tl;dr my interested are video games, music, hiking, traveling, and shenanigans I'm just a sleepy lil' critter from the East coast United States looking for some cowpokes who want to saddle up and embark on whatever conversation you'd like. I've been trophy hunting a couple of games lately, like Untitled Goose Game, Spyro Reignited, and the Batman Arkham games. I'm also back on my bullshit with questing in wizard101 (looking for that dream fire wizard death combo and I am the fire wizard), so if anyone is in the mood for some good questing, I just started the game again! I'll leave it at that for now, and I am an open book so it doesn't hurt to ask me stuff. Mostly looking for other silly folks over the age of 18. If I can make you feel comfortable and that's reciprocated, then that's a win in my book! Shoot me a chat :)

I don't come here for free therapy, I live alone so I am using this as an outlet. Not seeking much other than posting it on an open forum for others to see as I am working on coming out of my shell after a long sleep.
I am working through therapy and as I progress, I am going through all of these layers..
I grew up with a very manipulative mother. Dad left when I was 3, only boy around of a while until a step father showed up when I was 8 or so. Merged families but really it just created more of a shitshow.
You know they say that emotional manipulation is more insidious than physical. I had the best of both worlds of abuse so I can say from experience, emotional abuse is far more sneaky and destructive whereas physical, you at least know for sure you're being harmed..
When dad left, I (unconsciously, because I was a child) closed off emotionally. Whenever I would express any emotions I was verbally/physically abused. Which later on caused me to steal, lie, get into fights. Where I just viewed my mother as my enemy. She called the police on me and they would me I would end up in jail if I continued down the path I was on...
Just looking back, I would have benefitted from therapy, there was obviously a reason for my behavior but now at 29, would've made a little sense to have some sort of outlet..
Got into weed and alcohol and smoking tobacco around 15, smoking is something I still do and I can feel it so deep rooted in how I cope with everything since life for me went down some crazy roads because of the level of neglect and traumatization.
At 18 I joined the Marines, made sergeant in 3 years, excelled but due to my torn up emotional work, fell to depression while serving. The military is another narcissistic relationship with a power structure so although it was my dream to be a career Marine, I left for another adventure.
That adventure was me being sucked back into my harmful family vortex where I go from being a sergeant of marines, to a depressed little boy because who knows what the fuck happened while I was serving my country.
I was sabotaged, without even a chance in the fight. Realistically, shit got so bad that I feel like I should be dead. I'm definitely not but something about this whole thing is eerie to me.
While at the deepest points of my depression, my family just watched and mostly, made it worse for me. Putting me in the middle of a second divorce, forcing me to work and earn the families income with my stepfather whom was a bottle of rage. I would chainsmoke cigarettes in the basement of our family house seemingly just waiting to die because the pain was unbearable and there was no escape.
Not to mention, during this catastrophe, I was working as a private contractor as an undertakemoritican so you can imagine the emotional weight I was carrying meanwhile having no means to any form of emotional/physical support.
There's alot to the story but I'm only trying to give a synopsis.
I left and set out on the open road, ended up living hundreds of places, 4 countries. Learning different healing modalities, experiencing ancient entheogenic medicines such as peyote, ayahuasca, bufo alvarius, ect.
Life has been a wild fuckin ride. But at this point in my healing journey, so much is coming up about childhood and how for 29 years I have never experienced love or healthy emotional support. How much its jacked up my sense of reality and has caused me to attract some awful people and experiences into my life.
Just last year, my mother blurted out at a dinner with some old friends, "I thought I was going to find him (me) dead in the basement"
When confronting my mother about what the fuck that was about, and I ask "why didn't you help" her response is, well you were being stubborn...yeah because I was in alot of fuckin pain and no one was listening to me.
My reaction is nothing other than confusion.
Weirdly enough, my traumas forced me to take an incredible difficult journey into healing. I see alot of fortune in my story. However, I fundamentally believe that if I was not "lucky" to some degree, I wouldn't have lived a life past 25.
Against the grain, I fought my way to this point. I live alone in Mexico, in a nice little town where I spend my days finding my way back to life.
This relationship I have with my mother has shown a great weak point in me. I was trained and conditioned to be obedient and never hold her accountable for these actions. If it were any one else in my life, this behavior would unequivocally not be tolerated and even met by force if it came to that but I am curious why we allow our parents to cut so deep. Is it something we even have control over.
When I have the strength, the way (at this moment) I am choosing to deal with her is giving her the ultimatum of seeking help or not having the ability to be physically around me. She plays a very hard game of manipulation and any attempts to hold her accountable, she whimpers and cries and have no real grasp on the damage she has caused not just me but my sister and the family I barely have a relationship with at this point. Something in me struggles with standing up to it because nothing is ever heard and nothing ever changes. I am prepared for both the best and the worst case scenario.
The person I am is not vindictive, honestly have a ton of compassion. This level of abuse, neglect and manipulation should be condemned and shunned as it could have resulted in my losing my life but I believe everyone deserves a second chance, if there is effort put in to fix what's broken. I would like a relationship with my mother but it's not up to me. I don't hate her, I have alot of work to do to fix myself because of everything but obviously it has also served me. But it ends here and it'll never be tolerated again.
The positive here is I will have a life of helping others heal. This life has been a torment but a weirdly beautiful one. Just happy to be here and happy to share. If you have read everything, just know it comes from a vulnerable place but the only way out is through.

