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2023.06.10 06:18 koragems-foam teenage guys wtf does this mean
so i have this guy friend, recently we’ve gotten pretty close, calling pretty much every night and watching shows together on facetime. hed been dropping some strange hints like constantly asking who i’m bringing to my school prom and saying things like ‘you may never know what my bed feels like’ when we were talking about mattresses☠️☠️ etc.
it could just be jokes and stuff but it kinda freaked me out a little bc we haven’t hung out irl in a year and idk what he’s like in person anymore. so we arranged to hang out after exams, he kept persisting asking when we were going to meet up before then and we settled after exams were over. during my exams he continued pestering and it got a bit strange so i told him i was busy with exams just need to focus for now. he seemed a bit disappointed and said ‘You were down last week why aren’t you anymore’ and i insisted it was the exam stress, to which he agreed as he also has exams. which it was partially, but the pestering was odd bc it felt a bit desperate despite us already making plans beforehand.
during a weekend i decided to ask if he wanted to call since i felt bad for that . he said ‘for sure!’ and i told him i’d cal him after a quick shower he then replied 5 mins later saying ‘im on game rn’ . I said ‘sure! lmk when u can call so i can shower quick and get back to u by then’ bc i didn’t want to have a super long shower and keep him waiting yk. he proceeded to not respond the entire night…..no call nothing.
i was like ok well whatever then, he was never great at communication but tjay made me a bit mad, like i totally respect if you wanna play games instead but literally just say you’re gonna play for the rest of the night instead of leaving me hanging?! idk. anyways for the next few days i kept getting lots of snaps and messages from him , but my replies were a bit dry and lackluster since i was busy with studying and work, which honestly i didnt think would bother him bc he tends to do the same,but also because i guess the call thing had me a little bit upset and prompted more dry responses. He replied with ‘wow nice chat.’ and we didn’t talk much for the next few days, just him sending me snap updates on his exams and then leaving me on opened when i replied. idk if it’s mixed signals or he’s just shit at media communication.
anyways his exams just ended this week, so i decided to prompt a conversation, asking him how he’s been and if he’s watched the new spiderman movie yet. he goes ‘no, why are you gonna ask me to watch it with you or something?’ to which i go ‘nó i’ve already watched it , but i’m down to watch it on call together if u want’ I wasn’t expecting him to call me today, nor was i trying to pressure him into it, i really just wanted to check in on him. but it must’ve come off that way bc he kept trying to ward me off by saying ‘you should go study or something i’m playing with the boys rn’ to which i asked if he was trying to ward me off. he said ‘i’m just busy i have plans and i have things to do’. ‘I’m playing with the boys i have things to do rn’ feels like a weird thing to say imo, especially since i was just having a regular text convo with him. Like if he was busy he could’ve just been like ‘aight ima go i’m doing smth w mỹ friends rn’ thật would be fine, but him suggesting i leave and that he’s busy slowly honestly was worse than being outright. What caused this sudden dismissive ness? Sorry if this whole thing is confusing i’m literally confused by my own experience lmfao.
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2023.06.10 06:16 Thatonedudescar I have the 2019 Nvidia Shield TV Pro
I bought my invidious shield pro from a website. 3 or 4 years ago. I can't remember the name but I know that it came. Preloaded with Cody and a bunch of other apps to make it as seemless as possible. My favorite application was. BeeTV. It literally had every movie television show series. You name it, and they would all work seemlessly. Until around 2020 one, it wouldn't work anymore. I was told not to update the shield ever because if I did the version of BeeTV that came installed when I bought it would update to a newer version and not let me stream/play all the new cool movies, shows and games.
Has anyone else in counter this problem? And do you think I should go ahead? End update my invidious shield pro or leave it the same?
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2023.06.10 06:15 ProperNomenclature Apple TV+ Android TV app has no sound via HDMI ARC, but all other apps work fine
It was working fine the other day, but now nothing I do restores sound for shows like, say, Silo or Prehistoric Planet. I've tried disabling Atmos on the TV, power cycling the soundbar, exiting and entering the app, nothing changes.
