. you are telling your brain that Hurting yourself is okay and that seeing yourself in pain is okay. Low self esteem? Do not worry. remember it takes time for you to love yourself. It could take years, months, weeks, to love who you really are. Now you probably think years are too long. Yeah it really is, and it sucks. But hey that's just how time works. You can't have things happen instantly. Now suicidal thoughts. It's painful isn't it? Now when you think about it, remember the imaginary cloud you have at all times. It's late now I will write more tomorrow for you. Please take care of your cloud, he's a part of you. I love you all. take care.

This is a memory that has been seared into my brain and I do not think that I could forget it even if I wanted to. This happened many years ago and I have a rather shite long term memory so the fact it sticks is telling.
Growing up my father was very protective of me and always made sure I knew what to do in case I was ever held at gunpoint or someone tried to abduct me. He had me in Tai Kwon Do classes and watched me like a hawk until I got a little older. I was around thirteen years old when this event happened and had stopped worrying about being abducted because in my mind, "Nobody abducts teenage boys."
At the time we lived in a small border town with most of the inhabitants being retirees and soldiers from the base. The crime rate was low and the town was very quiet and peaceful which also helped to aide my assurance that nothing would ever happen to me. It was just before Halloween and my mother had left town to go back to our home state and left my dad with the instructions to buy me a Halloween costume.
On this Saturday we were relaxing around the house as we normally did when my mother left, likely watching movies or television or playing video games too loud with no one to complain about the noise. We eventually got hungry and left for Arby's for lunch before heading to Spirit Halloween to costume shop. At this point in my life I had lived a relatively quiet life aside from some racist encounters and minor bullying so I was used to the lack of conflict.
Upon entering Arby's I immediately noticed an older man with tanned skin. His hair was salt and pepper and thinning at the top. His face was clean shaven and he had sort of generic brown eyes. His presence was off putting immediately as he stared deeply at me never once looking away. His stare was intense and made me very uncomfortable, my first assumption was that he was a racist and was upset over us being there.
We set our stuff down at a table with the old man still glaring at me. My father and brother got up to fill their drinks and left me alone at the table. His eyes did not move from me when they left and stayed permanently affixed to me. I knew at this point it likely was not a race thing and my stomach churned at the thought of being oggled by a pedophile. He never once ate while watching me and just sat silently at his table by himself, I do not even recall food being in front of him. I was horried. Lunch was miserable and completely ruined by this man and I was too frightened to say anything to my dad.
We left for Spirit and I asked them if they noticed anything off or weird about the man in the restaurant with us. Neither of them had noticed anything off about him so I neglected to press further. The entire time while shopping for a costume I could not stop thinking about being in Arby's and ended up just picking out a mask that I had a passing interest in.
The memory plagued my mind for the remainder of the day and had ruined my night too. My bedroom was on the second floor of the house but the paranoia was deeply set. I closed my window for fear of him somehow having followed us and crawling into my room while I slept. That entire week I had a rather miserable time trying to sleep, lying awake in bed thinking about the dark feeling that that man put off. It would not be for years until I was able to sleep with my window open again all from this one encounter.

Are you a student from Latvia with desire to connect with new friends and learn more about EU member states? We count on you!
The project is called EUXpander and aims to expands foreign culture among EU citizens. This personal projet does not require a lot of investment, but only people who want to join this adventure If you seek social links, and discovering a lot of different people while practicing English and even other languages this is a good place.
This project will be composed of three different steps: two that will focus on foreign culture and another one that will open us to the bureaucratic world of the EU.
First step is to send a typical prop, a typical object from your country to someone that lives in another part of the EU (for example it can be a Spanish, an Italian or even an Estonian..., this will be the surprise).
The second step is something more about social medias. This is about explaining how does it feel to be from country of the person in your case - we can do either by podcast or by videos, so you can explain what are the stereotypes, what are the traditions and how would you describe them.
Final step: we will try to invite someone from the EU structure to ask him/her questions about the EU, the youth, and even if we have some recommendation. Of course, no need to know a lot about the EU, we should also learn.
We are already around 42 members and 23 countries! If you're interested, dm me. PALDIES!

