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2023.06.10 20:58 dariusvoldar He’s looking for a sex doll?
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2023.06.10 20:42 shawtybcf Positive HeyJane Experience - 9 Weeks
Hey guys. I figured I’d share my experience. I’m a 30 something. I found out last Sunday (May 28) I was 9 weeks pregnant.
I have a period tracker, hence why I was able to calculate it pretty accurately. I literally found out at 3AM, and immediately started scouting the internet on what to do. I was going to go the Planned P route but I wasn’t able to acquire an appointment almost 2 weeks out. I did not want to risk waiting. My friend quite literally used HeyJane 2 weeks ago so I went on their website.
Mind you, this was 4am Sunday. They have you fill out a survey about your pregnancy and what not, taking a picture of your ID and a selfie with said ID. If you qualify, they will give you an option about ordering. As far as qualifying, mitigating circumstances like if you have an irregular period will determine if you qualify or not. They will suggest you see a doctor. I’ll be honest though, I initially did not qualify and I just refilled the survey with a different answer and I was able to qualify.
They have you download a specific app for them to chat with you. It will take up to 24 (sometimes a little later) hours for them to contact you on said app. Don’t panic if it isn’t within the exact 24 hour time period. They will message you when you’re approved, and then a series of messages informing of you what to expect with the medicine and how to take it. They are a chat you can utilize for advice and support. Very nice. I felt very secure.
Again, I filled out the form and applied for them Sunday during the day. They got back to me Monday at 2:49pm saying I was approved and they messaged me again at 3:47pm saying they shipped the medication to their pharmacy named HoneyBee. I got my medication Thursday.
They do not take my insurance so it came out to $259. I picked standard shipping. For an extra $30, you can get 2 day shipping. I’m satisfied with the standard shipping because as opposed to receiving it Wednesday, I received it Thursday afternoon.
When it arrived, it’s in a plain white FedEx bubble envelope. It doesn’t say pharmacy or any indicators like that. But you can hear it’s pills when you move it around.
Also on your bank statement, it will say HeyJane.com. Just in case you’re trying to hide your transactions.
I waited until Thursday night to take the 1st pill. I honestly didn’t feel anything, no real discomfort. I was able to work my full 8 hour shift the next day.
I waited the full 24 hours to take my 2nd pills. I took the painkillers (2 tablets of ibuprofen, equaling to 800mg) and anti nausea medication at around 8:35pm. At 9:10pm, I inserted the 4 miso tablets vaginally as I’ve heard it works faster that way and can prevent added nausea that can happen when taken in the mouth.
It was about an hour or so (around 10:30p) I started feeling the cramping. I’d say a 4/10. I prepped by putting a heavy pad in my underwear and I fell asleep.
I woke up around 2/3am and my cramps had intensified. By now I’d say it was a 7/10. Enough where I couldn’t easily sleep. I wasn’t going to take another set of pain killers, but my boyfriend did offer me some weed to smoke to lessen the pain. I also drank Gatorade for electrolytes and eat some crackers. It kind of helped. I fell asleep again.
I will say I generally do have painful periods so it wasn’t as bad I thought but if you do not have painful periods, the cramps could be debilitating for you.
I woke up at 5am and I had bled onto the bed since I rolled around in my sleep. I do recommend sleeping on a towel for leakage. I went to the bathroom to pee and a big blood clot (which I think was the sac to be honest with you) slipped out into the toilet. It made me shudder at the plop noise it made. But I cleaned and wiped. There was no pain in wiping.
I was able to sleep until 8:30am.
As far as a pain, it hasn’t been that bad since. I haven’t taken another ibuprofen pill. I was able to walk around the mall the next day and ate a full meal.
I’m still bleeding but it isn’t heavy. I will update a few weeks from now to see how it’s going.
I wanted to give people an insight with someone who’s farther in. Most stories I read were 6 weeks.
It can be daunting and you need to know you will get through this. I was lucky enough that my boyfriend is supportive and took care of me. I hope this helps somehow.
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I have a period tracker, hence why I was able to calculate it pretty accurately. I literally found out at 3AM, and immediately started scouting the internet on what to do. I was going to go the Planned P route but I wasn’t able to acquire an appointment almost 2 weeks out. I did not want to risk waiting. My friend quite literally used HeyJane 2 weeks ago so I went on their website.
Mind you, this was 4am Sunday. They have you fill out a survey about your pregnancy and what not, taking a picture of your ID and a selfie with said ID. If you qualify, they will give you an option about ordering. As far as qualifying, mitigating circumstances like if you have an irregular period will determine if you qualify or not. They will suggest you see a doctor. I’ll be honest though, I initially did not qualify and I just refilled the survey with a different answer and I was able to qualify.
They have you download a specific app for them to chat with you. It will take up to 24 (sometimes a little later) hours for them to contact you on said app. Don’t panic if it isn’t within the exact 24 hour time period. They will message you when you’re approved, and then a series of messages informing of you what to expect with the medicine and how to take it. They are a chat you can utilize for advice and support. Very nice. I felt very secure.
Again, I filled out the form and applied for them Sunday during the day. They got back to me Monday at 2:49pm saying I was approved and they messaged me again at 3:47pm saying they shipped the medication to their pharmacy named HoneyBee. I got my medication Thursday.
They do not take my insurance so it came out to $259. I picked standard shipping. For an extra $30, you can get 2 day shipping. I’m satisfied with the standard shipping because as opposed to receiving it Wednesday, I received it Thursday afternoon.
When it arrived, it’s in a plain white FedEx bubble envelope. It doesn’t say pharmacy or any indicators like that. But you can hear it’s pills when you move it around.
Also on your bank statement, it will say HeyJane.com. Just in case you’re trying to hide your transactions.
I waited until Thursday night to take the 1st pill. I honestly didn’t feel anything, no real discomfort. I was able to work my full 8 hour shift the next day.
I waited the full 24 hours to take my 2nd pills. I took the painkillers (2 tablets of ibuprofen, equaling to 800mg) and anti nausea medication at around 8:35pm. At 9:10pm, I inserted the 4 miso tablets vaginally as I’ve heard it works faster that way and can prevent added nausea that can happen when taken in the mouth.
It was about an hour or so (around 10:30p) I started feeling the cramping. I’d say a 4/10. I prepped by putting a heavy pad in my underwear and I fell asleep.
I woke up around 2/3am and my cramps had intensified. By now I’d say it was a 7/10. Enough where I couldn’t easily sleep. I wasn’t going to take another set of pain killers, but my boyfriend did offer me some weed to smoke to lessen the pain. I also drank Gatorade for electrolytes and eat some crackers. It kind of helped. I fell asleep again.
I will say I generally do have painful periods so it wasn’t as bad I thought but if you do not have painful periods, the cramps could be debilitating for you.
I woke up at 5am and I had bled onto the bed since I rolled around in my sleep. I do recommend sleeping on a towel for leakage. I went to the bathroom to pee and a big blood clot (which I think was the sac to be honest with you) slipped out into the toilet. It made me shudder at the plop noise it made. But I cleaned and wiped. There was no pain in wiping.
I was able to sleep until 8:30am.
As far as a pain, it hasn’t been that bad since. I haven’t taken another ibuprofen pill. I was able to walk around the mall the next day and ate a full meal.
I’m still bleeding but it isn’t heavy. I will update a few weeks from now to see how it’s going.
I wanted to give people an insight with someone who’s farther in. Most stories I read were 6 weeks.
It can be daunting and you need to know you will get through this. I was lucky enough that my boyfriend is supportive and took care of me. I hope this helps somehow.
2023.06.10 19:44 ibeenmoved Random questions about the classified documents that Trump stole.
I'm a bit surprised that there's been no discussion in the media about things leading up to Trump walking out of The White House with a truckload of classified documents.
Are these just documents that found their way across the President's desk as a matter of daily business, and he just kept them? Where do these documents come from? Is there a big repository where they are kept? Did no one realize or track the fact that thousands of documents just 'disappeared' after they were last seen going into the Oval Office.
With the volume of documents involved, and knowing the character of Trump, is it unreasonable to think that he had, from day one, a deliberate program of having associates find and retain (harvest ?) documents that he planned to keep for future personal benefit? Just as investigators are interested in the involvement of Trump aids in Mar-i-Lago in the movement and storage of the documents, wouldn't they be interested in who was helping Trump collect, move, and store the documents before he left the WH? You can't convince me that Trump read, or even perused, a fraction of the documents in question, so it would seem likely he had people detailed to collect every document they could get their hands on.
Are there no policies/procedures/controls in place for removal and monitoring the chain of possession of such documents, such as "War Plan for Attacking Iran" (or whatever) ? I would expect it would be like a library where the removal of a document is recorded and questions asked if a document was not returned? The authorities seems to have some idea of what documents were missing, so there must be some record, and yet you'd think they'd know this and be asking questions as an outgoing President is loading the U-Haul truck.
Wouldn't there be digital master copies of such documents, or is there just one paper copy of "War Plan for Attacking Iran" and if a klepto-president walks off with it the plan is gone?
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Are these just documents that found their way across the President's desk as a matter of daily business, and he just kept them? Where do these documents come from? Is there a big repository where they are kept? Did no one realize or track the fact that thousands of documents just 'disappeared' after they were last seen going into the Oval Office.
With the volume of documents involved, and knowing the character of Trump, is it unreasonable to think that he had, from day one, a deliberate program of having associates find and retain (harvest ?) documents that he planned to keep for future personal benefit? Just as investigators are interested in the involvement of Trump aids in Mar-i-Lago in the movement and storage of the documents, wouldn't they be interested in who was helping Trump collect, move, and store the documents before he left the WH? You can't convince me that Trump read, or even perused, a fraction of the documents in question, so it would seem likely he had people detailed to collect every document they could get their hands on.
Are there no policies/procedures/controls in place for removal and monitoring the chain of possession of such documents, such as "War Plan for Attacking Iran" (or whatever) ? I would expect it would be like a library where the removal of a document is recorded and questions asked if a document was not returned? The authorities seems to have some idea of what documents were missing, so there must be some record, and yet you'd think they'd know this and be asking questions as an outgoing President is loading the U-Haul truck.
Wouldn't there be digital master copies of such documents, or is there just one paper copy of "War Plan for Attacking Iran" and if a klepto-president walks off with it the plan is gone?
2023.06.10 18:36 gtfgjuby Significantly lower DHT on micro dosage topical fin, problem with fin dissolving in Stemoxydine.
Hey, First things first, some background: I did DHT test exactly year ago, the testily was 825 pg/ml I decided to start microsoging topical fin 2.5 months ago. I wanted to go with lowest possible dosage, so around 0.08mg twice a day (a little bit more than Mazarella) I had some nocebo and real se first week, but nothing serious and it stoped anyways. I noticed less hairs falling out and what was important I noticed that my hair somehow doesn’t itch. I didn’t know about DHT itch before that so it was definitely not placebo. After exactly 2 months I did next DHT test.
And now what’s interesting - I mixed crushed fin pills with garnier Stemoxydine, and somehow I felt like at first the fluid was different. Cannot explain it better but it was more dense and also I started to feel DHT itch again when finishing bottles. I’m almost certain that fin didn’t dissolve equally in Stemoxydine and I got significantly higher dosage at first and probably almost zero fin when finishing bottle. DHT test kinda confirm it because my result was 495! 40% serum reduction on 0.015mg topical??? I usually put more than 2ml but still it’s not possible.
So first - be careful about how you prepare your topical fin
Second - topical fin is working for me and it was relatively safe so far.
Third - do you have any advice how to make it better? I wanted to cut pull in 1/4 and mix it every day with 2ml so I would be sure that I took exacly 0.25mg. Unfortunately it’s hard to cut such small pill in 4 parts even with pill cutter and second I still see white grains on the bottom of the bottle (pill outer layer is blue so it’s not that) I’m ot sure if it’s just filler or actual finasteride.
So far my best idea is to prepare new batch every 4 days using one pill, therefore I can be sure I got 1mg per everyb4 days so 0.25 on average.
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And now what’s interesting - I mixed crushed fin pills with garnier Stemoxydine, and somehow I felt like at first the fluid was different. Cannot explain it better but it was more dense and also I started to feel DHT itch again when finishing bottles. I’m almost certain that fin didn’t dissolve equally in Stemoxydine and I got significantly higher dosage at first and probably almost zero fin when finishing bottle. DHT test kinda confirm it because my result was 495! 40% serum reduction on 0.015mg topical??? I usually put more than 2ml but still it’s not possible.
So first - be careful about how you prepare your topical fin
Second - topical fin is working for me and it was relatively safe so far.
Third - do you have any advice how to make it better? I wanted to cut pull in 1/4 and mix it every day with 2ml so I would be sure that I took exacly 0.25mg. Unfortunately it’s hard to cut such small pill in 4 parts even with pill cutter and second I still see white grains on the bottom of the bottle (pill outer layer is blue so it’s not that) I’m ot sure if it’s just filler or actual finasteride.
So far my best idea is to prepare new batch every 4 days using one pill, therefore I can be sure I got 1mg per everyb4 days so 0.25 on average.
2023.06.10 16:27 Miserable-Apricot735 Birth control, weight gain and vaginismus.
Okay, so I’ve (19F) have a love hate with the pill (I currently take Estarylla)I have hashimotos (thyroid/autoimmune disease for those who don’t know) and I’ve had it since I was 12. I got my period on my 12 bday (wearing white shorts lmao). The first 6 months of my period were absolute hell. The first month was normal, first period spotting. By the second and third month i was so heavy I was bleeding through the heaviest pads and bleeding for 2 weeks straight with a week break between periods.
Obviously my mom picked up on something being off bc that’s usually not normal for 12 year old girls. Anyway, that’s when I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism and later in my teens hashimotos. They put me on the pill about 8 months after I got my first period. I was then on it until I was 18. So nearly 7 years straight, through all of puberty. This past fall I decided to go off of it to see if it would help my mood/depression. It was a big decision for me because I also have vaginismus and can’t use tampons, so I was scared that I’d go right back to how my period was when I was 12. But it was fall/winter so I didn’t have to worry about missing out on summer activities. I thought by this summer I’d be able to make enough progress on my vaginismus I’d be able to use tampons, but unfortunately I still can’t. My period was doing really good this winter and spring. It was on time, it was the lightest and shortest it’s ever been. And then in March everything went downhill. I got it twice a month, and it got super heavy again. This lasted thru all of March, April and may.
My gynecologist and I made the decision that I should go back on the pill for the summer since I can’t use tampons and I am outside and swimming a lot during the summer. I’m upset I had to go back on the pill though. I genuinely felt much better off of it. I lost 20 pounds, all my cellulite disappeared and I felt so much happier. My libido was also normal for the first time ever which was weird to experience lol. I also noticed a huge improvement in my workouts and body composition. My mood was so much better my family even commented on how much more enjoyable I was to be around. But I’ve been on it again for about a month and a week and I already feel differences again. I’ve ate and worked the exact same and I’ve gained 7-8 lbs back, I’ve noticed my cellulite returning, my libido is down, I’m having vaginal dryness (not helpful for my vaginismus at all) I feel weaker, and my moods overall have been worse.
During the time I was off the pill I did a lot of research on cycle syncing and living based off of what phase you’re in in your menstrual cycle and balancing hormones. I feel like I’m losing all progress I made this winter. But because I can’t use tampons, I really don’t have another choice. I have so much going on this summer, including beach trips with my family, that I don’t want to miss out on because I’d be on my period for half the month all damn summer (especially since I paid to go on them…)IUD isn’t an option either as I can’t even tolerate a Pap smear and can barely tolerate half of the smallest dilator size there is or half my pinky finger. My self confidence has also plummeted with the weight gain and cellulite return, especially now that I have a boyfriend. (He doesn’t care about the weight gain or cellulite the only thing he’s noticed is that my boobs are bigger and obviously he doesn’t mind that lmao, he’s been super supportive and sweet thru all this) The only thing the birth control has helped is my acne.
I want to explore other options besides the pill but considering my situation I’m at a loss. I’m frustrated at the progress I’ve lost, I’m upset about the weight gain and cellulite and the fact the pill is in a way setting me back with making progress with my vaginismus (bc of the vaginal dryness/libido drop). This was mostly a rant but if any other girls out there have experienced similar situations or symptoms with the pill, how have you dealt with them?
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Obviously my mom picked up on something being off bc that’s usually not normal for 12 year old girls. Anyway, that’s when I got diagnosed with hypothyroidism and later in my teens hashimotos. They put me on the pill about 8 months after I got my first period. I was then on it until I was 18. So nearly 7 years straight, through all of puberty. This past fall I decided to go off of it to see if it would help my mood/depression. It was a big decision for me because I also have vaginismus and can’t use tampons, so I was scared that I’d go right back to how my period was when I was 12. But it was fall/winter so I didn’t have to worry about missing out on summer activities. I thought by this summer I’d be able to make enough progress on my vaginismus I’d be able to use tampons, but unfortunately I still can’t. My period was doing really good this winter and spring. It was on time, it was the lightest and shortest it’s ever been. And then in March everything went downhill. I got it twice a month, and it got super heavy again. This lasted thru all of March, April and may.
My gynecologist and I made the decision that I should go back on the pill for the summer since I can’t use tampons and I am outside and swimming a lot during the summer. I’m upset I had to go back on the pill though. I genuinely felt much better off of it. I lost 20 pounds, all my cellulite disappeared and I felt so much happier. My libido was also normal for the first time ever which was weird to experience lol. I also noticed a huge improvement in my workouts and body composition. My mood was so much better my family even commented on how much more enjoyable I was to be around. But I’ve been on it again for about a month and a week and I already feel differences again. I’ve ate and worked the exact same and I’ve gained 7-8 lbs back, I’ve noticed my cellulite returning, my libido is down, I’m having vaginal dryness (not helpful for my vaginismus at all) I feel weaker, and my moods overall have been worse.
During the time I was off the pill I did a lot of research on cycle syncing and living based off of what phase you’re in in your menstrual cycle and balancing hormones. I feel like I’m losing all progress I made this winter. But because I can’t use tampons, I really don’t have another choice. I have so much going on this summer, including beach trips with my family, that I don’t want to miss out on because I’d be on my period for half the month all damn summer (especially since I paid to go on them…)IUD isn’t an option either as I can’t even tolerate a Pap smear and can barely tolerate half of the smallest dilator size there is or half my pinky finger. My self confidence has also plummeted with the weight gain and cellulite return, especially now that I have a boyfriend. (He doesn’t care about the weight gain or cellulite the only thing he’s noticed is that my boobs are bigger and obviously he doesn’t mind that lmao, he’s been super supportive and sweet thru all this) The only thing the birth control has helped is my acne.
I want to explore other options besides the pill but considering my situation I’m at a loss. I’m frustrated at the progress I’ve lost, I’m upset about the weight gain and cellulite and the fact the pill is in a way setting me back with making progress with my vaginismus (bc of the vaginal dryness/libido drop). This was mostly a rant but if any other girls out there have experienced similar situations or symptoms with the pill, how have you dealt with them?
2023.06.10 16:02 Swimming-Platform-51 My experience with Access MA community based service
I wanted to start a thread about my experience with Access MA because no one has talked about using their services. It’s a community based group that mails you the meds for free. I emailed their proton mail address June 2nd and received the meds in the mail a week later on June 10th. This is their site: https://www.plancpills.org/access-ma
So here is my experience:
June 9, 2023-7weeks4days pregnant 9:20p-swallowed Mifepristone tablet & ibuprofen 10p-4 misoprostol tablets inserted vaginally. Laid flat on back for 30 minutes
June 10, 2023 2:15a- woke up with a little bit of discomfort, a few drops of blood in pad, had to pee and poop, a few tiny clots in urine, as I was about to get up a dollop of blood just dropped from my body. Felt a little stomach pain as I was laying down, took another ibuprofen.
5:30a-woke up with uterus pain, no cramps. soaked through pad and through sweatpants, had to pee and poop. Passed huge blood clot size of golf ball, dark bloody red, very squishy and Had a white long string in it. Took a hot bath.
6:15a-ibuprofen for uterus pain
8:41a-2nd pad soaked through, passed a second clot size of strawberry . Clot was not squishy and was very tissue dense. Dark purple and dark grey and opaque tissue in it. I’m thinking this was probably my baby. Not hurting physically at all, but really sad mentally about the situation. Took another hot bath.