Only Apple TV+ doesn't work, and only shows. MLS soccer, for instance, works fine, suggesting to me that it's something to do with how the shows are encoded.
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2023.06.10 06:15 Glad-Aardvark-5400 This is every mental health professional I've ever come across
I gave them aliases. They all sucked.
“Born Yesterday” A social worker I talked to in middle school. She wanted to mediate a conversation between me and my sociopath mom. She asked if that's what I needed in order to be able to open up. It could have been a matter of them acknowledging signs of abuse but assuming my mother was safe. Or they just victim blamed and pathologized me and assumed my parents were well-meaning. Either way, I sabotaged having to see her again by telling my mom they were asking all sorts of questions at school, and she came in to complain. Never saw her again. The trauma hit me hard later, thinking I lost a chance to get rescued.
“Getting my credentials” A lady I talked to only once, some months later. She didn't have any credentials. She let my mother cry crocodile tears and play the victim. My mom was practically begging me not to lay a hand on her ever again or she would pack her bags. That's kind of a cheap way to talk about abuse, but my mother was a sociopath playing games. I started crying hysterically and went mute throughout. I never saw the lady after that one “intervention”.
“Don't even say anything” A psychiatrist who based his assessment only on what my mother had to say. I was mute throughout everything and my mother was denying it was a lifelong issue. This doctor asked questions and answered them himself, never looking up from his papers. He confirmed my mother's suspicions that I essentially refused to talk to people, and labeled me Avoidant Personality. I was just shunned socially, mute, and was living in isolation, locked in a room due to abuse.
Those first two I met in the US, the rest in Latin America.
“Latin Dr. Mengele” Many years later, I met this psychiatrist who oversaw operations at a therapy cult. He was a pervert, gaslighter, abuser, and enabler of horrible circumstances for the patients. We had every type of abuse you can think of.
"Budding Cult Leaders" Two psychologists supporting the psychiatrist and the rest of the show at the rehab cult. Both seemed narcissistic. Both acted spiritually superior but played dumb when it came to the horror show they were enabling.
"Poptart Mengele" A psychiatrist at another instance where I was institutionalized. She dressed a lot like a popular Latin pop star (really loud and young), she had adult braces at around 40. The day I arrived here, the other doctor, Latin Mengele, was present. I can't even with this other experience. The hospital was run by clowns. Awful, pretentious, delusional narcissists.
"Horror Movie Asylum Keepers" The staff at the hospital I was in. A lot were relatively normal. Overwhelmingly, they were horrible people. Too much stuff happened, and I don't want to go into details. Toxic work environments refine their staff and culture in ways you should never. You end up with “innocents” who enable horrors and plain sociopaths running the show.
"Dipshit Whisperer" The first person I really talked to trying to deal with lifelong complex trauma. She was abusive. Most of the time, she heavily sympathized with other abusers in my life. She hid behind them and used them as a shield and favorite weapon to gaslight me.
"Let me handle it” I tried to stop seeing Narc Whisperer and jump ship. This guy was worse and a huge bigot. He hated my guts. One of the first clues that he was shady was how he presented himself on a first meeting as my newly anointed savior. I immediately thought it was a red flag. I talked about childhood mental health issues and how they affected immigration and school performance. He was disparaging about my intelligence, past school performance, my status as an immigrant, and he was insensitive, to put it mildly, about everything else.
“The one I just didn't click with” I saw another lady who seemed uncomfortable with me and vaguely disbelieving. She was the nicest of all.
“Trauma Uninformed” This lady thought what I had to say about trauma was unscientific, but also said she agreed I had CPTSD. She just seemed like the type to not recognize CPTSD, but was willing to compromise for the money.