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i don't spend a ton of time on this subreddit, and i'm sure this is a plain jane story for some of you. regardless, it should be noted, this interaction was one of enough. the last straw, as some might say. simultaneously exacerbating and humorous.
also, i should note, satanism is dope. i'm partially kidding, because i know nothing about satanism, but i've read their 7 tenets on https://thesatanictemple.com/blogs/the-satanic-temple-tenets/there-are-seven-fundamental-tenets, and they actually sound quite reasonable.
that's besides the point.
for context, i will paint you a picture of this man i call my father. he has spent close to 20 years in a basement, living off of my mom and the government. he is deeply infiltrated in the Qanon community. hollywood drinks baby blood, the 2020 us election was falsified, joe biden is a simulation, elvis is alive, etc. you know, the usual things any level-headed person who gives a damn about empirical evidence would believe in.
anyways, we had a family gathering this last weekend. my father, astonishingly out of the basement and attempting to engage in social interaction, was there. i had spent all weekend listening to these theories i am already well familiar with. my father is also a narcissist, so i know it does no good to try to question his reality. instead, i attempted to show interest in our conversation by asking good faith questions. questions like, "do you think that every government on planet earth would willingly give the public a vaccine, knowing it's lethal, presumably ruining their people's health, economies, etc.. to influence the us 2020 election?"
the answer was of course yes. but no, he's not an anarchist. make it make sense.
then, he showed me a picture of madonna's face, and i could not at this point hold my tongue.
he said, "look at this." obviously referencing the condition of her face, which is admittedly unnatural.
i thought to myself, "don't say it. don't give him bait. don't tell him about how you really feel."
instead of listening to myself, i said, "yeah. that's what happens to a women's face when she grows up inundated with unrealistic beauty standards and decides to get multiple plastic surgeries in attempts to maintain a youthful look." or something to that effect.
i wish there were words to describe the shock on his face when he confidently replied, "no! thats not plastic surgery! thats because she worships SATAN."
my dad is not even a religious guy. not to my knowledge anyways. his life is evident of this fact. although, i am not ignorant to the reality that one can be religious while never taking a moment to actually practice any virtuous aspects of said religion.
i wanted to confirm, "you think she looks like that because she worships satan, and not because she had plastic surgeries?"
he said, "yes. she worships satan. just like the people you worship."
this response was particularly baffling, because i don't worship anyone; and then also because it sounds utterly insane.
the boring rest of the story is that i told him he has never actually inquired as to what i believe. to which he said, "why should I?" that question explains everything you'd need to know about his critical thinking abilities. then he left my brother's house, because i "disrespected him."
the unfortunate reality is that we were at my brother's house because he just had a child. this would be my father's first grandchild he was given the opportunity to meet, because he has been an absent father to at least three other families. he chose to miss out on time with his newborn granddaughter because madonna worships satanism, and inadvertently i, someone who has never paid attention to madonna, do too. it took everything in me to take off the horcrux and be present with my new niece.
in sum, i could imagine the product of extremist ideologies is as follows— loneliness, depression, pride. it's not martyrdom. it's just... sad.

Like many, I have also failed to get a ticket. No biggy I thought so already.
Whats odd though is how many people start to namecall SE for the management, and the low availability of tickets. Wouldn't it be more of a possibility that the Reason for the fast sellout is actually the high demand ?
In my opinion, you can't simply increase venue seats/Tickets. At some point there is simply not enough room and tbh even if they sell more tickets, I'm scared of it being way to full and uncomfortable.
That's why I'd like to hear people's opinions on the increase in prize. As we all know it's demand and prize. Let's say the tickets are just going to be 500 EU instead? Ya that would suck to pay that much. But I'd rather pay overprice to SE than some scalpers.