I think the worst is behind me now. Overall, the pain wasn’t that bad and I didn’t have any cramps at all. Probably because I made sure to take ibuprofen every 4 hours. I will give more updates later if necessary.
I wanted to add that initially I was very scared about using it because the pills were re-packaged and it’s also just scary not knowing where the meds came from. But the pills came in a small bubble package: 1 mifepristone and 12 misoprostol. I only used 4 of the misoprostol because I was less than 8 weeks pregnant.
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So here is my experience:
June 9, 2023-7weeks4days pregnant 9:20p-swallowed Mifepristone tablet & ibuprofen 10p-4 misoprostol tablets inserted vaginally. Laid flat on back for 30 minutes
June 10, 2023 2:15a- woke up with a little bit of discomfort, a few drops of blood in pad, had to pee and poop, a few tiny clots in urine, as I was about to get up a dollop of blood just dropped from my body. Felt a little stomach pain as I was laying down, took another ibuprofen.
5:30a-woke up with uterus pain, no cramps. soaked through pad and through sweatpants, had to pee and poop. Passed huge blood clot size of golf ball, dark bloody red, very squishy and Had a white long string in it. Took a hot bath.
6:15a-ibuprofen for uterus pain
8:41a-2nd pad soaked through, passed a second clot size of strawberry . Clot was not squishy and was very tissue dense. Dark purple and dark grey and opaque tissue in it. I’m thinking this was probably my baby. Not hurting physically at all, but really sad mentally about the situation. Took another hot bath.
I think the worst is behind me now. Overall, the pain wasn’t that bad and I didn’t have any cramps at all. Probably because I made sure to take ibuprofen every 4 hours. I will give more updates later if necessary.
I wanted to add that initially I was very scared about using it because the pills were re-packaged and it’s also just scary not knowing where the meds came from. But the pills came in a small bubble package: 1 mifepristone and 12 misoprostol. I only used 4 of the misoprostol because I was less than 8 weeks pregnant.
2023.06.10 15:00 LumpyBudget tell me you don't go outside without telling me you don't go outside
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2023.06.10 14:42 Its_eliza303 A detailed writeup of the first week of my bottom surgery experience with Dr. Dany Hanna.
I saw someone else do this a couple weeks ago and it really helped me know what to expect going into this, so I figured I'd pay it forward and do one as well! So here goes:
I was able to get a pretty quick surgery date. I did my consult in February. I had previously done a consultation at Crane center, but I really didn’t feel like they cared about me and they were hard to get a hold of. But Hanna Gender Center was the complete opposite. He took the time to listen to all my questions and answers versus he could, the patient care coordinators are amazing, and the staff at Carrolton regional has been great as well. I drove up to Dallas on Tuesday, May 30 and went to a nice dinner. Wednesday was Bowel prep day. It actually wasn’t too bad but it definitely drained all my energy. They have you mix an entire bottle of laxative into 64 ounces of Gatorade, and drink it all. Honestly, I think the worst part about the bowel prep experience was not being able to eat all day lol. DAY ONE (surgery day) I went to sleep and arrived at the hospital at 7:15 AM. I was taken to the prep room really quickly where they gave me wipes to wipe down my whole body for disinfectant reasons, I changed into my gown, and talked to all the nurses. at this point, I feel like I should mention that I’ve never had a surgery or anesthesia or anything before so I was a little bit nervous. Dr. Hanna came in and talked to me a bit about the procedure, answered any questions I had, and then he left. In about 15 minutes, the anesthesiologist came in and gave me a muscle relaxer through my IV which felt excellent. I started spacing out pretty quickly after that. They wheeled me to the OR, and I remember, transferring to the OR table and laughing, and making jokes with all the nurses, and then the anesthesiologist came in and gave me the rest of the anesthesia. I was out instantly, and it felt like I just blinked and was in the recovery room. It was hard to wrap my mind around. I was pretty disoriented when I got to the room, but after a few hours I started feeling better. I was able to order food, which was actually really good as soon as I got to the final room. I don’t think my pain has ever been above a five out of 10 which has been great. I took a little bit of Oxsee and some Tylenol but my plan is to take the pain meds as little as possible. I own a company, so I’m trying to be as clear headed as I can, so I can work remotely. As of right now, it’s 10:15 pm so about 12.5 hours after the surgery started. At this point my pain is about a three. I just feel this crazy pressure like I have to pee. Everything is still pretty numb down there though. DAY 2 I didn’t sleep very well because the nurses were coming in and out every hour or so last night to check my vitals, do bloodwork, etc. Dr. Hanna came in to talk to me around 7:30 am. Today was actually harder than yesterday. The anesthesia is worn off by now so things are a bit more painful but still mostly manageable. My pain has been steady around 3-5 on the pain scale today, but there was one point where my nerves were reconnecting, and it felt like I got tazed in my hoo-ha, 9 or 10 on the pain scale. Not fun. I can also feel my stomach and digestive system waking up which is a little uncomfortable. I still haven’t been allowed out of my bed and I can’t really move my legs, so I’m getting very restless. I’m hoping to be able to get up tomorrow, but it could be as late as Sunday. I think I will feel much better when I’m allowed to walk around. DAY 3 I needed some heavier pain pills to sleep last night, but I was able to get about 6 hours total. My biggest issues since yesterday evening has been gas buildup in my stomach. It’s been deeply uncomfortable and causes some nausea every once in a while. I can’t let it out because my body is numb from laying in the same spot since Thursday afternoon, so it’s just turning in my stomach. I really can’t stress enough how difficult it has been to not be able to move. It’s also been difficult for me to eat today, but I’ve been in less pain. Mostly just focused on my stomach issues. Dr. Hanna came in and said that he would come in first thing in the morning tomorrow and take my dressing off and I can walk after that. My lower half is still in what is essentially a body cast. The nurses here are wonderful. We’ve been trying to blend of different meds, and I was able to take a three hour nap today. It’s been really rough and hard to stay positive but I’m getting through it. My mom just left to get me a smoothie in case that would help. I am hoping I can find a good cocktail of drugs to where I can get better sleep tonight. Edit: the smoothie saved my life. I got a super food smoothie from smoothie king and it was the most satisfying thing I’ve had this whole stay. I’m pretty much feeling better tonight. Can’t remember my last pain med. I’m cozying up with a movie. I’m gonna try to get some good sleep, as tomorrow is a big day getting the dressing off and walking. DAY 4 I slept a lot better last night but the gas pain was still really really bad. I pretty much needed painkillers to sleep. Woke up this morning and still cannot stomach any food so I got more smoothie king and that helped a lot. Dr. Hanna came in at about 10:15 AM and took my dressing off. That sort of hurt but wasn’t a huge deal. I got to see my vagina for the first time and it looks incredible. My mom set up a mirror at the end of my bed, and I just sat there staring at it for almost an hour. I expected it to be really bruised and bloodied, but it was neither. It just looked really good. It was very emotional for me and it is taking a lot of brain power to process that this is actually mine. He wanted me to rest for a few more hours, and then get up at 2 and try to walk for the first time. I got some nausea and pain meds and passed out again. When I woke up, the nurse came in and helped me get up. This was by far the worst, most painful part of everything. My whole body was fatigued from laying in one spot, and it felt like every way I moved pulled on the surgical site. It took me about 10 minutes to get sat up on the side of the bed, and I had to sit for a little bit, because I got lightheaded. With the help of two people, I was able to eventually stand up and grab a hold of a walker. My mom said I went ghost white and I genuinely felt like I was gonna pass out. I slowly made way to the bathroom where I was finally able to take care of my stomach issues which felt a million times better. They switched out my sheets and I got back in bed and took a pain pill. After the pain from that experience subsided, it actually went down to about a 0 or 1 on the pain scale. Clearing my stomach made the biggest difference. I’m supposed to get up again this evening and I feel like I might be able to do that a bit easier. Tomorrow I’m discharged and go back to the hotel, so I really hope I’m ready to make that walk. Today was crazy but seeing it for the first time and seeing how good the results were made all of this worth it. I’m so incredibly happy. Day 4 edit: I was able to get up a second time and it was about 1000 times easier. I feel much more hopeful for tomorrow. DAY 5 Discharge day! I asked the nurses last night to bother me less so I could get a good night's sleep. Since my vitals have been stable the whole time, they obliged. I was able to sleep undisturbed from 11pm to 5am when they came in and drained my catheter. I went back to sleep till 7 at which point they all came in to wake me up for vitals, meds, drain check, and breakfast. I ate about half an omelette (first solid food I could really stomach in 2 days) and watched TV. I got up and went to the bathroom which was surprisingly easy. I also changed out of my gown and into an extra oversized t-shirt in anticipation of the ride home. I sat on my donut pillow in the hospital recliner for the first time which was surprisingly comfortable. They came in and said I was ready to leave, so I packed everything up and waited on them to come by with the wheelchair and discharge paperwork. Dr. Hanna was off today so he didn't personally discharge me, but I got a call from one of his staff and he emailed me all the info I need. They were originally not gonna send me with a walker but I told them there was no way in hell I could make it to my hotel room without one so eventually they sourced one that I could take home. They brought me down to the entrance in a wheelchair at which point I got into my moms car. I had the seat all the way back so I was sitting on my tailbone and not the surgical site. We drove about 10 mins back to the hotel which was fine, but i was sort of using my legs and arms to lift myself up when she went over bumps. Having the window down and getting fresh air was AMAZING. I was able to walk from the car to the hotel room, but that definitely drained my energy for the day. I laid in bed for awhile with some pillows under my knees, and ate some chicken tenders from cane's which went down well. I was feeling REALLY good most of the day. Sadly, after getting up from the hotel bed about an hour later, I was in excruciating pain. I think I was putting more pressure on the surgical site than I realized, because it felt just as bad as it did 2 days ago. I made it to the bathroom and cried, a lot. I got myself to the office chair and have been sitting on my donut for about 30-45 mins which has been more tolerable. I think it will take some work to figure out how to be in bed comfortably. I'm pretty wiped today, and I really look forward to getting these drains out because I think they are my main source of pain when moving. As far as the surgical site, I still have basically zero bruising, it hasn't swelled up much more than it was on day 3 when the packing came off, and it's only been bleeding a little bit which is a relief. That's about it for today, I'm gonna go try to rest and find a way to get comfortable and get a good night's sleep. Day 5 part 2 (night). Adding a second update for this day, because I had a significant breakthrough after posting the first part. I tried to rearrange my mountain of pillows and finally found an extremely comfortable position in bed. I had two pillows under my knees, and a weird slope of about 4 pillows behind my back, similar to the incline of the hospital bed. Once I was able to get into that spot, I started feeling amazing. My pain went down to a zero and for the first time, I felt happy and at peace. I played xbox and just enjoyed being comfortable and having all my comfort items around me (blankets, stuffed animals, music, games, etc). I got the best sleep I've had all week! I passed out around 10 and woke up about 4 am needing to use the bathroom. I was scared to get up, but it was pretty easy (comparatively). Made it to the bathroom, and ended up walking around the room for a good 20-30 minutes which is definitely more than I walked before. All with no pain! As for the surgical site, my swelling has honestly been about the same since the end of day 3 which is great. Still no bruising really. There is a bit of bleeding from the canal area (I got minimal depth so I have like a 2-3 inch canal) but that has slowed quite a lot. I got back into bed and achieved all of that with minimal pain. Definitely took that as an accomplishment! DAY 6 This morning was great. I feel like these updates will be just about the same until my next milestone in 2 days when I get my drains and catheter out. I woke up this morning and again had much more improvement in my movement, and also my mental clarity. I worked on my laptop at the hotel desk and took calls from 8:30 to 1:30 which was great. I needed to catch up on work badly. Around 1:30 though I felt drained and took a nap. My mom helped me wash my hair in the sink since I haven't showered in 6 days which felt AMAZING. I had my best friend come visit for awhile in the evening, sat on the couch for an hour or so (improvement there too), and now I'm getting ready for bed. I'm experiencing some increased swelling in the area above my vagina and it's currently my biggest source of pain but still very manageable. The swelling was putting tension on where the drains were taped down, so i re-taped the drains with more slack and that helped a bit. I sent an email to the clinic with a picture of the swelling just to be safe. I'm very excited for my post-op appointment because these drains and this catheter are driving me absolutely insane. Overall, today was much better and I feel much more myself. DAY 7 Today was about the same as yesterday but the big difference was that mentally I had much more energy. It was the first day I was able to work the whole day which was nice. I moved a lot less than I did yesterday because I felt like I overdid it and my swelling was bad. It’s been better today for sure. I’ll have much more to report tomorrow after my post op. I think I’ll do updates tomorrow and the day after to document my journey home, and that’ll be it for these updates. I may make another post with a list of things that made it easier for me in the hospital and during the first week of recovery. DAY 8 / 9 this is the last update that I’ll do on this post. I went to my postop appointment, which was my first time at Dr. Hanna‘s office. I got to meet all the other stuff that I have talked to on the phone for these past few months. Everyone was so sweet! I went into a room where he put my legs up in stirrups and talked to me about everything. This was a fun, lighthearted conversation. He pulled the drains out which I didn’t even feel, then pulled the catheter out which hurt but it was immediate relief when it was out. He handed me a mirror and pointed out different things to keep an eye on. It looks like I’m healing good so far! He also gave me some gel to apply daily to help with swelling. After that, I got dressed and went to the front where he took a Polaroid picture with me and gave me a copy. I got to choose a spot on the wall in his office for his copy. I had a pretty emotional moment where I hugged him and got to thank him for changing my life. It felt like an amazing way to finish out this first chapter of my recovery. I went back to the hotel and could not believe how much easier and less painful everything is with the drains out. Huge difference! I took it easy though, as I was pretty tired, and woke up the next morning to do my 3 1/2 hour drive home. The drive was OK, I sat on my donut pillow with the seat pretty reclined and I made it fine. Note that I was a passenger, I didn’t personally drive. We only had to stop once. I am now back home, and I feel thrilled to have made it through that week. That’s all for now, but feel free to comment on this at any time and ask me any questions I didn’t cover. ❤️
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I was able to get a pretty quick surgery date. I did my consult in February. I had previously done a consultation at Crane center, but I really didn’t feel like they cared about me and they were hard to get a hold of. But Hanna Gender Center was the complete opposite. He took the time to listen to all my questions and answers versus he could, the patient care coordinators are amazing, and the staff at Carrolton regional has been great as well. I drove up to Dallas on Tuesday, May 30 and went to a nice dinner. Wednesday was Bowel prep day. It actually wasn’t too bad but it definitely drained all my energy. They have you mix an entire bottle of laxative into 64 ounces of Gatorade, and drink it all. Honestly, I think the worst part about the bowel prep experience was not being able to eat all day lol. DAY ONE (surgery day) I went to sleep and arrived at the hospital at 7:15 AM. I was taken to the prep room really quickly where they gave me wipes to wipe down my whole body for disinfectant reasons, I changed into my gown, and talked to all the nurses. at this point, I feel like I should mention that I’ve never had a surgery or anesthesia or anything before so I was a little bit nervous. Dr. Hanna came in and talked to me a bit about the procedure, answered any questions I had, and then he left. In about 15 minutes, the anesthesiologist came in and gave me a muscle relaxer through my IV which felt excellent. I started spacing out pretty quickly after that. They wheeled me to the OR, and I remember, transferring to the OR table and laughing, and making jokes with all the nurses, and then the anesthesiologist came in and gave me the rest of the anesthesia. I was out instantly, and it felt like I just blinked and was in the recovery room. It was hard to wrap my mind around. I was pretty disoriented when I got to the room, but after a few hours I started feeling better. I was able to order food, which was actually really good as soon as I got to the final room. I don’t think my pain has ever been above a five out of 10 which has been great. I took a little bit of Oxsee and some Tylenol but my plan is to take the pain meds as little as possible. I own a company, so I’m trying to be as clear headed as I can, so I can work remotely. As of right now, it’s 10:15 pm so about 12.5 hours after the surgery started. At this point my pain is about a three. I just feel this crazy pressure like I have to pee. Everything is still pretty numb down there though. DAY 2 I didn’t sleep very well because the nurses were coming in and out every hour or so last night to check my vitals, do bloodwork, etc. Dr. Hanna came in to talk to me around 7:30 am. Today was actually harder than yesterday. The anesthesia is worn off by now so things are a bit more painful but still mostly manageable. My pain has been steady around 3-5 on the pain scale today, but there was one point where my nerves were reconnecting, and it felt like I got tazed in my hoo-ha, 9 or 10 on the pain scale. Not fun. I can also feel my stomach and digestive system waking up which is a little uncomfortable. I still haven’t been allowed out of my bed and I can’t really move my legs, so I’m getting very restless. I’m hoping to be able to get up tomorrow, but it could be as late as Sunday. I think I will feel much better when I’m allowed to walk around. DAY 3 I needed some heavier pain pills to sleep last night, but I was able to get about 6 hours total. My biggest issues since yesterday evening has been gas buildup in my stomach. It’s been deeply uncomfortable and causes some nausea every once in a while. I can’t let it out because my body is numb from laying in the same spot since Thursday afternoon, so it’s just turning in my stomach. I really can’t stress enough how difficult it has been to not be able to move. It’s also been difficult for me to eat today, but I’ve been in less pain. Mostly just focused on my stomach issues. Dr. Hanna came in and said that he would come in first thing in the morning tomorrow and take my dressing off and I can walk after that. My lower half is still in what is essentially a body cast. The nurses here are wonderful. We’ve been trying to blend of different meds, and I was able to take a three hour nap today. It’s been really rough and hard to stay positive but I’m getting through it. My mom just left to get me a smoothie in case that would help. I am hoping I can find a good cocktail of drugs to where I can get better sleep tonight. Edit: the smoothie saved my life. I got a super food smoothie from smoothie king and it was the most satisfying thing I’ve had this whole stay. I’m pretty much feeling better tonight. Can’t remember my last pain med. I’m cozying up with a movie. I’m gonna try to get some good sleep, as tomorrow is a big day getting the dressing off and walking. DAY 4 I slept a lot better last night but the gas pain was still really really bad. I pretty much needed painkillers to sleep. Woke up this morning and still cannot stomach any food so I got more smoothie king and that helped a lot. Dr. Hanna came in at about 10:15 AM and took my dressing off. That sort of hurt but wasn’t a huge deal. I got to see my vagina for the first time and it looks incredible. My mom set up a mirror at the end of my bed, and I just sat there staring at it for almost an hour. I expected it to be really bruised and bloodied, but it was neither. It just looked really good. It was very emotional for me and it is taking a lot of brain power to process that this is actually mine. He wanted me to rest for a few more hours, and then get up at 2 and try to walk for the first time. I got some nausea and pain meds and passed out again. When I woke up, the nurse came in and helped me get up. This was by far the worst, most painful part of everything. My whole body was fatigued from laying in one spot, and it felt like every way I moved pulled on the surgical site. It took me about 10 minutes to get sat up on the side of the bed, and I had to sit for a little bit, because I got lightheaded. With the help of two people, I was able to eventually stand up and grab a hold of a walker. My mom said I went ghost white and I genuinely felt like I was gonna pass out. I slowly made way to the bathroom where I was finally able to take care of my stomach issues which felt a million times better. They switched out my sheets and I got back in bed and took a pain pill. After the pain from that experience subsided, it actually went down to about a 0 or 1 on the pain scale. Clearing my stomach made the biggest difference. I’m supposed to get up again this evening and I feel like I might be able to do that a bit easier. Tomorrow I’m discharged and go back to the hotel, so I really hope I’m ready to make that walk. Today was crazy but seeing it for the first time and seeing how good the results were made all of this worth it. I’m so incredibly happy. Day 4 edit: I was able to get up a second time and it was about 1000 times easier. I feel much more hopeful for tomorrow. DAY 5 Discharge day! I asked the nurses last night to bother me less so I could get a good night's sleep. Since my vitals have been stable the whole time, they obliged. I was able to sleep undisturbed from 11pm to 5am when they came in and drained my catheter. I went back to sleep till 7 at which point they all came in to wake me up for vitals, meds, drain check, and breakfast. I ate about half an omelette (first solid food I could really stomach in 2 days) and watched TV. I got up and went to the bathroom which was surprisingly easy. I also changed out of my gown and into an extra oversized t-shirt in anticipation of the ride home. I sat on my donut pillow in the hospital recliner for the first time which was surprisingly comfortable. They came in and said I was ready to leave, so I packed everything up and waited on them to come by with the wheelchair and discharge paperwork. Dr. Hanna was off today so he didn't personally discharge me, but I got a call from one of his staff and he emailed me all the info I need. They were originally not gonna send me with a walker but I told them there was no way in hell I could make it to my hotel room without one so eventually they sourced one that I could take home. They brought me down to the entrance in a wheelchair at which point I got into my moms car. I had the seat all the way back so I was sitting on my tailbone and not the surgical site. We drove about 10 mins back to the hotel which was fine, but i was sort of using my legs and arms to lift myself up when she went over bumps. Having the window down and getting fresh air was AMAZING. I was able to walk from the car to the hotel room, but that definitely drained my energy for the day. I laid in bed for awhile with some pillows under my knees, and ate some chicken tenders from cane's which went down well. I was feeling REALLY good most of the day. Sadly, after getting up from the hotel bed about an hour later, I was in excruciating pain. I think I was putting more pressure on the surgical site than I realized, because it felt just as bad as it did 2 days ago. I made it to the bathroom and cried, a lot. I got myself to the office chair and have been sitting on my donut for about 30-45 mins which has been more tolerable. I think it will take some work to figure out how to be in bed comfortably. I'm pretty wiped today, and I really look forward to getting these drains out because I think they are my main source of pain when moving. As far as the surgical site, I still have basically zero bruising, it hasn't swelled up much more than it was on day 3 when the packing came off, and it's only been bleeding a little bit which is a relief. That's about it for today, I'm gonna go try to rest and find a way to get comfortable and get a good night's sleep. Day 5 part 2 (night). Adding a second update for this day, because I had a significant breakthrough after posting the first part. I tried to rearrange my mountain of pillows and finally found an extremely comfortable position in bed. I had two pillows under my knees, and a weird slope of about 4 pillows behind my back, similar to the incline of the hospital bed. Once I was able to get into that spot, I started feeling amazing. My pain went down to a zero and for the first time, I felt happy and at peace. I played xbox and just enjoyed being comfortable and having all my comfort items around me (blankets, stuffed animals, music, games, etc). I got the best sleep I've had all week! I passed out around 10 and woke up about 4 am needing to use the bathroom. I was scared to get up, but it was pretty easy (comparatively). Made it to the bathroom, and ended up walking around the room for a good 20-30 minutes which is definitely more than I walked before. All with no pain! As for the surgical site, my swelling has honestly been about the same since the end of day 3 which is great. Still no bruising really. There is a bit of bleeding from the canal area (I got minimal depth so I have like a 2-3 inch canal) but that has slowed quite a lot. I got back into bed and achieved all of that with minimal pain. Definitely took that as an accomplishment! DAY 6 This morning was great. I feel like these updates will be just about the same until my next milestone in 2 days when I get my drains and catheter out. I woke up this morning and again had much more improvement in my movement, and also my mental clarity. I worked on my laptop at the hotel desk and took calls from 8:30 to 1:30 which was great. I needed to catch up on work badly. Around 1:30 though I felt drained and took a nap. My mom helped me wash my hair in the sink since I haven't showered in 6 days which felt AMAZING. I had my best friend come visit for awhile in the evening, sat on the couch for an hour or so (improvement there too), and now I'm getting ready for bed. I'm experiencing some increased swelling in the area above my vagina and it's currently my biggest source of pain but still very manageable. The swelling was putting tension on where the drains were taped down, so i re-taped the drains with more slack and that helped a bit. I sent an email to the clinic with a picture of the swelling just to be safe. I'm very excited for my post-op appointment because these drains and this catheter are driving me absolutely insane. Overall, today was much better and I feel much more myself. DAY 7 Today was about the same as yesterday but the big difference was that mentally I had much more energy. It was the first day I was able to work the whole day which was nice. I moved a lot less than I did yesterday because I felt like I overdid it and my swelling was bad. It’s been better today for sure. I’ll have much more to report tomorrow after my post op. I think I’ll do updates tomorrow and the day after to document my journey home, and that’ll be it for these updates. I may make another post with a list of things that made it easier for me in the hospital and during the first week of recovery. DAY 8 / 9 this is the last update that I’ll do on this post. I went to my postop appointment, which was my first time at Dr. Hanna‘s office. I got to meet all the other stuff that I have talked to on the phone for these past few months. Everyone was so sweet! I went into a room where he put my legs up in stirrups and talked to me about everything. This was a fun, lighthearted conversation. He pulled the drains out which I didn’t even feel, then pulled the catheter out which hurt but it was immediate relief when it was out. He handed me a mirror and pointed out different things to keep an eye on. It looks like I’m healing good so far! He also gave me some gel to apply daily to help with swelling. After that, I got dressed and went to the front where he took a Polaroid picture with me and gave me a copy. I got to choose a spot on the wall in his office for his copy. I had a pretty emotional moment where I hugged him and got to thank him for changing my life. It felt like an amazing way to finish out this first chapter of my recovery. I went back to the hotel and could not believe how much easier and less painful everything is with the drains out. Huge difference! I took it easy though, as I was pretty tired, and woke up the next morning to do my 3 1/2 hour drive home. The drive was OK, I sat on my donut pillow with the seat pretty reclined and I made it fine. Note that I was a passenger, I didn’t personally drive. We only had to stop once. I am now back home, and I feel thrilled to have made it through that week. That’s all for now, but feel free to comment on this at any time and ask me any questions I didn’t cover. ❤️
2023.06.10 13:57 Imaginary-Climate411 Headaches and strong neck pain
M21, 1.67, white, smoke, don’t consume any drugs
I’m not sure what is relevant so I will just describe everything that might be and let you decide.