“Psicologx” This lady was a hipster who overused gender inclusive language in her socials. She has a big online presence. She came across as volatile and passive-aggressive, with a really nasty ring to her slights. I almost didn't go back after the first time I saw her, based on instinct and how horrible the first conversation was. She texted me a test that assessed for personality disorders before I made up my mind to leave. I went back, probably subconsciously, to defend myself. We had an awful second conversation. She was one upping me, sensitive to my know-it-all attitude when it came to my experiences. It's a defense mechanism. Or she was trying to hit a nerve by using my own words against me. The topic of suicide was brought up and she disbelieved my story. I was deeply depressed in my teens, with a passive desire to “leave” my problems and life. I said my life got better the longer I was not a child in total vulnerability to an awful environment. She said my story didn't fit what she knew, and it couldn't be like I said.
I gave up on finding someone after this, and I needed to save money, so it was a mild blessing in disguise. I've felt like an awful person, a faker, and the actual problem for a long time. I'm trying to get over that, so I wrote this.
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2023.06.10 06:14 qwertycats- Does anyone else kinda hate TV?
I know I’m definitely in the minority but I can’t stand any kind of TV. I don’t have the energy or attention span to invest in new series, I hate the sound of the TV being on, I hate how loud the ads are, I hate how you just have to sit there and do nothing, I truly just hate it lol. I use it purely as a social activity when I have someone over and even if it looks like I’m watching and paying attention, I am absorbing absolutely nothing. I could be watching the Roku home screen and it would be the same experience as watching a show.
The only times I use it are to watch reruns of the same 2 shows I watch over and over, and even then I glaze over because I already know what happens.
I think the main issue is that it’s just too much of a passive activity for me and I can’t focus on anything if the TV is on so my poor boyfriend is always getting told to turn the tv down lol. Is this an autism thing? I think loud sounds and noises are my biggest sensory issues so it kinda makes sense. I love absolute silence (which sucks because it is so rare)
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2023.06.10 06:14 G0jira My first RemindMe triggered and I didn't even have to set it
2023.06.10 06:14 mc395686 Something I've been thinking about for a while: Every Marvel Movie fits into 4 categories (or a combination of them)
One day I had the realization that every Marvel movie fits into 4 general categories (or a combination of them). I came up with this after watching Black Widdow, and since then it has still rang true. I wanted to share it cause I think it's an interesting and simple way to group all the movies/shows. and wanted to hear your guys' thoughts.
The 4 categories: Lore
Lore is basically any movie that has lore in it. This also includes things like legends, myths, magic, people being able to harness powers or turn into things, etc. One example is Shang Chi, where the movie is about rings and the legend attached to them. Space
Space is a general term for any movie that has sci-fi elements in it. If a movie takes place in space for a majority of it, then it fits here, but movies like Quantumania also fit as they have a sci-fi feel. (I know it's not in space but come on it feels like it) Funny
While every Marvel film makes you laugh at some point, this category is for films that do it often and make it a big part of the movie. Every movie (so far) in this category overlaps with another (like GotG also being Space) Real
This is any movie that takes place on Earth and doesn't feel as much like a superhero movie. These movies often involve the government, regular people, and fighting with standard guns. Think Winter Soldier or Iron Man. Combination examples:
- Lore/Real- Thor (the first one)
- Lore/Funny- Thor Ragnarok
- Lore/Space- ?
- Space/Funny- GotG
- Space/Real- Captain Marvel
- Real/Funny- Ant Man
I'm interested to hear what you guys think everything fits into, and if you have any thoughts/ideas
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2023.06.10 06:12 ApolloO3 Anyone wants to be movie buddies?
23M Asian, new to nyc, living in bushwick, love going to the movies but don’t know anyone in the city yet, so if anyone wants to be friends and go to the movies together regularly, from blockbusters to indies, or even broadway shows (if I have time lol since I have school) pls lmk :)
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2023.06.10 06:11 ilikephatpuss Poly user. My plan to quit.