I took four pickleball beginner lessons in May and played about 1-2 times a week outside of lessons. I’ve been playing about 5 weeks now. I just took a lesson for the “next step up” to learn how to do a third shot drop and dinking. My pickleball club offers open play for 1.5-4.5+ players. I went to the 1.5-2.0 level open play and most had only taken one lesson or had just picked up a paddle that day after watching some YouTube videos. I didn’t really enjoy it as most players couldn’t return a serve, or keep the ball in play, or some players who should clearly move into the next level would slam it down on the newbie players just to get a point and win. I found that behavior to be very unsportsmanlike since most were there to learn. I was also told to go up to 2.5-3.0 once most of my serves are in, I knew how to keep score, and knew the rules.
So I decided to go to a 2.5-3.0 open play, and if I had to guess, most are probably around the 2.75-3.0 level. A few would do well in 3.5 too. I was a little surprised to find out that most have been playing for 6 months - 1 year, and I kinda felt like I shouldn’t be playing with them after only playing for 5 weeks. I can keep a rally going and get good shots in, and I’m improving my game by playing them but I’m also not on their level yet (which I don’t expect to be). I do lose most of my games unless I’m paired with a better player than me, but I’m more focused on improving my game rather than winning. There are a few more close to my level of playing though. I kinda worry that I don’t belong in that level of playing yet, but I also don’t feel challenged in the 1.5-2.0 group.
So I guess my question is, as a beginner, is it better to play a level down or a level up if you feel you are between levels?

Server IP - mc.WarOfEitr.com

War of Eitr has been an ongoing project for me for some time now. I've been looking for a way to revive players' love for community-driven towny servers while bringing in enough new content to keep the server interesting. That's what brought about War of Eitr, a Survival RPG towny server.
The server will be split into 3 realms, Towny, RPG & The War. Although currently, only the Towny world is live. Once we're happy with this we will continue to work on the other realms.
🏡 Towns
💵 Jobs
🐲 Dungeons
🗡️ Custom Items
🧙‍♂️ Classes
Towny
This is the first realm and the one that will be open on launch is the Towny world, a relatively safe area where the main threats to players will be PvP from rival towns and rouge bandits. Players in the towny realm are free to mine, build anything from a small hamlet to a huge sprawling city and PvP anywhere they like.
MMORPG
This is a custom world, to be built entirely by the team. It will focus on a few questlines that help to build on the lore of the War of Eitr. Quests will reward players with currency, items and special weapons to use in other realms. The world will reward exploration with hidden dungeons and side quests. This realm will be in ongoing development for the life of the server bringing players new items, areas, quests and challenges.
To ensure that the server launches as quickly as possible this will be put on hold, to begin with, and instead will be replaced with challenging instanced scripted dungeons. Dungeons will be a lot more practical to create and will give more replayability to players by giving randomized difficulty ensuring loot for each run. Dungeons will have dynamic difficulty to ensure that different group sizes can run these dungeons.
The War
For now, our final realm and one that won't be seen on the server for a couple of updates. This is the server's war world. We will run time-based events on smaller prebuilt battlegrounds. Events will rotate between Town vs Town PvP battles, free-for-alls, PvE survival and many more. Participants and winners will receive unique rewards.