Hey everyone,
I just wanted to know what you all think about the competitiveness of MLS programs. In my program, which is a 4+1, only 6 out of ~50 were admitted, but other programs are competitive as well. I suppose in this instance it's because it's an internship with a stipend so they can't afford to train more people, but even tuition-based programs are competitive. There were also not many schools offering an MLS degree in undergrad near me at the time. Considering the shortage this field seems to have and how the field is not really recognized, I don't understand why there seem to be barriers entering the field. Does anyone have any thoughts or insight on this?

Hi Witches, long time lurker here.
My darling other half is a gentle soul. His work requires a lot of driving and so recently he started listening to podcasts, including the big Joe R. That was fine with me, but today he messaged me saying he’s really enjoying an episode starring…the lover of the patriarchy…the psychologist…JP. I was devastated. At first I approached calmly and tried to explain that he’s basically anti-everything important to me (I am a bi tree-hugging woman of colour with a trans man for a best friend), but that if he wanted to listen to him it’s fine so long as he does his research. He argued that it’s how he is portrayed in the media. After a bunch of voice messages back and forth, I’m at a loss on how to get him to see that he’s idolising and falling for the tricks of someone who would see my best friend dead before calling him a man. He has never had any views like this. If anything he’s progressive. I’m just kind of stunned and I don’t know what to do?

Y'all are just hurting for specific features and have taken to beating the dog sh*t out of this AI project to sort out your disappointment in not getting what you requested. And I mean I GET IT. An offline mode would be incredibly helpful, specific app integrations would be dope, and even more support for iPad and Apple Pencil in the app would be god-tier (for me at least). But the AI has been an incredible tool for me during my job search and schooling. It's re-written cover letters for me, pulled information from company websites, and injected it into my applications. The time I've saved! (Bruh so many hours. Writing this post after my 4th interview panel-- the AI has again rewritten my notes and talking points into a less repetitive, and organized format).
And if you don't like it- that's chill. I just wanted to point out how useful Notion AI can be. Yes, it's fun, especially for people who don't have much experience with AI. Maybe chill out on the Notion team? They give us cool features and the base product is incredible. #notionstanforever
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And no, the AI did not write this dowdy statement above. 😂 If it did it would sound like this:
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Some users seem to be disappointed with the specific features available in the AI project, and have expressed their frustration in strong language. While I can understand the desire for an offline mode, app integrations, and more support for iPad and Apple Pencil, I believe the AI has been an incredible tool for me during my job search and schooling. It has rewritten cover letters for me, extracted information from company websites, and inserted it into my applications, saving me countless hours of work. In fact, I'm currently writing this post after my fourth interview panel, and the AI has once again helped me to organize my notes and talking points more effectively.
Of course, if you have a different opinion, that's perfectly fine. I just wanted to highlight the useful features of Notion AI. Despite any limitations, it's still an impressive tool, especially for those who are new to AI. Let's remember to appreciate the cool features that the Notion team provides, and recognize the incredible value of the base product. #notionstanforever

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I honestly don't know what to do, I'm srsly panicking I feel guilty for what my mom did to my classmates, she's a nice mom really but her angry issues makes me panic, it leads me to distress myself to the point where my I could feel my heartbeat in my ears and can't breath at all, I feel so guilty about it like my heart is heavy and it's dropping to my stomach, this is from like a science project we were supposed to make the project at someone's house but I couldn't go, because I have the stand thingy for the RNA project I insisted I could make it myself, I didn't mind really bc I found it fun and it wasn't that hard, and when they're gonna pay for the materials I buyed, it was like 100 pesos for each person, including me I have to pay as well bc I burrowed the money from my mom, they said yes at first and then they change their mind when I remind them, they said it was pricy and wants to make it 50 pesos, again I didn't mind bc it wasn't hard but my mom said no, I wouldn't blame her bc it's her money but she counted even the electricity and the glue stick even tho I only use them a little, I tried telling her it was okay but then she started getting angry at me, I keep telling her to stop being angry and one of my members keeps doing 'hahah' in every sentence she says to my mom when she chatted, she said to my mom that's how she says it but my mom being a semi old person, told me she needs help bc she keeps adding hahah in every sentence she says, I told her stop bc it was kinda mean of her and then she got super angry at me and told me to go to my room or she's gonna break my phone, I got scared and started crying , she started chatting my group members in our gc with my account, I tried so hard to get back my phone but she keeps saying she'll break it, so I got scared, as much as I love my mom, she's scary and now they're gonna go to the guidance office bc of my mom, I didn't want this to happen, my mom said she wasn't after the money but their behavior towards me we're off and told me I was getting bullied, I didn't know what to do, I'm scared and guilty bc I think now they hate me, I didn't want this to happen, I just wanted no commotion and now I'm panicking, we already talk to the teacher, that they're gonna make their own and I could have the project by myself, and now my mom's angry bc the effort I put through the project. I CANT DEAL WITH THIS STRESS, we didn't talk to our science teacher yet but I feel so exhausted, my mom wants to my science teacher now :( I can't deal with this stress, I want it to stop What do I have to feel? What do I do My heart is beating too fast