Hi. I am a 19(m) who does his fair share of substances. It started with one of my coworkers letting me take a joint home.. now me (being a social reject at school despite being really kind and pretty attractive) wanted desperately to turn a new leaf with my work life and be the dude who everyone is cool with. So I took it home and smoked it. Only smoked half of it but man... Was it incredible, felt like I was in heaven. Everything tasted better, shows and movies were captivating. And it helped with my partial insomnia. But it wasn't until I found out my dad was a secret stoner too, that I REALLY took to the "high life". Smoked every day, and eventually I made what I thought was an absolute killing from selling bud. Somewhere in the 8-9 grand range (witch for a broke dude like me) is amazing. But then I tried LSD... And it threw me into an entire new world. End up falling in love with the stuff. Trip like every week if I could. And that lead to me doing DMT. Which absolutely traumatized me beyond comprehension. And I didn't touch drugs for a couple months.....
Man should I have kept it that way.
One thing leads to another and I just keep looking for the next intense high..
Fucked around with Xanax and almost lost my job due to oversleeping
Tried morphine and almost OD'd
Adderall but quit cause it was boring
And finally.. cocaine
Now coke isnt something I would say I'm addicted to. But I can feel it creeping. Never in my life have I thought I would actually be dependent on any chemicals. But coke scared me in such a way.
The thing that gets me the most is the mental realization that I'm doing cocaine. The absolute stigma of it makes me sick. I used to be a 4.0 straight A student who would never touch the stuff. But here I am with an upcoming Florida trip and an 8ball I need to get rid of.
SO here's my plan guys. I'm gonna go to Florida, have a great time with this 8 ball. And make a vow to never touch a substance again. Besides maybe the occasional social blunt at a party, ECT.. but I'm ready to start College. And in turn start a new chapter in life.
Please support and remind me of my goal as I progress. I thrive off of it. And it's one of the only ways I'll quit for good ...
TLDR: going on a last hoorah with my coke and never doing drugs again 🤙❤️
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2023.06.10 06:10 SaltyQuote9335 25 [F4M] #California - Looking for a chat buddy!
I'm a single and outgoing 25 year old looking for long-term friendship. I think life is meant to be enjoyed and shared with others, and so I'm looking for connection. (That's deep lol) I hope you find me interesting with my hobbies which are cooking, working out, listening to music, taking naps, cleaning, organizing, taking pictures, playing video games and sometimes I enjoy watching good movies/shows. If you'll message me please include your age, location and a little introduction.
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2023.06.10 06:10 coral_lido What do you think?
I am an international student that took a gap year and I am planning to apply to universities in the United States. I have 7 extracurriculars (drama club, work as an extra on tv shows, founded and managed a garage sale, class president, founded and mentored at a study group, student council member and I was a volunteer work at a local church) Some of these extracurriculars like the volunteer work, the garage sale and the work as an extra I was able to participate in for over 2 years, but all the others were only for a few months or 1 year at most so I'm afraid the admission officers will think badly of it for not being consistent. The pandemic started right after my freshman year and face-to-face classes only returned in my senior year, so I couldn't continue most of the activities. To make matters worse I only have one honor ( I was in 3rd place in the class rank recognition). I also have no way of knowing my GPA as my school has not released 2020 grades in the transcripts because of the pandemic. Being brutally honest, do you think I have any chance of getting accepted to a university?
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2023.06.10 06:10 NoSoupFourYu 43 [M4F] Michigan/Anywhere - Still searching for a pleasant distraction
Like a lot of others, I am married with kids, and it isn’t quite all hunky-dory… especially the last few months. I work from home (for years, well before the pandemic) and I am not always busy. That leaves a lot of time for me to be stuck in my own head, so I am looking for a friend who can provide a long-term distraction, both during and outside of work hours. I am not really looking to rant. I prefer chatting with someone creative, as maybe that will jumpstart a part of me that I feel I have lost.
About me… I love basketball and have season tickets to the local pro team (even though that causes me loads of heartache). I like exercise, long walks, food, TV, movies, and baseball on a nice day. I am often too sarcastic for my own good.
If you are in a similar situation or possibly share some interests, please feel free to reach out. If you are near Detroit, maybe we can even hang out.