About 2 months ago I had a concussion while boxing which was not severe, I recovered in about 2-3 weeks.
After my concussion I started having quite a bit of jaw pain especially at night or when I wake up, I have always grit my teeth during the night, but considering the pain, I think it might have gotten a bit worse after that. I was taking ortoton while recovering which is a muscle relaxant.
About 3 weeks ago I went to my home country and the jaw pain was very strong so I went to the dentist, turns out I had a broken tooth and it had become infected, so I did a root canal treatment divided in 2 sessions. First session kind of preparation - the. Take antibiotics for a week to kill the infection and then one week later do the rest. In the mean time he did a temporary repair so to say which broke in the middle of the week. I also drink quite a bit of alcohol n one day (my dad got married), but I asked the doctor before and he said that drinking should be fine (I was taking amoxicillin ). I also took one of my pills a bit later that day because I forgot I during the party.
I started feeling kinda off and then I had the second session to finish the root canal treatment and started having like red dots on my skin or something like that. Went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with scarlet fever (however they weren’t really sure) but said I should take antibiotics for another week and I did. I got better after about 2 or 3 days, but at the end of the ta week I got worse again with some flu like symptoms first , just some coughing, headaches and slight neck pain and my tongue got orange, then the headaches got a bit worse (however not intolerable or anything) and today my neck pain got a lot worse. (Could maybe just be muscular though since I haven’t been to the gym in 3 weeks because of all of this). I haven’t been in antibiotics for about 8 days btw.
Other symptoms I’ve had: dizziness (but never had to throw up); occasional diarrhea; one time blood in my poop; might have had a bit of fever, I’m not sure because my thermometer is not very good, but no high fever at least
I talked to my doctor from my home country and they said I should go to a doctor here to be reevaluated, however the medical system is kinda complex and I’m still trying to figure out how to get an appointment and stuff and in the mean time it would be nice to get some insight on what this might be. Thanks I advance
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I’m not sure what is relevant so I will just describe everything that might be and let you decide.
About 2 months ago I had a concussion while boxing which was not severe, I recovered in about 2-3 weeks.
After my concussion I started having quite a bit of jaw pain especially at night or when I wake up, I have always grit my teeth during the night, but considering the pain, I think it might have gotten a bit worse after that. I was taking ortoton while recovering which is a muscle relaxant.
About 3 weeks ago I went to my home country and the jaw pain was very strong so I went to the dentist, turns out I had a broken tooth and it had become infected, so I did a root canal treatment divided in 2 sessions. First session kind of preparation - the. Take antibiotics for a week to kill the infection and then one week later do the rest. In the mean time he did a temporary repair so to say which broke in the middle of the week. I also drink quite a bit of alcohol n one day (my dad got married), but I asked the doctor before and he said that drinking should be fine (I was taking amoxicillin ). I also took one of my pills a bit later that day because I forgot I during the party.
I started feeling kinda off and then I had the second session to finish the root canal treatment and started having like red dots on my skin or something like that. Went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with scarlet fever (however they weren’t really sure) but said I should take antibiotics for another week and I did. I got better after about 2 or 3 days, but at the end of the ta week I got worse again with some flu like symptoms first , just some coughing, headaches and slight neck pain and my tongue got orange, then the headaches got a bit worse (however not intolerable or anything) and today my neck pain got a lot worse. (Could maybe just be muscular though since I haven’t been to the gym in 3 weeks because of all of this). I haven’t been in antibiotics for about 8 days btw.
Other symptoms I’ve had: dizziness (but never had to throw up); occasional diarrhea; one time blood in my poop; might have had a bit of fever, I’m not sure because my thermometer is not very good, but no high fever at least
I talked to my doctor from my home country and they said I should go to a doctor here to be reevaluated, however the medical system is kinda complex and I’m still trying to figure out how to get an appointment and stuff and in the mean time it would be nice to get some insight on what this might be. Thanks I advance
2023.06.10 13:53 plant_batteries Trying to understand the experience of dating as a woc
I'm a white man and I've seen a lot of tiktoks lately by woc venting that they are not being "chosen" by (often white) men who are "choosing" white women instead.
I try to approach everything with an open mind and let people be the experts of their own experiences as to not invalidate their struggles but I think this one I'm having trouble with. When it comes to who we choose to date, I think a social justice / systemic racism angle can be appropriate for assessing population trends but it's wrong to apply those standards to specific individuals. The long and short of it is, however harsh this may sound, if the man who you had a crush on got with a white woman instead then you need to simply accept that and move on. It may have had nothing or everything to do with your race but we can't know.
As a short man, I liken it a little to height preference among women. I understand that being tall is attractive and tall men tend to do better in the dating scene. Sometimes it's frustrating and while I know that I would have more options were I tall, I can hardly attribute specific dating failures to my height. Even more importantly, it would be wrong to villyfy the women who reject me and somehow call them immoral for preferring men who are taller (and in their eyes more attractive or more their preference) and it would also be wrong to villyfy the men who are more attractive than me. This is a hard pill to swallow as a man and I've gotten down about my body image at times, but overall I'm a confident individual and looking back over my life, I've managed to be ok.
And there lies the problem. I find that the discussion of woc dating struggles is often very much centered on the men being "wrong" for getting with a white woman and sometimes even about bringing down the white women. Imo, the discussion should be centered on beauty standards, systemic racism and dating culture.
Dating culture in particular is an issue atm I believe. We see all sorts of skewed app data suggesting that the top 80% of women only swipe on the top 10% of men. We also see data suggesting that black women are the least swiped on and East Asian women the most. Conversely, white men are the most swiped and East Asian men the least.
However, I don't believe these trends are having as great of an impact as they might suggest. Black women and East Asian men are not perpetually single. WMAF marriage is common, yes, but I don't believe the white women are all married / in long term relationships and all the woc are single. Somehow, people are still finding each other.
I believe that this frustration may largely be due to the dating culture that has arisen from app-based dating. When we are presented with infinite options and filters, we have the illusion of choice and will become more stringent in our preferences. In real life, however, I believe that we don't all exclusively date the image we have in our heads of what our ideal partner looks like. In fact, I'd bet that most people never end up with their "ideal" partner and even end up happier for it, as choosing a partner from superficial characteristics or ideals is not the key to a healthy relationship.
The language is also bothering me a little but maybe it's a distraction: the idea that the men are "choosing" white women over woc implies it is a more conscious choice than it probably is. I don't believe men are generally surrounded by a group of women all fighting for his attention while he sits back and and consciously ranks all of them and picks the "best" one. Perhaps for the top 10% attractive men and women their dating strategies might look something like this only because so many people will think they're hot, but for the rest of us, the 90% I don't think it's true.
It's also implying that women, especially woc, lack agency in finding a partner and I don't think that's fully true. I understand dating still isn't fully safe for women but women can do better than sitting around and waiting for a hot guy to "choose" them. Women can ask the man out. Women can take the initiative to at least talk to a large number of men if they choose and see which ones bite. I don't think a world where men are sitting back and just "choosing" women is real, or an ideal, even if the choosing appears to be more racially fair.
Finally, I this might be a very bad take. Maybe all of what I've said is. But is it possible that women are just horrible at taking rejection? Men generally are the pursuers in modern dating and we need to learn to take rejection. It's not easy. And the messaging we send towards men is to be resilient, not take it personally, keep trying and you will find the one. It's about game and confidence, and about introspection and understanding your strengths and weaknesses and working on yourself, not blaming the women who rejected you or the men who have an easier time dating than you.
I just don't believe that we send similar messaging to women and while men still have a large learning curve to overcome with dating, is it possible that women do as well? I don't believe we should racially gaslight. It's valid and fine to acknowledge that your race is possibly holding you back in dating. But I think teaching women to handle rejection the way we're teaching men to might be a step in the right direction. I wonder this because when I see women complaining about rejection, it comes across with the same sort of entitlement as I often see in men who do the same. The difference is that we aren't helping our female friends in the right way in my opinion and instead we are just enabling the idea that they are perfect and it's society and men who are at fault because they got rejected.
Sorry if my take is out of touch. I'm here to learn. I consider myself on the right side of most issues nowadays but I find it difficult to simply side with the woc on this one when it comes to dating. I believe that even in a fully racially equal society we will still see bias towards same - race couples as cultural background, values and upbringing will still play a part. And if people prefer to date within their race for those reasons, black, Asian or white people, I think it's fine and valid.
I know I wrote a lot but I just intend to give an insight to my thought processes as perhaps that way it's easier for a reader to say "here is where you are thinking wrong, and I think you should interpret it this way instead". I don't mean to be preachy or just spew my opinion or anything.
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I try to approach everything with an open mind and let people be the experts of their own experiences as to not invalidate their struggles but I think this one I'm having trouble with. When it comes to who we choose to date, I think a social justice / systemic racism angle can be appropriate for assessing population trends but it's wrong to apply those standards to specific individuals. The long and short of it is, however harsh this may sound, if the man who you had a crush on got with a white woman instead then you need to simply accept that and move on. It may have had nothing or everything to do with your race but we can't know.
As a short man, I liken it a little to height preference among women. I understand that being tall is attractive and tall men tend to do better in the dating scene. Sometimes it's frustrating and while I know that I would have more options were I tall, I can hardly attribute specific dating failures to my height. Even more importantly, it would be wrong to villyfy the women who reject me and somehow call them immoral for preferring men who are taller (and in their eyes more attractive or more their preference) and it would also be wrong to villyfy the men who are more attractive than me. This is a hard pill to swallow as a man and I've gotten down about my body image at times, but overall I'm a confident individual and looking back over my life, I've managed to be ok.
And there lies the problem. I find that the discussion of woc dating struggles is often very much centered on the men being "wrong" for getting with a white woman and sometimes even about bringing down the white women. Imo, the discussion should be centered on beauty standards, systemic racism and dating culture.
Dating culture in particular is an issue atm I believe. We see all sorts of skewed app data suggesting that the top 80% of women only swipe on the top 10% of men. We also see data suggesting that black women are the least swiped on and East Asian women the most. Conversely, white men are the most swiped and East Asian men the least.
However, I don't believe these trends are having as great of an impact as they might suggest. Black women and East Asian men are not perpetually single. WMAF marriage is common, yes, but I don't believe the white women are all married / in long term relationships and all the woc are single. Somehow, people are still finding each other.
I believe that this frustration may largely be due to the dating culture that has arisen from app-based dating. When we are presented with infinite options and filters, we have the illusion of choice and will become more stringent in our preferences. In real life, however, I believe that we don't all exclusively date the image we have in our heads of what our ideal partner looks like. In fact, I'd bet that most people never end up with their "ideal" partner and even end up happier for it, as choosing a partner from superficial characteristics or ideals is not the key to a healthy relationship.
The language is also bothering me a little but maybe it's a distraction: the idea that the men are "choosing" white women over woc implies it is a more conscious choice than it probably is. I don't believe men are generally surrounded by a group of women all fighting for his attention while he sits back and and consciously ranks all of them and picks the "best" one. Perhaps for the top 10% attractive men and women their dating strategies might look something like this only because so many people will think they're hot, but for the rest of us, the 90% I don't think it's true.
It's also implying that women, especially woc, lack agency in finding a partner and I don't think that's fully true. I understand dating still isn't fully safe for women but women can do better than sitting around and waiting for a hot guy to "choose" them. Women can ask the man out. Women can take the initiative to at least talk to a large number of men if they choose and see which ones bite. I don't think a world where men are sitting back and just "choosing" women is real, or an ideal, even if the choosing appears to be more racially fair.
Finally, I this might be a very bad take. Maybe all of what I've said is. But is it possible that women are just horrible at taking rejection? Men generally are the pursuers in modern dating and we need to learn to take rejection. It's not easy. And the messaging we send towards men is to be resilient, not take it personally, keep trying and you will find the one. It's about game and confidence, and about introspection and understanding your strengths and weaknesses and working on yourself, not blaming the women who rejected you or the men who have an easier time dating than you.
I just don't believe that we send similar messaging to women and while men still have a large learning curve to overcome with dating, is it possible that women do as well? I don't believe we should racially gaslight. It's valid and fine to acknowledge that your race is possibly holding you back in dating. But I think teaching women to handle rejection the way we're teaching men to might be a step in the right direction. I wonder this because when I see women complaining about rejection, it comes across with the same sort of entitlement as I often see in men who do the same. The difference is that we aren't helping our female friends in the right way in my opinion and instead we are just enabling the idea that they are perfect and it's society and men who are at fault because they got rejected.
Sorry if my take is out of touch. I'm here to learn. I consider myself on the right side of most issues nowadays but I find it difficult to simply side with the woc on this one when it comes to dating. I believe that even in a fully racially equal society we will still see bias towards same - race couples as cultural background, values and upbringing will still play a part. And if people prefer to date within their race for those reasons, black, Asian or white people, I think it's fine and valid.
I know I wrote a lot but I just intend to give an insight to my thought processes as perhaps that way it's easier for a reader to say "here is where you are thinking wrong, and I think you should interpret it this way instead". I don't mean to be preachy or just spew my opinion or anything.
2023.06.10 09:38 SegmentationMyFault Spay is lethargic and has swollen mammeries after surgery
Hello and thank you for taking interest in my post.
I have been taking care of a stray cat for over 2 months. I have called her Pauline because when I first started seeing her, she was laying in my neighbor's kids' "trampoline" to sun herself. She is probably about a year old by my estimation.
Anyway on to my concern, on Monday June 5, I took her (and another stray) to the vet to both be spayed. Things appeared to go as expected and the spay was allegedly typical. I brought them back home in as good of spirits as I felt a cat would after having surgery. I set carriers outside afterwards and fed and provided water afterwards. They both obviously moved a little slower as I would anticipate, but eventually after getting their fill, they wondered off and did their own things.
For Tuesday and Wednesday, I saw both cats at regular expected intervals of when they commonly showed up. They appeared to be doing well; seemed back to themselves practically. I felt like everything was a raging success.
Thursday, Pauline was late to morning feed. Didn't think much of it at the time, but stayed vigilant looking for her. Finally looked out my window at about 10 am and saw her sitting in her carrier I left out. I initially thought that was adorable she was resting in the cage and went out to feed.
She was not her usual perky self or excited. She was lethargic and listless. I held a treat to her face, and was uninterested. She stood up, and walked away slowly (as if annoyed) and I was concerned enough at that point to call the vet. They asked me to bring her in at 2 pm. I said I would do so if I could catch her again. I went back outside and found her wondering aimlessly. I reached down and picked her up and she made a barely audible cry as I carried her over to the carrier. Her mammeries appeared very swollen. I was worried if she could have had a litter I didnt know about that could have been the cause of this? She put up one initial struggle, and then completely gave in to me placing her inside the carrier (it was much more of a struggle when I first caught her to be spayed).