Like many of you, I'm wending my way through a reread. Mine isn't constant as there are a number of series in rotation, but I always come back to the Disc.
And as I finish The Last Continent, I am struck by just how poorly I remember the endings of these books. I remember the buildup, the twists, even most of the asides, but the resolutions... Each book grips me, holding me enthralled, and then I almost immediately start digesting the whole thing when it releases me.
I would have liked to meet Sir Terry, but I only discovered his work shortly before he left us. So I shall have to make do with what of himself he put on the page.

And not just the fight order, but also the results. So it would become Tesla win first into a Qin lose.
Personally, I'd like it as Tesla's victory will show that Science can and will surpass Gods, with humanity's light prevailing over the god's darkness and it will be a way for Beelzebub to get karma for everything he has done, especially since this is right after Buddha's fight, which involved Zerofuku, a young and innocent god that he experimented on. It'd also make sense for Hades to finally come into play here, who showed up rather out of nowhere, as he now finally has come to fight to avenge 2 Gods that were close to him, and his win would also make the Greek pantheon not look too bad in standings so far. Not only that, but Qin can basically do the same speech Tesla did and have it be the same impact, he is THE King of humanity after all. With the swapped results, we'd probably also have a more balanced backstory focus (it's unreal that the past 2 rounds have an absurd amount of backstory for the winner lmao).
How about you guys, what do you think?

I just… I dunno man. I don’t know how I feel anymore. There was this dood I liked in hs for like…. a long ass time, got rejected but we were still close friends and he helped make me who I was today, and I am proud of him for growing too. Slowly we drifted as we got to college even though we go to the same one. I learned he got a significant other, also not a problem I’m ridiculously happy for him on that since he always says “I have no friends” or “no one will ever love me.” But what is this pain in my chest. I killed off emotions for him already after knowing him for 7 years. And I am already trying to talk to other people if you will. So why do I feel empty? I learned that he has had friends at his house and watched movies or gone to a theater with friends. I haven’t ever been extended that offer even though we used to chat late into the night. I guess I never noticed I was always the one to reach out first. We supported each other though, I helped him with his family issues he taught me self defense to help with mine, we’ve eaten together gone airsofting. Why do I feel like I have missed so much. I just can’t think anymore… I don’t know if he even was my friend. And he did all of this out of pity. I mean I wouldn’t be surprised. I am a bit of what he titled me “a tsundere” but I managed to tone it down so I would be able to properly convey gratitude or admirations. I learned the people that I am relatively close with are better friends with him than I, which is to be expected… I’m lost. People there are still really nice to me and are relatively fine though I could definitely use some more social awareness. But where do I go from here, what is this weird pain? Why do I feel so left out?

Hi guys,
As I'm sure you've all noticed, digital marketing is turning itself inside out coming to terms with AI and how it impacts our work. Lately, I've seen a flood of AI "tools" being promoted that advertise AI solutions for this and that, from text to imagery, and more.
First of all, this subreddit was created to exist as a watercooler safe space for digital marketers who don't have anyone in their company or circle of friends to discuss their professional challenges. And our 1st and most important rule is no solicitation. There are no sales pitches at the watercooler, and even actual advice is suspect the moment it's attached to "and this thing you can buy will solve your problems".
I'm happy to reconsider the above and tweak (minimally) this rule if the community has a different point of view (comment below), but for now, that's the state of things.