Anyone have a good experience with a set of wireless earbuds that isn't in-ear? I'm trying to find a brand to replace my 2nd gen airpods which were nearly perfect for my needs, but the key element I can't seem to find in any other models is open airflow. As a major disappointment, I can't wear in-ear monitors anymore for medical reasons, and those were the only model I found that hooks in between the tragus and anti-tragus instead of going inside and sealing off the ear canal. I work in them, so a lack of noise-cancelling is actually a big plus, and I need to be able to use one bud while the other charges. I also have a habit of sleeping in them, so a low profile is vital.
I'm looking to spend 100-200 at the most, with how easily I've found these to be lost/broken I'd like to imagine how I'd feel buying another set. They're mainly to be paired with a samsung phone as the source, so I rely on bluetooth a lot. I can't afford to be too picky, but I listen to a lot of classical and books so an even tonal balance is fine. Any help would be very much appreciated, since I can really only find IEM of decent quality.

tl;dr my interested are video games, music, hiking, traveling, and shenanigans I'm just a sleepy lil' critter from the East coast United States looking for some cowpokes who want to saddle up and embark on whatever conversation you'd like. I've been trophy hunting a couple of games lately, like Untitled Goose Game, Spyro Reignited, and the Batman Arkham games. I'm also back on my bullshit with questing in wizard101 (looking for that dream fire wizard death combo and I am the fire wizard), so if anyone is in the mood for some good questing, I just started the game again! I'll leave it at that for now, and I am an open book so it doesn't hurt to ask me stuff. Mostly looking for other silly folks over the age of 18. If I can make you feel comfortable and that's reciprocated, then that's a win in my book! Shoot me a chat :)

Server IP - mc.WarOfEitr.com

War of Eitr has been an ongoing project for me for some time now. I've been looking for a way to revive players' love for community-driven towny servers while bringing in enough new content to keep the server interesting. That's what brought about War of Eitr, a Survival RPG towny server.
The server will be split into 3 realms, Towny, RPG & The War. Although currently, only the Towny world is live. Once we're happy with this we will continue to work on the other realms.
🏡 Towns
💵 Jobs
🐲 Dungeons
🗡️ Custom Items
🧙‍♂️ Classes
Towny
This is the first realm and the one that will be open on launch is the Towny world, a relatively safe area where the main threats to players will be PvP from rival towns and rouge bandits. Players in the towny realm are free to mine, build anything from a small hamlet to a huge sprawling city and PvP anywhere they like.
MMORPG
This is a custom world, to be built entirely by the team. It will focus on a few questlines that help to build on the lore of the War of Eitr. Quests will reward players with currency, items and special weapons to use in other realms. The world will reward exploration with hidden dungeons and side quests. This realm will be in ongoing development for the life of the server bringing players new items, areas, quests and challenges.
To ensure that the server launches as quickly as possible this will be put on hold, to begin with, and instead will be replaced with challenging instanced scripted dungeons. Dungeons will be a lot more practical to create and will give more replayability to players by giving randomized difficulty ensuring loot for each run. Dungeons will have dynamic difficulty to ensure that different group sizes can run these dungeons.
The War
For now, our final realm and one that won't be seen on the server for a couple of updates. This is the server's war world. We will run time-based events on smaller prebuilt battlegrounds. Events will rotate between Town vs Town PvP battles, free-for-alls, PvE survival and many more. Participants and winners will receive unique rewards.

two games today. Both times i go to clear sites, wait for them to rotate and they just mindlessly push the last opponents alive and drop the bomb. I get angry. they shit on me because "i didnt push with them" when the play was clear and obvious, go to the fucking open site and plant the bomb. No. This goes on for a couple rounds. The mood in the team is gone. It's a 1v9 for me. No one plays with me. i get shot in the back or from the side 10 rounds out of 11 because i have to clear 1000 million corners and have eyes in my back. K/D is ass. And after all that: I get kicked and a FUCKING COOLDOWN.
That's the premium experience.
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If you play Unranked, 100% russian lobby, premute everyone because they wont talk english anyway.
Pay for premium, get kicked because you want to actually play the game.
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Wow. Never giving 1 cent to this site ever again. The CS community is not worth money. having a genuine fun lobby, like pro gamers do in FPL is an illusion that doesnt exist.