Went to the vet. Different vet than who performed the surgery. Reviewed the tenderness and belly. Was baffled by swollen nipples. Gave her antibiotic, and some pain relief tablets to administer. Vet tech took temperature and it was 104, a fever. Tech also said she was hydrated. Vet administered an antibiotic and gave me some pills to mix with wet food that was supposed to offer pain relief.
Brought her home and she would not leave the carrier. Couldn't entice her with multiple food options. I set up a camera in her room to monitor all activity (she is isolated from my indoor cat).
She got up only to use the litter box (solid stool) and urinate. Then she immediately lays back down. Occassionally readjusts her orientation, but not moving.
Not much changed throughout the rest of the evening. 3 AM saw her take her first drink of water. Seen her drink a few more times that morning and afternoon (Friday).
I called the vet again in the morning and mentioned no eating. They prescribed some medicine to apply to her ear that is supposed to encourage appetite (and some canned food). I picked up the food and applied the appetite inducer at about 1:30 PM and, alas, still has no interest in eating. She still looked dejected, hunched, lethargic.
At one point she used the litterbox to urinate, and afterwards, went into the bathtub to lay down, further isolation. Went to check on her at about 4 and I saw some dried pink smudge where I assumed she had layed. I worried it came from her belly and then called the vet a third time at 5.
They vet requested I bring her in to be examined. She cried when I picked her up to move her to the cage, not audible. When I set her into the cage, did not even adjust, just dumpy and staring. I was really concerned at this point (still am)
They took her temperature again; this time 99.7...took it twice to be confident. Vet came in and again is surprised by the swollen mammeries. He ran some blood tests, and she had low white blood cells and platelets. He noted she was not anemic. No signs of bleeding. Basically I don't think the tests drew any conclusiveness to what is going on. Tested for feline lukemia, and came back negative. They attempted to do two tests for cat parvo (forget the name of the disease he tested for), unfortunately both test strips did not work and so this was inconclusive.
They administered an IV to give her fluids (she was dehydrated at this point) and they gave her a syringe by mouth of some antibiotic (which I am supposed to administer daily). The vet tech suggested I could syringe watered down food.
So after all that, the blood tests provided no indicators as to what was wrong. The vets conclusion was that she has a combination of swollen mammeries due to hormonal regulation, an infection, and (potentially) a virus?
I brought her home from the vet at 6:30PM. She left the cage at 2 AM Saturday morning to pee, and then went back to the cage. Has not ate or drank.
I am pretty exhausted, worried, and not sure what I can do. I haven't wanted to pull her out of the cage to force feed as I imagine that would be uncomfortable. I would do so if anyone thinks this could help restore her energy, but I feel like letting her rest for the evening.
Anyway, I am up late, concerned, and turning to reddit for any advice or suggestions for anything more I can do to care for this girl. I feel a lot of personal guilt for her suffering right now and am trying to do the right thing.
Tldr: Took two strays to the vet to be spayed Monday. Appeared to be doing well for first 2 days. Found cat listless and despondent in carrier two days later and took her to vet Thursday. Vet baffled by swollen nipples, administered antibiotic and gave me pain meds to administer in food. Cat refuses to eat. Haven't seen her eat since Wednesday. Has drank water occasionally and used bathroom (peed and solid poop). Called Vet Friday worried about food intake and continued lethargy. Prescribed medication to apply to ear to encourage eating. Applied and was still concerned with lack of energy. Saw her laying on towel and tub with some light thin red discharge. Called Vet again and went for another appointment Friday. Performed blood tests that were inconclusive. Tested for feline lukemia and was negative. Administered IV and gave antibiotic by syringe (I am supposed to administer for a week).
Cat has only left carrier to urinate once since afternoon visit.
Any additional consideration or advice is immensely appreciated.
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I have been taking care of a stray cat for over 2 months. I have called her Pauline because when I first started seeing her, she was laying in my neighbor's kids' "trampoline" to sun herself. She is probably about a year old by my estimation.
Anyway on to my concern, on Monday June 5, I took her (and another stray) to the vet to both be spayed. Things appeared to go as expected and the spay was allegedly typical. I brought them back home in as good of spirits as I felt a cat would after having surgery. I set carriers outside afterwards and fed and provided water afterwards. They both obviously moved a little slower as I would anticipate, but eventually after getting their fill, they wondered off and did their own things.
For Tuesday and Wednesday, I saw both cats at regular expected intervals of when they commonly showed up. They appeared to be doing well; seemed back to themselves practically. I felt like everything was a raging success.
Thursday, Pauline was late to morning feed. Didn't think much of it at the time, but stayed vigilant looking for her. Finally looked out my window at about 10 am and saw her sitting in her carrier I left out. I initially thought that was adorable she was resting in the cage and went out to feed.
She was not her usual perky self or excited. She was lethargic and listless. I held a treat to her face, and was uninterested. She stood up, and walked away slowly (as if annoyed) and I was concerned enough at that point to call the vet. They asked me to bring her in at 2 pm. I said I would do so if I could catch her again. I went back outside and found her wondering aimlessly. I reached down and picked her up and she made a barely audible cry as I carried her over to the carrier. Her mammeries appeared very swollen. I was worried if she could have had a litter I didnt know about that could have been the cause of this? She put up one initial struggle, and then completely gave in to me placing her inside the carrier (it was much more of a struggle when I first caught her to be spayed).
Went to the vet. Different vet than who performed the surgery. Reviewed the tenderness and belly. Was baffled by swollen nipples. Gave her antibiotic, and some pain relief tablets to administer. Vet tech took temperature and it was 104, a fever. Tech also said she was hydrated. Vet administered an antibiotic and gave me some pills to mix with wet food that was supposed to offer pain relief.
Brought her home and she would not leave the carrier. Couldn't entice her with multiple food options. I set up a camera in her room to monitor all activity (she is isolated from my indoor cat).
She got up only to use the litter box (solid stool) and urinate. Then she immediately lays back down. Occassionally readjusts her orientation, but not moving.
Not much changed throughout the rest of the evening. 3 AM saw her take her first drink of water. Seen her drink a few more times that morning and afternoon (Friday).
I called the vet again in the morning and mentioned no eating. They prescribed some medicine to apply to her ear that is supposed to encourage appetite (and some canned food). I picked up the food and applied the appetite inducer at about 1:30 PM and, alas, still has no interest in eating. She still looked dejected, hunched, lethargic.
At one point she used the litterbox to urinate, and afterwards, went into the bathtub to lay down, further isolation. Went to check on her at about 4 and I saw some dried pink smudge where I assumed she had layed. I worried it came from her belly and then called the vet a third time at 5.
They vet requested I bring her in to be examined. She cried when I picked her up to move her to the cage, not audible. When I set her into the cage, did not even adjust, just dumpy and staring. I was really concerned at this point (still am)
They took her temperature again; this time 99.7...took it twice to be confident. Vet came in and again is surprised by the swollen mammeries. He ran some blood tests, and she had low white blood cells and platelets. He noted she was not anemic. No signs of bleeding. Basically I don't think the tests drew any conclusiveness to what is going on. Tested for feline lukemia, and came back negative. They attempted to do two tests for cat parvo (forget the name of the disease he tested for), unfortunately both test strips did not work and so this was inconclusive.
They administered an IV to give her fluids (she was dehydrated at this point) and they gave her a syringe by mouth of some antibiotic (which I am supposed to administer daily). The vet tech suggested I could syringe watered down food.
So after all that, the blood tests provided no indicators as to what was wrong. The vets conclusion was that she has a combination of swollen mammeries due to hormonal regulation, an infection, and (potentially) a virus?
I brought her home from the vet at 6:30PM. She left the cage at 2 AM Saturday morning to pee, and then went back to the cage. Has not ate or drank.
I am pretty exhausted, worried, and not sure what I can do. I haven't wanted to pull her out of the cage to force feed as I imagine that would be uncomfortable. I would do so if anyone thinks this could help restore her energy, but I feel like letting her rest for the evening.
Anyway, I am up late, concerned, and turning to reddit for any advice or suggestions for anything more I can do to care for this girl. I feel a lot of personal guilt for her suffering right now and am trying to do the right thing.
Tldr: Took two strays to the vet to be spayed Monday. Appeared to be doing well for first 2 days. Found cat listless and despondent in carrier two days later and took her to vet Thursday. Vet baffled by swollen nipples, administered antibiotic and gave me pain meds to administer in food. Cat refuses to eat. Haven't seen her eat since Wednesday. Has drank water occasionally and used bathroom (peed and solid poop). Called Vet Friday worried about food intake and continued lethargy. Prescribed medication to apply to ear to encourage eating. Applied and was still concerned with lack of energy. Saw her laying on towel and tub with some light thin red discharge. Called Vet again and went for another appointment Friday. Performed blood tests that were inconclusive. Tested for feline lukemia and was negative. Administered IV and gave antibiotic by syringe (I am supposed to administer for a week).
Cat has only left carrier to urinate once since afternoon visit.
Any additional consideration or advice is immensely appreciated.
2023.06.10 07:26 LynnK0919 A little white pill, Captagon, gives Syria's Assad a strong tool in winning over Arab states
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2023.06.10 07:25 RaidenEispuppet I need help finding a Rin and Len song
Okay so I have lost all memory of what the song sounds like but I remember the mv
I cant remember what Len was wearing but Rin was wearing a sort of white coat.
So there's segments of the song where Len is kneeling on the left side facing Rin and Rin is on the right and there are 3 separate scenes of this in the song and at the last scene of this Len is on all fours and reaches out a hand to Rin desperately while she walks away, facing away from Len
Another segment of the song I remember is a black and yellow pill falling down while the lyrics were coming in as the shape of a box The breaks in between songs were basically the credits like illustrator and such)
I also remember Rin holding Len from behind but I don't know if that's part of the song
I remember listening to the song in 2020 or 2021 and everything was in Japanese and there were no English subtitles or were there English in the title
I hope you guys can help me, I tried looking in my history but sadly I couldn't find it so I hope you guys can remember the song.
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I cant remember what Len was wearing but Rin was wearing a sort of white coat.
So there's segments of the song where Len is kneeling on the left side facing Rin and Rin is on the right and there are 3 separate scenes of this in the song and at the last scene of this Len is on all fours and reaches out a hand to Rin desperately while she walks away, facing away from Len
Another segment of the song I remember is a black and yellow pill falling down while the lyrics were coming in as the shape of a box The breaks in between songs were basically the credits like illustrator and such)
I also remember Rin holding Len from behind but I don't know if that's part of the song
I remember listening to the song in 2020 or 2021 and everything was in Japanese and there were no English subtitles or were there English in the title
I hope you guys can help me, I tried looking in my history but sadly I couldn't find it so I hope you guys can remember the song.
2023.06.10 07:16 WaitUuseRedditYorSad My mother abused me for years. I went from Incel to Tate fan and I am now neither. I came to share my story and to self-refect on why I fell in to the traps.
I posted this to my Facebook as I posted Tate-related content there and upset but also pleased a few people so I wanted to make my mindset adjustment public. I'm gonna copy and paste it here with some extra stuff that I didn't want to say on my Facebook because it would shit-stirr my family but I truly want to get it off my chest a day spread my message.
After taking plenty of time to think about it. I've decided that I am no longer a supporter of Tate. When you're just another one of the many young man outcasted by society, having your masculinity blamed for everything wrong in your life, bullied by the popular kids in school, never having a girlfriend and being blamed for all of those things, it's easy to see why I fell for his trap.
Having already left Incels and decided I want to try to improve instead of just giving up, I saw a man who told you it's okay to be masculine, it's okay to want the hot chicks, it's okay to want to drive sports cars, it's okay to want to be rich, it's okay to want submissive wives, it's okay to want to fight, it's okay to be a man! It's very hard not to be drawn to it in a world that tells you these things are toxic and will keep you celibate, that this is the reason women aren't attracted to you. Tate comes along with his 4 wives, videos of him with women in bikinis, his big muscular physique, his hundreds of millions of dollars and his 4 world kick-boxing champion belts to prove that notion wrong.
"If I'm such a misogynist then how come I'm fuckin' and you're not fuckin'? If I'm such a misogynist then how come women are coming to me?"
"All I talk about is how men are better than women and I'm still fuckin' more pussy than you are."
It's hard to argue with that point. The answer is because being a misogynist doesn't stop you from being attractive.
But, that doesn't excuse it. Tate knows with his money, status, physique, influence, accolades and confidence that he can still have a plethora of shallow women at his disposal and still get away with spewing his sexist vitriol.
"Women should not be allowed to drive"
"Women have been trading sexual favours in exchange for career advancements for decades, it doesn't make it sexual assault just because of the metoo movement"- Response to Harvey Weinstein's scandal
"When women end up in senior management it's nothing but a shit-show and a bitch-fest"
"I'm a realist and when you're a realist, you're sexist. There's no way you can be rooted in reality and not be sexist"
"When a woman marries a man, she belongs to that man"
"I was getting on a plane and I could see through the cockpit that a female was the pilot and I took a picture and I said, ‘most women I know can’t even park a car, why is a woman flying my plane?"
"A woman cheating isn't even on the same level as a man cheating"
"Female promiscuity is disgusting and it has been looked down upon in every era of human history to the point where a female could be executed for it." "As they should be"- Another man on the podcast "Get the rocks"- Replied Tate
Men, there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve yourself! You can work out, figure out how to make money outside of employment, learn how to increase your testosterone, do NoFap, quit porn, jaw-maxing, eating clean, learning how to pick up women(and let's be honest, accepting that their advice on how to do so sucks 😅) learn a combat sport, have submissive women, be polygamous(as long as it's not deceptive). This is not cringe, it is called AMBITION! But here's the news flash:
YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT DEEANING WOMEN AND TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THEIR RIGHTS 🤯
Some people will call you cringe for doing this. Because they want to keep you on their level. Most women will say that you need to be a feminist or you will stay single and that self-improvement is cringe. But just laught it off, it doesn't matter. And no you don't have to be a feminist either. You can just be a respectful person who doesn't want to divert women's rights they are entitled to in the modern day.
The reason us sexless, emasculated, envious, unloved men felt compelled to him is because he offered a way out. A way out of the deception that you have to be feminine, emotional and deceived by fourth wave feminism to be accepted in society and have women attracted to you. This is a lie. When these young men fall for this lie, it becomes hard not to be angry and resentful when women do not act the way our parents, the education system and the media tells us they do. That they don't like the assholes, the bullies, the jocks, and yes... the MISOGYNISTS. We were told just being a nice guy who respects women is enough.
When this lie unravels, many unfortunately go one of 2 routes:
The red pill- Aiming for self-improvement and maximisation in every metric of your value(nothing wrong with that). But unfortunately then using this to control the women in your life and preach oppression to make things the way they used to be.
The black pill- Where men convince each other that they will never be able to obtain sex/relationships no matter what and their situation is inescapable, to just give up. Some of which tell others to rape women; some of which do. Some of which tell others to commit mass shootings; Some of which do.
Many men have now left the black pill because of Tate which is great and it is better they idolise him than murderers like Elliot Rodger and Alek Minassian or content creators like EggWhite and WheatWaffles. Some never were black-pilled but admire Tate for preaching masculinity and stoicism in a world that demonizes it. I will reiterate to those men- YOU CAN DO SO WITHOUT DEMEANING WOMEN
So why does Tate do this? 2 reasons:
"Do what needs to be done regardless of how you feel"
Beat Tate at his own game! Self-improve, do the hard work even if you don't feel like it! But draw the line with the misogyny because wven thought it FEELS tempting, comforting and easy to do so, doesn't mean you should. Having that said, it is painful for me to acknowledge I was wrong and deceived by this evil genius. It's also very satisfying to know that a certain someone was seeing me support ideologies I knew would never be approved of and that the brainwashing, abuse and manipulation I was subjected to wasn't working. I wanted to stick it to you and show you how wrong you were for trying to strip me of my masculinity. I hate that you will be releived I am moving on and respecting women and that you will feel justified in the way you treated me. But:
"The most important part of being a man is not doing what you want to do but doing what you have to do. Your feelings don't matter as a man!" -Tate
Thanks for reading 💚
The "certain someone" was my mother. She made me sleep with her until I was 14, walked around naked in front of me and encouraged me to do the same. She would tell me my penis was big when it is in fact under-average. She used to constantly make small-penis jokes, say misogynists, show-offs and even rapists were projecting their small dick insecurity. She also told me my bullies had small dicks. This hurt when I realised I had one myself but she wouldn't listen and insisted me it was above average for my age and I'm still growing. My father on the other hand would open the door on me in the shower, wave his finger at me with a stupid smile and tell me I will never impress any girls with a small one. I of course didn't wanna say this on my Facebook with my real identity and my sister thinks my Mum is some kind of saint who can do no wrong and nags me for a justification for ghosting her and I obviously don't want to provide the details because a; I have to admit I have a small penis in order to do so and b; I know I will probably be accused of lying or just gaslight me and say it's all in my head.
The worst thing she ever did was when I told her this 13 year old disabled girl had a crush ok me and I was being bullied for it so she told me "I don't think I can trust you to not have sex with her. You have high testosterone and are treating girls like sex-objects." This is difficult to say but I remember never loving my mother again after she accused me of being a paedophile who would take advantage of a disabled THIRTEEN year old girl.
We suspect she has Munchausen Syndrome and she told me I was sick my whole life with things I wasn't. Every morning I had to wake up and drink celery juice with no breakfast be cause she was convinced I was poisoned with toxins I was given at the hospital as a baby after I got bitten by our cat.
She told me I was gluten and dairy intolerant, I have since eaten these things and am fine.
I had developmental echolalia throughout my adolescence(if you don't know, similar to Tourette's syndrome, causes involuntry ticks and is common in autistic pubsescents). Both my parents and my sister told me I was doing it for attention and I could control it. I would get bullied in school for it and they would continue to tell me I could control it or to just "cover my mouth" when I do it.
She told me that my sexual urges were unnatural and for a "boy like me", I should not be "Seeing women as sex objects": This was her reaction to me telling her I would get erections and sometimes ejaculate when I saw sexy women in skimpy clothing and I tried to refuse going to the beach because of the women in bikinis but she would still force me to. I would usually rub one out before leaving if I had time or try to go in the water until the boner went down.
She also assured me before high-school that because I'm so handsome and "wasn't like the other boys"(respectful gentleman she apparently raised me to be) that I would be very popular with all the girls. When this didn't happen, she said it was because I must street them like sex objects.
She told me I was "addicted to masturbating": Apparently 4-5 times a day was addiction which in reality is just normal all teenaged boy stuff.
I explained that I was attracted to the hot women and not the nerdy ones like she told me to be and asked why this was. She told me it was because I had entitlement problems and it was due to my high testosterone. She said to avoid the hot ones because they are "too much drama" and that no matter what my girlfriend looks like, I will enjoy sex with her just as much because the emotattraction is what counts and hit girls will only manipulate me and take me away from her.
Because of this she would cry and hug me, telling me I was going to grow up to be a suicidal sex addict. She then went to the adult store and bought me a fleshlight as per my father and his friend's suggestion. She told me it would satisfy my urges and stop the spontaneous ejaculatiobs in public. I told her it wasn't do she threw it out and kept buying different variants, tryto find tge one that would work. None of course did.
She would tell me I needed to be saved to prevent myself from taking advantage of all the women with bad fathers who would want to sleep with me and I couldn't resist it because my testosterone was too high. She told me I needed treatment for my "hypersexuality". I told her I was hesitant and she would say "I don't know why you want to be a sex-addict. Why do you want to live like this? Why do you want to be a misogynist who abuses women? I could never deal with losing my boy, so please get the help you need.
She then took me to accupunctural therapists to give me treatment for hypersexuals that constricts blood vessels to the genitals and would convince him to administer it by telling him the same bullshit she told me.
I now look at my small penis and hate her knowing that it could've been even just a little bit bigger if it weren't for her "treatment" and I will never forgive her for the physical and emotional damage she caused me. There is so much more I could get in to about how she and my father too abused me but it's gonna be too long.
I always get worried when I see mothers who say they want their son to be "different".
"I don't want him to rape, be a patriarch, stalk women who reject him, embrace his emotional side, be attracted to strong and independent women" etc.