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2023.06.10 06:07 pppowpeppers Ang dali talagang makalimot ng mga Pinoy. Hala sige, defend pa more sa TVJ…
2023.06.10 06:07 -Ecarinsurance- Shawn and Henry’s relationship
Idk if this has been discussed yet but I feel like Shawn and Henry are one of the few and most realistic depictions of a parent and grown child relationship I’ve seen on tv. For example it’s obvious that they fight and disagree on a lot of things. But I feel like that’s normal for a parent/child relationship. But when it comes down to things they show each other they love and care for each other in their own ways. And that’s what I (personally) feel like it is to have parents. Knowing the way they show love and just excepting that that’s how they show it. And honestly I feel like this show does that perfectly with Shawn and Henry.
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2023.06.10 06:04 TheTourist-180 In Footloose: The Musical, does Willard have a character arc?
Just watched both Footloose movies for the first time last night in preparation for playing Willard in a local production this summer. In the movies, he has a fairly decent change of character but nothing to write home about. That goes without saying that he is definitely the comedic relief though, and from what I’ve seen is a fan favorite.
Does he have more or less of a character arc in the show? I haven’t seen the show yet but I am familiar with all the songs and what the character’s personality is like. Just wondering if any story elements are changed or altered to his character. Thanks!
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2023.06.10 06:03 Daniel7394 2023 Italian GP: Moto2 & Moto3 Practice 3, MotoGP Free Practice, MotoGP Qualifying, MotoE Race 1, Moto3 & Moto2 Qualifying, MotoE Race 2 & Red Bull Rookies Race 1 Discussion
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2023.06.10 06:02 theConsummateProf 23M looking for some more friends
Hello everyone, it’s your 23 year old superhero loving, video game playing, movie buff, Star Wars fanatic, TV watching, music enjoying, guitar playing, software engineer for rocket test flight simulations at NASA coming in to ask if you guys would like some friendship! I’m a huge fan of both Spiderman and Batman and can wax poetic about both of their histories. I’m currently doing a play-through of both a heavily modded Skyrim and the insomniac Spiderman game. I’m also a pretty massive fan of Smash Ultimate (King K Rool main idc). I’ve seen a bunch of movies in my time, this list includes but is not limited to: Sorry to Bother You, Inception, EEAAO, Inside Llewen Davis, There Will Be Blood, No Country for Old Men, The Truman Show, The Whale, and your standard MCU stuff (I haven’t seen guardians 3 yet). I’m also a huge TV consumer having seen Breaking Bad, Better Call Saul, The Office, Community, Succession, Parks and Rec, Veep, The Good Place, Curb Your Enthusiasm. I also am a huge fan of rock, mostly stuff like The Strokes, Arctic Monkeys, White Stripes, Nirvana, RATM, The Beatles. I also like more contemporary stuff like The Weeknd, Kendrick Lamar, Childish Gambino and Lil Nas X. I’m also currently learning a lot about guitar and can play piano pretty damn well if I do say so myself. So hit me up! Let’s either bond over mutual interests, or share some of your own to broaden my horizons!
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2023.06.10 06:00 Depressed_Dick_Head I Found Out that My Dad Told My Mom that He Would Divorce Her if She Got Fat
TW: Domestic Violence, Domestic Abuse, fatphobia
Hello All, I'm new to this Sub. I'm (22F) Indian and have been dealing with symptoms of depression, hence my username. Let's say that my dad hasn't been the best husband to my mom. They're both in their 50s and have stayed married for a long time. The best that I can disclose on this sub is that my dad used to be physically, verbally, and emotionally abusive to my mom when I was little. After living in the US for more than 10 years, my dad treated my mom so much better when I started to go to college. Unfortunately I've been getting symptoms of depression and things were going downhill since then (at college), and things seem to be getting worse.