I have a LSI 9305-16i with 30 12tb across 2 supermicro sas3 enclosures. Over last weekend I have 2 drives error out on same enclosure, I swapped replacement drives in and rebuild was going painfully slow (eta 30 days) and in under a day the new drives would fail as well… so i thought maybe a cable is bad and today i opened up to reseat all the cables and upon touching hba is was burning hot… i pulled it out and let it cool off and finished reseating all cables. I buttoned the system back up and powered on and now it sees the HBA but no drives are being read… am I right to assume HBA is dead?
Each enclosure is double cabled and everything else functions. The HBA is the only common single point of failure.

I’ve been an AX2012/D365 FSC consultant for seven years now. I’ve done a lot of post go live support and a few small projects.
I’ve worked with a lot of well known companies on their day to day support issues. I am feeling so burned out by it. For a few years it felt like I was jumping from disaster to disaster, trying to help these clients with everything from batch job performance to complex inventory value accounting issues to EDI to customizations of every process under the sun. I’ve had to jump around through every module (commerce (also did a lot of ax2012 retail), fixed assets, G/L, production, ar, ap, budgeting, HR, workflows, dixf/data management) depending on what the client needed.
I really think the years of support have left me living in constant fear of what is going to go wrong next and dread at having to handle so many issues. I changed jobs twice last year after six years at my first company - first change was to a competitor doing the same job I had been doing, but I didn’t like that they wanted me to do a lot more code development. Then my old colleague recruited me to work as a solution architect on an e-commerce d365 integration project. That project got canceled after 6 months and now I’m about to be assigned another ecommerce integration project but this time it will just be me as both project manager and solution architect. I lost it at that point. I feel everywhere I turn it’s just more stress.
I am considering taking two months off just to get my head in the right space and then seek out a role as a senior business analyst at a client. A recruiter recently contacted me for a position like that but I turned down the chance to interview for it last month as I didn’t feel ready to switch jobs again. I wonder if I worked for the client and got to know their system really well if I wouldn’t feel so much stress. But I’ve seen lots of turnover at the clients I’ve worked with which makes me question if it is really better. I’ve also seen people go client-side and come back to consulting too.
Now I just don’t feel I can go on. It makes me sad because I know so much about dynamics at this point and I have had a lot of success with some clients. The last two jobs both told me they’d take me back anytime.
After seven years I also wonder if it’s just me taking things too seriously and being too hard on myself. I’ve been in therapy for years and tried several antidepressants. I’m doing a lot better than I was but I still feel a sense of dread at continuing to work in this industry. I wonder if this is just not a good fit for me anymore. I’d love to find a job still using my expertise and hard-won experience but with some way to manage the stress better. I get that we need to be continually learning but it has just felt like I’ve been constantly under the gun the last few years.
I’m scared to even post this, but I’m hoping maybe someone else out there has been where I am and can give me advice on how to proceed from here.

tl;dr my interested are video games, music, hiking, traveling, and shenanigans
I'm just a sleepy lil' critter from the East coast United States looking for some cowpokes who want to saddle up and embark on whatever conversation you'd like.
I've been trophy hunting a couple of games lately, like Untitled Goose Game, Spyro Reignited, and the Batman Arkham games. I'm also back on my bullshit with questing in wizard101 (looking for that dream fire wizard death combo and I am the fire wizard), so if anyone is in the mood for some good questing, I just started the game again!
I'll leave it at that for now, and I am an open book so it doesn't hurt to ask me stuff.
Mostly looking for other silly folks over the age of 18. If I can make you feel comfortable and that's reciprocated, then that's a win in my book! Shoot me a chat :)