Now to the issue at hand

I'd like to urge everyone to learn to use AI, as it's going to be an unavoidable tool in our arsenal going forward but to be weary about the deluge of tools that claim to perform miracles.
There are a handful of AIs good enough to use today (ChatGPT and Midjourney being well-known examples), as well as an absolute dumpster fire of front-end interfaces that query the aforementioned AIs via API. I've tried a dozen, and they rarely add significant value beyond what the core tools themselves do. If anything, they add a layer of obscurity on top of the query-response process, which isn't doing the user any favors.
The vast majority of these hastily cobbled tools won't exist in a year. Please consider the implications of giving your money, personal data, and work data to a platform that's only forwarding your content to a different API. Consider the implications of not having access to any of your history when the garage projects inevitably drown in the sea of indistinguishable competitors.
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In light of this, we'll take a stronger moderation approach to removing the promotion of derivative AI tools and promotion. We'll also begin to enforce a zero-tolerance approach to promotion that seeks to circumvent the automod tools, such as posts that appeal to PM for more info or mention links in bios.
This is a community for PEOPLE who share a passion and profession to talk to each other, and not a community where you're sold to. If you'd like that, I'm sure you can find any number of digital marketing communities out there where you can read sales pitches and promos.
As always, if you have ANY comments about the above moderation direction, let me know. Please keep them on the community moderation topic, if you'd like to write a lengthy post about the direction of AI and have that discussion, do post it and PM me, we probably could use a sticky for that debate for a while.

At first, an ironic humorous elite of some random world made obscure posters depicting Imperator in a rude, scalandous way (also painting him in an unusual yellow style) After some time, this joke spread throughout the entire sector.
The people who made this got butthurt that "normies stole their content to show how edgy they are" and while the joke was made just for trolling and for people's butthurt, it started to be used by cultists in an unironic way in their propaganda campaigns.

So i’m posting here just because i want to hear some jazz guitarists perspective since i think you guys have probably a greater sensitivity to composing on the spot than many other kinds of guitarists. Basically i was at an open jam with a band i’ve never played with before, it was 2 guitars bass drums keys and vocals and the vocalist called joe cocker feelin alright. just 2 chords the whole way through and i was kinda floored just how difficult it was for me figuring out how to approach it exactly! i guess i just wasnt sure if i should just play one rhythm the whole time, focusing on a few voicings at a time and stick to that (the other guitarist seemed to have taken the role of doing double stops and little licks, keys was sticking to main riff etc.) or if i should be mixing it up a bit. was listening to a bunch of cocker playing it live and it seems like hes usually got a fair size band where it would seem very obvious to me to keep it dirt simple but here i felt like i was a bit more out in the open. idk i ended up mostly just keeping it simple, playing a bit more intensely the same rhythm during the chorus, at some points i made up a riff that more or less was me leading into the next chord. I guess the main problem and why im second guessing is just we went on for a while, did solos and stuff but i felt like it didnt have a very clear arc, kind of felt we were droning on. maybe im putting too much on myself having taken the rhythm role for this and it was just us not listening to each othe not having enough common ground to know what we’re all doing to find a clear direction? anyone have suggestion on recordings or something where a guitarist really nails these kinds of vibes with a smaller ensemble?

I posted about this the other day, about how we were each other’s first everything and about how he had ended things over text, a few weeks before my birthday, while I was out with a group of girl friends for the first time in a year. Today my friend sent me a screenshot of him, holding another girl, on his story. I messaged him to make sure that they were only sexual after our relationship ended because they both looked like they had just been intimate with one another (purely to know whether or not to get tested), they weren’t while we were together - but they are now. It’s only been 6 days since our relationship ended. He asked for the vinyls that he gifted me for my birthday last year back when I asked him about his hook-up. He eventually told me to stop playing the victim when I told him that the situation was hurtful, and that I wanted to keep the vinyls. I am so shocked and hurt.