To those mothers. I am warning you, allow your son to embrace his masculinity, teach him to be stoic, if he has a father figure, let him influence him as an adolescent, let him be attracted to who he is attracted to. Don't be like my mother or he will resent you, he will he scarred for what you do.
Thank you if you read this far. Feel free to follow me for more and comment your thoughts.
EDIT: Some of you are saying I should report my Mum for sexual abuse. You do realise when I wrote "sleep with her until I was 14." I just meant sleep in the bed with her right?
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After taking plenty of time to think about it. I've decided that I am no longer a supporter of Tate. When you're just another one of the many young man outcasted by society, having your masculinity blamed for everything wrong in your life, bullied by the popular kids in school, never having a girlfriend and being blamed for all of those things, it's easy to see why I fell for his trap.
Having already left Incels and decided I want to try to improve instead of just giving up, I saw a man who told you it's okay to be masculine, it's okay to want the hot chicks, it's okay to want to drive sports cars, it's okay to want to be rich, it's okay to want submissive wives, it's okay to want to fight, it's okay to be a man! It's very hard not to be drawn to it in a world that tells you these things are toxic and will keep you celibate, that this is the reason women aren't attracted to you. Tate comes along with his 4 wives, videos of him with women in bikinis, his big muscular physique, his hundreds of millions of dollars and his 4 world kick-boxing champion belts to prove that notion wrong.
"If I'm such a misogynist then how come I'm fuckin' and you're not fuckin'? If I'm such a misogynist then how come women are coming to me?"
"All I talk about is how men are better than women and I'm still fuckin' more pussy than you are."
It's hard to argue with that point. The answer is because being a misogynist doesn't stop you from being attractive.
But, that doesn't excuse it. Tate knows with his money, status, physique, influence, accolades and confidence that he can still have a plethora of shallow women at his disposal and still get away with spewing his sexist vitriol.
"Women should not be allowed to drive"
"Women have been trading sexual favours in exchange for career advancements for decades, it doesn't make it sexual assault just because of the metoo movement"- Response to Harvey Weinstein's scandal
"When women end up in senior management it's nothing but a shit-show and a bitch-fest"
"I'm a realist and when you're a realist, you're sexist. There's no way you can be rooted in reality and not be sexist"
"When a woman marries a man, she belongs to that man"
"I was getting on a plane and I could see through the cockpit that a female was the pilot and I took a picture and I said, ‘most women I know can’t even park a car, why is a woman flying my plane?"
"A woman cheating isn't even on the same level as a man cheating"
"Female promiscuity is disgusting and it has been looked down upon in every era of human history to the point where a female could be executed for it." "As they should be"- Another man on the podcast "Get the rocks"- Replied Tate
Men, there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve yourself! You can work out, figure out how to make money outside of employment, learn how to increase your testosterone, do NoFap, quit porn, jaw-maxing, eating clean, learning how to pick up women(and let's be honest, accepting that their advice on how to do so sucks 😅) learn a combat sport, have submissive women, be polygamous(as long as it's not deceptive). This is not cringe, it is called AMBITION! But here's the news flash:
YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT DEEANING WOMEN AND TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THEIR RIGHTS 🤯
Some people will call you cringe for doing this. Because they want to keep you on their level. Most women will say that you need to be a feminist or you will stay single and that self-improvement is cringe. But just laught it off, it doesn't matter. And no you don't have to be a feminist either. You can just be a respectful person who doesn't want to divert women's rights they are entitled to in the modern day.
The reason us sexless, emasculated, envious, unloved men felt compelled to him is because he offered a way out. A way out of the deception that you have to be feminine, emotional and deceived by fourth wave feminism to be accepted in society and have women attracted to you. This is a lie. When these young men fall for this lie, it becomes hard not to be angry and resentful when women do not act the way our parents, the education system and the media tells us they do. That they don't like the assholes, the bullies, the jocks, and yes... the MISOGYNISTS. We were told just being a nice guy who respects women is enough.
When this lie unravels, many unfortunately go one of 2 routes:
The red pill- Aiming for self-improvement and maximisation in every metric of your value(nothing wrong with that). But unfortunately then using this to control the women in your life and preach oppression to make things the way they used to be.
The black pill- Where men convince each other that they will never be able to obtain sex/relationships no matter what and their situation is inescapable, to just give up. Some of which tell others to rape women; some of which do. Some of which tell others to commit mass shootings; Some of which do.
Many men have now left the black pill because of Tate which is great and it is better they idolise him than murderers like Elliot Rodger and Alek Minassian or content creators like EggWhite and WheatWaffles. Some never were black-pilled but admire Tate for preaching masculinity and stoicism in a world that demonizes it. I will reiterate to those men- YOU CAN DO SO WITHOUT DEMEANING WOMEN
So why does Tate do this? 2 reasons:
- He is a misogynist and wants women to be oppressed because he is threatened by their freedom and wants to enjoy the pleasure of seeing them controlled, at his service, being dependant on men, not being allowed to lead in any corporate or industrial organisations because he believes they are incompetent in doing so. He doesn't listen to his own rule here. But just because you want that and it is feels better to live that way as a man, doesn't necessarily mean you should do it.
- He doesn't care about you. He really doesn't, he just wants to profit off you. He knew that targeting lost young men, a group that is hated, lonely and angry could be easily radicalised. Same as Hitler did with the Nazis by telling them it's okay to be German and then pointing the finger at Jews to blame them for all the injustice dealt toward them. It's a classic trick that is yet to fail.
"Do what needs to be done regardless of how you feel"
Beat Tate at his own game! Self-improve, do the hard work even if you don't feel like it! But draw the line with the misogyny because wven thought it FEELS tempting, comforting and easy to do so, doesn't mean you should. Having that said, it is painful for me to acknowledge I was wrong and deceived by this evil genius. It's also very satisfying to know that a certain someone was seeing me support ideologies I knew would never be approved of and that the brainwashing, abuse and manipulation I was subjected to wasn't working. I wanted to stick it to you and show you how wrong you were for trying to strip me of my masculinity. I hate that you will be releived I am moving on and respecting women and that you will feel justified in the way you treated me. But:
"The most important part of being a man is not doing what you want to do but doing what you have to do. Your feelings don't matter as a man!" -Tate
Thanks for reading 💚
The "certain someone" was my mother. She made me sleep with her until I was 14, walked around naked in front of me and encouraged me to do the same. She would tell me my penis was big when it is in fact under-average. She used to constantly make small-penis jokes, say misogynists, show-offs and even rapists were projecting their small dick insecurity. She also told me my bullies had small dicks. This hurt when I realised I had one myself but she wouldn't listen and insisted me it was above average for my age and I'm still growing. My father on the other hand would open the door on me in the shower, wave his finger at me with a stupid smile and tell me I will never impress any girls with a small one. I of course didn't wanna say this on my Facebook with my real identity and my sister thinks my Mum is some kind of saint who can do no wrong and nags me for a justification for ghosting her and I obviously don't want to provide the details because a; I have to admit I have a small penis in order to do so and b; I know I will probably be accused of lying or just gaslight me and say it's all in my head.
The worst thing she ever did was when I told her this 13 year old disabled girl had a crush ok me and I was being bullied for it so she told me "I don't think I can trust you to not have sex with her. You have high testosterone and are treating girls like sex-objects." This is difficult to say but I remember never loving my mother again after she accused me of being a paedophile who would take advantage of a disabled THIRTEEN year old girl.
We suspect she has Munchausen Syndrome and she told me I was sick my whole life with things I wasn't. Every morning I had to wake up and drink celery juice with no breakfast be cause she was convinced I was poisoned with toxins I was given at the hospital as a baby after I got bitten by our cat.
She told me I was gluten and dairy intolerant, I have since eaten these things and am fine.
I had developmental echolalia throughout my adolescence(if you don't know, similar to Tourette's syndrome, causes involuntry ticks and is common in autistic pubsescents). Both my parents and my sister told me I was doing it for attention and I could control it. I would get bullied in school for it and they would continue to tell me I could control it or to just "cover my mouth" when I do it.
She told me that my sexual urges were unnatural and for a "boy like me", I should not be "Seeing women as sex objects": This was her reaction to me telling her I would get erections and sometimes ejaculate when I saw sexy women in skimpy clothing and I tried to refuse going to the beach because of the women in bikinis but she would still force me to. I would usually rub one out before leaving if I had time or try to go in the water until the boner went down.
She also assured me before high-school that because I'm so handsome and "wasn't like the other boys"(respectful gentleman she apparently raised me to be) that I would be very popular with all the girls. When this didn't happen, she said it was because I must street them like sex objects.
She told me I was "addicted to masturbating": Apparently 4-5 times a day was addiction which in reality is just normal all teenaged boy stuff.
I explained that I was attracted to the hot women and not the nerdy ones like she told me to be and asked why this was. She told me it was because I had entitlement problems and it was due to my high testosterone. She said to avoid the hot ones because they are "too much drama" and that no matter what my girlfriend looks like, I will enjoy sex with her just as much because the emotattraction is what counts and hit girls will only manipulate me and take me away from her.
Because of this she would cry and hug me, telling me I was going to grow up to be a suicidal sex addict. She then went to the adult store and bought me a fleshlight as per my father and his friend's suggestion. She told me it would satisfy my urges and stop the spontaneous ejaculatiobs in public. I told her it wasn't do she threw it out and kept buying different variants, tryto find tge one that would work. None of course did.
She would tell me I needed to be saved to prevent myself from taking advantage of all the women with bad fathers who would want to sleep with me and I couldn't resist it because my testosterone was too high. She told me I needed treatment for my "hypersexuality". I told her I was hesitant and she would say "I don't know why you want to be a sex-addict. Why do you want to live like this? Why do you want to be a misogynist who abuses women? I could never deal with losing my boy, so please get the help you need.
She then took me to accupunctural therapists to give me treatment for hypersexuals that constricts blood vessels to the genitals and would convince him to administer it by telling him the same bullshit she told me.
I now look at my small penis and hate her knowing that it could've been even just a little bit bigger if it weren't for her "treatment" and I will never forgive her for the physical and emotional damage she caused me. There is so much more I could get in to about how she and my father too abused me but it's gonna be too long.
I always get worried when I see mothers who say they want their son to be "different".
"I don't want him to rape, be a patriarch, stalk women who reject him, embrace his emotional side, be attracted to strong and independent women" etc.
To those mothers. I am warning you, allow your son to embrace his masculinity, teach him to be stoic, if he has a father figure, let him influence him as an adolescent, let him be attracted to who he is attracted to. Don't be like my mother or he will resent you, he will he scarred for what you do.
Thank you if you read this far. Feel free to follow me for more and comment your thoughts.
EDIT: Some of you are saying I should report my Mum for sexual abuse. You do realise when I wrote "sleep with her until I was 14." I just meant sleep in the bed with her right?
2023.06.10 05:29 Throwaway_nothing0 My asthma has been getting worse, but the doctors keep dismissing it as nothing.
I've had extremely mild asthma most of my life, as in using an inhaler once a year. During winter, my asthma started getting worse. As in, I needed the inhaler everyday, I woke up with a wheeze nearly everyday. Every doctor I've been to has acted like it's nothing to worry about. They tell me it's normal. I have a rescue inhaler, I take montelukast and levocetrazine every night. It's now summer and they said it would improve, but if anything, my asthma has been getting worse. I now have a chronic cough, I'm sensitive to environmental factors, my allergies are so bad, that even with the max dose of my medications I still get symptoms. I now cough a lot whenever I'm around smoke.
I have pretty bad anxiety, and it's scaring me. I've had 3 different doctors tell me that since I'm young its probably nothing. They haven't done any tests, just listen to my lungs and send me on my way. I've been around second hand smoke my entire life (tobacco and cannabis and the people in my house smoke blunts daily), and I've smoked cannabis since my teens (not so much anymore as it triggers my asthma) and they tell me that's why. I'm wondering if it could be more serious? Sometimes the inhalers don't work and I have to sit outside and take deep breaths until it stops. My paternal grandfather died of lung cancer.
Relevent information: 28F, 5'10, around 180lbs, white, wellbutrin xr 350mg, I also take a otc zinc pill, vitamin b12, melatonin. I smoke cannabis a few times a week.
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I have pretty bad anxiety, and it's scaring me. I've had 3 different doctors tell me that since I'm young its probably nothing. They haven't done any tests, just listen to my lungs and send me on my way. I've been around second hand smoke my entire life (tobacco and cannabis and the people in my house smoke blunts daily), and I've smoked cannabis since my teens (not so much anymore as it triggers my asthma) and they tell me that's why. I'm wondering if it could be more serious? Sometimes the inhalers don't work and I have to sit outside and take deep breaths until it stops. My paternal grandfather died of lung cancer.
Relevent information: 28F, 5'10, around 180lbs, white, wellbutrin xr 350mg, I also take a otc zinc pill, vitamin b12, melatonin. I smoke cannabis a few times a week.
2023.06.10 03:38 Imaginary-Climate411 Headaches and strong neck pain
M21, 1.67, white, smoke, don’t consume any drugs
I’m not sure what is relevant so I will just describe everything that might be and let you decide.
About 2 months ago I had a concussion while boxing which was not severe, I recovered in about 2-3 weeks.
After my concussion I started having quite a bit of jaw pain especially at night or when I wake up, I have always grit my teeth during the night, but considering the pain, I think it might have gotten a bit worse after that. I was taking ortoton while recovering which is a muscle relaxant.
About 3 weeks ago I went to my home country and the jaw pain was very strong so I went to the dentist, turns out I had a broken tooth and it had become infected, so I did a root canal treatment divided in 2 sessions. First session kind of preparation - the. Take antibiotics for a week to kill the infection and then one week later do the rest. In the mean time he did a temporary repair so to say which broke in the middle of the week. I also drink quite a bit of alcohol n one day (my dad got married), but I asked the doctor before and he said that drinking should be fine (I was taking amoxicillin ). I also took one of my pills a bit later that day because I forgot I during the party.
I started feeling kinda off and then I had the second session to finish the root canal treatment and started having like red dots on my skin or something like that. Went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with scarlet fever (however they weren’t really sure) but said I should take antibiotics for another week and I did. I got better after about 2 or 3 days, but at the end of the ta week I got worse again with some flu like symptoms first , just some coughing, headaches and slight neck pain and my tongue got orange, then the headaches got a bit worse (however not intolerable or anything) and today my neck pain got a lot worse. (Could maybe just be muscular though since I haven’t been to the gym in 3 weeks because of all of this). I haven’t been in antibiotics for about 8 days btw.
Other symptoms I’ve had: dizziness (but never had to throw up); occasional diarrhea; one time blood in my poop; might have had a bit of fever, I’m not sure because my thermometer is not very good, but no high fever at least
I talked to my doctor from my home country and they said I should go to a doctor here to be reevaluated, however the medical system is kinda complex and I’m still trying to figure out how to get an appointment and stuff and in the mean time it would be nice to get some insight on what this might be. Thanks I advance
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I’m not sure what is relevant so I will just describe everything that might be and let you decide.
About 2 months ago I had a concussion while boxing which was not severe, I recovered in about 2-3 weeks.
After my concussion I started having quite a bit of jaw pain especially at night or when I wake up, I have always grit my teeth during the night, but considering the pain, I think it might have gotten a bit worse after that. I was taking ortoton while recovering which is a muscle relaxant.
About 3 weeks ago I went to my home country and the jaw pain was very strong so I went to the dentist, turns out I had a broken tooth and it had become infected, so I did a root canal treatment divided in 2 sessions. First session kind of preparation - the. Take antibiotics for a week to kill the infection and then one week later do the rest. In the mean time he did a temporary repair so to say which broke in the middle of the week. I also drink quite a bit of alcohol n one day (my dad got married), but I asked the doctor before and he said that drinking should be fine (I was taking amoxicillin ). I also took one of my pills a bit later that day because I forgot I during the party.
I started feeling kinda off and then I had the second session to finish the root canal treatment and started having like red dots on my skin or something like that. Went to the doctor and they diagnosed me with scarlet fever (however they weren’t really sure) but said I should take antibiotics for another week and I did. I got better after about 2 or 3 days, but at the end of the ta week I got worse again with some flu like symptoms first , just some coughing, headaches and slight neck pain and my tongue got orange, then the headaches got a bit worse (however not intolerable or anything) and today my neck pain got a lot worse. (Could maybe just be muscular though since I haven’t been to the gym in 3 weeks because of all of this). I haven’t been in antibiotics for about 8 days btw.
Other symptoms I’ve had: dizziness (but never had to throw up); occasional diarrhea; one time blood in my poop; might have had a bit of fever, I’m not sure because my thermometer is not very good, but no high fever at least
I talked to my doctor from my home country and they said I should go to a doctor here to be reevaluated, however the medical system is kinda complex and I’m still trying to figure out how to get an appointment and stuff and in the mean time it would be nice to get some insight on what this might be. Thanks I advance
2023.06.10 03:26 RaidenEispuppet I need help finding a Rin and Len song
Okay so I have lost all memory of what the song sounds like but I remember the mv
I cant remember what Len was wearing but Rin was wearing a sort of white coat.
So there’s segments of the song where Len is kneeling on the left side facing Rin and Rin is on the right and there are 3 separate scenes of this in the song and at the last scene of this Len is on all fours and reaches out a hand to Rin desperately while she walks away, facing away from Len
Another segment of the song I remember is a black and yellow pill falling down while the lyrics were coming in as the shape of a box
The breaks in between songs were basically the credits (like illustrator and such)
I also remember Rin holding Len from behind but I don’t know if that’s part of the song
I remember listening to the song in 2020 or 2021 and everything was in Japanese and there were no English subtitles or were there English in the title
I hope you guys can help me, I tried looking in my history but sadly I couldn’t find it so I hope you guys can remember the song.
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I cant remember what Len was wearing but Rin was wearing a sort of white coat.
So there’s segments of the song where Len is kneeling on the left side facing Rin and Rin is on the right and there are 3 separate scenes of this in the song and at the last scene of this Len is on all fours and reaches out a hand to Rin desperately while she walks away, facing away from Len
Another segment of the song I remember is a black and yellow pill falling down while the lyrics were coming in as the shape of a box
The breaks in between songs were basically the credits (like illustrator and such)
I also remember Rin holding Len from behind but I don’t know if that’s part of the song
I remember listening to the song in 2020 or 2021 and everything was in Japanese and there were no English subtitles or were there English in the title
I hope you guys can help me, I tried looking in my history but sadly I couldn’t find it so I hope you guys can remember the song.
2023.06.10 02:32 Hannahreneeeeeee330 New to the subutex white round pills have a question
Is it normal for it to make my mouth numb sometimes?
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2023.06.10 02:18 Radtech51 At the end of my rope, long post
So this is going to be a long post because this issue dates back to 2017-2018.
In 2016 my husband brought home a stray cat that he found at a hotel while working out of town. The cat was being fed by the employees and she was very friendly. Coming up to rub against him meowing and letting him pet her etc. We got her spayed within 2 weeks of having her and got her shots and all other tests that were needed. We already had three cats, one female(Abby), and two males . We kept her separated for about a month and slowly introduced them all to each other. Abby was never an overly affectionate cat with any of the other two cats. However, she did get along with them. Not so with the new cat. There was some mild tension in the form of a couple of swats at each other here and there, but never anything serious. They tolerated each other. Then at the end of 2017 she started peeing outside of her litter box. I had to put a camera around the house to try to figure out which cat was doing it. I saw on the video that she peed on a pair of my husband's blue jeans that he left on the floor of the laundry room and she gave a little meow whenever she was peeing so I thought okay, she must be hurting. I took her to the vet and her urinalysis was fairly normal although the vet said she may have a little bit of inflammation. I told her about the stress between the two female cats and she said it could be stress cystitis. Which is basically a cat stresses themselves out so much that their bladder becomes inflamed. She gave her antibiotics and everything was fine for about a month, when it started again.