The thing about my mom is that she was raised as very Christian and in a culture where talking to the opposite sex was strictly prohibited. My dad (raised in that same culture where talking to the opposite sex was strictly prohibited) was not raised Christian but later converted and married my mom (with her parents' permission). Since my dad wasn't raised in an urban area, my dad was treating my mom horribly (verbally, emotionally, and physically abusive). But again, since I went to college, my dad started treating my mom like a whole human being and an equal partner. I was so happy my dad was a much better person and treating my mom well.
Another thing is that I'm overweight and both of my parents always comment negative things about my weight. One day, when my mom was telling me about how upset she was with me and exercise (I wasn't exercising much, she dragged me to the gym, and the last thing I wanted to do was exercise so I did the bare minimum because she dragged me to the gym), she disclosed that my dad long ago before marrying her pointed to a fat woman (family member) and told her that if she got fat, he would divorce her. This of course got me upset and angry at my dad to the point that I'm posting this here.
I absolutely hated how my father treated my mother, which also made me weary around men and guys in general and made me very scared to date. I even used to express my disgust with my dad's behavior and would ask my mom why she wouldn't leave him. My mom's refusal to leave my dad so that she can be there for me showed me that abuse victims couldn't just simply leave if they're in an abusive relationship. Now my mom disclosing this information about my dad threatening to divorce her if she got fat just makes me so angry that it took quite a bit of nerve to prevent myself from getting visibly angry with my father. As much as I want my dad to get better, I just couldn't help but want to cry and hopefully post this to cope somehow. Since experiencing this secondhand abusive relationship, I've been much more sympathetic towards my mom and tried not to express overt disgust for my dad (I used to express how much I hated that my dad was an abusive asshole to her and she would get defensive, which I think made her feel helpless) and just tried to have no judgement towards her and be there for her (I think I might be my mom's only person to confide about my father's behavior to).
I also absolutely hate her excuses for my father's horrible behavior (she says things like men are wired to be attracted to thin, beautiful women so if their wives got fat then men would just leave them or men are wired to want sex so I shouldn't dress provocatively or a man might rape me). After hearing about the terrible things my dad would say/do to my mom, it just made me incredibly sad that my mom and dad didn't grow up in a culture/environment where men would treat women around them with dignity and respect (since living in the US, I think my dad started to treat my mom more like a human being and an equal after looking around to see other married couples doing that) so it made both of them just think that treating women like shit was normal and perfectly fine. It also made me vow that I would never put up with any man like or worse than men like my father, especially men that would say disgusting shit like "if you get fat I'm going to leave you".
As of now, I'm just really sad and angry and I feel like I want to cry and do something petty towards my dad like let's say that my dad and I are watching TV and we see a man be an abusive, disrespectful dickhead to his gf/wife and I laugh and say something like "good thing no men in my family would ever do/say something like that", as a an act of the "bombastic side eye" (I feel kind of cruel and mean for typing this). Sadly I have a feeling that if I were to do this my dad would not gaf about what I had to say and would probably say something like "maybe if you were skinnier more men would treat you better" just to shut me down (and yes, he has done something like this before just to shut me down). But I won't do anything petty just for my mom's sake, and just post my thoughts on here. Overall, the title of this post just brought me back to horrible memories that I never thought I would have to revisit and of course isn't making my depression symptoms any better :/ and am vowing to not ever put up with men like or worse than my dad and if I somehow miraculously get a partner, he would be so much better, treat me well, and I treat him well and live happily ever after as a healthy couple.
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2023.06.10 05:56 alexeiffe1 Best first steps to take for a career in VFX?
I’m currently a student studying TV Production and am interested in getting into VFX for TV and Film as a career. I am proficient in both After Effects and all major video editing softwares. Also am knowledgeable upon camera and lighting techniques which will hopefully give me some grounding in VFX. I’m thinking of learning VFX alongside my degree and implementing it within projects (as it is not taught within my degree however there is a specialised VFX department with facilities that I can use). Just wondering what would be the best first steps to take in order to break into the industry after university (what software to learn, how long before I start creating a show reel, any good tutorials that would help out). Thanks so much :)
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2023.06.10 05:56 Great-Cat-1978 Garfield is pissed off by trashy tv