Server IP - mc.WarOfEitr.com

War of Eitr has been an ongoing project for me for some time now. I've been looking for a way to revive players' love for community-driven towny servers while bringing in enough new content to keep the server interesting. That's what brought about War of Eitr, a Survival RPG towny server.
The server will be split into 3 realms, Towny, RPG & The War. Although currently, only the Towny world is live. Once we're happy with this we will continue to work on the other realms.
🏡 Towns
💵 Jobs
🐲 Dungeons
🗡️ Custom Items
🧙‍♂️ Classes
Towny
This is the first realm and the one that will be open on launch is the Towny world, a relatively safe area where the main threats to players will be PvP from rival towns and rouge bandits. Players in the towny realm are free to mine, build anything from a small hamlet to a huge sprawling city and PvP anywhere they like.
MMORPG
This is a custom world, to be built entirely by the team. It will focus on a few questlines that help to build on the lore of the War of Eitr. Quests will reward players with currency, items and special weapons to use in other realms. The world will reward exploration with hidden dungeons and side quests. This realm will be in ongoing development for the life of the server bringing players new items, areas, quests and challenges.
To ensure that the server launches as quickly as possible this will be put on hold, to begin with, and instead will be replaced with challenging instanced scripted dungeons. Dungeons will be a lot more practical to create and will give more replayability to players by giving randomized difficulty ensuring loot for each run. Dungeons will have dynamic difficulty to ensure that different group sizes can run these dungeons.
The War
For now, our final realm and one that won't be seen on the server for a couple of updates. This is the server's war world. We will run time-based events on smaller prebuilt battlegrounds. Events will rotate between Town vs Town PvP battles, free-for-alls, PvE survival and many more. Participants and winners will receive unique rewards.

ElidiMoon

Looking to tell cool stories with cool people
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 25+1d4
Timezone: BST

EXPERIENCE

3 years GMing & playing 5e, PbtA, OSR and more.

SKILLS

Creating Driven & Grounded Characters, Engaging with the Setting, Sharing the Spotlight, Creating Character Playlists.

INTERESTS

Roleplaying, Gaming, Comedy, Music, Writing.
Are you tired of prepping world-shattering events and reality-bending plots? Sick of high-level PCs stomping through your encounters? Look no further!
I'm an experienced roleplayer who loves both sincere drama and silly goofs, and I'm looking for a game that is less epic heroism and more slice-of-life adventures. This doesn't mean I don't still love a good lore doc, as I like to invest in the world I'm playing in. This can be 5e or any other system you want to run, I'm always open to trying something new!
If you have a group already and think I would be a good fit, great! Otherwise, I am happy to do all the admin of finding players and putting together a table so all you have to do is worry about the game.
What I'm looking for:

• Open communication and shared commitment.
• Room for humour and sincerity.
• A friendly environment and no bigotry.
• Discord preferred, webcams optional, VTT optional (theatre of the mind is fine!)
• A weekday afternoon/evening (GMT+1)

So if you're interested, please fill out this brief form and I'll speak to you soon!

AHHHHH YEAH! IT IS MY CAKE DAY! You know what that means right? It is time to "Treat Yo Self!"
I like silver, I like gold, and I love a good deal.... but this isn't one of those "WTB as close to spot as possible" posts. I am going to pay your full ask and I DO NOT WANT TO KNOW what I will get!
That's right! I am buying your goods sight unseen and trusting you to give me a fair deal. For this reason I will only be considering offers from sellers I know and trust.
You send me a price and maybe a teaser to entice me... I pay that price and send you my shipping info... simple as that!
Budget is $326.11 via PayPal and $190.00 via Venmo. I will update these as deals are made. Be warned I may wait a couple of hours to give everyone time to respond and work on my WTS, but don't worry I will settle up tonight.
I would say we should try to limit the price to $100-$150 (or up to $190) shipped so I can get a few packages.... but if it is like last time, then if someone has something enticing enough I may be up to blow out the entire budget on your package.
Those of you that know me know what I like, however I am swimming in ASE's right now so unless it is a very unique Ugly Betty we may want to hold off on those. Other than that I a pretty open. Some unique bullion for my desk, a new coin for my world album, maybe something to add to my 7070, I don't know... and I don't want to know, this is all for you to decide!
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ElidiMoon

Looking to tell cool stories with cool people
Pronouns: She/her
Age: 25+1d4
Timezone: BST

EXPERIENCE

3 years GMing & playing 5e, PbtA, OSR and more.

SKILLS

Creating Driven & Grounded Characters, Engaging with the Setting, Sharing the Spotlight, Creating Character Playlists.