At the time we had six litter boxes for the four cats spread out into three different rooms. I tried no less than six different types of litters. All the litter boxes were open at the top...no hood. I tried pheromone sprays, pheromone plug-ins, CBD oil, bachs rescue remedy, calming chews, corn silk d-manose, cantharis, etc. I also tried to retrain her by getting a two-tiered crate and putting her litter box on the bottom floor and her bed on the top floor. I did this for 3 weeks. The first week she stayed in her crate all of the time. Every single time she needed to use the bathroom, she peed in her litter box. every single time. So on the second week I'll let her out into the room. She went back to her litter box in the crate every single time. The third week I'd let her out into the room, even when I was not in there with her. She still used the litter box every single time so I did not think it was litter or litter box aversion. So I'd let her out into the rest of the house little by little. She still used the litter box like a champ. So I could only assume that it was because of my other female cat. The doctor suggested Prozac and I did put her on Prozac at that time. She was on it for at least a year and a half and she was perfect. She did not pee outside the litter box for a year and a half. We moved to a new house in 2019. At that point we only had three cats. My oldest male cat died of cancer in 2018. She still was perfect at going to her litter box even with moving to a new house. Before we moved to the new house we purchased a litter robot. I thought it may help her because she may like a super clean litter box all the time and I worked during the day so I could not scoop it every time after she went to the bathroom. However, I did scoop three to four times a day. And remember she has six litter boxes to choose from. So the cats were all acclimated to the litter robot before we moved to the new house. At the new house We did keep her in a large room to let her get acclimated to the house and she seemed to do fine. When we moved to the new house we had two litter robots. One upstairs one downstairs.
Then at the end of 2020 she started peeing outside the litter box again even while on the Prozac. She had long stopped eating a treat that I would hide the Prozac in. So I had to start using a pill syringe to give her her medicine and that eroded her trust in me and she avoided me when she knew it was time for her to get her medicine. Of course I took her to the vet for another urinalysis and it came back normal. So I did the whole thing of putting her upstairs in a large bathroom with a cat tree in the window and a litter robot and plenty of room to stretch her legs. I did that for 3 weeks and when she came back downstairs she was fine for a few months and then she started peeing outside the litter boxes again. At this time I had one litter robot upstairs and one litter qrobot downstairs. I had cameras around the house and two of them were specifically aimed at the litter boxes. Sometimes she would go inside and poop, leave, then come back 5 minutes later and see that the robot had not cycled and she would turn around and pee in front of it. At that time, the robot was scheduled to rotate 15 minutes after the cat left. I changed that to rotate after 3 minutes. And I noticed that she would then poop, leave, It would rotate and clean and then she would come back and pee inside of the litter robot. So I thought great. Maybe that solved the problem. Maybe she did not like going to pee inside of a litter box that was dirty. Then I thought maybe she did not want to pee in the same litter box that she pooped in at all. So I purchased another litter robot. So then I had two upstairs and one downstairs. She seemed to use them more. She would go at least 2 weeks between episodes of peeing outside of the box. I did not see any conflict while she was in the litter box. Abby usually just avoids her. She will stare at her and I know that that is a form of aggression. But she never did that while she was in the litter box. However, my problem cat, Penelope, would be aggressive toward Abby. She had another urinalysis and blood work done in January of 2023 and everything was normal. So in February of 2023 she peed on a living room rug. It was only a month old. I had enough at that time so I took her and put her upstairs in the bathroom again. She stayed in the bathroom for 2 weeks. I had a camera in there with her. She went almost two days of holding her urine before she finally went inside the litter box. Never once in the 2 weeks did she pee outside the litter box. After those 2 weeks I open the door to let her into the bedroom that was attached to that bathroom. I had the bedroom door closed so she could not get out of that space. I went upstairs three times a day to feed her and to play with her. Our bond returned. It was at this time that I weaned her off of the Prozac. After all, Why use it if she was still peeing inappropriately while on it. Even with her having the bedroom and the bathroom. She still went to the litter robot to pee and poop every single time. Now starts month TWO. I block the entryway at the top of the stairs with a screen door. And I open up the bedroom so that she has the hallway, another bedroom, and another bathroom that also has a litter robot in it. The hallway was a great place for her to run full speed chasing a laser or another kind of toy that I might have. The screen door kept her from going downstairs and it allowed the other two cats to come upstairs to sniff her and hopefully reintroduce the two female cats. So the routine was three times a day, I went upstairs to play with her and to feed her. The entire 2 months she never once peed inappropriately, she used the litter box every single time. So after the 2 months I decided to let her downstairs for a couple of hours. She did well. She sniffed everything, but she never once peed on anything. We have a cat door that leads out to a screened in porch and she went out there for a short time. And then I put her back upstairs. I did this for a week, letting her down a few hours every afternoon when I got home from work. After that week, on a day when I was home all day, I'd let her down all day. She used litter boxes downstairs. She would use litter boxes upstairs. Her and the other female cat didn't seem to care that the other one was in the room. they've always been able to sleep on various pieces of furniture in the same room and it does not seem to bother them at all. In any case, she was 100% perfect for 5 weeks. Using the litter boxes all the time. Then out of the blue, seemingly, she peed on a blanket that had fallen off of our bed. Then a few days later she peed on one of those turbo chaser toys that the center has a cardboard piece in the middle, she peed in the middle part. Then a few days later she peed on the bare floor under the dining room table. I cleaned everything with a good enzyme cleaner and didn't smell anything else. But the next day I thought I smelled something but I could not find where it was coming from. Then I realize I had left a dusting mitt on top of the dining room table. She had gotten on the table and peed on that. So more enzyme cleaner. I emailed my vet in tears telling her that maybe she needed to refer me to a behaviorist or a specialist that could take x-rays, ultrasounds, and whatever test was needed to see if there was anything physically wrong with her bladder. We had only ever done an urinalysis and blood test but we had never taken an x-ray. Not that I think she has stones of any kind because after this many years there would have been blood white blood cells or something to show that she had a physical issue. So while I was waiting on the vet to return my email or call me, I used various calming sprays and calming choose and praised her every time she used the litter box. And she went almost 2 weeks using the litter box again. Then 2 days ago I'm going to my bed and she is underneath my side table peeing on the floor. I didn't mean to but it was an automatic response, I yelled NO! Well she stopped midstream and ran. Then yesterday as I was getting into bed she jumped on the bed and meowed and I pet her and thought that she was coming up to settle down for the night. But no, she went to my husband's side of the bed and peed on top of our comforter. I took it off immediately before it could soak through and of course she ran. Are comforter is white and they're not seem to be any blood in the urine. It was typical yellow, stinky cat urine. So I had no choice but to put her back upstairs in the bathroom again and that is where she is going to have to stay until we can figure out a solution for this problem. Otherwise she is going to destroy my home. When I went upstairs this afternoon to feed her I closed the bedroom door and opened the bathroom door so that maybe I could play with her. She didn't seem interested in playing she walked around meowing....obviously I'm sure she is stressed. So I got on the bed with her she got on the bed and I was petting her She then jumped off the bed and proceeded to walk over to where I had a small box on the floor and she squatted and she peed on the carpet. This does seem somewhat behavioral to a degree, but her peeing in front of me is new and it makes me think she's trying to tell me something. In the past she has always peed while hiding or when I'm not home or when I'm in another room. This time she has peed three times in front of me.
I just wish I could figure out why she all of a sudden became neurotic in 2017 .
Has anyone ever had a cat that peed inappropriately that ended up being a physical issue and not a mental issue? At this point I would love it to be a physical issue because I think that one is obviously much easier to probably fix. A mental issue I feel is much harder especially if medicines do not work.
Some basics about Penelope are: Approximately 8-year-old spayed female
Her diet is all wet food. Including raw lamb, pork, chicken, and a variety of canned foods. I use dry food as treats. So she will sometimes get three or four pieces of small kibble. I would put them in a puzzle and she figured the puzzles out very quickly.
She weighs approximately 13 lb which is too heavy for her. She gained a lot of weight in the last year and a half. And I think I know why now. We have microchip pet feeders for all three cats. So only her microchip will let her into her bowl. However, I noticed a few weeks ago that she will go over to my mail cat's bowl and wait for him to stick his head past the sensor and then push him out of the way and puts her head in there before the door can close over the food. So it's no wonder that she has gained a lot of weight.
She's a diluted calico
Making her an outdoor cat is not an option.
Rehoming her is not an option. No one is going to want a cat that has a pee problem
Putting her down is not an option.
Are there any other kind of test that any of you can recommend besides x-ray, ultrasound, urinalysis, and blood work? The x-ray and ultrasound I definitely want to get. I am definitely willing to do another urinalysis and blood work. I'm just wondering if there's anything else that might be beneficial. I love my vet and don't want to start all over with a new one. She is not the fastest to return my phone calls or emails. She's a mobile vet and that is one of the things that I love. I also love that she does not push me to get unnecessary vaccinations. And I also love that she is receptive to anything that I want to try. In other words, she is not pushy at all, like some other vets that I have gone to. So there is a compromise in that regard. However, going to a specialist is what I would like to do and she will refer me to one when she gets back to me. I would appreciate any constructive advice that anyone can give me. If anyone has any questions they like to ask me to get more information, please ask away. I really do not want to have a cat that I have to regulate to live the rest of their life in one room. It is not good for the cat and it is definitely not good for my quality of life either.
If you've made it to the end, Thank you so much for reading and helping if you can.
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In 2016 my husband brought home a stray cat that he found at a hotel while working out of town. The cat was being fed by the employees and she was very friendly. Coming up to rub against him meowing and letting him pet her etc. We got her spayed within 2 weeks of having her and got her shots and all other tests that were needed. We already had three cats, one female(Abby), and two males . We kept her separated for about a month and slowly introduced them all to each other. Abby was never an overly affectionate cat with any of the other two cats. However, she did get along with them. Not so with the new cat. There was some mild tension in the form of a couple of swats at each other here and there, but never anything serious. They tolerated each other. Then at the end of 2017 she started peeing outside of her litter box. I had to put a camera around the house to try to figure out which cat was doing it. I saw on the video that she peed on a pair of my husband's blue jeans that he left on the floor of the laundry room and she gave a little meow whenever she was peeing so I thought okay, she must be hurting. I took her to the vet and her urinalysis was fairly normal although the vet said she may have a little bit of inflammation. I told her about the stress between the two female cats and she said it could be stress cystitis. Which is basically a cat stresses themselves out so much that their bladder becomes inflamed. She gave her antibiotics and everything was fine for about a month, when it started again.
At the time we had six litter boxes for the four cats spread out into three different rooms. I tried no less than six different types of litters. All the litter boxes were open at the top...no hood. I tried pheromone sprays, pheromone plug-ins, CBD oil, bachs rescue remedy, calming chews, corn silk d-manose, cantharis, etc. I also tried to retrain her by getting a two-tiered crate and putting her litter box on the bottom floor and her bed on the top floor. I did this for 3 weeks. The first week she stayed in her crate all of the time. Every single time she needed to use the bathroom, she peed in her litter box. every single time. So on the second week I'll let her out into the room. She went back to her litter box in the crate every single time. The third week I'd let her out into the room, even when I was not in there with her. She still used the litter box every single time so I did not think it was litter or litter box aversion. So I'd let her out into the rest of the house little by little. She still used the litter box like a champ. So I could only assume that it was because of my other female cat. The doctor suggested Prozac and I did put her on Prozac at that time. She was on it for at least a year and a half and she was perfect. She did not pee outside the litter box for a year and a half. We moved to a new house in 2019. At that point we only had three cats. My oldest male cat died of cancer in 2018. She still was perfect at going to her litter box even with moving to a new house. Before we moved to the new house we purchased a litter robot. I thought it may help her because she may like a super clean litter box all the time and I worked during the day so I could not scoop it every time after she went to the bathroom. However, I did scoop three to four times a day. And remember she has six litter boxes to choose from. So the cats were all acclimated to the litter robot before we moved to the new house. At the new house We did keep her in a large room to let her get acclimated to the house and she seemed to do fine. When we moved to the new house we had two litter robots. One upstairs one downstairs.
Then at the end of 2020 she started peeing outside the litter box again even while on the Prozac. She had long stopped eating a treat that I would hide the Prozac in. So I had to start using a pill syringe to give her her medicine and that eroded her trust in me and she avoided me when she knew it was time for her to get her medicine. Of course I took her to the vet for another urinalysis and it came back normal. So I did the whole thing of putting her upstairs in a large bathroom with a cat tree in the window and a litter robot and plenty of room to stretch her legs. I did that for 3 weeks and when she came back downstairs she was fine for a few months and then she started peeing outside the litter boxes again. At this time I had one litter robot upstairs and one litter qrobot downstairs. I had cameras around the house and two of them were specifically aimed at the litter boxes. Sometimes she would go inside and poop, leave, then come back 5 minutes later and see that the robot had not cycled and she would turn around and pee in front of it. At that time, the robot was scheduled to rotate 15 minutes after the cat left. I changed that to rotate after 3 minutes. And I noticed that she would then poop, leave, It would rotate and clean and then she would come back and pee inside of the litter robot. So I thought great. Maybe that solved the problem. Maybe she did not like going to pee inside of a litter box that was dirty. Then I thought maybe she did not want to pee in the same litter box that she pooped in at all. So I purchased another litter robot. So then I had two upstairs and one downstairs. She seemed to use them more. She would go at least 2 weeks between episodes of peeing outside of the box. I did not see any conflict while she was in the litter box. Abby usually just avoids her. She will stare at her and I know that that is a form of aggression. But she never did that while she was in the litter box. However, my problem cat, Penelope, would be aggressive toward Abby. She had another urinalysis and blood work done in January of 2023 and everything was normal. So in February of 2023 she peed on a living room rug. It was only a month old. I had enough at that time so I took her and put her upstairs in the bathroom again. She stayed in the bathroom for 2 weeks. I had a camera in there with her. She went almost two days of holding her urine before she finally went inside the litter box. Never once in the 2 weeks did she pee outside the litter box. After those 2 weeks I open the door to let her into the bedroom that was attached to that bathroom. I had the bedroom door closed so she could not get out of that space. I went upstairs three times a day to feed her and to play with her. Our bond returned. It was at this time that I weaned her off of the Prozac. After all, Why use it if she was still peeing inappropriately while on it. Even with her having the bedroom and the bathroom. She still went to the litter robot to pee and poop every single time. Now starts month TWO. I block the entryway at the top of the stairs with a screen door. And I open up the bedroom so that she has the hallway, another bedroom, and another bathroom that also has a litter robot in it. The hallway was a great place for her to run full speed chasing a laser or another kind of toy that I might have. The screen door kept her from going downstairs and it allowed the other two cats to come upstairs to sniff her and hopefully reintroduce the two female cats. So the routine was three times a day, I went upstairs to play with her and to feed her. The entire 2 months she never once peed inappropriately, she used the litter box every single time. So after the 2 months I decided to let her downstairs for a couple of hours. She did well. She sniffed everything, but she never once peed on anything. We have a cat door that leads out to a screened in porch and she went out there for a short time. And then I put her back upstairs. I did this for a week, letting her down a few hours every afternoon when I got home from work. After that week, on a day when I was home all day, I'd let her down all day. She used litter boxes downstairs. She would use litter boxes upstairs. Her and the other female cat didn't seem to care that the other one was in the room. they've always been able to sleep on various pieces of furniture in the same room and it does not seem to bother them at all. In any case, she was 100% perfect for 5 weeks. Using the litter boxes all the time. Then out of the blue, seemingly, she peed on a blanket that had fallen off of our bed. Then a few days later she peed on one of those turbo chaser toys that the center has a cardboard piece in the middle, she peed in the middle part. Then a few days later she peed on the bare floor under the dining room table. I cleaned everything with a good enzyme cleaner and didn't smell anything else. But the next day I thought I smelled something but I could not find where it was coming from. Then I realize I had left a dusting mitt on top of the dining room table. She had gotten on the table and peed on that. So more enzyme cleaner. I emailed my vet in tears telling her that maybe she needed to refer me to a behaviorist or a specialist that could take x-rays, ultrasounds, and whatever test was needed to see if there was anything physically wrong with her bladder. We had only ever done an urinalysis and blood test but we had never taken an x-ray. Not that I think she has stones of any kind because after this many years there would have been blood white blood cells or something to show that she had a physical issue. So while I was waiting on the vet to return my email or call me, I used various calming sprays and calming choose and praised her every time she used the litter box. And she went almost 2 weeks using the litter box again. Then 2 days ago I'm going to my bed and she is underneath my side table peeing on the floor. I didn't mean to but it was an automatic response, I yelled NO! Well she stopped midstream and ran. Then yesterday as I was getting into bed she jumped on the bed and meowed and I pet her and thought that she was coming up to settle down for the night. But no, she went to my husband's side of the bed and peed on top of our comforter. I took it off immediately before it could soak through and of course she ran. Are comforter is white and they're not seem to be any blood in the urine. It was typical yellow, stinky cat urine. So I had no choice but to put her back upstairs in the bathroom again and that is where she is going to have to stay until we can figure out a solution for this problem. Otherwise she is going to destroy my home. When I went upstairs this afternoon to feed her I closed the bedroom door and opened the bathroom door so that maybe I could play with her. She didn't seem interested in playing she walked around meowing....obviously I'm sure she is stressed. So I got on the bed with her she got on the bed and I was petting her She then jumped off the bed and proceeded to walk over to where I had a small box on the floor and she squatted and she peed on the carpet. This does seem somewhat behavioral to a degree, but her peeing in front of me is new and it makes me think she's trying to tell me something. In the past she has always peed while hiding or when I'm not home or when I'm in another room. This time she has peed three times in front of me.
I just wish I could figure out why she all of a sudden became neurotic in 2017 .
Has anyone ever had a cat that peed inappropriately that ended up being a physical issue and not a mental issue? At this point I would love it to be a physical issue because I think that one is obviously much easier to probably fix. A mental issue I feel is much harder especially if medicines do not work.
Some basics about Penelope are: Approximately 8-year-old spayed female
Her diet is all wet food. Including raw lamb, pork, chicken, and a variety of canned foods. I use dry food as treats. So she will sometimes get three or four pieces of small kibble. I would put them in a puzzle and she figured the puzzles out very quickly.
She weighs approximately 13 lb which is too heavy for her. She gained a lot of weight in the last year and a half. And I think I know why now. We have microchip pet feeders for all three cats. So only her microchip will let her into her bowl. However, I noticed a few weeks ago that she will go over to my mail cat's bowl and wait for him to stick his head past the sensor and then push him out of the way and puts her head in there before the door can close over the food. So it's no wonder that she has gained a lot of weight.
She's a diluted calico
Making her an outdoor cat is not an option.
Rehoming her is not an option. No one is going to want a cat that has a pee problem
Putting her down is not an option.
Are there any other kind of test that any of you can recommend besides x-ray, ultrasound, urinalysis, and blood work? The x-ray and ultrasound I definitely want to get. I am definitely willing to do another urinalysis and blood work. I'm just wondering if there's anything else that might be beneficial. I love my vet and don't want to start all over with a new one. She is not the fastest to return my phone calls or emails. She's a mobile vet and that is one of the things that I love. I also love that she does not push me to get unnecessary vaccinations. And I also love that she is receptive to anything that I want to try. In other words, she is not pushy at all, like some other vets that I have gone to. So there is a compromise in that regard. However, going to a specialist is what I would like to do and she will refer me to one when she gets back to me. I would appreciate any constructive advice that anyone can give me. If anyone has any questions they like to ask me to get more information, please ask away. I really do not want to have a cat that I have to regulate to live the rest of their life in one room. It is not good for the cat and it is definitely not good for my quality of life either.
If you've made it to the end, Thank you so much for reading and helping if you can.
2023.06.10 02:10 Radtech51 At the end of my rope, long post
So this is going to be a long post because this issue dates back to 2017-2018.
In 2016 my husband brought home a stray cat that he found at a hotel while working out of town. The cat was being fed by the employees and she was very friendly. Coming up to rub against him meowing and letting him pet her etc. We got her spayed within 2 weeks of having her and got her shots and all other tests that were needed. We already had three cats, one female(Abby), and two males . We kept her separated for about a month and slowly introduced them all to each other. Abby was never an overly affectionate cat with any of the other two cats. However, she did get along with them. Not so with the new cat. There was some mild tension in the form of a couple of swats at each other here and there, but never anything serious. They tolerated each other. Then at the end of 2017 she started peeing outside of her litter box. I had to put a camera around the house to try to figure out which cat was doing it. I saw on the video that she peed on a pair of my husband's blue jeans that he left on the floor of the laundry room and she gave a little meow whenever she was peeing so I thought okay, she must be hurting. I took her to the vet and her urinalysis was fairly normal although the vet said she may have a little bit of inflammation. I told her about the stress between the two female cats and she said it could be stress cystitis. Which is basically a cat stresses themselves out so much that their bladder becomes inflamed. She gave her antibiotics and everything was fine for about a month, when it started again.