INTERESTS

Roleplaying, Gaming, Comedy, Music, Writing.
Are you tired of prepping world-shattering events and reality-bending plots? Sick of high-level PCs stomping through your encounters? Look no further!
I'm an experienced roleplayer who loves both sincere drama and silly goofs, and I'm looking for a game that is less epic heroism and more slice-of-life adventures. This doesn't mean I don't still love a good lore doc, as I like to invest in the world I'm playing in. This can be 5e or any other system you want to run, I'm always open to trying something new!
If you have a group already and think I would be a good fit, great! Otherwise, I am happy to do all the admin of finding players and putting together a table so all you have to do is worry about the game.
What I'm looking for:

• Open communication and shared commitment.
• Room for humour and sincerity.
• A friendly environment and no bigotry.
• Discord preferred, webcams optional, VTT optional (theatre of the mind is fine!)
• A weekday afternoon/evening (GMT+1)

So if you're interested, please fill out this brief form and I'll speak to you soon!

Look I don’t know if you are posting anything for me or not I want to answer your questions if you have any but I don’t know if you are even asking any please but something in the title that I can recognize so we can stop with all of this letter confusion shit I mean I’ll try it like this
I think you asked how could I leave you like this ? Well I didn’t leave you you left me remember and I had never seen you the way you were for those last 2 weeks we lived together and so I figured you were just done I know how you bottle things up and then blow and with the few times you had spoken to me about the way I was treating you and you said nothing changed well all that just added up and made you fall out of love with me I wanted to fix it but I didn’t know how and you wouldn’t talk to me so I decided that you had made up your mind there was no changing it so I did the only thing I could do and that was to respect your wishes and not bother you about it cause it was just going to end up worse than it already was it’s not like I did it cause I didn’t want you I thought that I had made it clear that I wanted us to work it out and yes I loved you and still do this whole thing that has happened to us is nothing what so ever anything that I wanted not at all so please if you think or feel like I should have done something different then let me know but please don’t say to fight harder or beg you to stay cause I told you in the beginning that if someone doesn’t want to be with me then I’m not going to chase them in my opinion that is what kids do and yes I know that everyone wants to have that feeling of being chased but I didn’t even see an option for that you were very clear as to what you wanted
Now on a different note I do not have you blocked not a single place do I have you blocked everything is open face book phone text you are not blocked but when I call you it goes straight to voicemail I text you and it does turn green like if you had received and read it I even called you from moms phone and it did the same and on here I don’t know if you are seeing any of my post or if they are getting deleted I would like to talk just so we can be clear on a few things but it’s not a need
And I think you had asked were I stood on us and the only thing I can say at this moment is I might be open to it but I don’t really see the point cause I’m going to be gone soon I don’t know exactly when but it’s coming and there is nothing that can be done unless these pills help my heart to not over work itself if my heart was like it was I would say then let’s talk about what we need to do to get back together
Also I would like to ask you this Did you ever think that I was just needing some time to try to sort things out that was going on at that time that just cause I or anyone else seems distant it doesn’t mean that they are unhappy with you? I think that if I had done a better job of just letting you know that I needed some time to figure these problems out then maybe we wouldn’t be in this situation and at the same time and this is going to sound rude and I’m sorry I’m not meaning it to but these are the only words I can think of how to say it and that is that you could have also realized that not everything has to do with you.
The last thing is that I know that I made promises to you that I didn’t keep and I hope you can believe me when I say that when I made those promises I had every intention to follow through but sometimes things happen or get in our way sometimes we might just forget and other times we will keep the promises but it may take us longer to fulfill them then we first expected I doesn’t mean that I just straight up lied to you I am human and I do make mistakes as you know and yes sometimes well a lot of times I get mad or my feelings get hurt and I throw a fit and say and do things that I know I shouldn’t and honestly it’s almost like it’s out of my control I know it’s not but it does feel that way and I’am sorry for that you didn’t deserve that

If you want to play the game… - Was once breifly a millionaire (lost it all by the morning) - I have a tattoo of two koi fish on my leg - A fox once tried to eat me
Good conversationalists are actively encouraged! Hey is for horses, not conversation openers. Hit my up with a random or deeply intimate question, or a photo of a pet, or your favourite quote.
Bonus points if you attach a photo of yourself so I know you aren’t 🐈🎣-ing me.
Always thought people get along better based on mutual values rather than mutual interests, but heres my ever growing list of hobbies anyway:

• Gardening
• Kayaking
• Running
• Cycling
• Hiking and the great outdoors
• Nature
• Climbing/bouldering
• Reading (currently on Dune)
• Bullet journalling
• And other things I’m probably missing

Happy to chat on here, Discord, IG.
And in case you’re wondering, this is ✨what I look✨ like…

Is anyone else having an issue since the 1.20 update on realms where you join a realm and you can play for 5-10 minutes before your game starts to lag and then completely freeze? It's been happening to me since yesterday and every fix I've tried for the Xbox console doesn't seem to work. Also sometimes I unfreeze and I have some heart damage. I am completely frozen, like, I can't bring up the menu screen, can't open my inventory, move, or anything, and yet my console menu works fine, so I'm assuming its a game specific thing. All my other games work fine, its just doing this on minecraft realms. Anyone else know what is going on or how to fix this issue?
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Extra: I do not own or host the realm, I am just a player on it

Variety Streamer Looking to Grow
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Hi all, so I (F22) have this male friend (M24) that I keep having mixed feelings over. We’ve known each other for a few years because of our families but only started actually becoming friends last summer. As we started getting closer, I started feeling more attracted to him, and honestly there have been times where I felt like there might be at least some attraction from his side too. Both my parents, as well as his sister, have even commented/hinted that our relationship didn’t seem completely platonic to them. But the thing is, we’re just at such different points in our lives. I’m still new to the dating scene and very inexperienced, so I’m open to being more adventurous right now. But he’s had a lot of relationships already (including long term ones) and he’s kinda done with dating and ready to settle down. We’re also just soooo different from each other and have completely different goals in life (e.g. he wants to settle down and live in his home country forever, while I want to get more experience living in different countries). So rationally I know it would never work out, but I can’t help but still hold on to the hope of something happening someday and I keep replaying our memories together again and again in my head until we make new ones (because we live in different places). There’s also not really a way to distance myself from him until I get over these feelings because our families are so close (and not to mention how he’s basically best buds with my parents, since he currently goes to college in my native city while I don’t). Please can someone help me get over these feelings?

My best friend / chosen sister of 9 years is getting married this August. She's soliciting my feedback in planning the wedding, leaning on opinions about personal things like the dress, guests, etc. and even sought my approval of her fiancé before they got engaged. We hang out often, take each other into some consideration when making big life decisions, and turn to one another when we're struggling. I introduced her to her career path and reintroduced her to God. The fiancé and I are on great terms as well. I'm hurt to know she's already picked a maid of honor and I think it's reasonable to assume, two months before the wedding, that I won't be in the bridal party, won't be going to her bachelorette party, and at the wedding won't have much of an opportunity to get to know her and her fiancé's extended families.
I can see why it might be awkward: I'm trans and we live in Texas now; her family are Arab and most are fairly devout Muslims, and his are slightly-liberal-leaning white Texan, and I've only met her mother and stepsister. I wouldn't want to be a distraction at the wedding, and my friend is already having to deal with weird family dynamics around the wedding so I can totally see why it would not be worth the trouble. But I've been a groomsmaid where one side of the family was pretty socially conservative and I found anyone who was unnerved kept it to themselves.
I can also see why she might think I don't even want to be a bridesmaid: I moved to our city a year ago and have kept my life small and quiet, so my having little to share about my own relationships may come off as a disinterest in that element of our friendship. And until a few years ago, I would have a lot of trouble (social anxiety type trouble) meeting new people under certain conditions and make it a bad time for her. But we have seen + acknowledged a lot of growth in each other to the effect I take it for granted that she knows I'm now super open and extraverted, and love meeting, learning about, and celebrating people.
I really want to discuss it with her. Not necessarily to guilt her into making me a bridesmaid, but to level on things emotionally. That I expected to be a bridesmaid and that she didn't bring it up makes me think there's a big cognitive dissonance about how close we are and what we want out of the friendship.
I don't know if it's a good idea at all to bring up anything negative about her wedding. It's a day that hopefully only happens once, I don't want to open a dialogue that could hurt either of us leading up the wedding, and after the wedding I don't want to say anything that would make her look back on the day with regret. But I also see how it could be unhealthy not to bring up—I don't want to resent my best friend, the little big sister I never had.
In my shoes, would you bring it up? If you would, how and when?