At the time we had six litter boxes for the four cats spread out into three different rooms. I tried no less than six different types of litters. All the litter boxes were open at the top...no hood. I tried pheromone sprays, pheromone plug-ins, CBD oil, bachs rescue remedy, calming chews, corn silk d-manose, cantharis, etc. I also tried to retrain her by getting a two-tiered crate and putting her litter box on the bottom floor and her bed on the top floor. I did this for 3 weeks. The first week she stayed in her crate all of the time. Every single time she needed to use the bathroom, she peed in her litter box. every single time. So on the second week I'll let her out into the room. She went back to her litter box in the crate every single time. The third week I'd let her out into the room, even when I was not in there with her. She still used the litter box every single time so I did not think it was litter or litter box aversion. So I'd let her out into the rest of the house little by little. She still used the litter box like a champ. So I could only assume that it was because of my other female cat. The doctor suggested Prozac and I did put her on Prozac at that time. She was on it for at least a year and a half and she was perfect. She did not pee outside the litter box for a year and a half. We moved to a new house in 2019. At that point we only had three cats. My oldest male cat died of cancer in 2018. She still was perfect at going to her litter box even with moving to a new house. Before we moved to the new house we purchased a litter robot. I thought it may help her because she may like a super clean litter box all the time and I worked during the day so I could not scoop it every time after she went to the bathroom. However, I did scoop three to four times a day. And remember she has six litter boxes to choose from. So the cats were all acclimated to the litter robot before we moved to the new house. At the new house We did keep her in a large room to let her get acclimated to the house and she seemed to do fine. When we moved to the new house we had two litter robots. One upstairs one downstairs.
Then at the end of 2020 she started peeing outside the litter box again even while on the Prozac. She had long stopped eating a treat that I would hide the Prozac in. So I had to start using a pill syringe to give her her medicine and that eroded her trust in me and she avoided me when she knew it was time for her to get her medicine. Of course I took her to the vet for another urinalysis and it came back normal. So I did the whole thing of putting her upstairs in a large bathroom with a cat tree in the window and a litter robot and plenty of room to stretch her legs. I did that for 3 weeks and when she came back downstairs she was fine for a few months and then she started peeing outside the litter boxes again. At this time I had one litter robot upstairs and one litter qrobot downstairs. I had cameras around the house and two of them were specifically aimed at the litter boxes. Sometimes she would go inside and poop, leave, then come back 5 minutes later and see that the robot had not cycled and she would turn around and pee in front of it. At that time, the robot was scheduled to rotate 15 minutes after the cat left. I changed that to rotate after 3 minutes. And I noticed that she would then poop, leave, It would rotate and clean and then she would come back and pee inside of the litter robot. So I thought great. Maybe that solved the problem. Maybe she did not like going to pee inside of a litter box that was dirty. Then I thought maybe she did not want to pee in the same litter box that she pooped in at all. So I purchased another litter robot. So then I had two upstairs and one downstairs. She seemed to use them more. She would go at least 2 weeks between episodes of peeing outside of the box. I did not see any conflict while she was in the litter box. Abby usually just avoids her. She will stare at her and I know that that is a form of aggression. But she never did that while she was in the litter box. However, my problem cat, Penelope, would be aggressive toward Abby. She had another urinalysis and blood work done in January of 2023 and everything was normal. So in February of 2023 she peed on a living room rug. It was only a month old. I had enough at that time so I took her and put her upstairs in the bathroom again. She stayed in the bathroom for 2 weeks. I had a camera in there with her. She went almost two days of holding her urine before she finally went inside the litter box. Never once in the 2 weeks did she pee outside the litter box. After those 2 weeks I open the door to let her into the bedroom that was attached to that bathroom. I had the bedroom door closed so she could not get out of that space. I went upstairs three times a day to feed her and to play with her. Our bond returned. It was at this time that I weaned her off of the Prozac. After all, Why use it if she was still peeing inappropriately while on it. Even with her having the bedroom and the bathroom. She still went to the litter robot to pee and poop every single time. Now starts month TWO. I block the entryway at the top of the stairs with a screen door. And I open up the bedroom so that she has the hallway, another bedroom, and another bathroom that also has a litter robot in it. The hallway was a great place for her to run full speed chasing a laser or another kind of toy that I might have. The screen door kept her from going downstairs and it allowed the other two cats to come upstairs to sniff her and hopefully reintroduce the two female cats. So the routine was three times a day, I went upstairs to play with her and to feed her. The entire 2 months she never once peed inappropriately, she used the litter box every single time. So after the 2 months I decided to let her downstairs for a couple of hours. She did well. She sniffed everything, but she never once peed on anything. We have a cat door that leads out to a screened in porch and she went out there for a short time. And then I put her back upstairs. I did this for a week, letting her down a few hours every afternoon when I got home from work. After that week, on a day when I was home all day, I'd let her down all day. She used litter boxes downstairs. She would use litter boxes upstairs. Her and the other female cat didn't seem to care that the other one was in the room. they've always been able to sleep on various pieces of furniture in the same room and it does not seem to bother them at all. In any case, she was 100% perfect for 5 weeks. Using the litter boxes all the time. Then out of the blue, seemingly, she peed on a blanket that had fallen off of our bed. Then a few days later she peed on one of those turbo chaser toys that the center has a cardboard piece in the middle, she peed in the middle part. Then a few days later she peed on the bare floor under the dining room table. I cleaned everything with a good enzyme cleaner and didn't smell anything else. But the next day I thought I smelled something but I could not find where it was coming from. Then I realize I had left a dusting mitt on top of the dining room table. She had gotten on the table and peed on that. So more enzyme cleaner. I emailed my vet in tears telling her that maybe she needed to refer me to a behaviorist or a specialist that could take x-rays, ultrasounds, and whatever test was needed to see if there was anything physically wrong with her bladder. We had only ever done an urinalysis and blood test but we had never taken an x-ray. Not that I think she has stones of any kind because after this many years there would have been blood white blood cells or something to show that she had a physical issue. So while I was waiting on the vet to return my email or call me, I used various calming sprays and calming choose and praised her every time she used the litter box. And she went almost 2 weeks using the litter box again. Then 2 days ago I'm going to my bed and she is underneath my side table peeing on the floor. I didn't mean to but it was an automatic response, I yelled NO! Well she stopped midstream and ran. Then yesterday as I was getting into bed she jumped on the bed and meowed and I pet her and thought that she was coming up to settle down for the night. But no, she went to my husband's side of the bed and peed on top of our comforter. I took it off immediately before it could soak through and of course she ran. Are comforter is white and they're not seem to be any blood in the urine. It was typical yellow, stinky cat urine. So I had no choice but to put her back upstairs in the bathroom again and that is where she is going to have to stay until we can figure out a solution for this problem. Otherwise she is going to destroy my home. When I went upstairs this afternoon to feed her I closed the bedroom door and opened the bathroom door so that maybe I could play with her. She didn't seem interested in playing she walked around meowing....obviously I'm sure she is stressed. So I got on the bed with her she got on the bed and I was petting her She then jumped off the bed and proceeded to walk over to where I had a small box on the floor and she squatted and she peed on the carpet. This does seem somewhat behavioral to a degree, but her peeing in front of me is new and it makes me think she's trying to tell me something. In the past she has always peed while hiding or when I'm not home or when I'm in another room. This time she has peed three times in front of me.
I just wish I could figure out why she all of a sudden became neurotic in 2017 .
Has anyone ever had a cat that peed inappropriately that ended up being a physical issue and not a mental issue? At this point I would love it to be a physical issue because I think that one is obviously much easier to probably fix. A mental issue I feel is much harder especially if medicines do not work.
Some basics about Penelope are: Approximately 8-year-old spayed female
Her diet is all wet food. Including raw lamb, pork, chicken, and a variety of canned foods. I use dry food as treats. So she will sometimes get three or four pieces of small kibble. I would put them in a puzzle and she figured the puzzles out very quickly.
She weighs approximately 13 lb which is too heavy for her. She gained a lot of weight in the last year and a half. And I think I know why now. We have microchip pet feeders for all three cats. So only her microchip will let her into her bowl. However, I noticed a few weeks ago that she will go over to my mail cat's bowl and wait for him to stick his head past the sensor and then push him out of the way and puts her head in there before the door can close over the food. So it's no wonder that she has gained a lot of weight.
She's a diluted calico
Making her an outdoor cat is not an option.
Rehoming her is not an option. No one is going to want a cat that has a pee problem
Putting her down is not an option.
Are there any other kind of test that any of you can recommend besides x-ray, ultrasound, urinalysis, and blood work? The x-ray and ultrasound I definitely want to get. I am definitely willing to do another urinalysis and blood work. I'm just wondering if there's anything else that might be beneficial. I love my vet and don't want to start all over with a new one. She is not the fastest to return my phone calls or emails. She's a mobile vet and that is one of the things that I love. I also love that she does not push me to get unnecessary vaccinations. And I also love that she is receptive to anything that I want to try. In other words, she is not pushy at all, like some other vets that I have gone to. So there is a compromise in that regard. However, going to a specialist is what I would like to do and she will refer me to one when she gets back to me. I would appreciate any constructive advice that anyone can give me. If anyone has any questions they like to ask me to get more information, please ask away. I really do not want to have a cat that I have to regulate to live the rest of their life in one room. It is not good for the cat and it is definitely not good for my quality of life either.
If you've made it to the end, Thank you so much for reading and helping if you can.
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In 2016 my husband brought home a stray cat that he found at a hotel while working out of town. The cat was being fed by the employees and she was very friendly. Coming up to rub against him meowing and letting him pet her etc. We got her spayed within 2 weeks of having her and got her shots and all other tests that were needed. We already had three cats, one female(Abby), and two males . We kept her separated for about a month and slowly introduced them all to each other. Abby was never an overly affectionate cat with any of the other two cats. However, she did get along with them. Not so with the new cat. There was some mild tension in the form of a couple of swats at each other here and there, but never anything serious. They tolerated each other. Then at the end of 2017 she started peeing outside of her litter box. I had to put a camera around the house to try to figure out which cat was doing it. I saw on the video that she peed on a pair of my husband's blue jeans that he left on the floor of the laundry room and she gave a little meow whenever she was peeing so I thought okay, she must be hurting. I took her to the vet and her urinalysis was fairly normal although the vet said she may have a little bit of inflammation. I told her about the stress between the two female cats and she said it could be stress cystitis. Which is basically a cat stresses themselves out so much that their bladder becomes inflamed. She gave her antibiotics and everything was fine for about a month, when it started again.
At the time we had six litter boxes for the four cats spread out into three different rooms. I tried no less than six different types of litters. All the litter boxes were open at the top...no hood. I tried pheromone sprays, pheromone plug-ins, CBD oil, bachs rescue remedy, calming chews, corn silk d-manose, cantharis, etc. I also tried to retrain her by getting a two-tiered crate and putting her litter box on the bottom floor and her bed on the top floor. I did this for 3 weeks. The first week she stayed in her crate all of the time. Every single time she needed to use the bathroom, she peed in her litter box. every single time. So on the second week I'll let her out into the room. She went back to her litter box in the crate every single time. The third week I'd let her out into the room, even when I was not in there with her. She still used the litter box every single time so I did not think it was litter or litter box aversion. So I'd let her out into the rest of the house little by little. She still used the litter box like a champ. So I could only assume that it was because of my other female cat. The doctor suggested Prozac and I did put her on Prozac at that time. She was on it for at least a year and a half and she was perfect. She did not pee outside the litter box for a year and a half. We moved to a new house in 2019. At that point we only had three cats. My oldest male cat died of cancer in 2018. She still was perfect at going to her litter box even with moving to a new house. Before we moved to the new house we purchased a litter robot. I thought it may help her because she may like a super clean litter box all the time and I worked during the day so I could not scoop it every time after she went to the bathroom. However, I did scoop three to four times a day. And remember she has six litter boxes to choose from. So the cats were all acclimated to the litter robot before we moved to the new house. At the new house We did keep her in a large room to let her get acclimated to the house and she seemed to do fine. When we moved to the new house we had two litter robots. One upstairs one downstairs.
Then at the end of 2020 she started peeing outside the litter box again even while on the Prozac. She had long stopped eating a treat that I would hide the Prozac in. So I had to start using a pill syringe to give her her medicine and that eroded her trust in me and she avoided me when she knew it was time for her to get her medicine. Of course I took her to the vet for another urinalysis and it came back normal. So I did the whole thing of putting her upstairs in a large bathroom with a cat tree in the window and a litter robot and plenty of room to stretch her legs. I did that for 3 weeks and when she came back downstairs she was fine for a few months and then she started peeing outside the litter boxes again. At this time I had one litter robot upstairs and one litter qrobot downstairs. I had cameras around the house and two of them were specifically aimed at the litter boxes. Sometimes she would go inside and poop, leave, then come back 5 minutes later and see that the robot had not cycled and she would turn around and pee in front of it. At that time, the robot was scheduled to rotate 15 minutes after the cat left. I changed that to rotate after 3 minutes. And I noticed that she would then poop, leave, It would rotate and clean and then she would come back and pee inside of the litter robot. So I thought great. Maybe that solved the problem. Maybe she did not like going to pee inside of a litter box that was dirty. Then I thought maybe she did not want to pee in the same litter box that she pooped in at all. So I purchased another litter robot. So then I had two upstairs and one downstairs. She seemed to use them more. She would go at least 2 weeks between episodes of peeing outside of the box. I did not see any conflict while she was in the litter box. Abby usually just avoids her. She will stare at her and I know that that is a form of aggression. But she never did that while she was in the litter box. However, my problem cat, Penelope, would be aggressive toward Abby. She had another urinalysis and blood work done in January of 2023 and everything was normal. So in February of 2023 she peed on a living room rug. It was only a month old. I had enough at that time so I took her and put her upstairs in the bathroom again. She stayed in the bathroom for 2 weeks. I had a camera in there with her. She went almost two days of holding her urine before she finally went inside the litter box. Never once in the 2 weeks did she pee outside the litter box. After those 2 weeks I open the door to let her into the bedroom that was attached to that bathroom. I had the bedroom door closed so she could not get out of that space. I went upstairs three times a day to feed her and to play with her. Our bond returned. It was at this time that I weaned her off of the Prozac. After all, Why use it if she was still peeing inappropriately while on it. Even with her having the bedroom and the bathroom. She still went to the litter robot to pee and poop every single time. Now starts month TWO. I block the entryway at the top of the stairs with a screen door. And I open up the bedroom so that she has the hallway, another bedroom, and another bathroom that also has a litter robot in it. The hallway was a great place for her to run full speed chasing a laser or another kind of toy that I might have. The screen door kept her from going downstairs and it allowed the other two cats to come upstairs to sniff her and hopefully reintroduce the two female cats. So the routine was three times a day, I went upstairs to play with her and to feed her. The entire 2 months she never once peed inappropriately, she used the litter box every single time. So after the 2 months I decided to let her downstairs for a couple of hours. She did well. She sniffed everything, but she never once peed on anything. We have a cat door that leads out to a screened in porch and she went out there for a short time. And then I put her back upstairs. I did this for a week, letting her down a few hours every afternoon when I got home from work. After that week, on a day when I was home all day, I'd let her down all day. She used litter boxes downstairs. She would use litter boxes upstairs. Her and the other female cat didn't seem to care that the other one was in the room. they've always been able to sleep on various pieces of furniture in the same room and it does not seem to bother them at all. In any case, she was 100% perfect for 5 weeks. Using the litter boxes all the time. Then out of the blue, seemingly, she peed on a blanket that had fallen off of our bed. Then a few days later she peed on one of those turbo chaser toys that the center has a cardboard piece in the middle, she peed in the middle part. Then a few days later she peed on the bare floor under the dining room table. I cleaned everything with a good enzyme cleaner and didn't smell anything else. But the next day I thought I smelled something but I could not find where it was coming from. Then I realize I had left a dusting mitt on top of the dining room table. She had gotten on the table and peed on that. So more enzyme cleaner. I emailed my vet in tears telling her that maybe she needed to refer me to a behaviorist or a specialist that could take x-rays, ultrasounds, and whatever test was needed to see if there was anything physically wrong with her bladder. We had only ever done an urinalysis and blood test but we had never taken an x-ray. Not that I think she has stones of any kind because after this many years there would have been blood white blood cells or something to show that she had a physical issue. So while I was waiting on the vet to return my email or call me, I used various calming sprays and calming choose and praised her every time she used the litter box. And she went almost 2 weeks using the litter box again. Then 2 days ago I'm going to my bed and she is underneath my side table peeing on the floor. I didn't mean to but it was an automatic response, I yelled NO! Well she stopped midstream and ran. Then yesterday as I was getting into bed she jumped on the bed and meowed and I pet her and thought that she was coming up to settle down for the night. But no, she went to my husband's side of the bed and peed on top of our comforter. I took it off immediately before it could soak through and of course she ran. Are comforter is white and they're not seem to be any blood in the urine. It was typical yellow, stinky cat urine. So I had no choice but to put her back upstairs in the bathroom again and that is where she is going to have to stay until we can figure out a solution for this problem. Otherwise she is going to destroy my home. When I went upstairs this afternoon to feed her I closed the bedroom door and opened the bathroom door so that maybe I could play with her. She didn't seem interested in playing she walked around meowing....obviously I'm sure she is stressed. So I got on the bed with her she got on the bed and I was petting her She then jumped off the bed and proceeded to walk over to where I had a small box on the floor and she squatted and she peed on the carpet. This does seem somewhat behavioral to a degree, but her peeing in front of me is new and it makes me think she's trying to tell me something. In the past she has always peed while hiding or when I'm not home or when I'm in another room. This time she has peed three times in front of me.
I just wish I could figure out why she all of a sudden became neurotic in 2017 .
Has anyone ever had a cat that peed inappropriately that ended up being a physical issue and not a mental issue? At this point I would love it to be a physical issue because I think that one is obviously much easier to probably fix. A mental issue I feel is much harder especially if medicines do not work.
Some basics about Penelope are: Approximately 8-year-old spayed female
Her diet is all wet food. Including raw lamb, pork, chicken, and a variety of canned foods. I use dry food as treats. So she will sometimes get three or four pieces of small kibble. I would put them in a puzzle and she figured the puzzles out very quickly.
She weighs approximately 13 lb which is too heavy for her. She gained a lot of weight in the last year and a half. And I think I know why now. We have microchip pet feeders for all three cats. So only her microchip will let her into her bowl. However, I noticed a few weeks ago that she will go over to my mail cat's bowl and wait for him to stick his head past the sensor and then push him out of the way and puts her head in there before the door can close over the food. So it's no wonder that she has gained a lot of weight.
She's a diluted calico
Making her an outdoor cat is not an option.
Rehoming her is not an option. No one is going to want a cat that has a pee problem
Putting her down is not an option.
Are there any other kind of test that any of you can recommend besides x-ray, ultrasound, urinalysis, and blood work? The x-ray and ultrasound I definitely want to get. I am definitely willing to do another urinalysis and blood work. I'm just wondering if there's anything else that might be beneficial. I love my vet and don't want to start all over with a new one. She is not the fastest to return my phone calls or emails. She's a mobile vet and that is one of the things that I love. I also love that she does not push me to get unnecessary vaccinations. And I also love that she is receptive to anything that I want to try. In other words, she is not pushy at all, like some other vets that I have gone to. So there is a compromise in that regard. However, going to a specialist is what I would like to do and she will refer me to one when she gets back to me. I would appreciate any constructive advice that anyone can give me. If anyone has any questions they like to ask me to get more information, please ask away. I really do not want to have a cat that I have to regulate to live the rest of their life in one room. It is not good for the cat and it is definitely not good for my quality of life either.
If you've made it to the end, Thank you so much for reading and helping if you can.
2023.06.10 01:55 WaitUuseRedditYorSad My mother abused me for years. I went from Incel to Tate fan and I am now neither. I came to share my story and to self-refect on why I fell in to the traps.
I posted this to my Facebook as I posted Tate-related content there and upset but also pleased a few people so I wanted to make my mindset adjustment public. I'm gonna copy and paste it here with some extra stuff that I didn't want to say on my Facebook because it would shit-stirr my family but I truly want to get it off my chest a day spread my message.
After taking plenty of time to think about it. I've decided that I am no longer a supporter of Tate. When you're just another one of the many young man outcasted by society, having your masculinity blamed for everything wrong in your life, bullied by the popular kids in school, never having a girlfriend and being blamed for all of those things, it's easy to see why I fell for his trap.
Having already left Incels and decided I want to try to improve instead of just giving up, I saw a man who told you it's okay to be masculine, it's okay to want the hot chicks, it's okay to want to drive sports cars, it's okay to want to be rich, it's okay to want submissive wives, it's okay to want to fight, it's okay to be a man! It's very hard not to be drawn to it in a world that tells you these things are toxic and will keep you celibate, that this is the reason women aren't attracted to you. Tate comes along with his 4 wives, videos of him with women in bikinis, his big muscular physique, his hundreds of millions of dollars and his 4 world kick-boxing champion belts to prove that notion wrong.
"If I'm such a misogynist then how come I'm fuckin' and you're not fuckin'? If I'm such a misogynist then how come women are coming to me?"
"All I talk about is how men are better than women and I'm still fuckin' more pussy than you are."
It's hard to argue with that point. The answer is because being a misogynist doesn't stop you from being attractive.
But, that doesn't excuse it. Tate knows with his money, status, physique, influence, accolades and confidence that he can still have a plethora of shallow women at his disposal and still get away with spewing his sexist vitriol.
"Women should not be allowed to drive"
"Women have been trading sexual favours in exchange for career advancements for decades, it doesn't make it sexual assault just because of the metoo movement"- Response to Harvey Weinstein's scandal
"When women end up in senior management it's nothing but a shit-show and a bitch-fest"
"I'm a realist and when you're a realist, you're sexist. There's no way you can be rooted in reality and not be sexist"
"When a woman marries a man, she belongs to that man"
"I was getting on a plane and I could see through the cockpit that a female was the pilot and I took a picture and I said, ‘most women I know can’t even park a car, why is a woman flying my plane?"
"A woman cheating isn't even on the same level as a man cheating"
"Female promiscuity is disgusting and it has been looked down upon in every era of human history to the point where a female could be executed for it." "As they should be"- Another man on the podcast "Get the rocks"- Replied Tate
Men, there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve yourself! You can work out, figure out how to make money outside of employment, learn how to increase your testosterone, do NoFap, quit porn, jaw-maxing, eating clean, learning how to pick up women(and let's be honest, accepting that their advice on how to do so sucks 😅) learn a combat sport, have submissive women, be polygamous(as long as it's not deceptive). This is not cringe, it is called AMBITION! But here's the news flash:
YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT DEEANING WOMEN AND TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THEIR RIGHTS 🤯
Some people will call you cringe for doing this. Because they want to keep you on their level. Most women will say that you need to be a feminist or you will stay single and that self-improvement is cringe. But just laught it off, it doesn't matter. And no you don't have to be a feminist either. You can just be a respectful person who doesn't want to divert women's rights they are entitled to in the modern day.
The reason us sexless, emasculated, envious, unloved men felt compelled to him is because he offered a way out. A way out of the deception that you have to be feminine, emotional and deceived by fourth wave feminism to be accepted in society and have women attracted to you. This is a lie. When these young men fall for this lie, it becomes hard not to be angry and resentful when women do not act the way our parents, the education system and the media tells us they do. That they don't like the assholes, the bullies, the jocks, and yes... the MISOGYNISTS. We were told just being a nice guy who respects women is enough.
When this lie unravels, many unfortunately go one of 2 routes:
The red pill- Aiming for self-improvement and maximisation in every metric of your value(nothing wrong with that). But unfortunately then using this to control the women in your life and preach oppression to make things the way they used to be.
The black pill- Where men convince each other that they will never be able to obtain sex/relationships no matter what and their situation is inescapable, to just give up. Some of which tell others to rape women; some of which do. Some of which tell others to commit mass shootings; Some of which do.
Many men have now left the black pill because of Tate which is great and it is better they idolise him than murderers like Elliot Rodger and Alek Minassian or content creators like EggWhite and WheatWaffles. Some never were black-pilled but admire Tate for preaching masculinity and stoicism in a world that demonizes it. I will reiterate to those men- YOU CAN DO SO WITHOUT DEMEANING WOMEN
So why does Tate do this? 2 reasons:
"Do what needs to be done regardless of how you feel"
Beat Tate at his own game! Self-improve, do the hard work even if you don't feel like it! But draw the line with the misogyny because wven thought it FEELS tempting, comforting and easy to do so, doesn't mean you should. Having that said, it is painful for me to acknowledge I was wrong and deceived by this evil genius. It's also very satisfying to know that a certain someone was seeing me support ideologies I knew would never be approved of and that the brainwashing, abuse and manipulation I was subjected to wasn't working. I wanted to stick it to you and show you how wrong you were for trying to strip me of my masculinity. I hate that you will be releived I am moving on and respecting women and that you will feel justified in the way you treated me. But:
"The most important part of being a man is not doing what you want to do but doing what you have to do. Your feelings don't matter as a man!" -Tate
Thanks for reading 💚
The "certain someone" was my mother. She made me sleep with her until I was 14, walked around naked in front of me and encouraged me to do the same. She would tell me my penis was big when it is in fact under-average. She used to constantly make small-penis jokes, say misogynists, show-offs and even rapists were projecting their small dick insecurity. She also told me my bullies had small dicks. This hurt when I realised I had one myself but she wouldn't listen and insisted me it was above average for my age and I'm still growing. My father on the other hand would open the door on me in the shower, wave his finger at me with a stupid smile and tell me I will never impress any girls with a small one. I of course didn't wanna say this on my Facebook with my real identity and my sister thinks my Mum is some kind of saint who can do no wrong and nags me for a justification for ghosting her and I obviously don't want to provide the details because a; I have to admit I have a small penis in order to do so and b; I know I will probably be accused of lying or just gaslight me and say it's all in my head.
The worst thing she ever did was when I told her this 13 year old disabled girl had a crush ok me and I was being bullied for it so she told me "I don't think I can trust you to not have sex with her. You have high testosterone and are treating girls like sex-objects." This is difficult to say but I remember never loving my mother again after she accused me of being a paedophile who would take advantage of a disabled THIRTEEN year old girl.
We suspect she has Munchausen Syndrome and she told me I was sick my whole life with things I wasn't. Every morning I had to wake up and drink celery juice with no breakfast be cause she was convinced I was poisoned with toxins I was given at the hospital as a baby after I got bitten by our cat.
She told me I was gluten and dairy intolerant, I have since eaten these things and am fine.
I had developmental echolalia throughout my adolescence(if you don't know, similar to Tourette's syndrome, causes involuntry ticks and is common in autistic pubsescents). Both my parents and my sister told me I was doing it for attention and I could control it. I would get bullied in school for it and they would continue to tell me I could control it or to just "cover my mouth" when I do it.
She told me that my sexual urges were unnatural and for a "boy like me", I should not be "Seeing women as sex objects": This was her reaction to me telling her I would get erections and sometimes ejaculate when I saw sexy women in skimpy clothing and I tried to refuse going to the beach because of the women in bikinis but she would still force me to. I would usually rub one out before leaving if I had time or try to go in the water until the boner went down.
She also assured me before high-school that because I'm so handsome and "wasn't like the other boys"(respectful gentleman she apparently raised me to be) that I would be very popular with all the girls. When this didn't happen, she said it was because I must street them like sex objects.
She told me I was "addicted to masturbating": Apparently 4-5 times a day was addiction which in reality is just normal all teenaged boy stuff.
I explained that I was attracted to the hot women and not the nerdy ones like she told me to be and asked why this was. She told me it was because I had entitlement problems and it was due to my high testosterone. She said to avoid the hot ones because they are "too much drama" and that no matter what my girlfriend looks like, I will enjoy sex with her just as much because the emotattraction is what counts and hit girls will only manipulate me and take me away from her.
Because of this she would cry and hug me, telling me I was going to grow up to be a suicidal sex addict. She then went to the adult store and bought me a fleshlight as per my father and his friend's suggestion. She told me it would satisfy my urges and stop the spontaneous ejaculatiobs in public. I told her it wasn't do she threw it out and kept buying different variants, tryto find tge one that would work. None of course did.
She would tell me I needed to be saved to prevent myself from taking advantage of all the women with bad fathers who would want to sleep with me and I couldn't resist it because my testosterone was too high. She told me I needed treatment for my "hypersexuality". I told her I was hesitant and she would say "I don't know why you want to be a sex-addict. Why do you want to live like this? Why do you want to be a misogynist who abuses women? I could never deal with losing my boy, so please get the help you need.
She then took me to accupunctural therapists to give me treatment for hypersexuals that constricts blood vessels to the genitals and would convince him to administer it by telling him the same bullshit she told me.
I now look at my small penis and hate her knowing that it could've been even just a little bit bigger if it weren't for her "treatment" and I will never forgive her for the physical and emotional damage she caused me. There is so much more I could get in to about how she and my father too abused me but it's gonna be too long.
I always get worried when I see mothers who say they want their son to be "different".
"I don't want him to rape, be a patriarch, stalk women who reject him, embrace his emotional side, be attracted to strong and independent women" etc.
To those mothers. I am warning you, allow your son to embrace his masculinity, teach him to be stoic, if he has a father figure, let him influence him as an adolescent, let him be attracted to who he is attracted to. Don't be like my mother or he will resent you, he will he scarred for what you do.
Thank you if you read this far. Feel free to follow me for more and comment your thoughts.
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After taking plenty of time to think about it. I've decided that I am no longer a supporter of Tate. When you're just another one of the many young man outcasted by society, having your masculinity blamed for everything wrong in your life, bullied by the popular kids in school, never having a girlfriend and being blamed for all of those things, it's easy to see why I fell for his trap.
Having already left Incels and decided I want to try to improve instead of just giving up, I saw a man who told you it's okay to be masculine, it's okay to want the hot chicks, it's okay to want to drive sports cars, it's okay to want to be rich, it's okay to want submissive wives, it's okay to want to fight, it's okay to be a man! It's very hard not to be drawn to it in a world that tells you these things are toxic and will keep you celibate, that this is the reason women aren't attracted to you. Tate comes along with his 4 wives, videos of him with women in bikinis, his big muscular physique, his hundreds of millions of dollars and his 4 world kick-boxing champion belts to prove that notion wrong.
"If I'm such a misogynist then how come I'm fuckin' and you're not fuckin'? If I'm such a misogynist then how come women are coming to me?"
"All I talk about is how men are better than women and I'm still fuckin' more pussy than you are."
It's hard to argue with that point. The answer is because being a misogynist doesn't stop you from being attractive.
But, that doesn't excuse it. Tate knows with his money, status, physique, influence, accolades and confidence that he can still have a plethora of shallow women at his disposal and still get away with spewing his sexist vitriol.
"Women should not be allowed to drive"
"Women have been trading sexual favours in exchange for career advancements for decades, it doesn't make it sexual assault just because of the metoo movement"- Response to Harvey Weinstein's scandal
"When women end up in senior management it's nothing but a shit-show and a bitch-fest"
"I'm a realist and when you're a realist, you're sexist. There's no way you can be rooted in reality and not be sexist"
"When a woman marries a man, she belongs to that man"
"I was getting on a plane and I could see through the cockpit that a female was the pilot and I took a picture and I said, ‘most women I know can’t even park a car, why is a woman flying my plane?"
"A woman cheating isn't even on the same level as a man cheating"
"Female promiscuity is disgusting and it has been looked down upon in every era of human history to the point where a female could be executed for it." "As they should be"- Another man on the podcast "Get the rocks"- Replied Tate
Men, there's nothing wrong with wanting to improve yourself! You can work out, figure out how to make money outside of employment, learn how to increase your testosterone, do NoFap, quit porn, jaw-maxing, eating clean, learning how to pick up women(and let's be honest, accepting that their advice on how to do so sucks 😅) learn a combat sport, have submissive women, be polygamous(as long as it's not deceptive). This is not cringe, it is called AMBITION! But here's the news flash:
YOU CAN DO THIS WITHOUT DEEANING WOMEN AND TRYING TO TAKE AWAY THEIR RIGHTS 🤯
Some people will call you cringe for doing this. Because they want to keep you on their level. Most women will say that you need to be a feminist or you will stay single and that self-improvement is cringe. But just laught it off, it doesn't matter. And no you don't have to be a feminist either. You can just be a respectful person who doesn't want to divert women's rights they are entitled to in the modern day.
The reason us sexless, emasculated, envious, unloved men felt compelled to him is because he offered a way out. A way out of the deception that you have to be feminine, emotional and deceived by fourth wave feminism to be accepted in society and have women attracted to you. This is a lie. When these young men fall for this lie, it becomes hard not to be angry and resentful when women do not act the way our parents, the education system and the media tells us they do. That they don't like the assholes, the bullies, the jocks, and yes... the MISOGYNISTS. We were told just being a nice guy who respects women is enough.
When this lie unravels, many unfortunately go one of 2 routes:
The red pill- Aiming for self-improvement and maximisation in every metric of your value(nothing wrong with that). But unfortunately then using this to control the women in your life and preach oppression to make things the way they used to be.
The black pill- Where men convince each other that they will never be able to obtain sex/relationships no matter what and their situation is inescapable, to just give up. Some of which tell others to rape women; some of which do. Some of which tell others to commit mass shootings; Some of which do.
Many men have now left the black pill because of Tate which is great and it is better they idolise him than murderers like Elliot Rodger and Alek Minassian or content creators like EggWhite and WheatWaffles. Some never were black-pilled but admire Tate for preaching masculinity and stoicism in a world that demonizes it. I will reiterate to those men- YOU CAN DO SO WITHOUT DEMEANING WOMEN
So why does Tate do this? 2 reasons:
- He is a misogynist and wants women to be oppressed because he is threatened by their freedom and wants to enjoy the pleasure of seeing them controlled, at his service, being dependant on men, not being allowed to lead in any corporate or industrial organisations because he believes they are incompetent in doing so. He doesn't listen to his own rule here. But just because you want that and it is feels better to live that way as a man, doesn't necessarily mean you should do it.
- He doesn't care about you. He really doesn't, he just wants to profit off you. He knew that targeting lost young men, a group that is hated, lonely and angry could be easily radicalised. Same as Hitler did with the Nazis by telling them it's okay to be German and then pointing the finger at Jews to blame them for all the injustice dealt toward them. It's a classic trick that is yet to fail.
"Do what needs to be done regardless of how you feel"
Beat Tate at his own game! Self-improve, do the hard work even if you don't feel like it! But draw the line with the misogyny because wven thought it FEELS tempting, comforting and easy to do so, doesn't mean you should. Having that said, it is painful for me to acknowledge I was wrong and deceived by this evil genius. It's also very satisfying to know that a certain someone was seeing me support ideologies I knew would never be approved of and that the brainwashing, abuse and manipulation I was subjected to wasn't working. I wanted to stick it to you and show you how wrong you were for trying to strip me of my masculinity. I hate that you will be releived I am moving on and respecting women and that you will feel justified in the way you treated me. But:
"The most important part of being a man is not doing what you want to do but doing what you have to do. Your feelings don't matter as a man!" -Tate
Thanks for reading 💚
The "certain someone" was my mother. She made me sleep with her until I was 14, walked around naked in front of me and encouraged me to do the same. She would tell me my penis was big when it is in fact under-average. She used to constantly make small-penis jokes, say misogynists, show-offs and even rapists were projecting their small dick insecurity. She also told me my bullies had small dicks. This hurt when I realised I had one myself but she wouldn't listen and insisted me it was above average for my age and I'm still growing. My father on the other hand would open the door on me in the shower, wave his finger at me with a stupid smile and tell me I will never impress any girls with a small one. I of course didn't wanna say this on my Facebook with my real identity and my sister thinks my Mum is some kind of saint who can do no wrong and nags me for a justification for ghosting her and I obviously don't want to provide the details because a; I have to admit I have a small penis in order to do so and b; I know I will probably be accused of lying or just gaslight me and say it's all in my head.
The worst thing she ever did was when I told her this 13 year old disabled girl had a crush ok me and I was being bullied for it so she told me "I don't think I can trust you to not have sex with her. You have high testosterone and are treating girls like sex-objects." This is difficult to say but I remember never loving my mother again after she accused me of being a paedophile who would take advantage of a disabled THIRTEEN year old girl.
We suspect she has Munchausen Syndrome and she told me I was sick my whole life with things I wasn't. Every morning I had to wake up and drink celery juice with no breakfast be cause she was convinced I was poisoned with toxins I was given at the hospital as a baby after I got bitten by our cat.
She told me I was gluten and dairy intolerant, I have since eaten these things and am fine.
I had developmental echolalia throughout my adolescence(if you don't know, similar to Tourette's syndrome, causes involuntry ticks and is common in autistic pubsescents). Both my parents and my sister told me I was doing it for attention and I could control it. I would get bullied in school for it and they would continue to tell me I could control it or to just "cover my mouth" when I do it.
She told me that my sexual urges were unnatural and for a "boy like me", I should not be "Seeing women as sex objects": This was her reaction to me telling her I would get erections and sometimes ejaculate when I saw sexy women in skimpy clothing and I tried to refuse going to the beach because of the women in bikinis but she would still force me to. I would usually rub one out before leaving if I had time or try to go in the water until the boner went down.
She also assured me before high-school that because I'm so handsome and "wasn't like the other boys"(respectful gentleman she apparently raised me to be) that I would be very popular with all the girls. When this didn't happen, she said it was because I must street them like sex objects.
She told me I was "addicted to masturbating": Apparently 4-5 times a day was addiction which in reality is just normal all teenaged boy stuff.
I explained that I was attracted to the hot women and not the nerdy ones like she told me to be and asked why this was. She told me it was because I had entitlement problems and it was due to my high testosterone. She said to avoid the hot ones because they are "too much drama" and that no matter what my girlfriend looks like, I will enjoy sex with her just as much because the emotattraction is what counts and hit girls will only manipulate me and take me away from her.
Because of this she would cry and hug me, telling me I was going to grow up to be a suicidal sex addict. She then went to the adult store and bought me a fleshlight as per my father and his friend's suggestion. She told me it would satisfy my urges and stop the spontaneous ejaculatiobs in public. I told her it wasn't do she threw it out and kept buying different variants, tryto find tge one that would work. None of course did.
She would tell me I needed to be saved to prevent myself from taking advantage of all the women with bad fathers who would want to sleep with me and I couldn't resist it because my testosterone was too high. She told me I needed treatment for my "hypersexuality". I told her I was hesitant and she would say "I don't know why you want to be a sex-addict. Why do you want to live like this? Why do you want to be a misogynist who abuses women? I could never deal with losing my boy, so please get the help you need.
She then took me to accupunctural therapists to give me treatment for hypersexuals that constricts blood vessels to the genitals and would convince him to administer it by telling him the same bullshit she told me.
I now look at my small penis and hate her knowing that it could've been even just a little bit bigger if it weren't for her "treatment" and I will never forgive her for the physical and emotional damage she caused me. There is so much more I could get in to about how she and my father too abused me but it's gonna be too long.
I always get worried when I see mothers who say they want their son to be "different".
"I don't want him to rape, be a patriarch, stalk women who reject him, embrace his emotional side, be attracted to strong and independent women" etc.
To those mothers. I am warning you, allow your son to embrace his masculinity, teach him to be stoic, if he has a father figure, let him influence him as an adolescent, let him be attracted to who he is attracted to. Don't be like my mother or he will resent you, he will he scarred for what you do.
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2023.06.10 01:48 javelin-na Pill pockets turned to mold?
I bought some pill pockets to help my dog take his antibiotics about a month ago. The packaging says it expires later this year in December, but when I opened the bag today it’s literally just a bag of a big white moldy clump.
It’s not letting me add pictures to this post. Has anyone had troubles with anything like this? The bag was sealed and stored at 72 degrees Fahrenheit.
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It’s not letting me add pictures to this post. Has anyone had troubles with anything like this? The bag was sealed and stored at 72 degrees Fahrenheit.